" Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together."
"It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you ."
" You don't die from a broken heart.. you only wish you did.
How can I forget you when you are always on my mind? How can I not want you when you are all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?
Why am I afraid to lose you when you're not even mine...
Part 5
P2 sat in the garden...completely amazed at herself. She could not understand what was happening to her. Was she getting attracted to Nihaal? Why suddenly did she not have any control over her heart? Her brain flashed back...to the dance. She rembered the way she was holding onto Nihaal. They way she was lost in his eyes...toher it seemed that thsoe eyes had a story in them...they wanted to say something. She was so confused. But then everytime she looked at her twin boys she saw Saksham in them. She could not move on since his death. Then why now was she automoitcally moving on? But why did it seem wrong to move one with her life... ? She thought to herself.." Main sirf saksham se pyaar... main kisi aur ke baare mein soch bhi nahin sakti..."With that decision she wiped the tears in her eyes and stood up and went inside to the party.But why was her heart not accepting that decision... Why did Nihaal's image come in her head again......
That night P2 stood in the front of the mirror, removed her jewelry. Nihaal was sitting behind her on the sofa and he was working on his laptop. He was tired, but he had to finish his project..tomorrow morning was a big presentation for him. Getting that contract would mean everything for him. he was going over the presentation on the laptop. The rays of the laptop always irritated his eyes, that's why he prefferred working on the computer. He rubbed his eyes and looked up and saw her standing there. He saw that confusion and pain in her eyes. Again he could not help but notice how simply beautiful she looked without the jewelry/ornaments. Her simplicity always drew him towards her... He was dazed in her completelly...b4 he knew it.. she was all changed and wore a pink night gown.... The baby pink color suited her complexion, it hugged her delicate curves. She ran her fingers through those long silky hair of hers...She sat down on the bed...and atlast said "Bohat kaam hai?" He replied "Haan...baas ye contract mujhe kaal mil jaaye...ye mera dream project hain...." P2 smiled and reassured him that he would get the contract. For some reason her reassurance meant everything.... She laid down and dirfted into sleep. Nihaal worked verylate that night...He got up to turn of the lamp..He saw P2 sleeping. God! He thougth tohimself... she looked so serene..so pure and so beautiful...He noticed that the window was open and the wind was blowing and she had no blanket on. He got up and covered her with the blanket. As he reached with the blanket past her chest. He saw a starand of hair in her eye. He gently removed that from her face. After removing the strand of hair with his fingers....he let his fingers rest on her cheek..and before he kenw it he was gently stroking her soft rosy cheeks. Just then he realized...he had no right over her...he had no right to touch her..to show her how much he loved her....He slowly removed his finger from her face..and he walked away..turned off the lamp and drifted to sleep on the sofa.... P2 opened her eyes...and touched her cheek...as if she could feel his warm, loving touch again...She wanetd to relive that moment...She wanted more than that...She shuddered at that thought....
That morning she woke up early and saw Nihaal...on that sofa..on his stomach..with a small smile on his lips. he looked like a little kid.. who needed care, and affection and most of all love. She suddenly could not stop herself. She walked up to the sofa. She kneeled down and jsut looked at him. Then she ran her fingers through his silky hair....and ruffled them..She suddenly felt him moving. She quickly got up..and left....
The next entire day she waited....Waited? Yes Waited! Wited for what? She waited for the call of Nihaal's success...For some reason from her heart she hoped that he would call her and let her know...share his happiness with her....The whole day went by..her heart sank...he hadn't called her...she tried calling him..but his cell phone was turned off...she wanted to call the office number...but she decided not to...she was so unsure...!
That evening Tanisha and Manisha came into P2's room and said "Bhabie..Hum log..aapke aur nihaal bhaiyya ke shaadi ke photgraphs dekhna chahte hain...." A sinking feeling rose in P2..she herself had never seen hers and Nihaal's wedding pics..but now she rembered that often she caught Nihaal looking at them...She casualually said "Thik hain..mian aabhie laati hoon..." She herself had no idea, where the album was.. She looked in all the cupboards and could not find them. Tanisha sharply said "Common bhabhii..kahan hai...?" P2 impatiently said "Ek minute..dhund rahi hoon..." She noticed a cupboard and a lock on it. She thoguht to herself...maybe the pics r in that cupboard....but she had no idea where the key was..so frantically and deperarately she searched while tanisha and manisha patiently waited. Atlast she found them..! Along with the two girl she too sat down curiously to look. Tanisha said as if knowing that P2 never saw the pics "Bhabhie...aap toh aise dekh rahi hain...jaise aap ne kabhie ye phots dekhe hi nahin..." P2 quickly and defensively said "Ofcourse..maine pehle bhi dekhe hain..!" Tanisha smiled toherself knowing that she was lying. P2 kept looking at them. She completelly forgot while looking at the pics..how tense she was on the wedding day....she infact smiled at the pics..a little.. Just then they cam across a damged album page and manisha said "Arrey bhabie...eeesme mein so photos gir chuke hain..aisa lagta hain..." P2 looked and indeed some pics were missing. She walked over to the cupboard and saw the fallen pics there...as she was getting those..she saw a brown leather diary..she opened it and after flipping open the cover...she saw pictures of her in that diary....
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Mannat Har Khushi Paane Ki
