Enjoy everyone!😃
My heart says..heart says..
Cant be true
I couldn't think straight. Seeing her look like an angel coming down the stairs, why did she always have this effect on me? Just like an angel dressed in pristine white, she was gliding down the stairs, her face lit up with a magnificent smile, giggling with the girl I was 'supposed' to be in love with; Ashlesha. Stop Preet, I told myself. I do love Ash. I turned back facing the mandir, confused with my mind. Had I ever really professed my love for her? Everyone just assumed after Prem Bhaiyya and Heer Bhabhi left the house that Ash and I would be together. No one had given me the chance to back out of, and before I could clear out my feelings.
Jaane kya chaahe mann..bawra
Jaane kya chaahe mann..bawra
Ankhiyan meri..sawaan chala
Ankhiyan meri...sawaan chala
Meher was my friend, I shouldn't have been thinking about her like this, she was my friend, but more than that she was Ash's cousin. I was stuck in a predicament just like Ash was when she was engaged to Prem Bhaiyya, and in love with me. Love...what was love? The four letter word, L-O-V-E. For me it was watching PB and Heer bhabhi, did Ash and I ever look at each other that way? Why was it that whenever my eyes met Meher's I wanted to stop time and continue gazing on at her, but then I'd look at Ash, and more than anything, I'd feel guilt. Guilt for what would happen to her if I TOO left her, she didn't have her parents, and if she'd lose me--what did she have in her life? I smiled at that thought, this was something PB would be thinking of--making sure no one else was hurt with his decision. I even know when this transition happened with me; thinking practically. I liked having the feeling that despite me wanting other things, I was trying to do what was right. I couldn't stand not looking at her again, so I turned and saw her at the bottom of the stairs and when she turned her face towards mine, both our smiles reached our eyes. There was something about her--I couldn't help but smile being around her.
Sajan aasuan mein kya zor hove
Saghan aanchal saravor hove
Sajan aasuan mein kya zor
Kya zor hove ..apne jiya pe
Mann to mara ye manchala
Seeing her smile like that, tugged at my heart, but then I saw Ash come towards me, happily bringing Meher along.
"Bolo na Preet. Meher kaisi lag rahi hain?" Ash asks, putting her index finger underneath Meher's chin.
Meher raised her eyes to meet mine, waiting for my response, but I couldn't look into her chocolate eyes and now that in about 10 minutes she'd be getting engaged to my own brother.
"Bilkul pari ki tara," I said softly, and then was about to turn away when Ash grabbed my hand.
"Suno,"
I could only pray she wasn't going to ask me how she looked, I didn't want to lie. She looked as beautiful as she always down but right now; my eyes were glued to Meher.
"Tum Meher ko chat pe leke jaoge?" Ash asked her voice soft. Meher's eyes got wide and she hit Ash's shoulder.
"Stop it, Preet ko pareshaan mat karo," She frowned.
"Mujhe koi takleef nahin hain," I said lying through my teeth. No pain. Looking at her right now was pain. Knowing she was going to be Harman's WIFE was pain.
"Chale to?" Meher smiled her sweet smile at me, while I let her lead the way up to the terrace.
Ankhiyan meri ..sawaan chala
She was looking just like the moon, no wait. She was looking more beautiful than even the full moon that shone down on us. The light glow added more of shimmer on Meher.
"Tumhe yahaan kyun aana tha?" I asked keeping my voice soft.
Meher turned to face me. "Mujhe yahaan sukoon milta hain. Neeche itna sab kuch ho raha hain," Her face was missing that smile. The smile that made me want to smile. She went to sit on the swing and patted the seat next to her and so I went and sat down with her. "Tumhe kabhi aisa laga hain--ke jise tum shaadi karne ja rahe ho--woh tumhare liye na bana ho?"
Badra chanda se mann judta jaave
Pawan purva mein yoon uddta jaave
Badra chanda se mann judta jaave
My heart started to beat faster. Did she mean Ash and me? Or was she talking about herself and Harman either way, I wanted to know how this conversation was going to end. "Kya matlab?"
She stood up and walked to the railing sighed. "Mujhe--mujhe nahin pata ke jo main kar rahi hoon woh theek hain ya nahi,"
Toote patang ki dor sa..
Jaane kya chaahe mann..bawra
Ankhiyan meri sawaan chala
I stood up and walked to her, right then a gust of wind blew, making her hair whip around my face, I inhaled her scent whole-heartedly. She was just so perfect, but she wasn't mine.
"Tum aapni aur Harman ki baat kar rahi ho--" I took a deep breath. "Ya meri aur Ash ki?"
She turned around right away, and backed up seeing how close we were to each other. "Tum aur Ash?"
I closed my eyes and walked away from her. "Maine usse kabhi pyar nahin kiya Meher, I--love..."
"You? Love?" She asked, coming up from behind me.
I couldn't stop myself now. "I love YOU," I looked up and saw those eyes, the eyes that could read my soul. "Hamesha se tumhi thi. Meri neendon mein, mere khwab mein--" I looked away. I didn't want her to feel obligated but now it was too late. "Mujhe tumhe batana nahi chaiye tha,"
"Ka--kabse?" She asked her voice cracking.
"Pyar? Pyar to pehle se hi, lekin mujhe pata abhi chala, jab tumne Harman bhaiyya se shaadi karne ke liya haan kaha,"
She shut her eyes, and looked so in pain, I wanted to take her in my arms and erase this whole thing. "I'm sorry Meher,"
She looked up and blinked her eyes, pushing back the tears. "Tum--tum aisa?" She turned away looking furious with me. "Tumne pehle kyun nahin kaha?"
"Kehna chatha tha," I tried explaining.
"Kab?" She turned away and was about to wipe away her tears, until I caught her hand and wiped the tears away with my left hand. "Bahot der ho chuki hain Preet. Ab kuch nahin ho sakhta,"
"Kyun kuch nahin ho sakhta?" We both froze as we heart two voices coming from the darkness. We turned and saw both Harman Bhai and Ash come into view. Harman Bhai had a soft expression, but Ash--she was crying. I didn't know what to do now. Normally I would just goof off and say this was just a joke, but this time, something told me nothing would erase this memory from our minds--if we ever got past it.
Harman Bhai came upto Meher and held her shoulders and looked into her eyes. "Tum mujhse pyar karti ho?"
He couldn't ask her like that, it's not fair to her; I looked quickly at Ash and knew her eyes were asking me the same question, I wanted to nod, to take away all her insecurities, but I was helpless at this point.
Meher slowly shook her head. "Harmanji main..."
"Bas. Aur kuch nahin. Tum Preet se pyar karti ho?" He asked.
Meher's eyes quickly darted to my face, than back to Ash and then last on Harman.
"Harman, yeh nahi bolegi," Ash said softly. She walked upto Meher and placed her hand on her other shoulder, wrapping it around her. "Tum keh sakhti ho Meher,"
"Par Ashlesha--" Meher tried to interrupt.
"Nahi kuch aur nahin, haan ya na. Tum Preet se pyar karti ho?"
My heart stopped while we all waited for an answer; finally she looked back into m y eyes and nodded. It took all my energy not to start jumping and doing my happy dance, but that all went away when I saw the look on Harman and Ash's face.
"Then it's final," Harman said slowly. "Tumhari sagai hogi aaj, aur Juneja parivaar main hi hogi, lekin faraq sirf itna, ke mujhse nahin. Preet se."
I looked up at Harman Bhai, unable to believe that he was actually doing this. I knew how much love he had for Meher, but still he was sacrificing it for me, just like I had planned to do for him. This is what our family taught us. It wasn't just PB who had it in him. The rest of us just had to dig a little deeper.
I wanted to talk to Ash, to make sure she'd be okay, but the look in Harman Bhai's eyes told me he'd take care of her, they both went downstairs with the excuse that they'd explain everything to Ma Bauji, I didn't even want to think of what they would think when they found out.
But right now, someone else had my attention. "Tum--tumne kabhi kaha nahin?"
"To?" Meher started weeping now. "Tumne bhi to nahin kaha. Aur waise main ladki hoon, mein kaise pehle kehdo?"
I couldn't help but smile at her frustration, I slowly walked towards her, and then as I got close enough, my arms immediately went around her, and she melted into the embrace. This was how it was meant to be from the first time. Just us, together.
We were called down after, and Meher went back to her room to refresh her makeup and Prem Bhaiyaa took me aside and smiled.
"Tu mera hi bhai hain," He smiled.
"Koi shak?" I retorted. "PB, ma bauji?"
"Theek hain, sabse zyaada dhuk to Ash ko hi hua hain, lekin woh is waqt Meher ke saath hain," Prem Bhaiyya told me softly.
"I'm sorry," I said.
"Don't be. Tumne pyar kiya hain, aur tum mein itni shakti hain ke tum keh sako. I'm proud of that," Prem smiled and hugged me, and I hugged him back, silently thanking god for giving me a family who were always together and supported each other.
Then Vikas came to tell us that Kul di was calling us to the main room. I made my way to the chair in the center, waiting for the chair next to me to get filled up, and when it did, I felt ecstatic.
Cant be true
Jaane kya chaahe mann..baawra
Ankhiyaan meri sawaan chala..
Ma gave me a ring that I slowly put on Meher's trembling hand, and when she extended her hand to give me my ring, I couldn't help but smile thinking how ideal it was that me and Harman Bhai had the same ring size. With both our rings on, and our faces smiling, we knew it was it. We'd be together now. The way our hands interconnected, the rings sparkling in the light, this was meant to be.
Ankhiyaan meri sawaan chala..
Surprisingly enough, I tried keeping the climax longer, but as usual, I think the ending was rushed, I didn't know how to slow it down properly! 😔
Love you all loads,
Meera😳