"All I ever wanted was love, all I ever needed was love. all I ever got was a broken heart."
"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter"
" Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you "
~Part 6~(Dedicated to Noha)
Tanisha's cell phone rang. She said on the phone "Haam...aabhi aate hain..same place..." Manisha asked "Oh yah..main toh bhool hi gayi hamein Aanchal se milne jaana tha..." Tanisha said "Bhabhie...." As P2 was shuffling through the cupoard...Tanisha said "Hamein hare ek friend se milne jaana hai..hum log woh pictures badme dekh lenge..." P2 turned around and said "Thik hain..." They both left....
P2 shuffled through the cupboard and found the pictures. She looked through them. As she was about to shut the cupboard. In the corner she saw a Brown leather diary. She reached for it and took it out. She went over to the bed where the album was and put the wedding pictures in there. She looked at the diary and it had no name on it. She wondered whose it was. Then she flipped the diary's cover open and on the first page were a stac of photos and the first photo on the cover was P2's. She was amazed. So she carefully took out the stack and started flipping through the pictures. To her surpirse and shock there were her stills! It was jsut her in the pictures and no one else. Here are some of the pics she saw in the diary
It completely blew her mind to see those pictures of her. Some recent and some old. Some were from wayyy back. She was shocked and now she had to know whose diary it was. Why did they contain her pictures? She looked back at the diary. On the left side there was no name. On the right side of the diary where the stack of pictures were...there was name...and it said ...P2. She was very curious.So immediately she turned the page. On the first page the handwriting seemed evry familiar...but for some reason she could not recall it. She adjusted herself comfortably on the bed and stressed her mind till she figured out whose handwriting it was...NIHAAL! She thought to herself that this was NIhaal's diaary...She tohught that she had no right to read someone's diary...But then why did the name on the diary say P2...WHy were her pictures in there? She needed the answer to her questions. The anser to her questions was the diary.The first page said "P2.. What can I say? No girl has ever made me feel this way..I've never looked at someone this way. I have never felt about someone this way. Is this what is called love? Everyday I see her at the office..my heart skips a beat. From my cabin i steal looks of her..I look at her serene,pure beauty. There is something about her that attracts me to her. Going to the office everyday is special because she is there. So what significane is she holding in my life?"
P2 was surpirsed and amazed....she checkd the date..it was the time she joined the Garewal business......It was when she joined Nihaal's office! She knew she had to read more. The next date on the page had a gap and it said "What's happening to me? I argue with her so much..but its fun....yes..fun? why? because its her... She does everything wrong...but thats not effecting me which is quite a surpirse....I've been told by other that I should fire her...but there is no way! I am not gonna let her go....." The next page's date was even farther apart and it said "I am supposed to be focusing on work...but I cannot...my mind keeps drifting off to her....I don't know why.. I am thinking of her every minute..I miss her every minute...Only if she was here with me....I can't believe I am saying this but I think..I am in love.....Love with P2..." That page shocked P2! She jsut could not belive it! So it meant that Nihaal was in love with her from a long time! He his his feelings for a year. She suddenly recalled how much she hated his profffesionalism, his bossy attitude....she walys thought he was agressive..when she worked for him... Then when she got married to him..she suddenly saw that there was a very soft and caring side to him which he always hid. She tohught that myabe he had jsut changed after their marrigage. But not she realized he was a normal humna being who needed love...She immediately turned the page which said "I am in the plane..retruning...God! Why won't this time just pass by! I am going to tell her today! Tell her what I feel for her...Tell her that "I love her" That she has become everything to me..Relax! Nihaal! Relax! I am nervous..Yes..me! Nihaal Garewal is nervous! I am going to tell her! Will she accpet my love?"
P2 did not want to think..she flipped the next page which was a few dated later which said " I was so crazy! I was stupid! How did I ever think that she was going to love someone like me! I don't care...if she doesn't love...it doesn't matter...Then why does it hurt so much! Why is it that I shed tears for her..Why is it that deep down inside...I need her....Need her badly..She loves someoneelse...Saksham...Luckiest man in the world...that he got the love of such a wonderful person...P2......From today I won't ever write in this diary! I will never think of you... I swear....Love hurts..!" P2 got up...Tears filled her eyes. She sat down on the floor...Tears jsut kept falling down her cheeks..She could not belive it! She could not belive that Nihaal had loved her so much....She noticed why the diary entries were brief...It was Nihaal..he never spoke to any1 about his feelings...she figured out that he was the person whokept everything bottled up inside...even these diary entries were big for him...since he never confided his feelings...Just these little words were hurting P2. How could she be so stupid and never recognize his love? His beautiful love...She had a feeling that the next page would have something written..So she turend the page and indeed there was something written...The date was of Saksham's death..It said"Today my brother..my best friend..left..my everything....Why God!?" Then with a few lined skipped and it said "I know that from today on I will never see a smile on P2's face... How could god be so cruel and take away all her happiness??? Why was fate so unfair to her and Skasham's love...First all i wanted was her love but that wasn't mine then all i waned was her happiness..Why god? Why did u take her happiness, her life away.....Why did fate have to play such tricks on her?" Her tears wet that page. P2 never thought that someone would care about her so much....So much....She never thought that her happiness was his happiness and her sorrow would become his reason to cry......On The next page was the date of her wedding with Nihaal.That page said "Today is a big step of my life...I promise myself to never ever hurt P2.I will not force any realtionship on her..unti she is ready....I will wait for her love....If that never comes...My only duty will be to give her all my love,care,support....I will try my best to keep her happy....." The next date was a month after their marriage..."I have failed...P2 is not happy in any way...It hurts to see the one you love happy with someone else but it hurts even more to see the one you love..unhappy with you...She is unhappy with me.....She is not happy with this marriage at all......I see her shriveled up in a corner crying and sobbng to herself..I cannot do anything..Damn! I feel so helpless....I want that smile back on eh face..I want to take away all her pain...I want to give her all the happiness she deserves....." A gush of fresh warm tears came out of P2's eyes... She said to heself sobbing "Meri Khushi ke baare mein tumhe eetna khayal tha Nihaalll...Eeetna....Aur maine tumahre pyaar ko kabhie nahin samjha...." She jsut could not read anymore..She closed to diary...put the pictures back in.She put everything back in the cupboard and locked it....She leaned backagainst the wall...closed her eyes and tohught of how she never understood Nihaal...Never.......Her heart was now reaching out for him....She now wanted to be there for him....She was now starting to understand his feelings.....It was time now that she became his wife from her heart........😳
Edited by hil4eva - 16 years ago
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