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Chapter 6: Ashu

I'm at her doorstep ringing the bell. No one answers. Feeling disappointed, I turn around to leave when I hear the sound of the door click open. "Anji, what are you doing here this…." and she stops short. I turn around slowly. Mistake, Ashu, big mistake! I take one look at her and my heart starts hammering in my chest! I feel like I've been punched in the stomach by a 600 pound gorilla! Her hair is wet from a recent shower, its cascading over her shoulders. She has on an old faded T-shirt and capris. Her legs are bare. Droplets of water are glistening on her cheeks. Her T-shirt is a little damp from her wet hair. She looks HOT and SEXY and completely desirable! Her soft lips are trembling, she bites her lip nervously.. and I'm a goner!! Holy Mother of God!!! I'm melting in a hot pool of desire.. I'm drowning.. I'm in so deep that it takes me superhuman effort to keep from pulling her into my arms. The blood is pounding in my veins…my pulse is throbbing painfully. I'm aching to hold her, to kiss her.. I feel like I'd die if I don't touch her! My breath is coming in short gasps now and I'm clenching my fists hard! What is she doing to me? I'm stunned by the magic she weaves on me… She looks at me strangely, there's something deep in those lovely eyes.. a new look that I haven't seen before. She's looking at me differently too. My mouth moves without a sound. She's the first to break the silence. "Dr Ashutosh, won't you come in?" The spell is broken.

I find my voice at last. "Uh no, I, uh, uh.." I'm stammering like an idiot. I suddenly remember the forgotten bag, the reason I am here. I stretch it out to her. "I came to return this".. I say stupidly. I was behaving like a high school student on his first crush.. all that was left was to hang my tongue out and drool. I suddenly feel disgusted with myself. "I have to go". I turn around and rush to the car. I feel like I'm in the middle of a tornado and need to escape. The whirlpool of emotions were threatening to consume me…For Chrissake, Ashu, you're drooling over a young girl like a hormonally challenged teenager! What's wrong with you??? Ok, take a deep breath now, calm down. I close my eyes and rest my head on the steering wheel. I need some kind of therapy!! What was the matter with me??

Without turning to look back, I reverse the car and head home. I am lost in thought. This whole thing is beginning to get out hand. I can't control my emotions around her and I need to do something about it fast, before I embarrass myself and her by doing something stupid like kissing her or something! Oh God, Help! Okay, Ashu, my inner voice tells me… only one thing to do. You gotta start avoiding this girl like the plague. That's the only therapy for you now. She's become like an addiction, a drug that you cannot get enough of. The only way to get her out of your system is by Cold Turkey!! This induced, heightened sense of euphoria needs to die down. You need to get back to ground reality, my friend!'

That is what I'm going to do.. Avoid her! So simple! She's around me all the time in the hospital.. and I have been making every effort to be around her. That's why this intense reaction. But now things are gonna change, I rationalize. I'll get Mallika to fix the OPD charts so she doesn't assist. I'll get that other Dr.. whats her name? Priyanka? or that young fellow..um, yeah, Dr Avinash to assist me in OPDs. And for my surgeries too. Sound plan, Ashu! I immediately feel better. A nagging feeling at the back of mind is trying to tell me it isn't going to be that easy to get her out of my mind. I brush the nagging thought aside.

It's been more than a week and I've hardly seen her. My plan is in action and she isn't on any of my OPDs or surgeries. But the plan isn't working. My thoughts still revolve around her. I find myself dreaming about her, her smile, her beautiful hair, her little nuances, the way she pushes her hair back behind her ear, the way she bites her lip when she's nervous.. Oh God, .. my throat constricts, my mouth dries..I feel a rush of emotion.. tenderness? Its nothing, I reassure myself, only withdrawal symptoms. It takes time for any man to get over an addiction.,..and she's been a heady one for you, Ashu! Oh.. I'm soo good at deluding myself.. I should be given a Nobel prize!! My inner voice is mocking me now. I throw myself headlong in work hoping the crazy hours and lack of sleep will help take my mind off her.

Please, please be generous with the hits on the like button!!! And your comments, of course!!! 😉

Wow ...double Wow...Lizzie...u r outdoing urself...pls do continue...eagerly waiting for the next chapter as much as i wait for the next episode!!!!

MY GOD i m speechless...its fantastic...its way better than KTLK...hope rajan shahi hires you..trp will rise drastically...😊

Thanks everyone for your likes! Will update more soon!! I'm enjoying making my own AshNi moments!!! 😳😛 Its sooo much fun!!

liz you outdid yourself👏. looking forward to reading more.

Speechless...your posts are so addictive😳...so keep posting dear😃

absolutely beautiful and tugs at your heart...you really went inside his head and i think right now in the show these are the feelings Ashu is going thru...there's no need for me to write any story now...ur doing it perfectly and with attention to all the details...the feelings he has for her are beautiful and natural...love it. great job. keep it coming...I loved that he saw her with wet hair and wanted to kiss her...awww poor Ashu is so in love...

Originally posted by: yanks28

absolutely beautiful and tugs at your heart...you really went inside his head and i think right now in the show these are the feelings Ashu is going thru...there's no need for me to write any story now...ur doing it perfectly and with attention to all the details...the feelings he has for her are beautiful and natural...love it. great job. keep it coming...I loved that he saw her with wet hair and wanted to kiss her...awww poor Ashu is so in love...

Lizzie great job girl!! Thanks for the pm too I hardly come on IF so it was a lovely surprise that you've continued beyond chapter 5!!! it was a beautiful insight into Ashu's emotions, the way his feelings consume him is very interesting to read especially as Nidhi has no idea the effect she has on him...and the ironic idea that out of sight out of mind obviously has no impact on him...can't wait for the next read :D