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aaaa..eeee.
oh me.
oh my.
so. who else things that there was really nothing else to this episode than one major big supersized prem-heer thing? i mean, why really bother with the rest -- it was all just fluff. so this is going to be one really short bt,lt -- you lucky guys! š *besides, i've just been fed a massive dinner -- of six courses, two of which were desserts! split over around four hours -- made by the mom-gang. sigh.. sometimes, it's not so bad having mom-in-triplicate... š*
* prem-heer thing: y'know what i've always loved 'bout these characters? that they've always been black-and-white. hmmm. you think maybe i should just say grey? i disagree. 'cause for me, grey is one single shade -- made by mixing up black and white so completely that there is no black or white. but with prem-and-heer, it's always been about black-and-white in my head, for some reason. never a uniform shade. and i ... i kinda love that.
the first time i noticed this was when they were squabbling about what love is during the prem-to-marry-ash, heer-to-marry-muckmeet times. both of them were right (white). and both of them were wrong (black).
prem was all about loving heer with the truest love 'cause he wanted the best in life for her. except he would not go the last mile and be the one doing it! heer was all about love being who stays with you through thick and thin, and knowing who the person is. but she said this all this without having a clue about the one she claimed to love. and i thought both were right and both were wrong. and i loved them for it.
this time too, as i watched them reason and pull at each other's heart, it struck me that prem and heer are once again black and white, once again both are wrong and right.
prem is right -- nothing can bring his sister back; and it is inescapably true that nihaal had a role to play in vitchface's death. prem is wrong -- nihaal is not the only reason that vitchface is dead, and so ought not to be ''punished'' as if he is, which is what the whole jail-punishment is all about; and if he had trusted nihaal 'cause of heer, that was his error of judgement and he ought not to be blaming heer for that!
heer is right -- it is not about her brother, his sister. it is about what is wrong and what is right; and nihaal ought not to be jailed for vitchface's death withot understanding the whole facts of the situation. heer is wrong -- nihaal is not totally without blame. if nothing else, he is certainly to be blamed for misleading everyone that he was responsible for his wife's death; and while i agree that going to jail is a horrible punishment that will be a problem for nihaal forever. and so she must fight to prove his innocence. i wonder though whether the way she leapt into the fray, her timing, her protestations should've been done more smartly. something which has almost always been heer's downfall -- that she is completely insensitive to the timing of her protests... š¤
* prem thing: btw, in all the prem-heer interactions today, i must admit the most puzzling thing prem said: ''i trusted your brother to make things all right for my sister. i trusted him 'cause i trusted you.'' and i realised that prem is putting a lot of the responsibility of his trust in nihaal on his trust in heer.
y'know? i knew that this death of vitchface's was going to be a tough thing for prem and heer to fight. 'specially for prem. poor prem. he is fighting his own sense of guilt that vitchface is dead. he fights himself and he fights heer. and i wondered why -- why fight heer? the only explanation i could come up with is: fighting heer may be one way of punishing himself. his sister vitchface is dead. his sister has no more chance of happiness. and he does. is this prem's way of cutting himself off from happiness? his mother is miserable 'cause vitchface is dead. and his mother hates heer. he has to see that! is this prem's way of not hurting his mother anymore? hmmm. and prem-heer-are-one, he knows that. so whatever he does to himself, will happen to heer.
is he distancing himself away from heer, in the hope that she will not have to suffer as much of his unhappiness? is this prem choosing what kind of unhappiness heer hsa to go through?? argh! prem! you bloomin'... you are ''mein bhagwan nehi hoon'', prem! you can't choose such things! you can't! you can't push heer away from you! you couldn't keep actual physical distance between you for too long even while faking your death, darnit! what are you thinking now??
btw, the most stoooopid thing prem said today. ''you think i'm wrong, go ahead, think it. i don't care. 'cause your thinking cannot bring my dead sister back to life.''
'kay, what is with the juneja's for thinking that anything can change that??! seriously, is no one else terrified that one day vitchface will come back??! argh!
but seriously, prem: yes, heer's thinking you are wrong cannot change that. but nothing can. given you are where you are -- isn't the next thing to try to make things better??
*sigh* i guess that brings me to the truest thing that prem said today: ''i have lost grievously!'' that was a beautifully delivered cry from the heart. ''i have lost! i have lost my little sister!''
as i said yesterday -- it looked like no-one was really grieving over the death of vitchface except for gaali-ma and ... prem. poor prem. he sooo needs more cuddles. and he feels compelled to push away the one person who can do it best to soothe his poor wounded heart...
* little thing: aaarrrrrggggh, editing-bloooper! when heer is desperately trying to explain the nihaal-vitchface situation to prem before he heads off to the airport, there is serious prem-heer stand-in action there, no??
even if i hadn't figured it out from the weird stillness of hc-as-prem's expression, i'd have figured it out from heer's hairstyle! š² the heer head that prem is standing and ... glaring at has it's hair left all loose. while ag-as-heer had her hair neatly caught up in a pony tail. *sigh* i dislike it when the editing slips so that even i can catch this stuff!
* hc/ag-voice thing: oooh, for once, hc slipped up on his perfect delivery. i was totally awe-struck at that beautiful modulation of prem's voice as he talked about what he had lost? his little sister vitchface. but his hands? ha! that was fun..neeeeee!!! i bet vitchface was not that ... small even when she was born! š
but what i frowned at was the way he switched from shattered to stern. there was one word he threw out -- vishwas? that sounded like he was doing a speech. that was an unusually ill-done delivery. it was soooo black and white. from being totally mush -one moment - melting with thick tears. and in the very next second, his voice had gone to steel. um.. with heer? his heer? that transition was too hard, imho. i'd have thought hc would play it just a leeetle differently. if he'd struggled going from misery to that hard accusation: ''i believed you. i trusted that everything would be fine when your brother wanted to take my sister home. because of you.''
in contrast, ag's delivery of ''today, it's not a question of yours or mine; today it's a question of right and wrong. you didn't do the right thing by my brother.'' -- there was a little lisp in her voice as if heer was sooo shattered at what prem was saying that she was losing control over her diction, her voice! that was ... superb! completely mind-blowing. and she did it once more at another emotionally heart-wrenching moment -- which was sooo brilliantly done
and it struck me: even when prem had ... ''apparently died'', heer was either totally disbelieving -- ''if it's in prem's control when he makes promises, then why is he not in control when he is to keep them?'' -- or totally shattered -- that horrible horrible scene where she gets to see the cctv recording of prem's stooooopid instructions to the junejas and to her! this is the first time, we are being allowed to see heer's reaction to her conviction that prem-heer-are-one being shaken. that conviction that kept her going strong all through the prem-disasters so far -- his ''apparent death'', his ''i'm-hip-hop, not prem'' stunt, his ''apparent hole-in-the-prem'' actions. that conviction is being shaken just now, and ag-as-heer's voice was totally superb in how we got to see that.
*sigh* i soooo love the prem-heer drama in this show that i really don't give too much of a damn 'bout anything else. but i must admit -- i'd be a leetle unfair if i didn't note some important ... little things. š
* little thing: 'kay, i am seriously puzzled at why -- even when the cops came to arrest him -- lj did not intercede on nihaal's behalf. either to the cops. or to prem when he appears so inflexible about getting nihaal arrested. is lj feeling sooo hopeless about nihaal's case? or does he feel, in his heart of hearts, that nihaal deserves to be punished 'cause vitchface is dead?
* little thing: 'kay, ashlesha is beginning to creep me out big time! i always found it weird when she went around called heer di.
but now, she is also overhearing conversations -- so like dirtchachi used to do. and pull off commiserating faces and sympathetic words of advice (to heer?? about prem??!!!) -- like dirtchachi used to. and...
i don't like ashlesha. even when preet and she were going around. didn't. i just don't. i suspect i never will.
* little thing: it is amazing how truly hopeless things look for nihaal, no? the junejas are against him. his neighbours are against him. he, himself, is against him. i mean, why else would've he have walked up to the house of the mother that starts screeching with hatred the moment she catches sight of him!
the only person who speaks out is heer. even meher just looks shattered, but doesn't appear to be brave enough to speak out for him.
* little thing: btw, was anyone else amazed that when nihaal appeared at the jzoo for vitchface's bones (what a duffer he was to have done that, donchya think??) the juneja brothers didn't pile on to hit him and kick him out of the house?
in fact, harman actually pulled gaali-maa** off nihaal?? no? no-one else found that odd?
* little thing: prem-heer standing back to back.. prem denying heer's voice entry into his heart, almost forcibly, by raising his hand to shut her off! remember the last time he had done that??
they were at the chawl, and there was a party celebrating his winning the businessman-of-the-year award. and prem overheard the nasty man talking to meher, demanding that heer return his loan to him! and when meher tries to give prem an explanation to bail out heer, prem raised his hand to shut her off. and now, he does it to heer...
* little thing: 'kay, gaali-maa is seriously scary right now. but y'know what's odd? i can understand this avatar of gayatri-mom. i could never understand gementor! i never could understand how gayatri-mom one day just became this twisted creature who differentiated between step-children and own-children. and who thought heer had stolen her family under her own nose.
but this vicious, cold, biting, blood-thirsty creature, who lights lamps vowing they will never die while her daughter's soul is unhappy? i'm afraid that i can understand where she is coming from. far better than what created gementor.
i don't like it. i don't really see why this was the only way for her to go. 'cause a gayatri-mom who lost her daughter wouldn't have become this version of gaali-maa. who is sooo anti-heer. that anti-heer-ism came from the gementor part of her life. but at least, she has a reason for existence.
what a pity she exists in the same space-time-framework as prem-heer... who are going to have to so much more misery 'cause she does.
*sigh* it'd be nice to think that this is the worst ever episode in the life of prem-and-heer-are-one. but i am guessing it isn't. that vow means that gaali-maa will do everything it takes to get heer out of her life. and that's okay with me. what i'm really curious to see is if prem will be in gaali-maa's life or not. now that i'm willing to w&w for...
and i don't like ashlesha. *brr*
highlight of the episode: prem's heart-wrenching cry: ''i have lost something! i have lost my baby sister!'' heer's unbelieveably painful ''when has it become yours and mine, prem? i thought we were one family?''. or heer telling prem ''i can't bear it if you take a wrong step. please prem, don't do anything wrong!'' as if more than anything else, what heer cares about is the purity of prem's actions, prem's soul. which .. *sigh* .. is probably just about right for heer! man, prem-heer-are-soooo-one... it's just not a very... pretty sight anymore, no? but then, i guess that is what being one through the good times, and the bad times is all about??
*sigh* i think i've just finished all the happiness energy that i got from eating two-two desserts tonight just in writing up this bt,lt. hmm. i think i need to go down and raid the fridge for leftovers now... yup! 2:30am -- is a good time to raid kitchens! š
see you, phorum pals! have ... uh ... hmm! having phun might be a difficult thing today? well, have great prem-heer-memories! 'cause this time last year, weren't our two-some getting really cosy down in that wonderful chawl in ludhiana? š keep smiling till the next bt,lt? see you!
**: gaali-maa. that's gayatri-maa turned gementor turned kaaali-maa!
oh me.
oh my.
so. who else things that there was really nothing else to this episode than one major big supersized prem-heer thing? i mean, why really bother with the rest -- it was all just fluff. so this is going to be one really short bt,lt -- you lucky guys! š *besides, i've just been fed a massive dinner -- of six courses, two of which were desserts! split over around four hours -- made by the mom-gang. sigh.. sometimes, it's not so bad having mom-in-triplicate... š*
* prem-heer thing: y'know what i've always loved 'bout these characters? that they've always been black-and-white. hmmm. you think maybe i should just say grey? i disagree. 'cause for me, grey is one single shade -- made by mixing up black and white so completely that there is no black or white. but with prem-and-heer, it's always been about black-and-white in my head, for some reason. never a uniform shade. and i ... i kinda love that.
the first time i noticed this was when they were squabbling about what love is during the prem-to-marry-ash, heer-to-marry-muckmeet times. both of them were right (white). and both of them were wrong (black).
prem was all about loving heer with the truest love 'cause he wanted the best in life for her. except he would not go the last mile and be the one doing it! heer was all about love being who stays with you through thick and thin, and knowing who the person is. but she said this all this without having a clue about the one she claimed to love. and i thought both were right and both were wrong. and i loved them for it.
this time too, as i watched them reason and pull at each other's heart, it struck me that prem and heer are once again black and white, once again both are wrong and right.
prem is right -- nothing can bring his sister back; and it is inescapably true that nihaal had a role to play in vitchface's death. prem is wrong -- nihaal is not the only reason that vitchface is dead, and so ought not to be ''punished'' as if he is, which is what the whole jail-punishment is all about; and if he had trusted nihaal 'cause of heer, that was his error of judgement and he ought not to be blaming heer for that!
heer is right -- it is not about her brother, his sister. it is about what is wrong and what is right; and nihaal ought not to be jailed for vitchface's death withot understanding the whole facts of the situation. heer is wrong -- nihaal is not totally without blame. if nothing else, he is certainly to be blamed for misleading everyone that he was responsible for his wife's death; and while i agree that going to jail is a horrible punishment that will be a problem for nihaal forever. and so she must fight to prove his innocence. i wonder though whether the way she leapt into the fray, her timing, her protestations should've been done more smartly. something which has almost always been heer's downfall -- that she is completely insensitive to the timing of her protests... š¤
* prem thing: btw, in all the prem-heer interactions today, i must admit the most puzzling thing prem said: ''i trusted your brother to make things all right for my sister. i trusted him 'cause i trusted you.'' and i realised that prem is putting a lot of the responsibility of his trust in nihaal on his trust in heer.
y'know? i knew that this death of vitchface's was going to be a tough thing for prem and heer to fight. 'specially for prem. poor prem. he is fighting his own sense of guilt that vitchface is dead. he fights himself and he fights heer. and i wondered why -- why fight heer? the only explanation i could come up with is: fighting heer may be one way of punishing himself. his sister vitchface is dead. his sister has no more chance of happiness. and he does. is this prem's way of cutting himself off from happiness? his mother is miserable 'cause vitchface is dead. and his mother hates heer. he has to see that! is this prem's way of not hurting his mother anymore? hmmm. and prem-heer-are-one, he knows that. so whatever he does to himself, will happen to heer.
is he distancing himself away from heer, in the hope that she will not have to suffer as much of his unhappiness? is this prem choosing what kind of unhappiness heer hsa to go through?? argh! prem! you bloomin'... you are ''mein bhagwan nehi hoon'', prem! you can't choose such things! you can't! you can't push heer away from you! you couldn't keep actual physical distance between you for too long even while faking your death, darnit! what are you thinking now??
btw, the most stoooopid thing prem said today. ''you think i'm wrong, go ahead, think it. i don't care. 'cause your thinking cannot bring my dead sister back to life.''
'kay, what is with the juneja's for thinking that anything can change that??! seriously, is no one else terrified that one day vitchface will come back??! argh!
but seriously, prem: yes, heer's thinking you are wrong cannot change that. but nothing can. given you are where you are -- isn't the next thing to try to make things better??
*sigh* i guess that brings me to the truest thing that prem said today: ''i have lost grievously!'' that was a beautifully delivered cry from the heart. ''i have lost! i have lost my little sister!''
as i said yesterday -- it looked like no-one was really grieving over the death of vitchface except for gaali-ma and ... prem. poor prem. he sooo needs more cuddles. and he feels compelled to push away the one person who can do it best to soothe his poor wounded heart...
* little thing: aaarrrrrggggh, editing-bloooper! when heer is desperately trying to explain the nihaal-vitchface situation to prem before he heads off to the airport, there is serious prem-heer stand-in action there, no??
even if i hadn't figured it out from the weird stillness of hc-as-prem's expression, i'd have figured it out from heer's hairstyle! š² the heer head that prem is standing and ... glaring at has it's hair left all loose. while ag-as-heer had her hair neatly caught up in a pony tail. *sigh* i dislike it when the editing slips so that even i can catch this stuff!
* hc/ag-voice thing: oooh, for once, hc slipped up on his perfect delivery. i was totally awe-struck at that beautiful modulation of prem's voice as he talked about what he had lost? his little sister vitchface. but his hands? ha! that was fun..neeeeee!!! i bet vitchface was not that ... small even when she was born! š
but what i frowned at was the way he switched from shattered to stern. there was one word he threw out -- vishwas? that sounded like he was doing a speech. that was an unusually ill-done delivery. it was soooo black and white. from being totally mush -one moment - melting with thick tears. and in the very next second, his voice had gone to steel. um.. with heer? his heer? that transition was too hard, imho. i'd have thought hc would play it just a leeetle differently. if he'd struggled going from misery to that hard accusation: ''i believed you. i trusted that everything would be fine when your brother wanted to take my sister home. because of you.''
in contrast, ag's delivery of ''today, it's not a question of yours or mine; today it's a question of right and wrong. you didn't do the right thing by my brother.'' -- there was a little lisp in her voice as if heer was sooo shattered at what prem was saying that she was losing control over her diction, her voice! that was ... superb! completely mind-blowing. and she did it once more at another emotionally heart-wrenching moment -- which was sooo brilliantly done
and it struck me: even when prem had ... ''apparently died'', heer was either totally disbelieving -- ''if it's in prem's control when he makes promises, then why is he not in control when he is to keep them?'' -- or totally shattered -- that horrible horrible scene where she gets to see the cctv recording of prem's stooooopid instructions to the junejas and to her! this is the first time, we are being allowed to see heer's reaction to her conviction that prem-heer-are-one being shaken. that conviction that kept her going strong all through the prem-disasters so far -- his ''apparent death'', his ''i'm-hip-hop, not prem'' stunt, his ''apparent hole-in-the-prem'' actions. that conviction is being shaken just now, and ag-as-heer's voice was totally superb in how we got to see that.
*sigh* i soooo love the prem-heer drama in this show that i really don't give too much of a damn 'bout anything else. but i must admit -- i'd be a leetle unfair if i didn't note some important ... little things. š
* little thing: 'kay, i am seriously puzzled at why -- even when the cops came to arrest him -- lj did not intercede on nihaal's behalf. either to the cops. or to prem when he appears so inflexible about getting nihaal arrested. is lj feeling sooo hopeless about nihaal's case? or does he feel, in his heart of hearts, that nihaal deserves to be punished 'cause vitchface is dead?
* little thing: 'kay, ashlesha is beginning to creep me out big time! i always found it weird when she went around called heer di.
but now, she is also overhearing conversations -- so like dirtchachi used to do. and pull off commiserating faces and sympathetic words of advice (to heer?? about prem??!!!) -- like dirtchachi used to. and...
i don't like ashlesha. even when preet and she were going around. didn't. i just don't. i suspect i never will.
* little thing: it is amazing how truly hopeless things look for nihaal, no? the junejas are against him. his neighbours are against him. he, himself, is against him. i mean, why else would've he have walked up to the house of the mother that starts screeching with hatred the moment she catches sight of him!
the only person who speaks out is heer. even meher just looks shattered, but doesn't appear to be brave enough to speak out for him.
* little thing: btw, was anyone else amazed that when nihaal appeared at the jzoo for vitchface's bones (what a duffer he was to have done that, donchya think??) the juneja brothers didn't pile on to hit him and kick him out of the house?
in fact, harman actually pulled gaali-maa** off nihaal?? no? no-one else found that odd?
* little thing: prem-heer standing back to back.. prem denying heer's voice entry into his heart, almost forcibly, by raising his hand to shut her off! remember the last time he had done that??
they were at the chawl, and there was a party celebrating his winning the businessman-of-the-year award. and prem overheard the nasty man talking to meher, demanding that heer return his loan to him! and when meher tries to give prem an explanation to bail out heer, prem raised his hand to shut her off. and now, he does it to heer...
* little thing: 'kay, gaali-maa is seriously scary right now. but y'know what's odd? i can understand this avatar of gayatri-mom. i could never understand gementor! i never could understand how gayatri-mom one day just became this twisted creature who differentiated between step-children and own-children. and who thought heer had stolen her family under her own nose.
but this vicious, cold, biting, blood-thirsty creature, who lights lamps vowing they will never die while her daughter's soul is unhappy? i'm afraid that i can understand where she is coming from. far better than what created gementor.
i don't like it. i don't really see why this was the only way for her to go. 'cause a gayatri-mom who lost her daughter wouldn't have become this version of gaali-maa. who is sooo anti-heer. that anti-heer-ism came from the gementor part of her life. but at least, she has a reason for existence.
what a pity she exists in the same space-time-framework as prem-heer... who are going to have to so much more misery 'cause she does.
*sigh* it'd be nice to think that this is the worst ever episode in the life of prem-and-heer-are-one. but i am guessing it isn't. that vow means that gaali-maa will do everything it takes to get heer out of her life. and that's okay with me. what i'm really curious to see is if prem will be in gaali-maa's life or not. now that i'm willing to w&w for...
and i don't like ashlesha. *brr*
highlight of the episode: prem's heart-wrenching cry: ''i have lost something! i have lost my baby sister!'' heer's unbelieveably painful ''when has it become yours and mine, prem? i thought we were one family?''. or heer telling prem ''i can't bear it if you take a wrong step. please prem, don't do anything wrong!'' as if more than anything else, what heer cares about is the purity of prem's actions, prem's soul. which .. *sigh* .. is probably just about right for heer! man, prem-heer-are-soooo-one... it's just not a very... pretty sight anymore, no? but then, i guess that is what being one through the good times, and the bad times is all about??
*sigh* i think i've just finished all the happiness energy that i got from eating two-two desserts tonight just in writing up this bt,lt. hmm. i think i need to go down and raid the fridge for leftovers now... yup! 2:30am -- is a good time to raid kitchens! š
see you, phorum pals! have ... uh ... hmm! having phun might be a difficult thing today? well, have great prem-heer-memories! 'cause this time last year, weren't our two-some getting really cosy down in that wonderful chawl in ludhiana? š keep smiling till the next bt,lt? see you!
**: gaali-maa. that's gayatri-maa turned gementor turned kaaali-maa!
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