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As Karan guided Arohi into his room, Arjun could not take it any longer.....He was angry and rightly so....despite of asking her to not to go to the party, making sure she does not drink the mocktail and keeping an eye on her all evening he could not save her from this beast! It was his fault...his negligence that had led to this and thus he would have to get things right from here....Mad from anger he rushed towards the door that Karan had closed behind them... his grip tightening around the revolver he had picked on his way!
"Huhh.." He was slightly pushed back by Karan who apparently was coming out of the door...Shocked at the unexpected turn of events he carefully hid the revolver behind his back and tried to make a straight face...his eyes searching for Arohi in the background..."Array Arjun tum!" Karan was naturally surprised to bump into him. "ahemm...." Arjun choked slightly as he continued "Yeah...I just saw you going up with her so thought of....errmmm" Arjun was out of ideas and words...."Haan yaar is ne to saara plan hi chopat kar dia hai....jo Arohi ne karna tha woh to Mallika kar rahy hai..." Karan looked down at Mallika and than back at Arohi sitting almost unconciously on the couch and shook his head in disgust...Arjun followed his gaze perplexed at what was going on. Karan almost pushed him to a side and motioned him to come close "Hey....Listen" He almost whispered in his ears..."Yahan sub muamla garbar ho gaya hai...woh Ganpat hai na...uski to main" Karan looked furiuos "tujhe pata hai us ne Arohi ko bata dia hai kai tu nai us ko headache ki dawa ki jaga party drug dene ko kaha tha." "What!!" Arjun could not hold back his shock...So it was actually his own fault...I chose the wrong waiter to give her the pills putting two and two together, Arjun came to the right conclusion. Karan was still talking to him "....you dont worry! us ko to main sambhaal loon ga but now the problem is Arohi..." he looked back at her "lagta hai goli ka kuch ziada hi asar ho gaya hai..." he muttered to himself "dekh Arjun humain Arohi ko yahan sai nikalna ho ga..you can see there are many industry bigshots here...and I dont want them to find out she got drugged...yeh kissi waqt bhi hosh main aa kar sab bol dai gi and we will get into trouble" he looked at Arjun "tum samajh rahe ho na?" "hmmm haan..." Arjun still could not believe what he thought of Karan was not true at all..."Ok partner so the plan is that you will take her home without anyone knowing it and I will handle everything here...uski behn bhi yahin haina...we have to make sure she stays here a little longer so that once Arohi is home only than Sur leaves" Karan signals Abhay "Just tell her I have arranged for Arohi to meet Bhavan Kumar ji and than we will send her back home directly from there...make sure she stays for another hour or two" Abhay noded and went downstairs as Karan looked back at Arjun "Hey dont worry" he patted him on his shoulder "just take her home..." As Arjun took a step towards the room Karan stopped him once again "and hey....take my car " he placed his keys in Arjun's hands and went downstairs.
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Arjun lifted Arohi and took her to the car from the backside door...She was still dizzy and unaware of his presence...As he drove away from Karan's house he heaved a sigh of relief...Arohi was still muttering in pain "ahhh mera sir"...Arjun looked at her over his shoulder and slightly rubbed her cheek "sub theek ho jaye ga...i will just take you home" he said softly. Arohi slightly turned her head and tried to focus on him..."kia kar rahe ho...Arju....TUM" she tried to sit straight as she looked at him bewildered...."Gaari roko" she demanded. "Dekho Arohi main tumhain ghar lai kar...." He tried to explain but she was in no mood to listen to him... "Arjun main keh rahy hoon gaari roko warna"...as she took hold of the door handle Arjun had to bring the car to a stop ....She rushed out of the car and tried to walk in the opposite direction only to loose her balance yet again as Arjun came to hold her from falling down "Dont touch me" she backed off holding on to her head "Tum....Tum aisa soch bhi kaise sakte ho....don't you dare take a step towards me" she shouted yet again as Arjun tried to approach her..."mujhe .... mujhe us waiter nai sab bata dia hai..." The tears began to form around the corners of her eyes..."dekho Arohi...tumharee halath theek nahin hai...just...just get in the car...i will take you home..." he once again tried to hold her just to hear her scream "Just leave me alone....do you get that...." and the tears began to roll as she murmered a softer "just leave me alone" she wiped her tears and continued "You know what...Mr. Arjun Punj...mera pyaar to kia tum to meri nafrat bhi deserve nahin karte ho..." and to his surprise she came forward and grabbed his collars "suna tum ne....you dont even deserve to be hated!" She stood there, with her pale disdainful eyes upon him....he could see the pain...it was there because of him...he wanted to run away from her but he just could not...the tears still rolling down from her stoner-red eyes...They held him paralyzed... he kept staring into those dark eyes where he could so clearly see the past....It haunted him! He wanted to wipe off those tears but than he knew very well she would never let him do that...he tried to take a step back but she held him strongly enough and to his surprise he hearda softer "Why Arjun....why?" still crying as if her heart would break "main khush thi...meray pass sub kuch to tha" she continued with a pale smile as her grip slightly loosened..."phir tum meri zindagi main aayay aur mujhe laga ki" she tried to search for words "mujhe laga ki mujhe meri dunia mil gayee hai" she sobbed bitterly "mujhe nahin pata tha ki jis ko main apni zindagi ki sab se badi sachayee samajh rahy thi woh tumhare liye aik khel tha...mujhe khud sai nafrat ho gayee hai Arjun" she choked "mujhe...zindagi sai nafrat ho gayee hai" she looked straight into his eyes and demanded "kia tum mujhe meri zindagi wapas dai sakte ho?" Her expressions changed. Her chin began to quiver and her eyes welled up . He wasn't sure how to react. Arohi was always the strong one. But today he saw a side of her he hadn't seen. She had broken down to the point she lost control of herself. She was the same girl who had the most beautiful smile in the whole world....those were the same eyes which spoke volumes when he looked into them...but today they were dead...her smile was lost...it punched him hard inside...as he reluctantly cupped her face in his hands "Arohi" was all that he could manage to say as his tears flowed fast. "kia tum mujhe meri zindagi wapas dai sakte ho" this time it was almost a whisper as she reluctantly came closer to him resting her head on his shoulder her tears flowing unchecked and unbidden..."kia tum....." "shhhhh" Arjun calmed her down as he wrapped his arms around her as she sobbed on his shoulder. He gently touched her cheek, wishing he could rub color back into it. "I'm sorry Arohi...I was wrong...Nothing I did was considerate...I don't deserve you...whatever you say...likin mujhe mauf kar do Arohi...I cannot live without you....main tum sai beintiha mohabbat karta hoon" He pressed his lips to her forehead just to find her unconcsios in his arms still holding on to him tightly. He tucked her hair behind her ears and kept looking at her angelic face for quite some time before he realized it will get late...so he took her back to the car and drove home. Thankfully Sur had not been back yet and Arjun carefully took Arohi to her room. Before leaving the room he only allowed himself a few minutes to kneel down at the bedside, and looked closely at her...close enough to feel her breath flutter his face. She stirred in her sleep and murmered his name--but without waking. He lingered for an instant at the door to look at her...as he left he knew exactly what he had to do in the morning.
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As the bright rays of the sun seeped in through her rooms' curtains, she slowly opened her eyes...It was late and it was after quite some time she had slept for that long! She made an effort to get out of bed...her head still spinning. It was the unmistakable smell of the violet flowers at her bedside table that finally brought her back to her senses! As she stared at them with eyes wide open, her hand slowly went up to her cheek and she could still feel the warmth of those angel hands...her heart raced as she jumped out of her bed trying to remember who brought her back home...she definitely knew he was there at some point in time but than she was missing out on most parts of it!
She almost bumped into Sur who was coming out of the Kitchen "Di...Good Morning" Sur was almost ready to leave for college... "Haan...." Arohi gasped for breath "Good...good morning...tu kab aayi?" She looked at Arjun's room....it was closed. "Aap ke baad...jab main aayi aap so rahe the...Kia kaha Bhavan Kumar ji ne?" She asked as she packed up her bag "Bhavan kumar ji nai?" Arohi murmured trying to remember what happened last night. "Challo di..baad main baat karte hain..meri bus nikal jaye gi...haan by the way aap ke liye Bhavan Kumar Ji ka phone aaya tha...aaj aap ki pehli recording hai so he wanted you to be on time...aap jaldi sai studio pohanch jain...ok bye" and Sur rushed out of the door without even looking back at Arohi who was lost in her own thoughts...She had to talk to him...she went ahead and knocked at the door..."Arre beta woh to chulla gaya" Bindu Aunty announced as she entered the living room...."Kahan challa gaya"...Arohi tried to sound casual "Pata nahin kahan....humain kia" she said nonchalantly.
"Woh to chulla gaya" the words echoed in her mind...Suddenly she felt deserted, injured, miserable. The memories of her past with him had been agonizingly painful, however she had gotten through them and survived. But the fact that he was no more around terrified her.. She felt a sudden bitterness that he could leave her so soon and so entirely. She stood there, hugging herself tighlty as the tears began to roll down her eyes. Why am I crying...I wanted him to leave...I hate him she tried to reason but could not get rid of those words echoing in her mind "main tum se baiintiha mohabbat karta hoon"...she covered her ears just to stop those words from haunting her...but in vain!
"Beta kia hoa....tum theek to ho?" Bindu Aunty snapped Arohi back from her thoughts. "Ji...ji main theek hoon...woh bus mera sar thora chakra raha hai" she blabbered out an extempore explaination not that Bindu Aunty was interested. "Acha dekho beta...main kuch dinon kai liye apni behan ke pass Delhi jaa rahi hoon...to tum ghar ka khayal rakhna...yeh chabian rakh lo" she handed her a bunch of keys and just on second thoughts added "mmm aur haan ... woh larka tha na...kia naam tha us ka....Arjun..woh apni kuch cheezain shaid bhool gaya hai...woh main nai wahan cupboard main rakh din hain...agar woh lene aa jata hai to us ko dai dena....waise main to kehty hoon na hi aaye...tum larkian akailay ho gy mujhe to woh sahi admi nahin lagta...ya to main woh saman saath waali aunty kai pass rakhwa doon" Arohi had to grab her as she started to walk towards the cupboard..."nahin aunty rehne dain...main...main manage kar loon gi...you dont worry...have a nice trip" Arohi had to give some desperate explainations before Bindu Aunty got convinced and finally left.
She did not know what she wanted to do or where she wanted to go. The fear that she might never see him again was enough to drive her insane. There were memories that she was unable to place as to whether they were a reality or just a dream. Ofcourse it was a dream, it isn't true....it can't be true... she whispered to herself. But she could almost hear those words...she could still feel that touch! She found herself going through the contents of the cupboard. Among other things what caught her attention was a small diary. Reluctantly she picked it up and placed it in her lap as she sat on the sofa. She flipped to the first page, than the next. His handwriting danced accross the paper, sometimes even and at other times cramped, as if he was agitated! Her heart took up a frantic beating as she scanned through the pages learning all he had suffered for her sake. She was not sure how long she read hits and parts of the diary. When finished, Arohi hugged her knees to her chest, and for a long time she stared into thin air, as if absorbing the pain he went through, finding the place of every detail in her heart. After half an hour she stood up from the sofa, sure of one thing....She could not let him go!
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"kia tum mujhe meri zindagi wapas dai sakte ho"...despite the chaos of the busy train station in the heart of Mumbai her voice echoed in his head! It was not an easy decision...it never could be! All these months he had spent hours thinking about this moment of truth, planning for it and dreading it, BUT still it did hurt him! He very well knew that her life and her reason to live had been shaken by the blow she got from him but hearing it from her was painful...Even when he held her so close to him there was a place in her heart he could not get to...and he could see with a fatal perspicuity that there was no way he could get there without totally shattering her! and that he could not do....
First thing in the morning he had walked into Bhavan Kumar's residence and handed him in person Arohi's CD...It was only today that he realized his partnership with Karan Singh was not a mindless decision...He had given her, her life...or he would like to believe he did!
His job was done...he was no more needed in Mumbai...But he was restless...as if wanting to find a way out of the truth. But there was none. The fight inside him morphed into desperation and defeat. He knew there was no turning back once he leaves...but than he had no choice...It was too late...too far gone for forgiveness!
A pale smile formed on his face...atleast he tried to fulfil his promise to God! and now since she does not need him anymore he has to silently move out of her world! Reluctantly he boarded the train!
apno mein reh kar akele
aisa gira na uth saka
main chala
lamha lamha ghutan hai
aankhe bin tere nam hai
mere jalte jahan mein
bas yehi ek gum hai
dil ki viraniyan dhundhe tujhe
raahon ke fasle kyun badh gaye
kaise yeh zindagi jo hum jeeye
isne aasun aur gum diye
main chala
ankahi yeh kahani
bin kahe hai sunani
lab pe khamoshiyan hai
aashko mein hai rawani
saanson ke silsile thamne lage
lafzon ke shabd yeh bujhne lage
lamho ki aag mein kuch yun jala
mein aap se hi kho gaya
main chala
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pehli baat apni zindagi jeene ke liye kissi aur ki zindagi kharab mat karna
doosri baat har dhoop ke baad chaoon zaroor aati hai
aur teesi baat main chahti hoon tu nai jo bhi sapna dekha ho woh poora ho jaye
"bhai sahab....woh shimla ki train" she was breathing heavily. "Platform No. 10 on the right...5 minute main nikal jaye gi" But Arohi was not in sight to hear what he was saying. It was after a long time her heart did not feel like a stone. Her tears, like the rain which after a long drought purified the atmosphere, refreshed her almost broken spirit. She could see the platform and could hear the sharp whistle of the train leaving the station!
and she ran.. she knew he would give her his hand, would stay by her side...and would take her towards life, towards her destiny! Just as her Mom had said! and she grabbed that out-stretched hand just to land in the comfort of his arms!
"Arohi Tum--"
"Shh", she hushed him. For a long time they kept looking into each others eyes and didn't have to say a word. There was no need to. The love in her eyes reached straight to the depths of his heart. Two trails of tears overflowed onto his cheeks and she wiped them, took hold of his shoulders and looked straight into his eyes
"agar tum dai sakte ho aik pal ke liye zindagi to main bhi aik dil kai liye dunia dai sakty hoon...Bus Itani Mohabbat Hai!"
She hugged him tightly, and when they kissed it was long, tender and infinitely sweet--A fulfillment of what had been only a hope, a longing.
The End
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Thanks Mehr for the Title!
Thanks Tulli and Anjana for the inspiration!
Songs lyrics from the movie Jashnn (Main Challa)