Hi freinds 😊
I know everone are sad because our lovely show is ending , so thought of cheering you all by giving this OS ...This is least i can do to bring smile on your faces 😃
I hope you like it , let me know 😊
Ashuthosh
I am little; I am standing in my white pajama which is completely soaked in mud and dirt. I can feel bright sun shining above my head and whooshing sound of wind lulling in my ear. I dug my toes deep in dark soil of this fertile earth …When I look up, I see her... She is planting a guava tree in our backyard…As I make my way towards her; I pass through those plants which are blooming, flourishing with life …. When she finishes planting, I ask her "when will I get to eat guava "...She ruffle my hair and reply "in a while, when it grows "
I smile and sit there watching her, waiting for her and then she come over and takes my hand….I remember the feeling of this touch, I know her, I recognize her, I remember her …I remember her warm lap and those shining eyes. "Ashuthosh" her voice sweet and pleasant fill my heart with sudden happiness... Suddenly I stare at her and murmur in my sleep "Maa"….!
Nidhi, I always dreamed this, most of the time ….This started when I felt, for the first time...the touch of my baby, our baby...When I felt the tiny toes of my child curling in your womb…Those abrupt movements always opened up so many memories of my childhood, of my mother.
Year back, when I thought my whole world is falling apart, When I thought this time I will lose you for once and for all ..But you never left me..Instead you stood by my side like a pillar, trusting me…
Looking at your faith in me, Even the person who tried to manipulate and separate us accepted his defeat… I wondered, always..What have I done to deserve you? What would have been my life if you never came to my life..I cannot even imagine that!
It is during that time ,you came to me and snuggled into my arms...I still remember your shy eyes ,oozing with happiness when you whispered "I am pregnant ".a spark in my heart, new happiness in my eyes..When I stumbled to my knees …I tugged at your shoulder, cupped your cheeks, I smiled at you and then kissed you lightly..You snuggled in my arms asking for a cuddle, I felt your shyness and your happiness mingling with mine. I felt the butterfly beat of happiness churning in my tummy …I felt wonderful when I realized that a part of me took a root in you….I was overstuffed with emotions.
Nidhi ,There was nothing in my life which I could have collated and treasured as good memories ….I lost my parents when I was little and then baba left me too ….When baba left , there was this huge emptiness , An unkindly silence sucked inside my heart which no one could break . I worked hard, day and night...that was the only way to cope with the loneliness, and there was no where out ….Behind my back, I heard People calling me " Dr heart stone" , may be I was …"heart stone " for too long , until you came along ….!
Do you remember the first time we met? What a disaster it was …You fought with me, ready to pounce on me, it took all my energy to calm you down ….But when you left, I thought about you for a long time, I don't know why? But there was something in you, something which made me smile, feels happy every time whenever I crossed your path in those cold tiled corridors of KGH…
Nidhi, It is raining now, sound of fat droplets of rain is sounding like lullaby to our daughter..She like rain, just like we both do! I took her outside when it was drizzling slightly, her tiny fingers swayed and reached out to touch rain drops …I had to pull her back in my arms to stop her from slipping from my grip. ..You have to accept that, Sometime she is so much like you!
If you know, it was raining just like this, the night when I fell in love with you and when I realized that I am in love with you …both days it was pouring heavily!
That night sitting in my car, I saw you …that night I really saw you! Saw so much life in you; spilling out of you …I saw so much beauty, innocence in your eyes. Your kindness, your compassion, your inner strength amazed me, made me fall in love with you..You are very easy to love, do you know that? Even mallika who spitted venom, who disliked you so much, could not hate you for long ….That's how you are., that how my nidhi is , isn't it ?
Layers of boundaries guarded my heart, no one could break through it …But that night, I realized you have done that. …You saw straight through me, you understood each and every expression of my face …you understood my silence even before I voiced them! May be that is what scared me.. That's why I throwed you out of KGH ..I was scared that I might end up expressing my love towards you …I was scared that my love could hurt you …
I did not even realize when it happened or how? I realized the intensity of my love only when I throwed you out of KGH … I longed for you day after day , I missed you terribly but even in my misery I could think only about you , only about making your life safe and happy ….
May be I would have never told you! Nor we could have never met again, if Armaan and Rohan did not help us. I owe them my life for giving you, my life back to me. ..
But We both knew that we have to face thousand of hurdles, have to fight with whole world when time comes ….But when you asked me to leave you..It killed me! I did not know how to survive without you. May times I wished, that I should have died in that accident …leaving without you was unbearable for me. …But still I survived; we both crossed that road, memories of those days still send chill to my bones ….
It's ASHNI's sleep time now, from evening I am trying so hard to make her sleep but she is refusing...maybe she is waiting for you to come , just like me! I looked at Baba who is smiling at me because he knows that I am waiting for you….
How I got baba back in my life, is just like how I got my happiness again in my life …you gave both to me, my baba and happiness. …I was sitting alone when you came running to me and took me to baba ….it was after so many years I met him! And when I found him again ,I stammered , , I found my legs turning so weak as I collapsed in his arms …..
They say Happiness is the most natural feeling in this world but it is slowest, strangest most impossible thing if you don't have it …When your baba accepted our relationship , I sensed what real happiness meant ! It came straight from my heart...I stared at you the very instant and I smiled because I saw the same emotion etched on your face….
Those days when we got married, sangeeth where I followed you nervously as you guided me to dance; the moment when you accepted me as your husband …Those are happiest moments of my life…I know it your too .
Yes, as you said …"ASHNI" is so much like me but her eyes are yours. Here I am thinking deeply about you and She is staring straight at me … I pull her close and breath in, she smell of milk and innocence, she squeal when I cuddle her in my arms….Her giggles are so much like yours , it come straight from heart and reach mine with such warmth ….
You giggled just like this when for the first time; I cuddled you in my arms ….that night when moon was bright. You took me along with you, to a different world where only we both exist and our love …your soft lips pressing softly on mine as I caressed you and kissed like there is no end …that night,I wanted to get rid of everything which is coming between us .your trembling fingers tugging the collar my shirt only indication that you were nervous …I murmured your name again and again as you helped me to undress …I was so aware of each and every touch of yours , it sent thousands of emotions bustling through my heart …I felt so alive , when you stared at me with so much love and I murmured " I want you" ..Your eyes flickered downward and your lips curved to form a small smile as you pressed your lips firmly on mine to pull me back to you …. Later I stayed awake for a long time, watching you sleep in my arms….you skin was glowing under bright moon light and I saw you smile even in your sleep….
those were happy days , we had so many happy days but still there were days which turned our world upside down …may be because of my ego or sometime too many emotions which suppressed our love …I was so unfair to you all those time , when mallika tried to separate us I did not trusted you . I trusted her more than you …. They say, you should marry your good friend to lead good marriage. We both were lovers before we became friends..Even though I loved you dearly, I took so much time to open myself completely to you and you also felt the same...maybe that's why, you never mentioned about Rohan's sudden disappearance? Nor about his letter to me….! Is it lack of trust or fear that I might misunderstand? So many times, I thought of asking you but I could not ….
There were so many situation forced on us which turned our world upside down, there were so many days where I thought I might lose you but you never left me not I let you leave me …everyone thought our marriage will not work, considering our age gap but we showed them that they are wrong …it's our ultimate faith in each other, and in our love which saved our relation….What can I say to you for coming into my life , for trusting me , for loving me, for accepting me completely as a person …All I can say is I will always love you, forever and ever
ASHNI is sleeping now, I caress her thick dark air and kiss her softly on her dimpled cheek .she stir but again go back to sleep. She is 8 months old today , I still remember the day when you lied down in labor room waiting for our baby to come along, you whispered in my ear, you asked for me to promise that I will always smile and be happy, that I will take care of our baby even if something happen to you …Till that time, all the strength which I was mustering collapsed when I heard you said that, I clutched your fingers tightly as you cried in pain…. It was for few minutes then when we both heard first cry of our daughter, I saw you smiling even in pain ….I saw that all your exhaustion and pain just disappeared when I placed her in your arms.
when I look at her sleeping figure, sometime she look so much like you but sometime she look like me ….sometime she look altogether different like my mother whom I forgotten long back … I find my lost childhood in her giggles and toothless grin. But when I see both of you together, . I feel all those emptiness dissolving replacing with new joy
I turn around because, I hear you coming back to me , to our home ….I smile at you as you stare at me and our daughter … I walk towards you as you take my hand . You wait there for second and then you whisper just for me to hear " I am home "
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