Okie guys, this is the first ever time i even thought of writing an OS... i know it really is bad, but if you guys wanna blame someone, it has to be aditi (misticgoryfilms) and Alisha (Alisha_harshad) 🤣... they somehow emotionally blackmailed me to post this OS... it was supposed to be tragic, but since today is a celebration, i tried to divert some part of the story 🤔... i hope u guys think it's moderate! Coz actually, it's more factual than a 'shot', so read at ur own risk, and if you have any complaints, you know who to PM, right?? 🤣... chalo, here goes nothing....
The seas were so silent, yet so violent. It hurt one's ears to hear such sounds. It almost felt like the dead was being called upon. Darkness and gloominess evaded the surroundings and the street lights just couldn't carry upon the burden of a million and one tears. The tears that made up the salty, vast, calm and wild oceans.
She smiled sarcastically at the thought of her so called life. It was an absolute dream, and now an even worse nightmare. 'Tears', she spoke out loud like there was someone to hear her off. Alas, that was exactly what she wanted, and exactly what she'd never get. "Tears, what difference would it make when they leave your eye? What difference would it make when these fall off into the ocean? They are just droplets, droplets that give so much pain, yet when they leave the touch of your face, they are nothing but plain water. They cause hearts to break, crumple like a thin sheet of paper, but when it's time to take blame, all they do is leave your side, only to sting back, but now, in a place where pain is so much more unbearable. In the heart is their real home" she scooped up one of the million of tears she has shed that night, and every single night since he left her side. Not only did he break his promise of always supporting her, loving her, and being with her, he also took away all her happiness. All that she ever had, her heart, her mind and her soul.
"Why?"She screamed exasperated at her situation, and her condition. Why is all this happening to her, she just couldn't comprehend what she did wrong in life? She always tried to be a great daughter and sister. Her aim was always to keep her family happy and satisfied, to support them in all their problems. Never once did she think it was her moment to enjoy, and live life to the fullest. Where everyone her age enjoyed disco's parties and boyfriends, she studied hard to make her parents proud. The only once she ever wished something for herself was taken away so mercilessly by God. Why was it her side that always received all the pain ever available in the face of earth? "why?"
She fell into the soft sand that was kissed away by some low tide water. The held her face on her hands, not knowing what to do now, what next? After this night, there's another morning, another hope and will. But why is it that only she felt those light doesn't give the essence of the obvious? For her, that shine is blinding, stinging, and painful every moment. It wasn't the hope she looked for, it was the one that took all hopes away from her. Her hopes of never seeing light again, her hopes of ever being with him, her hopes of dying...
She hastily wiped off her tears, only to see a new set drop by her cheeks. She felt so restless it almost startled her when she heard a slow beat of the flowing water on the nearby rocks. She wrapped her arms on her legs, and rested her head on it, waiting for that morning, and the night that was to follow...
"Are you fine miss?" a voice that took her breath away. She felt a huge task of pulling in oxygen into her lungs. As if hesitant to look at the direction of the voice she just stayed in her position, steady, frozen, and inside shaking bitterly. "i am ok, don't worry about me..." her voice trailed off into the vast surroundings. The person a little dazzled perhaps, went over to sit next to her. By now, she had raised her head to look into that soul that wanted to share her heaps of sadness.
"Hi, I'm prem. Prem Juneja. Aur tum?" he asked with a smile. Heer didn't react, she just watched him in utter incredulity, not blinking once too many for the fantasy to suddenly disappear.
" i know you might be thinking, what kind of guy am i, introducing myself at 1 am in a deserted beach... but don't worry. I promise you i'm not that type of guy. i..."
"Hi prem." She said with a smile. "It doesn't really matter what you'd do to me, and what you wont. I'm not concerned about anything anymore, and i have nothing to lose too. God has given me enough concern for a whole lifetime, and has taken away everything i could ever earn. You have nothing to take away from me, because i have nothing to give away..." there was a hint of agonizing pain in her beautiful eyes that made him want to ask her about what she was feeling. What was that despair that made her say what every single girl dreads to even dream about? What was it about her braveness that made her look so dead as she took every breath?
"Oh but you do have a smile that you can try to donate to me, don't you?" he asked with a sweet lopsided grin. "I don't even have that to give, otherwise, like always I'd give that to someone else as well..."
There was a desperateness he felt while watching her eyes looking beyond the ocean that lay in front of them. It was as if she tried to figure out what would it be if she was in the other side, but what he couldn't understand was the difference between the two, they were the same colour, and no one could ever tell where what ends; the ocean nor the sky.
"You seem to have given all you have to the world? Would you mind telling me what is so intriguing in the scene you're watching? It's pretty much the same isn't it, the ocean and the sky? It's both black right now, has no bounds, and there isn't a certain place it ends. It's ongoing..." she looked at him, and into his eyes... she couldn't believe she was talking to him, but she didn't want to lose this conversation. It might be their last, so she kept it going, without much thought of what this will lead to. For the first time she had a chance to live life in a moments worth, and she has given up a lot to do so now... again... when she knows if this slips away, there wasn't a chance to bring it back. Not now, never...
She smiled at his question. He was too aloof to life's realities to see what the difference is between the ocean and the sky. "You really cannot see what's amiss?" she asked still a little bewildered by his queries. He shook his head hesitantly, trying to figure why she seemed to ask, as if it was just too obvious for anyone to know. "The sky is ongoing, but the ocean isn't. It stops at one edge, where there is shore. Where another life begins, another journey and destiny begins. The ocean connects many different worlds together." She said staring at the scenery that had made this meeting into a conversation.
"... and you want to be in the other side, i'm assuming?" prem had been so awestruck with her thinking, like she had been through so much more that she deserved. She looked at him for a brief second then for the first time in uncountable nights; she had a hint of grin. Not a real smile, just an uplift on the sides of her mouth.
"no... not really. Yahan ya wahan, kya farq padta hai?" she sighed and continued, " i don't want to be in the other side, i want to be in the other dimension. I want to be in the skies, where there is no ocean to separate him from me. Where there is no two worlds in between us. For once, i just want to be up there, to watch the people and their happiness down here. What does it take to make a smile reach one's heart? Why does it seem like an uphill task for me, and for other's like they are just taking a step?" with that her tears had reached her eyes, and were about to fall off when someone's hands grabbed the droplet that was about to scatter amongst the millions that existed where they settled.
" it depends on the person," prem said looking at the tears, "if a person doesn't have legs, it's not very easy to walk, is it?" she looked at him and he saw that glint of smile a little more spottable than earlier. "i don't know what you've gone through to say such heart-wrenching things, but all i can say is, a person lives life only the way he views it. For some people the sky is unreachable, unattainable and unachievable. It is too far to even think about, being in it is way too impossible. For some, it is their only goal, their whole life, they run after that one word; sky. They try to attain what is impractical. For people like me, the sky is never an aim, never a desire. It's always a shed to all the tears, and suffering one might receive, it's like a roof against all pain, and why would i want to go in that pain? The skies are too far away; that's just an illusion. For me, it's right here, i can touch it right now, feel it, and be in it," he said stretching his arms in the air, "just as close as your tears in my hand, it's that near to me... why would i need to go to the other dimension when i can have all of it here?"
She didn't glance at him, and for a moment, she didn't speak. Prem thought his words were too hard to process, or it didn't make much sense. He looked at her, but she didn't react. Dejected, he turned back to the ocean, a moment later she spoke, "when you have nothing in life, sky is the last thing one would try to accomplish. The only difference that fact makes on me is that, i don't want to reach the sky; i want to be transported there. In less than a moment, i want to be there. i don't want to travel a long journey. I have no strength for that, all i ask for is to go there, forever, but even that seems so difficult..."
"You know, you have a way with words! It's a simple thought, but you made it sound so complicated! You want to die, and that's how you say it in normal English, as normal people would, for normal people that includes myself!" prem said with a mocking smirk. She had by now, showed a full grin on her face. A small one, but still it was an actual smile. He continued, "Dying is never difficult if you're ready for it. Again, it depends on the person who views it. i know this would sound like absolute twaddle to you, but it's never an option to suicide. It seems you don't believe in God, but he's the one who gave you life, and only he has the right to take it away. That authority is his, and only his! People beseech for their lives at the last breath, yet God doesn't approve them. When you have it, why don't you take it with wide arms?"
She laughed sarcastically. "That's the problem isn't it? People who want time just don't seem to get enough from god, and i, who is begging him to take my life away, he is all but hearing out my pleas! I can't suicide coz i don't want my sins to be on 'his' burden. I want him to be happy... forever, with or without me..."
"Your love is so strong, i feel privileged to have met you. You seem to love him more than i have seen anyone love anyone! In all your words you ooze love. There is a sense of 'forever' in all that you have said. You'll love him, care for him, understand him and be with him, he's always 'the one'... forever," she smiled a real one this time, the first time it reached her eyes. It was so authentic she felt so kind of happiness in her heart.
"Thank you, but all i can say is, he loves me more than i do... i don't know about this moment, but he used to love me more than 'anyone could love anyone'," she smiled but sadness had overtaken her eyes once again. Like it was fabricated happiness she had felt.
"Love never fades. Never... if he ever loved you from his heart, that would never go even after death. Love is eternal, mortal, everlasting, and endless. It goes on, till God decides there would be no such thing as love, till that very moment, it's alive. And when that moment arrives, love is strong enough to divert that decision... trust is a key factor in love, and you must trust him. Because right now, i bet his heart is crying..." he said with a genuine face.
By this time, she had tears in her eyes, but for the first time in a very long time, it was tears of happiness. Just then she saw the sun rising. It gave a shade of an unprecedented glow, like the whole world's colours were united in that one scene. Just an hour ago, she had thought these lights would bring darkness in her dungeon like life, but for the first time, she had hope. Those tears of happiness were verification of her hope; hope that maybe she there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. But most importantly, there was an end to the tunnel...
"i won't let him cry, prem... i have been successful in that all along, and i won't let my hard work go to waste... his tears are too precious to be wasted because of me. Thank you for everything prem, it really means a lot..."
"Thanks for..." prem asked quite not understanding what she was trying to imply.
"For making me realise as long as he's happy somewhere in this world, it doesn't matter what i undergo, because i know he's smiling, his heart is smiling. How can i be sad when he's happy, right?" she said with contentment at the current scenario she's facing.
"Exactly, but why do i feel you're not trying to attain him, and his side being next to you? Why don't you want to get him back? If he truly loves you, it would take just a single thought, and he'd be right next to you, to support you for all eternity."
"He is right next to me... here in my heart... as for attaining him, love cant be attained, it just happens..."
"Now you're confusing me, he loves you, so what are you waiting to happen? I just don't empathize."
She just smiled and turned to watch the sun rise up to cover the darkness that had her surrounded for what seemed like longer than eternity. Finally, morning in her life had arrived. Prem too watched in amazement at the beauty a scene can bestow. They both sighed at the same time, and then glanced at each other before falling into a small laugh.
"ok, i'm going to go now, i need to attend some important matters and go see the doctor... will you be here tonight?"
"yes, would you come to meet me?" she regretted that line after blurting it out. Did she sound desperate? She mentally slapped herself before trying to look as casual as possible.
"of course, you can tell me how your new day went, ok? Will meet you at, umm, 5 am tomorrow?"
"done, i'd be here on time!" she again wanted to curse her all of a sudden grown mouth. He smiled and nodded before turning away to walk... he was almost 10 feet away when he turned back only to catch her watch him leave. She hastily looked away.
"i just wanted to ask a small thing. You said you won't be sad coz he's happy somewhere right? How'd you know he's happy? Don't tell me your heart says so, because that is obvious? Do you have a better explanation?" he asked with a mischievous smile.
She grinned and said, "i can see him right now!"
His smile vanished and very baffled look too over, "what do you mean?"
She just smiled at him and looked back at the rising sun, she knew he'd be walking away at that moment, but a sudden voice made her turn around, "hey?" she looked at him now about 14 feet away. "you haven't even told me your name!" he smiled as he put his hands on his knees to bend down.
"Heer. Heer Juneja." She said as she looked in his eyes. For a moment he didn't know how to react. "It can be a coincidence can't it? Of course it is!" he said to himself before smiling, "arre, your last name is like mine? Wow! Agar mujhse shaadi karogi, to apne naam bhi change nahin karogi! Waise are you married?"
She looked at him in astonishment. He ignored the fact or was he really not seeing things? "no, i'm not, lekin i changed my last name to his. He's my husband from my heart, and that has much more worth than a peice of paper!"
He smiled a nod, "see you tomorrow heer," as he walked away into the city's crowd, back to his real life. The past night had been a dream, something he'd never be able to achieve in life, heer. He knew she was for someone else, her mind, her body her soul had someone else's authority. She had lived for that person, and would die for the same one. Love is only what she had aspired in life, and it's only what she'd ever expect to get. All the rest is just... life.
But he'd live for her happiness. He didn't know how he fell in love in just one night, and an hour's meeting, but he knows it's love! it just cant be anything else, he somehow felt the pain she was feeling, he knew his heart cried when he saw her tears, and his heart beat faster when he saw her smile. The bigger smile the faster the flow of blood, what can this be if not love? he smiled and walked to his car, "another day at the doctors prem beta! Sabr karo, there's at least 23 hours left before 5 am" he laughed at his thoughts before heading for his destination.
"tumhare hi wajah se maine yeh naam rakha hai, heer juneja... tum ne hi to kahan tha na, ke tumhare naam mere naam se hamesha judi rahenge, kyun ki hamari zindagi ek hai, hamare kismaat ek hai. I never thought i'd see you again prem, but when you asked me how i was, i felt life being pumped back into me. I know you don't remember anything, and i didn't even ask you, or acknowledge you because you'd never understand the situation. Prem, our destiny is trying to reunite us , and this time, i won't let it separate us again! I know a lot of people would've advised to tell you about your past. Maybe you'd remember me... but my heart was scared. What if you don't acknowledge our love soon enough before i lose all hope?
I have been through so much to tolerate a rejection from my prem. I wouldn't be able to take the pain anymore, and when you remember the past, you'd go through even worse. I can't let that happen to us prem, and never to you! If you fall in love with me all over again, there wouldn't be a micro meter of loss. We are made for each other, and that's why even in all that pain, i was able to smile. Not because i saw you, but because you understood me without really knowing i was talking about you all along. Your heart's words reach mine... i'll do everything to get back what we had, our love, our faith, our life and our soul... God gave us a chance to be together in this lifetime, and i can sacrifice anything to earn you back, patience is the smallest thing. i will defeat all pain that tries to touch you, keeping you from worrying about your past, sacrificing time is the minor worry. I will break all barriers to keep you happy; waiting for you every night is the shortest hurdle..."
so? crap right.... oh come on, start annoying/PMing the ebil people responsible... 🤣
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Edited by Cess- - 15 years ago
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