Are You Ready?
"
Yeh Mr. Obodhro bhi na," Sonakshi murmured underneath her breath as she got out of the taxi. Her long deep red dress swept across her feet as her silver earrings hung heavy, weighing her head down. "
Ek kaam bhi daang se ni hota. Kudh mujhse kehte hai aaj raat hamari special date hogi," She begins complaining out loud as she walks up the steps to
Ishwari Communications. "
tayar hoke rehna. Aur sahib zaide ko dekhiye. Raat ke gyaara baaja diye. Time ki naa, inhe koi kadar hi nahi hai."
Pressing the button for the top floor, Sonakshi taps her foot impatiently as the elevator doors close on her. Her arms crossed, and her nose fuming with anger, she starts listing out a tirade of various reasons that had been pestering her as of late. Funny enough, her Mr. Obodhro comprised more than half.
Without bothering to knock on the door, Sonakshi marched into Dev's office. Normally, Tina would have stopped her and paraded her with a million and one restrictions with her sweet voice. But seeing as nearly all the employees had left for home almost three hours ago, Sonakshi strode in with confidence and extreme power.
Looking up from his file, Dev's mouth hung open.
"Oh, shit!" He silently exclaimed, dropping his pen, and falling back against the chair, his hands hitting his forehead.
"Yeah, you do that." Sonakshi said, condoning the slap to his forehead.
"I'm so sorry Shona," Dev apologizes standing up. His chair spins and hits against the wall from his force.
"Oh please Mr. Dixit, why are you standing up?" Sonakshi asks in a high voice, walking towards him with her hands before her. Gesturing towards his black chair, she says, "Please, sit down. After all, you are a very busy man."
Sonakshi stands behind the black leather chair and waits for an open jaw Dev to obey.
"Sonakshi," He tries again but is interrupted with a harsh, "Sit" from her.
Dev, with a small pout on his face, sits down and waits for Sonakshi to deliver her punishment. His eyes trail her as she walks back and forth in front of his desk, her arms crossed tightly across her bosom.
Stopping abruptly, she faces him to say, "Tumhi na Mr. Dixit, ek dum impossible. Koi aisa karta hai kya?"
Dev remaining silent, lowered his eyes, and extended his bottom lip out in a deep frown.
"Stop that." She commands, a strong finger pointing sharp at him.
"Ab meine kya kiya?" He asks, exasperated.
His hands extended themselves as he subconsciously surrendered himself to her.
"That, that face." Sonakshi explained, bringing her finger down to rejoin her crossed arms. "Stop it. Your puppy face isn't going to work on me."
"But it always does." Dev muttered to himself, interlocking his fingers and sitting them on top of his desk.
"What did you say?" Sonakshi asked with piercing eyes.
Covering up, Dev said, "Nothing. I was just saying, I'm sorry." He finished with another deep frown. "I got so caught up with work that I lost track of time."
"Why are you being sorry? No, Mr. Dixit," Sonakshi feigned being okay and swiveled the chair before her so that she could take a seat. "I'm the one who should be sorry. I'm sorry that I fell in love with you. I'm sorry that I had to wait for the past four hours wondering when my one and only boyfriend will come and pick me up." Dev's eyebrows rose. "I'm sorry that I bought this dress specially for this date so that you could appreciate how much effort I put into looking extra nice for you today. Why are you being sorry? I'm the one who's sorry." Sonakshi huffed when she was finished.
After a moment of silence, leaning closer to her, Dev asked, "I am your one and only nah?"
"Dev!" Sonakshi yells out in frustration.
Both bolting out of their seats, Dev rushes towards Sonakshi to prevent her from leaving the room. Standing in front of the wooden paneled door, Dev smiles triumphantly. There was no way he was letting his lady love leave all angered.
"Sonakshi," He says putting his hands on her shoulders.
She swats them away.
"Ehh, Sonakshi," He calls again, putting his hands back on her shoulders.
Before she could shove them away once more, he firms his hold on her.
"Eh, Shona," He smiles at the deep angered lines that etched themselves into her forehead. "Look at me."
Sonakshi crosses her arms once more and grits her teeth, refusing to look at him.
"Fine." Dev shrugs his shoulder, acting nonchalant. "Then I guess I won't give you your gift." He says as he walks away from Sonakshi and back towards his desk.
Sonakshi's arms loosened and her eyebrows raised up at the prospect of getting a gift. She contemplated on leaving the office and making her point, but then she also thought about the pending gift that Dev has hidden from her. Knowing him, he'll either give it to Tina or Nikki, Neha or Rhea or he'll re-gift to her on some other special occasion claiming to have known about the special moment all along. Like last time he did on her birthday. Said he remembered and knew about it all along but she got the biggest surprise when she found his closet to be full of unopened gifts all labeled for Sonakshi. When she had asked Tina about it (because he obviously doesn't do his own shopping), she had told her that Dev had requested her to buy a gift for every occasion possible. That too on an unlimited budget!
Sonakshi rolled her eyes and took a deep sigh.
With anger still written all over her face, Sonakshi stomped towards him and extended her hand out with the palm facing upwards. Standing rigid she waited for him to plant his gift in the palms of her hand but no such thing happened. Rather, he carried on browsing through his file not even acknowledging her presence. Her eyes growing wide open, she looked at her empty palm and then at him.
She put her hand in front of his eyes and he swatted it away. She put it back and he hit it again. Stubborn, she put it back and this time Dev gave her a low-five before swiveling his chair around, taking the file with him.
Her eyes growing even wider, she looks back at her palm and then at the back of Dev's chair wondering when did the tables turn. Spinning the chair around, she extended her hand out again, her eyes becoming watery from setting her jaw for so long.
Taking her by surprise, Dev threw the file onto the desk, grabbed her extended hand and pulled her towards him. Crashing into him, the chair slid backwards until they hit the edge of a potted plant. Eliciting a shriek and grabbing hold of Dev's collar for support, Sonakshi had squeezed her eyes while Dev had just smiled at her act. He hadn't even bothered to tell her to let go after a full minute had passed by since they had stopped. It was until Sonakshi had peeked through one eye that she had noticed their station.
"We stopped?" She asks, opening both eyes and sitting up.
"Long time." Dev answers, wrapping both arms around her.
"Let me go." She says, trying to break out of his hold but Dev had interlocked his fingers behind her and had them press into her back.
He shook his head to which Sonakshi looked at with a frown.
"Kyun?"
"Abhi mood ni hai."
"Toh apne mood ko teekh karo aur mujhe jaane do. Raat ke baara bajne wale hai aur mujhe ghar bhi jaana hai."
Looking incredulously at her, Dev replies, "Toh aap ko kisne kaha tha itne dher raat ko mere paas aane ke liye Ms. Bose? Aap ghar par bhi reh sakti thi."
Getting caught Sonakshi fumbles.
"W-woh," Dev's eyebrows raised high as he awaited for her comeback. "Woh mein..."
"Just say you wanted to be with me tonight." Dev offered huskily, his eyes roaming over her face.
He didn't fail to notice the way a deep crimson flushed its way onto her cheeks or the way her eyelashes lowered to hide the embarrassment in her eyes. Nor did he fail to notice the way her breaths came out in long, deep successions or the way her throat would make bob out and then back in as she would swallow down her saliva in nervousness. The longer he stared at her throat, Dev's nonchalant attitude dropped and his desire began to consume his senses. The want to lap up the length of her throat with his tongue and feel the vibrations that are caused by her groans and her moans deepened.
He reached out and removed a lock of her hair that had fallen over her face. Holding all of her hair in one hand, he tugged at it so that her neck tilted up and he could see her neck more clearly.
"Dev," Sonakshi spoke but his entire attention become consumed by the way her throat moved around his name.
"Say it again," He requested. "Say my name again." He placed his hands on either side of her neck and tilted her head up even further so that all he was her throat.
"Dev," She obeyed, her hands resting on his knees for support.
Dev let out a small chuckle as he saw the way her windpipe moved against her skin when she spoke his name. He placed his lips against where her windpipe was approximately located and commanded her to say his name again.
Taking a deep breath, Sonakshi moaned, "Dev."
Growling, and nipping at her throat, Dev pulled her face down for a hard and rough kiss. Sonakshi's hands went out to grab Dev's shoulders. She may have tried to pull away from him due to the anger that was still lingering in her but that soon disappeared when he inserted his tongue inside her. As it roamed around the deep cavities, Sonakshi melted in his arms, all her anger and frustration disappearing.
Dev finally let her go with a long pull at her bottom lip, letting a loud smack echo around the room. He moved the locks that were falling on her face once again and stared deeply into her eyes.
"You're so hot." He whispered to which Sonakshi blushed and averted her eyes. "Hey," He nudged her so that she was facing him, "do you know that? The way your face just.. glows after I kiss you," He presses his thumb over her bottom lip and spreads the lipstick. "The way it becomes so wet, so swollen and bruised." He swallows. "It's like, it's like it screams out my name. Every wet drop has me written all over it."
Sonakshi closes her eyes and swallows, her fingers digging deep into his inner thigh. Having his hand tangled in her hair, he tilts her head so that he could have a different access to her neck.
As he starts littering her neck with kisses, nips and quick bites, she asked him, "What else did you notice?"
With a wicked grin he answered, "You're wearing a new dress."
Sonakshi's smile sets into a straight line as she rebukes him. "I told you that."
"But you didn't tell me there's a zipper at the back." He whispered against her hair, blowing them with his breath.
Sonakshi gasped as he slowly unzipped her dress, letting her long, cool tresses to hit her warm back.
"You're also wearing a new perfume." He added, taking a deep breath. "It's the one I bought for you from France." Sonakshi hummed in affirmation as he trailed a finger down the expanse of the newly exposed flesh. "It's the one from the ad you hate." Sonakshi scrunched her eyebrows, her eyes still closed. "The one where you complained about perfume ads selling sex rather than the product itself." He laughed in her ear as she blushed even more. "Well Ms. Bose now you know that their product's sole motive is to sell sex." He spoke softly and hungrily in her ear.
Sonakshi shivered in his arms from the wave of goosebumps that racked her body. She had turned around to leave, but Dev pulled her back so that she crashed into him. Her open back impressed itself into his shirt buttons, the rough texture of his shirt and coat sending a new sensation through her.
"But we're not going to have sex, are we Mr. Dixit?" Sonakshi asked as he nudged his nose against the side of her temple and inhaled her scent.
"Whenever you're ready Ms. Bose." He replied, his eyes closed, feeling her with all his other senses.
"Are you ready?" Sonakshi asked, pressing her cheek into his jaw.
"The more I get to know you." He answers, squeezing her and placing a soft kiss on her shoulder.
"Have you ever wanted to while I was with you?" Sonakshi asked, looking up at him.
After a moment, he answered, "Yeah."
"When?"
He blinked a few times trying to remember the first time he had wanted to become intimate with her. It wasn't the physical pleasure he was after. He wasn't lusting for her or a woman's body. If it was simply sex that he had wanted, he could have gone to many other women or continued to relieve himself as he has started to do every morning now. No, it wasn't simply sex that he wanted from Sonakshi. What he wanted was to be intimate with her. To be close to her in a way that no man ever has or ever will with her. He wanted to know her better than she knows herself. Know what she likes or dislikes, what gives her the most pleasure, to be able to see her in a state of ecstasy. He wanted to witness and experience her every moan and groan and sigh and squeak and giggle. He simply wanted to be with her.
"Dev?" Sonakshi distracts him from his pondering with a soft touch on his chest. "I'm sorry if it got too personal.." She trailed off embarrassed in not knowing she had unintentionally crossed a line.
Shaking his head and with a smile, he dismissed her embarrassment. "Don't be silly." Squeezing her shoulders, he gave her a side hug. "I was just thinking about you."
"Oh? What were you think about?"
"How much I want to be with you." He replies, pressing his lips to her shoulder and swaying them both in an amiable nature.
With a soft smile, she laughs.
"Would you like to share?"
"Not yet. Some other day." Dev fended.
"Okay." Sonakshi acquiesced.
With another squeeze, Dev responded, "I promise I'll tell you. Just not right now."
"That's fine Dev."
"Have you thought about how much you want to be with me?" He asked after a few moments.
"If I didn't want to be with you, I wouldn't have come here this late." Sonakshi said, nudging her nose against the underneath of his jaw.
"True." He chuckled, "But that's not what I meant."
"Then?"
"You know what."
"Sex?"
"Hmm.." He trailed off, taking a deep breath.
Holding his hand in hers, Sonakshi looked at the way their fingers interlocked with each other.
"I don't know, to be honest. I never, thought of it." She scrunched her brows. "I mean," Shaking her head, "It has never crossed my mind. Whenever I'm with you, I sort of just go with the flow." Looking up at him, "Do you know what I mean?"
Dev nodded in affirmation.
"I mean just a few minutes ago you were kissing me like you would never get to be with me again and now here we are talking about having sex. I don't think it ever crossed our mind, has it?"
Dev thought about it for a while before he answered.
"No, I don't think so. I mean, sex was never a real thing with me before. It was just work, work and work. Mom came first and then my sisters and then rest of the family. But self-pleasure, especially through a simple act like sex.. it never crossed my mind. It was never an option before."
"So you've never, ever reacted to someone before?" Sonakshi asked, not quite believing that Dev had never been attracted to someone at least at an anatomical level.
"Well," Dev pouted as he thought hard about it. "no, I don't think so. I think I just tuned people out in that sense. I just looked at them as to what they could offer me." When Sonakshi raised her eyebrows, Dev clarified, "I mean in terms of their business skills not like that."
Sonakshi laughed seeing Dev's face go red.
"What about you? Have you ever been attracted to someone before?" Dev asked, wrapping his arms around her again.
"Of course." Sonakshi replied instantly, making Dev's face fall.
"You have?"
"Well yeah. I mean, there's a reason why I watch so many romantic movies Dev." She blushed.
"You're sexually attracted to Shahrukh Khan?" Dev asked in a dead pan voice.
"What? No!" Sonakshi exclaimed. "N-no! I'm not sexually attracted to Shahrukh Khan. That's not even the point." She defended. "I like his movies because they're usually romantic. That doesn't mean I'm attracted to him. I'm just attracted to the love stories he portrays. Stop being so jealous of a famous movie star."
"Mein kaha jealous hora hoon." Dev defended with a fallen face. "Tum khudh lagi ho uski sau baatein karne mein. Zyaada safayi do gi na toh dal utni hi kaali nikli gi."
She swatted him against the chest and got up from his lap to stretch herself. Getting up himself, Dev shifted Sonakshi's hair so that he could zip up her dress. Walking towards the sofa, they take off their shoes and settle themselves in. With Sonakshi resting in front of Dev, she cuddled into him as he pulled her closer into his arms.
"Won't your parents get mad that you're coming so late?" Dev asked.
"They would. But I told them that I'm staying over at a friend's house." Sonakshi replied.
"Oooh, Dr. Bose is lying now? Should I be worried?" Dev teased.
"No," She replied, hitting him lightly. "I have a friend who's going to be getting married soon. She told me to come over for a few days and I said I will. Starting tonight." She added, hugging him and inserting her legs between his.
Hugging her tighter, Dev lightly rubbed his feet against hers.
"Shona,"
"Hmm."
He contemplated on asking her if she ever thought of being intimate with him but then thought again.
"Pucho na." She encouraged.
"No, leave it." He dismissed.
Exhaling, she asked, "Is it about sex again?"
Dev looked down at her, "Can you read minds?"
Smiling, "No, just yours. Ask what you need to." She said, playing with a button on his shirt.
"Have you, have you ever thought of being with me? In that sense?"
Sonakshi remained quiet as she twirled the white button underneath her fingers.
"No." She answered finally. She felt Dev's body going rigid underneath her. "It just, never occurred to me." She began clarifying. "It's like I had said before, when I'm with you, I sort of just go with the flow. I don't really think much of what's going on. I trust you with myself to know that I'm going to be in safe hands."
"So, if I were to make you mine right now, would you let me?" Sonakshi looked up at him trying to discern whether he was merely asking hypothetically or if he was asking to act out his desires in that very moment. She opened her mouth to say something, but no words came out.
Dev lowered himself so that he could rest himself above her and kissed her lightly. Keeping his eyes locked on her, he kissed her again. And again. And again.
He kept kissing her, increasing the duration and the intensity until he could feel himself pressing hard against her.
"Tell me Shona," He whispered against her collar bone. "What would you do?" He huffed a hot breath, threatening to breach against her bosom. "Would you let me?"
"I-I don't know." Sonakshi breathed out, lifting his head up from her cleavage so that he could look at her.
Seeing her watery eyes, Dev shook his head and held her face.
"Hey, why are you crying?" He tried to console her.
"You want it so bad and I..." She broke off, afraid she'll actually start crying.
"Don't be silly." He said wiping the small tears that spilled from her face. "I want you but not against your will. If you're not ready, then that's totally fine."
"But how can I not know?" She held his wrist as she tried to compose herself. "I love you and want to be with you, so how can I not know if I want to," She broke off again, berating herself.
"It happens Sona. It just means you're not ready yet. When you are, you'll just know. I don't want you to do something while you're still unsure and then regret it after. I don't want your first time to be an event that you regret." He said softly, rubbing his thumb over her cheek.
"Our first time." Sonakshi corrected. "My first time is going to be with you." She said with a strong conviction sending her tears back inside her body. "I'm sure of it." She resolves her words with a sharp and deep kiss that she plants on his lips by tugging his head closer towards her.
With each movement of the lips, she affirmed her love for him and made a silent promise that one day the day will come when she will be ready for him in the intimate manner that he desires. But before that day arrives, she will continue to love him in the way that she knows how. By being there for him whenever he needs her.
As she breaks off the kiss, she lightly presses her knee against his inner thigh. Judging from the way his pupils dilated in shock, she had definitely grabbed his attention. Rising from underneath him, Sonakshi made Dev lie down on the sofa so that she could rest on top of him. A wild and new excitement coursing through their veins, Sonakshi ran a hand down Dev's chest while he looked in wonderment.
"Sonakshi, a-are you sure?" He asked, wanting to be absolutely sure that Sonakshi was on board with what she was about to do.
Nodding her head, Sonakshi bent down to kiss him while reaching for his buttons to open them.
Their soft kisses, his loud moans and growls, her nails imprinting themselves in his skin, and many more intimate acts got lost behind the four walls.
They didn't go as far as having sex that night, but the strong release that Dev had experienced will forever be remembered.