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Entry No. 10 :
Forever_Always
Prologue
Jai Walia, the sexy, rich and famous. Too friendly and a flirt by nature yet knows his priority in life. He is the youngest in his family and the only son and lives with his Masi in Mumbai. Has only one sister 15 years older than him married to a great guy, Aditiya and has 3 children.
Tarun Dixit, Jai's best friend and confidante. Tarun is the more serious and the reserved kind, the older sibling of the Dixit family. Has two sisters Rano after him and the baby in the house Bani! Tarun is from Mt Abu. Tarun loves his sisters but Bani is his favorite.
Jai and Tarun met at Boarding school when both their families had sent them to the famous boarding school in Delhi where majority of the rich went to study. After which they studied at Harvard, Jai concentrating in business and Tarun in law. .
Jai always went to Mt Abu for vacations with Tarun as he loved the scenery and enjoyed being part of the family. The family loved him and he was never treated as an outsider. Bani, however was in love with Jai. Always has been but to Jai she has never been anything else other than Tarun's baby sister.
It was the boy's home coming after their graduation at the fresh age of 23. Jai is to follow his dads step into leading the Walia Industries and Tarun has decided to pursue a career in business law.
Chapter 1
Raashi pushed Bani forward to the mirror placing the dress infront of her: yeh achi lagti hai…..?
Bani: mujhe nahi phena….
Rashi: magar kiu
Bani: Raashi I don't think he likes me that way
Rashi leaning on her bed….how do u know…..u haven't seen him for 2 whole years…maybe his changed…..filing her nails and talking to Bani!
Bani put her head in her hands and sighed: oh Raashi what if his changed.
Rashi: oh common …..why do u think like that…..didnt he say that once u finish high school u will discuss it further….
Bani: yeah but maybe he said that coz I was only16 year old crazy after him…
Rashi: and now…?
Bani; and now I know that I really really love him….oh Raashi looking at her as she shoved her head into her dress, what am I going to do? what if he doesn't feel that way
Rashi: Bani why are you worried phele batein toh karke dheko
Bani: yeah u are right but
Rashi: no buts, he will be here today and you will know by tomorrow so shut up and get in bed yaar, hitting on the space beside her.
Bani fell on the bed close by her best friend's side. Closing her eyes, she had always been attracted to Jai. He was strong, muscular and gorgeous. Whenever he would come home she would get so excited and would always want to be at her best in front of him. Creasing her brows she thought how crazy and stupid she must have looked. She didn't think Jai had realized it and had played along to her tantrums until her 16th birthday party when she had openly declared her love for him and had bluntly told him how she felt. Jai had been drunk that night. Placing her hands over her lips she remembered that light kiss he had placed on her lips and had said that he liked her too.
She had been disappointed then because he had than bid her goodnight and had left. She still remembered his words the next morning:
Jai: Bani u are only 16 …hum kiu na thumare high school finish hojane par phir baath kare …..u know that u will be more sure of ur feelings towards me after that. Smiling touching her cheeks affectionately.
But for her it was more than a kiss it was special. The day was special. It wasn't only Bani's birthday but a special day. Her birthday fell on the 14th of February. It was the day for lovers. For people who were in love. And she was! She was in love with Jai Walia.
After that day he had left with bhaia to go back to college and they hadn't returned back since.
Gone was the BAni of those days…tom boyish and careless, running around in jeans and shorts…now she resembled more of a girl that she already was. Gone were those skinny bony legs and short bob cut hair. Now she was a girl in every respect. Her hair falling to up to the middle of her back, straight at top, wavy at the bottom, she had developed the right curves and was becoming into a very beautiful young woman.
Rashi had dozed off, soon bhaia ayege aur saath meh…Jai…gosh how must he be….would he have put on weight…would he remember what he said to me…would he even consider me. She had changed so much than when he saw her last. Than she was a hyper teenager turning sixteen. Now at the age of 18 she was calmer and had a better understanding of feelings and emotions. Her love for him was stronger than ever.
The horns beeped, running to her balcony she stared out to find bhaia's BMW parked infront of the garage. Shaking Raashi….rashi uth uth….woh log agaye!
Raashi: sone de yaar…turning to face her back she tried to ignore Bani
Bani: pushing her off the bed as Rashi fell down on the side wide awake looking at the clock…kya hua kya hua??
Rashi: kya yaar its 1am…mujhe sone bhi nahi deti….
Bani: they are here Raashi…they are here jumping on the bed….dressed in her pajaymas and slippers. Hair done in two braids on each side of her head…suddenly she felt all dizzy to go meet them…or rather him….
Raashi pulling on her hands she headed down…aab chalo bhi, kitne aaram se sorahi thi…bhook bhi lagi hai…
Chapter 2
Jai: man it sure feels good to be home, Jai stretched, it was a 12 hour flight and than 3 hours drive
.
Tarun: tel me about it, closing his trunk as they got their stuff out
As Nishikant Dixit helped the boys out….it was way past midnight and all of them were really hungry….: common boys? He ushered them into the house.
Kiran Dixit with her pooja thali first welcomed her son and than Jai…both taking her blessings as Tarun hugged Rano and spotted Bani
Tarun: Bani……hey! Opening his arm to his little sister…
Bani smiling shyly as she came running hugging Tarun: hi bhaia….stealing glances at Jai who didn't even notice her….busy hugging Rano and talking to the others….
Tarun: Raashi, as Tarun hugged Raashi with a smile on his lips!
Raashi: hi Tarun, not really interested …..Hugging him back
Jai looking at Bani, giving her only a glimpse and than giving her a quick hug…..hey Bani…looking good…and than: common aunty we are hungry khana kaha hai
As everyone left for the kitchen Bani stood there in the hallway starring at his back….things were different she knew it…he didn't even smile at her affectionately……
Raashi pulling her best friend: common lets go…..it's alright….Bani crying inside as she joined the rest of them.
The conversation was loud around the table….as everyone talked about happenings and Jai and Tarun going on and on about what they were planning to do now ……suddenly Bani put on the spot
Bani hello??? Bani??
Bani looking up: huh not knowing who spoke…her heart in turmoil and her mind working overtime (why didn't he talk to me….does he not like me anymore …..He did say we would talk after I finish high school …and I have 3 months ago)
Everyone was laughing Rano looking at her little sister: Areh bhai pooch raha hai ke aab tum kya karogi….???
Jai finally decided to look at her as Bani looked away to her plate playing with her fork. She had changed a lot, the babyish fat gone, she looked more like a girl with the long hair, but very much that small young girl he looked in her two braids and pajamas. Jai laughing with everyone: let me guess get married and settled down with kids, what say Bani?
It was so hurting to be judged liked that. Tarun bhaia and Rano didi were always the smart one and Bani well she just managed. Everyone knew that she wasn't the smartest of the lot. Always just managing to pass her exams and being capable to make it to the next grade. She had struggled really hard to pass her final exams from high school and had managed to graduate but still nobody expected anything from her.
Bani looked up at them sadness reflecting in her eyes yet she smiled at Jai: yes you are right, I plan to get married and have tons of children. That is exactly how I have planned my life.
Chapter 3
Getting up she started to help clear the table and began with the dishes, dismissing the servants from the kitchen, she needed to be busy, not wanting to talk to anyone. Raashi came to help, you okay buddy, Bani looked up to the only person who really understood her,
Bani: I will survive; everyone knows that I'm not the smart one.
Raashi: why didn't u tell them that u have been accepted at the top universities here in India
Bani: Do you think they care, hers moist yet not crying.
Raashi: what about Jai??
Bani: look at him Rashi as he laughed and played around with the others enjoying his tea, do u think a person like him will love me back let alone marry me, he might as well get someone like Rano didi. You know the smart kind wagera wagera!
Rashi: oh babes don't say that.
Bani: it's true! With a ache in her heart and a huge sigh she managed.
Raashi??? Someone was calling for Raashi, as she gave Bani a quick hug kissing her cheek: I love you babes u know that right….Bani smiling at her: go on… I am fine
Bani was wiping the counter tops when Jai slipped in to put his cup only to stop and lean at the door entrance to the kitchen and stare at her, she had grown to be so beautiful in the last two years and he felt like a bum making that statement. He shouldn't have done that. House chores huh, maybe she is serious about getting married.
She had always been attracted to him, he knew but what could he do, she was still Taruns baby sister and he never really wanted to go out with kids. Though she had grown up what 2 years more!
Knocking lightly he entered the kitchen, Bani looked up but instead of standing and listening she undid her apron and decided to leave the kitchen.
Jai: Bani tehro main tumse baath karna chata hu!
Bani: stopped without turning to look at him
Jai: I know that when I was here last time, things had happened and I had said that we would talk after you finish high school. And now u must understand that it was just a teenage crush u had on me. I was drunk that night and maybe I had kissed you but it meant nothing, I just got carried away as I wasn't in a clear state of mind so I just wanted to make sure that u knew that.
Bani stood there her eyes moist. A teenage crush! Shutting her eyes tight she stood there listening to him like a zombie. Yes she was 16 when she finally recognized the fact why she felt hurt when he gave other girl's attention or the fact that when he paid her compliments she would glow like a light bulb. Just the mere sight of him would light up her entire world. If he was stressed or worried she would worry for him. Yes it was love, love since when she didn't know, but it was love for her. Calling it a crush just like that hurt so much.
Jai not waiting for her to turn: you are a grown up girl now Bani, and I know that now you have realized that it was a mere crush. It happens, mere saath bhi bhouth baar hua hai. Now I have a girl friend too, nothing serious but she exists!
Bani winced at that thought, she couldn't believe it, and he loved someone else and not her. She was such a fool to even think he would come back home and take her back in his arms and tell her that he loved her very much.
Jai: Bani I am sorry if I had hurt you then but for me you a just Tarun's sister that's all….the
Before Jai could speak any further Bani turned to face him her tears falling, unashamedly she looked right at him…
Bani: a mere cursh, lips quivering…. no Jai you are wrong …meh tumse umar meh choti hu, main yeh janti hu magar pyar main umar kisne dhekha hai
Jai just stared at her he really felt disturbed to see her tear stained face and didn't know how to react to it, did she really mean …
Bani: yes looking straight into his eyes. I meant every word Jai, I love you and have always loved you Jai. Forever and Always! I don't know from when, magar maine hamesha se tumse pyar kiya hai and im not afraid to admit it.
Before Jai could digest what she had said Bani turned and ran up the stairs to her room. Closing her room door, she fell on the bed crying. How could I be so stupid? Meh itna pagal kabse hogai? Ofcoz he didn't like me, main kaha aur woh kaha??? His so intelligent and smart and good looking, Aur main breaking into uncontrollable sobs.
Jai headed to his room for the night and still couldn't get rid of that hurtful gaze from Bani. Those deep jet black pupils dilated with pain and agony. That look had registered in his head and even though he tried to shrug it off it wouldn't let go. Dismissing his thoughts, he headed to bed. Thore din meh she will be fine, taking the stairs two at a time, he needed to sleep right now. Though sleep was far from coming he had to.
Chapter 4
Kashmir toh jaise koi janat thi. Her University was situated high on the mountains and she had taken a liking to this place instantly. She had the choice of moving to many universities in and out of India but this here is what she needed. The cold chills, the snowy mountains and the beautiful running streams. She was in love with the place. It was the perfect solace of the pain in her heart.
Raashi had gone to study in Mumbai as she was allergic to the molds in the air here and she couldn't come out with Bani. They had cried endlessly hugging each other and had promised to write everyday. She missed her best friend but for her this had been a fresh start. She was doing a business degree in Marketing and Kashmir being one of the major tourist sights was the perfect place to pursue it.
It had been 2 years since she had seen her family and she did miss them at times but she also knew that Tarun bhaia had remained in Mt Abu meaning that Jai would be around always as well. Taking extra courses in summer or winter breaks and always finding a reason to not go home. Sitting on the edge of the stream on Friday evening she looked at the beautiful water flowing from the depths of the mountains and thought of the last argument with her dad.
It had been the next morning after that horrible scene with Jai. She had woken up early and confronted her dad before he had left the house
Bani: par papa kiu nahi…main kiu nahi ja sakti? Not believing her dad
Nishi: beta Mumbai, Mt Abu even Delhi meh itna acha colleges hai toh tum itne door kiu jana chati ho?? Nishi was frustrated with the thought of his baby out alone and in a place where she would have nobody. He didn't even know Bani had thought of even going for further education. School never really did interest her.
Bani: papa but agar bhaia ja sakte hai toh main kiu nahi, Rano didi bhi toh apne maan ke par rahi hai
Nishi: lekin beta?
Rano: janedo na papa, she had entered the room at the right moment. Waha itni dhand hoti hai ke yeh khud ghar ane ki zid karegi! Smiling at Bani and hugging her. Bani I didn't know you were interested in going further with your studies
Bani: pushing her sister's hug back and on the verge of hysteria, what is wrong with everyone? Why cant I go for further studies didi, bhaia ja sakte hai, aap ja skate ho, toh main kiu nahi?? She was openly crying now shouting at them both. It hurt too much, first, the man she thought had loved her and now her own family didn't have any faith in her. She had made a promise to herself that day that she would prove everyone wrong.
Looking at the leaves falling, autumn was around the corner and soon after finals another 3 months of vacation before her final year begins and she becomes a graduate. She couldn't wait for that day. Not having anything else to concentrate on she studied day and night and was sure to graduate with honors. She was happy with her accomplishments. The hurt and bitterness had not left her but she had managed to live with it or rather to deal with it. Long gone were those days when she would cry herself to sleep or look at a picture of him and breakdown. Now she was strong and even if he would come nothing could break her!
Jai on the other hand, had made it to the hit list of success as the months went by. The past 2 years he was renowned the most eligible bachelor in India appearing in magazines, tabloids and the television world. Bani had made sure to keep an abreast of information of the happenings in his life. Currently dating some industrialist's daughter he had been at the premiere of the film fare awards function. Looking at the cover "will she succeed in getting the ravishing Walia?' Was the famous headline in this month's issue of Business Magazine.
Putting the magazine aside Bani folding her legs, hugging it to herself, and looking out at the scenery the cold air touching her face like a balm on her rioted thoughts. She had tried to shut him off her mind, her soul, her heart but no matter what as the days grew she knew she couldn't satisfy her curiosity in any other form. She knew if she met him today she would ignore him like anything but for now who was to know. She knew nobody was ever going to fill that spot in her heart ever. She smiled to herself thinking of her mum's favorite song
'ajeeb daastaan hai yeh, kaha shuru kaha khatam
…….yeh manzile hai kaunsi na woh samaj sake na hum'
Only in this case it was her that didn't know its destiny. Her heart that yearned for what she couldn't have. It was true, whoever wrote those lyrics must have at some point felt what she did.
Chapter 5
"Ring Ring Ring" the phone rang insistently oh God! what is that noise. Turning the bedside lamp on she looked at the clock 5am. She had slept only 3 hours ago, Itne subha kaun hai?. Getting up to answer the call!
Bani: yawning: hello! Trying hard to keep her eyes open, grabbing her robe, It was really cold
Rano: BANI??????????
Bani: didi app …itne subha?? Squeezing her eyes
Rano: Bani im getting married! Her sister shouted on the other side of the phone line.
Bani: kya??
Rano: ha stupid im getting married. She was sounding very excited and Bani smiled, she was really very happy for her sister.
Bani: wow Di that's great, kaab?
Rano: agle mahine? 15th ko? And you have to be here. Before Bani cold argue with her sister Rano stopped her and didn't give Bani a chance to talk. I don't care what happens in this world Bani agar tum nahi ai toh meh yeh shadi nahi karugi. Agar mujhe pheli haldi lagegi toh mere bhen ke haath. Mujhe aur kuch nahi sun na.
3 weeks later Bani was standing at the baggage claim gathering her luggage. She had become really light skinned and her skin very sensitive. A little twitch or irritation in her skin, it would go red. The scorching heat of Mumbai was getting to her. Clad in a body fitting, sleeveless white kameez she looked the perfect image of an actress from a yash raj movie. She could sense a few male heads were turning her way with appreciation but like she cared. The man who she wanted most to do that didn't even give a damn. Swinging her hair back she looked ahead walking up to find who had come to receive her.
No Bani you are going to enjoy this trip! Mentally & emotionally she prepared herself to be strong. She was sure to meet him sooner or later; she had to tell herself that she has to move on in life. And that was exactly what she was going to do! Please Bhagwan meri madath karna!
Jai and Tarun were busy discussing some business deal when Jai turned his head to see what that reflection was hitting his face only to find the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. [He was back in Mt Abu from Mumbai with his entire family. Rano was getting married to his nephew, Sahil and the marriage was to take place here.]
Clad in an off white kameez she looked eternal. You know the feeling when suddenly the wind starts blowing towards you and you start to hear music. The whole world shuts down on you and the only thing visible is that one beauty. That was what was happening to Jai. Never in his 26 years had he felt that way. Wavy loose hair cascading down her back covering some facial expression, tiny shimmering earrings making reflections on his face and thin bangles making the most exotic sound he had ever heard.
Then:
Raashi: Bani??? Bani?? Is that you??? Oh God Bani running up to her best friend. No matter they were states apart they still kept in touch and knew everything about each other.
Bani saw her friend running up and leaving her luggage on the cart also ran forward. Her hair pulled back the wind made from her running Jai for the first time realized it was Bani.
Jai looked shocked at her Bani?? A soft gasp left from his mouth. Was this the same Bani he knew?
As everyone came forward to receive her Jai stood still in his place not believing his fate.
Raashi ended up crying hugging her as Bani hugged her back. Slowly approaching the rest of her family, with her mum hugging her and than her dad all of them crying. Rano approaching them all
Rano; maine kaha tha meri bhen meri shadi meh zaroor ayegi
Bani: didi! Hugging her sister but not once did she cry?
As Tarun and Jai approached them
Tarun: hey Bani…..
Bani lifted her gaze to be met by pair of eyes that had haunted her dreams to date. Walking towards him as Jai stood still mesmerized by her beauty her mere presence. Bani not once moving her gaze walked ahead
Jai about to open his arms for a hug when Bani passed him straight without even looking back
Bani: Bhaia as Tarun lifted his baby sister up into the air.
Tarun: you are looking stunning baby sis. Dad look at her koi mistake na karde koi model ke liye.
Bani; hugging her brother, bhaia, stop it, she smiled back at him with a smile. Her brother was always the one who treated her like a princess no matter what!
Not once did Bani acknowledge Jai. It wasn't easy; she could never forget the hurt as well as making a complete fool of herself that day.
Tarun: have u met Jai? Looking at Jai to let him hug her
Bani without looking: areh mera saman, running back to get her trolley cutting her brother off
Jai had never felt more stupid in his entire life. He didn't know what the feeling was but he didn't like the way he felt.
Chapter 6
Whole week Jai was trying hard to either collide with her in the hallway or to be in the kitchen early in hope that he might catch her alone or to go upstairs to use the bathroom in hope that she might be around her room or come in the hallway upstairs. But no such luck. He didn't know what was getting over him but for some reason he wanted to talk to her, to have her smile at him like she was smiling at everyone else. She had even greeted his Masi with love and warmth and her sister and Aditya but not him. He wasn't able to comprehend what was going on in-between him and in his mind but something was definitely wrong and until he got it out of her he wouldn't be settled.
The mehendi ceremony had begun and up till now Bani was careful not to let anyone aware of the hostility she was giving to Jai. It was just so hard to be in such close proximity yet not be able to talk to him. But this was very important to her. If she didn't make herself strong enough her love for him that she had shoved in the deepest areas of her heart would come flowing out and then she would be a hopeless case. She didn't want to embarrass herself again. Though it was nice being home she had to admit, she had missed everyone terribly.
Clad in a purple and green ghara Bani looked really beautiful. By mere fate Jai had worn the same purple sherwani with green sash to match it. Her hair parted in the middle and held half way at the back leaving the rest open falling like waves all around her. For the first time Jai had seen her really dress up with makeup and jewellery and felt his stomach do a somersault. She was so beautiful.
As Bani descended the stairs running with a thali in her hand Rashi called her. Bani looked back still running when her lengha caught in one of the toe fingers and she almost fell on the last step when she felt strong lean hands grip her. Turning her head towards who the person was? a smile full on her lips. She froze. Jai stared right into her eyes, they were so deep and black, and one could get lost in them. Bani was still at that moment, she didn't know what to do. Looking straight in his eyes she felt caught in them not even able to blink.
Somewhere in the celebrations the song came up
'dil ne kar liya aetbaar humko hogeya tumse pyar
…jaab se mileho mujhe oh janejan tabse hai jana kya hai dil ka lagana
Yeh nighaye teri kargayi mujhe deewana'
Jai didn't know what had overcome him. He was always so composed and in control but ever since Bani came back he wasn't the same person anymore. Looking at her face his gaze stopping at her lips, she quickly licked them in haste and the only thing in Jai's head was to kiss her. Kiss those luscious lips so passionately that she wouldn't have a choice but to talk to him.
Raashi: aahem Bani you alright??? Running down the stairs, she worried for her best friend; she knew how hard this whole thing was for her.
Jai didn't let go but Bani was in reality check now. Passing the thali to Raashi: ha theek ho tu chaal meh ati hu …straightening to look at Jai
Bani: u can let go of me now, sternly yet seriously she managed
Jai: never!
Bani: sorry?? If she didn't hear wrong did he say never.
Jai straightened up: are you okay?
Bani: straightening her dupatta in front: I'm fine trying to move away
Jai held onto her hand looking at her…Bani winced closing her eyes in the mind she was screaming please stop it.
Jai: kaisi ho Bani?
Bani: theek hu trying to get her hand out from his tight grip
Jai: pulling her so that she faced him, watching the tension on her face: kya hua bani why won't you talk to me?
Bani: I didn't think u wanted to talk to a immature, unsuccessful girl. She couldn't help it; there was too much bitterness in her to not say it. It just came out even when she didn't want it to.
You could see the strained line of Jai cheeks as he was trying hard to keep his cool: how are you Bani?
Bani: maine kaha nah Jai meh theek hu, would you please leave me saabhi log dhek rahe hai aur didi mera intezar kar rahi hai.
Jai: you are not immature Bani!
Bani, letting go of her hand angry tears in her eyes. In the space of 2 and half years this was the first time that something got to her and it was the same thing yet again. Stop it just stop it! she hissed. Tum mujse door hi raho samjhe tum. Go to your Miss Model or whoever is your love interest this season but leave me in peace. You have haunted my life far too long now I just want to be in peace.
With that Bani left not looking back, wiping her eyes in a haste smudging her mascara. Raashi looked at her and knew what it was indicating her to go fix her makeup nahi toh everyone will know.
Jai stood there watching her. Did she still have those feelings for him? Did she still have a spot for him in her heart or did she hate him so much? Why did he feel guilty? Why did he want to haul her in his arms and kiss the living day lights out of her? Why?? This was no ordinary girl, this was Bani but what was so special about Bani?
Tarun: areh Jai camcoder kaha hai??
Jai; shit room meh bhool geya abhi laya! Running up the stairs to Taruns room to get the video camera. He didn't see when he turned the corner that Bani was coming the same exact way colliding straight into her both falling on the side sofa in Taruns room. Bani stuck under Jai.
Bani; tum? Get of me! She had just managed to get her makeup redone only to collide in him again. Get of me Jai
Jai: looked at her, why was she so mad at him? I'm sorry Bani par is baar fault thumara hai
Bani: oh shut up and get up, don't use your cheap tactics with me. Main jitna tumse door rhena chati hu tum utni hi mere nazdik ateh ho,..leave me alone. Bani kept talking but Jai wasn't listening to anything she was saying, his eyes in fact were on her lips, they way they were moving and the way they were so close to him that he just had to feel them.
Bani: JAI? She shouted really tired now
Jai: I know I'm not supposed to do this but I am sorry I can't help it. Before she could say or do anything he leaned forward and kissed her. A slow sensual touch and moving back he saw the shocked reaction on her face. Not giving her any time to react or think he bent forward this time holding her face in his palms and kissed her in the most passionate way ever. Bani didn't know what happened but she tried to push him and tried and tried when some inner fire erupted and all was lost in this kiss.
It was after some moment when Jai felt wetness on his palms only to move back to see her eyes closed and tears streaming down her cheeks. As he moved back to stand up, Bani opened her eyes, red! She stared at him, getting up and than breathing hard she gave him a tight slap and ran out of the room. Jai stood there speechless: oh God what have I done? He didn't even notice the slap plastered on his left cheek! Ruffling the side of his hair as Tarun entered the room
Tarun: what yaar chalo neeche sabhi intezar kar rahe hai?? Grabbing the camcorder and following Jai downstairs
Jai looked back to see if Bani was anywhere in sight but to no avail. He went with Tarun but nothing was the same for him anymore.
Chapter 7
Jai sat down on his suitcase. The wedding was done with and everyone was ready to leave with the new bride to Mumbai. But Jai's eyes were only looking for Bani! After that scene she rarely came into view. Only when she was required as the bride's sister or when family pictures were taken. She did not once look at him. He tried on numerous times to get her attention but Bani was a tough shell to break. He was feeling very guilty inside and didn't understand the turn of events in his life but he needed to talk to her. He didn't exactly know what he would say because he didn't regret what he did but he had to talk to her.
As everyone sat in the car Rano turned to ask her mom: Ma Bani kaha hai??
Bani rushing downstairs to greet her sister: sorry di aapke liye madir gayi thi, handing her the Prasad and hugging her sister.
Rano: in an emotional state: tum airport nahi aogi??
Bani: agar meh ai toh bhoth rougi aur phir aap kaise jaoge hugging her sister crying openly now yet laughingly trying to make her sister happy.
Rano: mere liye bhi nahi crying and looking at her baby sister
Bani looked at her and knew that she couldn't say no to her sister, not today, it would hurt her; theek hai didi aapke liye, meh gadi nikalti hu
Tarun: nahi Bani koi baath nahi Jai akele araha hai tum uske saath ajao!
Jai getting up all excited: oh yeah I am traveling alone as I have to stay a few days more for some business deals and my car is empty. So yeah why not! Not wanting to show his excitement.
Bani looked at him ignoring his statement: lekin bhaia meh
Nishi: ha beta doosri gadi ki zarurat nahi hai tum Jai ke saath ajao, chalo der horahi hai.
Jai got in his car but Bani didn't stir. She stood rooted to her spot while the others got in the car and were waiting for Jai. Running the engine he waited for her. Than driving beside her he opened the door for her to get in. Looking ahead to see the other 3 cars waiting for her she got in. Slamming the door shut, hugging her handbag to herself she looked ahead waiting.
Jai smiling pulling his sunny's over his eyes drove ahead. It was a 3 hour drive and for some reason he was happy. Bani looked out not wanting to look at him. The close proximity of the car was disturbing her too much and making her really uncomfortable. The kiss still didn't wear off her. Every night she slept she only dreamt of those lips on hers. Those lean strong arms enclosing her and holding her to him. She needed that to stop. Closing her eyes shut to erase the memory off she turned to look out the window and tried to concentrate on the scenery. It was raining heavily.
Jai: I didn't know rain was so beautiful! trying to start a conversation with her
Bani looked at him and didn't say anything instead she just looked out again.
Jai: so what do u do in uni??
Bani: what does one do in uni she retorted sharply not interested at all
Jai was taken back but nothing was going to stop him now: okay…how about what is your major or are you majors?
Bani: looked at him straight and stared at his hard frame, he was dashingly handsome. And God knows how many girls have become victims to his charm but now her. Not anymore.
Jai waited a few seconds before he started again: u know u have become more light skinned than you were, is it really that cold in Kashmir?
Bani: you were there last year should you know that. She bit her tongue before realizing what she said and turned away from him. She didn't want him to think she kept a track of happenings in his life. Oh she hated him. She hated the way he provoked her. The way he made her react!
Jai; agar itna kuch mere bare main janti ho toh phir mujhse itna naraazgi kiu
Bani: looking at him, please who told you I was mad at you. Naaraaz unpar hoteh hai joh dil ke kareeb hoteh hai aur tum mere dil meh hi nahi
Jai: maine dil ki baath nahi ki thi Bani? Giving her a quick glance, but that's what you are saying than be it.
Bani: id rather you not talk about heart and feelings Jai coz frankly you have none. You think of the female sex as some piece of clothing, use that which is in fashion. But you know what the funny part is, is baar meh nahi janti thumara fashion statement kya hai, dost ki bhen or shadi material. Cos that's a guy thing right? Jisko bhi chaho jitna din aaram se istemal karo aur jaab shadi karne ki pari aye toh ek achi si seedi sadi si ladki ko dhoondo. Look for a nice girl to settle? Well Im sorry im not some cheap rag you make me out for. I may have fallen for you once but not agan, never again!
Jai's car's brakes screeched and he stopped on the edge of the road, Bani her hands to her heart: oh my God what are you doing Jai??
Taking his cell phone dialing Tarun: yeah hey Ta, Bani needs to go to the washroom, you guys go ahead I will soon join you on the road.
Tarun: k buddy!
Bani: what the ..i ??
Jai turning her way and looking at her straight, Bani starred back really scared, it was raining heavily outside and he was starring at her seemed like to eat her alive. OH God why couldn't she just shut up through the whole trip.
Jai: yes you are right Bani all of a sudden you have become fancy to me and I want you,I want you so bad. And because of that I don't mind at all to do this.
Jai leaned forward flinging her salwar's dupatta to the side, clutching her handbag and shoving it on the back seat. With one swing of his leg he was over her on the passenger seat, pushing the seat right back and looking at her.
Bani was so scared: Jai what are you doing? Stop it.
Jai: why Bani? Scared? Dangerously looking at her! Leaning forward and kissing her. Bani tried so hard to push him when her hands betrayed her and her heart and mind started to react on its own. Going around his neck she was responding back. Jai was trying to punish her with hard kisses but passion seemed to creep from nowhere and he was kissing and touching her all over. His hands over the flat of her tummy to the shoulder area removing her kameezes top area of one shoulder and stinging it with kisses. Bani's body betraying her as they enjoyed his feel and touch! Again Jai's lips took hers oh so passionate that time would stop and it was only him and her and nothing else. After what seemed like eternity, lifting himself he looked at her state and quivering lips. Bani suddenly noticed him still and opened her eyes reality hitting her and disbelief reflecting in her eyes. What did she do why did she react like that? Jai smiling at her satisfied at the reaction he got from her: don't ever say something that the consequences is to your disadvantage Bani! Right now right here I could have you and it wont even be my fault but something you would be crying for so don't make me into an animal you think I am because I am not!
With those words Jai shifted back and sat on his seat waiting for her to straighten up and put the seat belt on. He too was trying very hard to control himself. This wasn't the time or the place but he knew what he had to do. Bani sitting properly with shaking hands straightened her hair and kameez, leaning back to retrieve her dupatta only to touch Jai on the shoulder with her upper body, Jai turning to look at her as she looked back and than straightening covering herself up. Jai could see he had marked her shoulder and a sudden urge to mark her to him for the rest of his life occurred to him. Pointing to the spot, as Bani looked turning to only stare at him her face all flushed and hot, covering it with her dupatta. Oh Why did she love him so much and why did love hurt so much?
Jai was silence through out the rest of the trip and Bani was confused. She didn't have the energy to fight him nor say anything she would later regret, knowing very well what all it could lead to. She was never going to forget this man not now, not ever. He had marked her forever and always and was never going to leave her, never! He had captured her mind, her heart and her soul. But one thing was certain, she was going to have to run miles away from him to stop her heart beating so frantically when he was around. To stop reacting to what she didn't know she was capable of.
Jai in his silence thought over all the happenings of the past month or so. Bani had had a huge impact on him, no one ever did. He didn't know what these raw feelings were and what was happening but when she was around everything seemed to be normal and when she was not in the picture he would spend endless hours looking for her, thinking of her and wanting to see her. Looking at her, she had fallen asleep, her head leaning on the window looking towards him. She was so innocent and he had somewhat robbed that innocent the day he unintentionally had hurt her feelings. How was he to know she was serious? She was only 16 then. It did bother him for days those beautiful eyes hurt and in tears but he had to let go of it. She was his best friend's baby sister, and friend's sisters were out of bounds for fun. He wasn't serious than and didn't want to commit. He knew if he played with her feelings than she would have ended up hurt but now, now things were different. Now he knew what he had to do.
Siggy L
Chapter 8
Exams were finally over. She heaved a huge sigh as she relaxed after the graduation rehearsals. Phew so much hard work. Closing her eyes, she leaned back on her favorite bench by the water and closed her eyes. Once again, those same haunting eyes, that strong lean arms, that sexy body that kisses! Opening her eyes she sat up straight. Oh God Stop! After that day at the airport Bani had not seen Jai. He had left on some hill project to the interior of Mt Abu and she had returned back to school. It was for the good she had to admit.
"You know sitting out here in this cold weather is not good for your health". Chahye woh khoobsurat Kashmir kiu na ho. Jai looked at the most gorgeous face he had ever seen, God she was so beautiful. He wanted to pull her up and kiss her.
Bani blinking once, twice, thrice oh God she wasn't dreaming: tum?
Jai: taking his hat off and bending towards her in a gentleman way: yes me
Bani; tum yaha kya kar rahe ho?
Jai: meh yaha wohi karne aya hu joh aur saab karne aye hai!
Bani: kya?? Getting up, Jai tum yaha kya kar rahe ho?
Jai: smiling at her, she looked delicious. Well main yaha kam ke silsile meh aya tha toh patah chala that tomorrow is your graduation so I came.
Bani ;tumhe but before she could finish she saw Raashi with her parents and Rano coming towards her too. Jai gazed at her as her expression lit up.
Bani: hugging everyone, mama, papa, rashi…tum saab, bhaia.
Jai: and my hug, before Bani could say anything Jai pulled her turning his back to the family members who were busy looking at the scenery: hi holding her tight God I missed you!
Bani wanted to slap him: let go of me trying hard to wiggle her way out of his embrace
Jai: getting back only to whisper in her ears: don't fight me Bani, u know u want me
That scared Bani, what was wrong with him, she had never heard him talk like that. She pulled to quick and almost slipped on the icy slope. But her hero was too smart, steadying her move: samal ke Bani! Smiling at her knowing very well the impact he had.
Bani had graduated with honors receiving the best merit student of the year. She was thrilled as her hard work had eventually paid off. Now she could prove to the whole world she wasn't just a pretty little thing. She was smart, intelligent and a graduate. Most importantly she could prove to Jai that she didn't just marry to have tons of kids but to have graduated on the top of her class!
The class of 2002 was gathered around for pictures and than later to meet in the famous dome next to their university for the after party. Every member of the family was invited. Bani radiantly smiling as she took pictures with her classmates and than her family. Later singles with everyone including Jai. Jai had deliberately made her sit on his lap and the photographer was shooting snap by snap. In fact she was so uncomfortable at she bet everything was going to be evident in the pictures. She couldn't control her temper and wanted to kill him. Some nerve of the guy.
Later that evening, dressed elegantly in a halter neck dress coming mid length to the bottom from her knee, all black and back bare up till her waist, she looked stunning. She had worn a kameez for her graduation so she thought might as well dress up she had needed the boost in confidence after her encounter with Mr Sleez Bag. Hair in a loose knot on the nape of her neck, eyes done deeply in kajal with long dangling earrings falling from her ears matched with the same bracelet and ring on right hand.
She was talking to some of her fellow students when there was a hush amongst the crowd and Bani looked up to see what the commotion was all about. Jai clad in a black tuxedo stood there looking right at her. Nearly all female eyes were on him and she felt a tinge of jealousy grab her heart. How dare they look? Taking the nearest Champaign glass she gulped the whole content down her throat. Darn him I am going to have a good time and not care about him today.
Jai walked lazily towards her taking in her figure clad in that sexy outfit one calls a dress. Damn that temptress, he wasn't going to be sorry for his actions tonight, she is asking for it. Taking her look he suddenly got hungry for her. Nothing other than her would satisfy his appetite. Walking up-close as Bani gulped her second glass he looked right into her eyes, grabbed her back, running his finger up her bare back. Bani turned her face to the side as Jai kissed the neck area whispering in her ears, you look ravishing, smelling the hint of fire and ice, hmmm his never had a woman use that before, kissing it softly. She was all fire and ice tonight!
Bani pushed him back slightly only to be pulled closer by Jai leading her to the dance floor. The song:
Sholon si sholon si
tere ankhon ki yeh roshni
kiske liye hai kiske liye hai
chandni chandni, tere chere ki yeh chandni
kiske liye hai kiske liye hai
tera muskurana nazar yun jhukana
tera muskurana nazar yun jhukana
mere liye hai bas mere liye hai
Jai grabbed her back close to him as he led her on with the music a more seductive dance holding her close. The lights, the music all was perfect! Bani didn't know what took over her, growing up she had been to family gatherings and parties and had always envisioned Jai holding her like he did to the other girls and dancing and now that she was in his arms she couldn't believe it. Feeling a bit light headed not drunk though she felt relaxed being led onto the dancing moves as she let her body move to the beats and towards what Jai was leading on.
Jai close to her ears, dheko Bani even your body betrays you, it wants me. His soft whispers were driving her insane and burning the skin area where it touched. Both her hands on his shoulders: let me go Jai!
Jai: I did once but ab nahi Bani, a statement that came from his heart!
Bani: no Jai you have lost that chance, I am not that girl anymore.
Jai looked at her face and inhaled deep, yes you aren't Bani, why was she trying so hard, if this is what she wants than why she is denying herself. Leaving him, as she escaped his hold and went off the dance floor only to turn and find some other girl grabbing his hand. The same old Jai, agar yeh nahi toh koi aur sahi! Jai shrugging off his shoulder as he took some other girl and started dancing to some other number! Shayad this will make her realize he thought to himself.
Bani couldn't contain the jealousy within her. What's wrong with her she had always seen this before and was able to ignore the jealous person inside her but what is happening now! Looking at him as a group of her friends approached her, Bani common one shot for graduation's sake common yaar! Usually Bani ignored them or just laughed but today
Bani: why not! Taking the shot glass from the tray she glanced at Jai, the girls hands had caressed a cheek seemed like and Jai was starring at her, cringing her eyes she turned her gaze and with one go gulped the whole drink down. Putting the glass down she leaned forward on the nearby table and inhaled deep, it was burning the inside of her throat.
Jai leaving the girl beside, oh shit – he knew Bani too well and she never ever drank, running to her aid. Counting to himself 2 glasses of Champaign, a glass of red wine and now this, oh no she was going to loose it soon.
Handing her a lemon, this usually helps, as Bani took it and bit on it looking to find him: thanks and than "oh go away"
Jai: holding her shoulders, are you alright??
Bani: im fine, leave me alone and go to that witch laughing stupidly
Jai: jealous are we Bani???
Bani: shrugging his hands off her she was going towards the dance floor, I am going to dance leave me alone, and please why would I be jealous?
Jai looked at the wobbly walk and her behind and knew two more minutes till the full effect of the drink would start to show.
Tarun and Raashi had come and were walking towards Jai: hey Jai what's happening Bani kaha hai, I have her graduation gift to give her.
Jai: indicating to him to look
Rashi: looking on, at her, oh God what happened?
Jai: tequila shot, friends, showing with his head and than folding and standing looking at Bani dance to some number with her buddies. Some guys were trying to hold her and Jai wincing wanted to beat the living day lights out of them.
Rashi: don't just stand there do something looking worried. Tarun was going when Jai stopped him, let me I have to go anyway I will take her to her room and make sure she is tucked in.
Tarun: alrite dude giving him a quizzical look. Take care of my baby, alright man, holding Rashi, common me and you, our turn to dance.
Chapter 9
Jai grabbed Bani picking her up on his shoulder: okay lady your time is up, time to say goodbye!
Bani: but I want to dance, leave me. LET ME GO! LET ME GO JAI! Hitting with her fist on his back as Jai lightly hit on her bottom. Finally entering his room, Jai dumped her on the soft mattress of his bed. Her eyes red and hair almost open she looked ready to eat alive. Temptress, he thought as he grabbed some water and handed it to Bani.
Bani getting up fully drunk now, only to collapse again before rising again: what the hell is your problem, why have you brought me here?
Jai: Bani pani pilo handing her the glass
Bani taking the glass and throwing it towards him, Jai ducked and it hit the back of the door. The hotel next to the dome where the function was held was aloud with music and thank God to that if not he would have had security in his room chasing him out. Jai looked at the smashing glass on the door and than at Bani. Are you crazy woman? Dammit!
Walking towards her he was raging with anger, Bani what the hell was that for? Grabbing her side of both the hands he pulled her to him, do you know what u just did? I could have got hurt.
Bani all drunk laughing out loud now, tumhe aur dard, common give me a break. Laughing again, Jai looking at her with a worried expression on his face!
Jai: not letting her go as he grabbed one of her wrists, hold on Bani, why do u say that about me?
Before he could even finish talking Bani looked at him, Jai could see the tears all ready to fall but she was trying hard to control them.
Bani: why??? You want to know why? Looking at him, because it hurts me, every living day I cannot live my life not thinking about you. Main jagti hu toh tum hoteh ho, meh soti hu toh tum hoteh ho. Taking her hands and this time Jai letting her go, she held her head, burying her face in them, kabhi kabhi soch ti hu ke main, main sir kaat ke phek du. I just cannot stop, crying now as she knelt down on her knees, all the years' frustration finally coming out. Why wont you leave me alone Jai, why? I left home to come as far away as I could so that I don't have to remember you, so that memories don't haunt me, but I still couldn't, and now, now you won't leave me alone.
Jai bent down on his knees too, bending to be on her level. Holding her teary hands from her face, kiu Bani? Why couldn't you stop?
Bani looked at him, tired and drunk and having no energy she looked straight at him: because
Jai: because kya Bani? Looking at her intently, wanting to know what she was going to say, to make sure of her feelings before he took the next step.
Bani: because I love you Jai, I always have, maine hamesha se tumse pyar kiya hai. Main, crying she hugged Jai and he pulled her letting her cry. Inbetween sobs she also said, magar, magar tumne hamesha mere pyar ko mazak samajha, an infatuation, an immature teenagers crush. But I still can't help it I love you and always will!
Jai pulled her away from his embrace and looked at her tear strained face, wiping her tears and pushing her hair back from her face. Bani looked up at him with big eyes as she was trying very hard to keep them open. Looking at him when Jai bent forward and kissed her! Pulling her close to him holding her tight he kissed her eyes, her eyebrows, her cheeks and finally her mouth. Taking in each and every detail, slowly softly as Bani closed her eyes into a dream that she never knew could exist.
Jai picked her up and led her to the bed, Bani's eyes were closed but she let him, as Jai placed her down on the bed and tried moving away, she pulled him close murmuring; mujhe maath chor kar jao? As he got in bed beside her kissing her again and again and again.
Chapter 10
Bani woke up with a really bad headache: trying to get up holding her head. ohhhhhhhhh!! Groaning she sat up. Opening her eyes, they seemed too heavy to open and her head was killing her. Straightening her hair she looked around wondering why her dorm room looked so big and different. Turning her head she looked at the sliding door to find Jai holding two mugs of steaming liquid looking at her.
Jai: Good Morning! Looking really handsome in sweat pants and vest
Bani: opening her eyes to make sure she wasn't dreaming squeezing her eyes
Jai: smiling as he looked at her astonished expression taking in her hair, so innocent and beautiful she was: its really me Bani, koi sapna nahi hu
Bani: pulling her shirt, what shirt looking at it, what am I doing with a shirt on. Main, gulping in air and looking around, main yaha, looking at him "kaise"
Jai lazily walked towards her, handing her the coffee; take this Bani it should help with the hangover. As for tum yaah kaise well you don't want to know every little detail do you? Smiling at her, touching her cheeks softly
Bani her eyes as wide as they could get starred at his face, noticing his expressions noticing how serious he was, no hint of amusement. Feeling awkward she didn't know what to ask and what to say. Looking at the coffee, black! Handing the cup back to him, black hai mujhe sugar aur cream pasand hai.
Jai couldn't believe her, taking the cup and turning to smile as he got back to the area that had the coffee stuff placed. Bani taking this opportunity to go to the bathroom, grabbing the brush (complement of the hotel thank God) taking the plastic off the brush and starting to clean her mouth she tried to think hard as to what happened and all she remembered was the last dance they did. Kya hua tha brushing vigorously, getting in the shower questioning herself over and over again! Pulling her hair up in the towel she grabbed the robe and put it on.
As she entered the room Raashi came to her hugging her: oh everyone is so happy Bani, tumne kuch kaha kiu nahi, Bani looked at her best friend dumb founded. Maine kuch kya!
Rashi handing her a duffle bag with clothes for her and she hugged her, oh im so happy you and Jai and shadi, everyone is so thrilled. How did u do it, I mean kya kaha tumne kya kaha Jai ne?
Rashi shook Bani and kept asking her while Bani blinked her eyes trying to understand. Shadi? Jai? Finding Jai in the room smiling at her: your coffee sweety just the way u like it! Kissing her cheeks and handing it to her.
Bani's fingers touching her cheek, oh my God did he just kiss me infront of Raashi, blushing like anything she went totally red.
Rashi: oh im so happy, uncle aunty bhi itne khush hai, even Tarun bhaia! Hugging her back, okay I gotta go, you have a lot to tell me later babez.
Bani: her hand forward, Raashi?
Jai: its okay honey hugging her from the side, let her go, tum dress hojao and than we will go down
Bani pushing him away and looking at him: Jai kaal raath, I mean that me and you, I want to…God this was so hard she screamed inside, embarrassed and totally red. What the hell was Rashi talking about?
Jai: I have asked your hand in marriage from your parents and brother and they have given me the consent, we are getting engaged on your birthday.
Bani: kya? No way! I am not marrying you! Sternly she said, her head pounding louder by the minute wanting to explode.
Jai: fine sipping his coffee, go out there and tell them that you are not marrying me and embarrass yourself on where you were last night and the fact that you don't even remember what a wonderful night we spent together. Seating himself down on the bed and resting his head at the back he took her dress from the side and threw it to her: your dress!
Bani: not believing it but not being able to ask him either. Gosh this was so embarrassing and she was really worried to think why he would want to marry her. Taking her stuff in the bathroom she hurriedly changed into a pair of jeans and top and pulled her wet hair back with a claw clip.
Getting into the breakfast area, the whole family was gathered around and started hugging and giving their best wishes to Jai and Bani.
Tarun: you better take care of her buddy, if not showing him a fist; I will meet u in court.
Jai: smiling putting his hands up as if scared, cross my heart buddy! Jai was really happy that Tarun had approved, he knew it was a big step for him knowing Jai's history yet he had also acknowledged the genuine feeling he had for Bani. Hugging his best friend of many years he silently thanked him. He owed him big time!
Rano: Bani you and Jai, you didn't tell me, hugging her sister, I am so happy. Congratulations!
Bani felt hollow as everyone hugged her and wished her good luck, talking excitedly about their engagement. She didn't know why because of one night everything had changed, why did Jai want to marry her, what happened last night that changed everything for him. If there wasn't any love on his part how was this going to work.
Jai looked at the various facial expressions running across her face and promised himself that he was going to tell her everything once they were married. He couldn't risk anything before that, he knew that he had hurt her and now it was time to make things right. If that meant dealing with it this way so be it!
Chapter 11
The whole Walia Mantion was lit up. There were 3 special occasions today, first it was the 14th of February, Valentines Day, then it was Bani's Birthday and 3rd and most important their engagement.
Pink balloons beautifully set up on the side railings of the stairs with red big ribbons in bows following through. Jai was impatient, they were supposed to arrive half an hour ago and they weren't here yet. What if Bani ran away, or decided she didn't want to go through with it, than what, what he would do than. Gulping his drink he wiped his mouth.
RAno: don't worry mamaji, they are on their way, they got delayed at the hotel.
Jai heaving a huge sigh, she didn't know that there was a huge party thrown in her favor and he was excited to see her reaction. He wanted to show her off in front of the entire world. He had made sure that the whole world knew about his reunion; know about his bride to be.
Bani clad in a beautiful pink and bronze sari sat quietly in the car. Everything felt like a daze to her. Today she was going to be engaged and next week married. Soon after her graduation things happened so fast that it was like a blink of an eye. Getting of at the entrance, she stood there nervously waiting for Rashi and her mum. Looking at the huge palace type house she exclaimed in awe at the huge bright lights falling from the roof tops to the bottom, jaise koi dhulan ke ghooghat sir par ho all in different shades of pink, looking beautiful.
On the front as the door was opened all she could se were candle lights and diyas around the whole place. Jaise koi janath meh agaya ho! The whole front area was lit up beautifully. The perfect song played in the background:
Tum aaye to hawaaon mein ek nasha hai
Tum aaye to fizaaon mein rang sa hai
Yeh rang saare hai bas tumhaare
Aur kya, aur kya, aur kya
Tum aaye to hawaaon mein ek nasha hai
Tum aaye to fizaaon mein rang sa hai
Yeh rang saare hai bas tumhaare
Aur kya, aur kya, aur kya
As Jai walked up to Bani and stood there looking at her. She was so beautiful. Bani looked up, her eyes moist, this was the moment she had always dreamt of and to have it out here in the open like this was just unbelievable.
Eh hey hey, aah haa haa
Tum aaye ho to dekh lo
Naya naya sa lage yeh jahaan, ho
Haan haan haan haan haan, oh ho
Haseen haseen hai yeh zameen
Dhula dhula sa hai yeh aasmaan
Tum ho to hai yeh samaa
Aur kya, aur kya, aur kya, aur kya
Holding her hands he slipped a ring on her finger all this time not taking his eyes away from her, capturing her look. Bringing her hand to his lips and kissing it. Everyone clapping around them!
Bani glared to her hands and than up at him her tears flowing without shame, in her heart she knew how much she loved this man but her heart failing to understand what all was happening. Kahi yeh sapna toh nahi. At the back Rashi handed her the ring to put on Jai's hands, shaking she took it and looking at his hands she looked up again;
Dhadak raha hai dil mera
Jhuki jhuki hai palkein yahan, ho
Haan haan haan haan haan, oh ho
Jo dil mein ho, voh keh bhi do
Ruki ruki si hai yeh daastaan
Jazbaat maange zabaan
Aur kya, aur kya, aur kya, aur kya
Bani placed the ring when everyone roared and the whole lights were lit with Jai smiling and hugging her on the side looking at everyone. Petals of red roses falling on them as Bani looked up gasping on how beautiful everything was around the house. Jai playfully pointing his index finger to his cheeks for his kiss and Bani just stood there, did she just promise her whole life to him.
Tum aaye to hawaaon mein ek nasha hai
Tum aaye to fizaaon mein rang sa hai
Yeh rang saare hai bas tumhaare
Aur kya, aur kya, aur kya
Turning to Jai, as Jai slowly bent down kissing her lightly on the lips much to her embarrassment, happy birthday and happy Valentines Day sweetheart. Bani didn't know to laugh or cry not registering what she was feeling as Jai hugged her. This time next week you will be mine Bani all she heard him say was those few words.
As Champaign were toasted and the cake was cut Jai drank like he never did before, he was very happy. Holding Bani by his side he declared their wedding on national TV to have found his woman. Bani not comprehending all this felt happy inside, but was he genuinely happy or is he trying to satisfy his guilt for God knows what happened that night. Why would things be not simpler?
That night, as she lay in bed she looked at the ring on her hand. A big fat diamond that glowed even in the dark! Holding her palm with her other hand to her heard she thought how 2 very important birthdays and one very important day – Valentines Day had changed her life. One where Jai didn't even acknowledge her love for him and today when she was soon to be his wife. She remembered on how possessively he had held her throughout the evening introducing her to everyone, actually proud to have her by his side. The quick glances he gave her or the slow sensual kisses he gave her here and there. She would turn pinker in her already pink sari but she was in love with him. She was deeply madly in love with him and next week this time she was going to be Mrs BAni Walia. Closing her eyes she smiled making a silent wish at the night outside, please, please let this be perfect, let this be the dream I had all those years ago. Please let him love me too as sleep finally caught her exhaustion.
Chapter 12
Bani sat awkwardly in her shadi ka chola in his room on his bed, which was going to be their room and their bed. Turning a deeper shade of red thinking of what was going to come after this. She was married, she was Mrs Bani Walia! OH God! aab kya hoga? Her eyes were covered by her viel, the only things visible to her were the floor and her sweaty palms clad in the mehendi of his name.
Raashi had jokingly said: ghooghat jija jee uthaye ge samjhi tu kuch maath karna
, magar ha kaal subha sari details chahiye jee! Making Bani blush.
Rano: tu bhoth janti hai, teri bari ayegi taab dhekugi
Raashi: ofcoz maine kitabo meh padah hai kiu Bani hinting to her friend the naughty stuffs they used to do and closing the door of the room leading everyone out: acha chalo chalo…dhulan ko aaram karne do!
Bani heard noises outside and than she heard the door open. Jai stood there gazing at her on his bed, their bed. Closing the door behind him locking it, she was his, finally his. Walking he sat on the edge and looked at her nervous palms and quivering lips. Tilting her head up her eyes covered by her veil he gently kissed her quivering lips. Bani gasped and closed her eyes.
Jai smiled, he had seen her grow up well actually they had grown up together. Six years younger than him he had never thought that one day he would marry her. Lifting her veil up, he looked at her. Eyes closed she looked the true picture of a Goddess. NO, his Goddess! Bani was breathing heavily she was scared that he might here her heart pounding so loud.
Taking her hand and kissing the palm of her hand noticing the deep shade of her mehendi: kya yeh sach hai Bani ke mehendi jitna ghera ho uthna hi pyar pati kartah hai? Softly he asked.
Bani opened her eyes looked at him, what was he trying to say; nodding her head in a yes her jewelry making all the noise.
Jai took her bangles out kissing her wrist each time driving Bani's mental stability riot. Going up to her earring, kissing her ear lobe as he removed it whispering "you are so beautiful Bani," moving to her neck, hugging her in the process to take the huge necklace out kissing the neck area to her other earring, taking it out and kissing the lobe again. Dropping kisses down to her hand for the final set of bangles left. Bani breathing hard didn't know what got in her but she loved it and this was relaxing her, making her less nervous. The only jewellery left were her bindiya and payal. As if getting her thought Jai looked at her and undit the bindiya kissing her forehead gently.
Bani: Jai meh!
Jai: shhhhshhhhhhh Bani sunno, kissing her cheeks going to her neck her shoulder as he removed the side of her blouse, kissing the very place her blouse had been. Listen to the winds; they are dancing to the tunes of love. Bani turning her head closing her eyes as Jai with his finger tilted her face back to his. Her eyes opening to find him so very close to her lips his breath like instigation to fire on her body.
Jai: do u know how hard it has been to have you and not have you?
Bani confused with those words looked at him not having the courage to do anything but to be caught in the fire of his love: Jai I
Jai: silencing her with his lips, taking them in a passionate kiss as he laid her down……..shhhhhhsssssssssssssshhhhhhh Bani aaj nahi…aaj sirf pyar karne do ……kissing her again…taking her high to points there were no returning back for either of them…..
Tere bin there is no desire
Tere bin my worlds on fire
Tere bin I cant fly high high higher
Chapter 13
Bani woke up early morning to find something tickling her ear, she tried to move it but it won't stop. Opening her eyes reality hit her and she realized she was in Jai' s arms, going red at the thought of what all transpired last night. Lowering her gaze, a smile apparent on her face, Bani couldn't help blushing. She was in Jai's arm and he was looking at her lazily. Could this be all a dream!
Jai: gdmrng beautiful!
Bani; really shy, good morning!
Jai: sleep good? The hint in his words made her even more embarrassed and she blushed like anything.
Jai: u look cute doing that nuzzling her neck and kissing her cheeks, Bani smiling trying to get out.
Bani: Jai meh
Jai holding her back not letting her go.. meh kya as Bani tried to mover away, oh God this is so embarrassing!
Jai: no wait Bani I have to talk to you, mujhe tumse baath karni hai
Bani: looked up at him, there it was he was guilty and that's why he had married her!
Jai: stop assuming things in that head of yours and listen, smiling at her. Taking a deep breath he turned on his back pulling her on his chest. Uss roz at the hotel room, nothing happened Bani!
Bani getting up slightly looking at him, Jai looked at her face with no expression and continued: you were drunk and in a very emotional state, you told me things which I don't think you would have ever said to me. Bani looked at him, agar kuch hua nahi and after last night she was convinced nothing did than why he married her.
Bani: lekin?
Jai: let me continue Bani, you were the baby sister of my best friend and young. You were 16 and I was 23 Bani. How was I supposed to take you seriously? Tarun and I u know we had this deal, no family. Sitting up and pulling her with him that pained expression I saw on the day we last met, before you left for school, haunted me for months and I didn't know what to do other than indulge myself in many woman I knew to forget it and I almost did until I saw you at the airport that day. You were different Bani, all grown up and beautiful. You were more confident and sure of yourself and what hurt was you didn't give me a time or the day. You hated me Bani.
Bani: no I didn't! I
Jai: yes I found that out that on your graduation day, smiling at her straightening some loose tendrils falling on her face.
Bani: Jai I'm trying to say
Jai: no listen to me. It was after that kiss on Rano's mehendi night that finally everything finally came to me. I needed you Bani, always but I never accepted that feeling for you. I guess you should have known after that car scene smiling like a weasel as Bani starred at him. But I needed to know whether you felt the same way or not and thank God for your jealousy that day you drank and told me everything. Honestly whoever made alcohol did the best thing in the world, who says it's bad for heatlh.
Bani really embarrassed looking away when Jai held her chin and looked into her eyes: it was than I knew that I had to win your love back and that night when u passed out, Bani's eyes wide "passed out", yes passed out Jai continued. Again smiling! When you passed out I got an evil plan and got together with Rashi and Tarun to get you married to me.
Bani: Raashi and bhaia?
The day of our engagement I was the happiest man on earth, didn't you realise that? Looking at her
Bani: yeah I thought so but I wasn't sure?
Jai: sure of what Bani?
Jai: kya bani? Sure of what?
Bani: I have always loved you and I looking down I still do but I didn't know whether
Jai: u didn't, how cold you not have known Bani?
Bani looked up her eyes teary as she started to cry: because that day you said I was young and nave and….. as Jai putting his finger on her lips and kissed her tears "I LOVE YOU" Bani, I really do, why do you think I went through with all this even after you showed me nothing but hatred. I love you very much. Bringing her close and hugging her.
Bani crying and laughing hugging him back: really you love me…oh Jai why didn't you say anything, I love you too.
Jai: pulling her back, you promise, all forgiven?
Bani: kissing his cheeks and hugging him, yes; yes; yes; I promise, forever and always, I love you!
Jai turning her around and getting on top his eyes full of mischief.
Bani: Jai????????? Smiling at him now
Jai: what? Shadi kya hai bhai koi aise waise nahi bending down to seal her lips with his. Claming them, knowing how much love she had for him and how he was going to spend the rest of his life making up to it! This time Bani did not hesitate or shy away, she had given him everything she had only this time there was no holding back. Putting her hands around his neck she pulled him even closer. Closer to her heart to never ever let go!
Epilogue
Mama Mama?? Mama she was crying really hard
Bani ran at hearing her daughter's wails, kya hua Krishna, kiu itna chila rahi ho.
Looking at her 16 year old daughter who by chance was also born on Feruary 14th the following year of her marriage! Looking like her mum in every respect but very much her dad in attitude. Strong stubborn and determined!
Bani: kya hua bitya??
Krishna sobbed falling down on her parent's bed crying on her moms lap. Mom woh mujhe pasand nahi kartah, kehta hai im too young and immature for him…still sobbing.
Bani smiled, she knew how that felt: kisne bitya??
Krishna: woh Sidharth hai nah, usne kaha.
Jai leaning on the door frame smiled at the apple of his eye, listening intently to what was being communicated between mother and daughter.
Krishna: maine kaha ke meh use pyar karti hu aur usne usne kaha meh bhoth choti hu…crying out loud now…that im nave, can you believe it mama, meh kitni smart hu hai na?
Bani smiling looked up at Jai her statement hitting home and Jai smiled back. Now who was this idiot who hurt my baby, one day he was going to come running after her for sure.
Jai moving to his daughter: honey u don't have to cry for that. Maybe he just hasn't realized it yet, winking to Bani who had folded her hands and was looking at him with an expression that said; oh really?
As Krishna sat up in-between her parents she smiled: really papa aap ko lagta hai.
Jai; definitly sweety, mujhe in baton meh kafi experience hai! Smiling at his daughter.
Krishna wiping her tears; theek hai nah im going to apply for Harvard next year and prove to him that im no rich spoilt brat he thinks I am, running to the door, only to come back kissing her parents: I love you papa, I love you mama, thanks! Running away and turning at the door: mama aapne papa ko kaha kya??
Bani shaking her head in a no: abhi nahi! smiling
Krishna winking at her mom and best friend in the whole world: all the best giving her a thumbs up and running off.
Jai moving closer and hugging his wife: kissing her neck
Bani; Jai??
Jai: what? Acting all innocent pulling her more to him.
Bani: laughing and holding him back
Jai; care to tell me ma beti meh kya baath hui hai, aur ma papa ko kya batane wali hai??
Bani still the same beautiful woman she has always been, eyes downcast and really shy: woh
Jai: woh ?? woh Kaun bhai?? Worried and shifting back, chakar kya hai?? Kahi??
Bani: laughing shayad!
Jai: what?? Bani whats happening??
Bani: mujhe na kisisi aur se pyar hogeya hai
Jai: what …he was serious now, he was still handsome right, the same guy she married and now ….and why was she all smiling about it…mujhse bhi zyada acha hai??
Bani; bilkul enjoying this too much and smiling, tumse bhi zyada, khud se bhi zyada.
Jai: when did u meet him?? Standing up mad now
Bani: kuch teen mahine phele…tumbhi the
Jai; were at? Very serious.
Bani: sitting calmly, one leg over the other, swinging it lightly: woh teen mahi phele jaab paris gaye the taab
Jai: on our wedding anniversary
Bani: yup
Jai: this doesn't make sense coz she was with him all that time….they hardly left their room and if they did it was together.
Bani: kya hua? smiling at him.
Jai: and how often do u meet, talk??
Bani: bus roz bataien hoti hai, jaab bhi jee chahe
Jai: and has he ever come here?
Bani: counting the months, shayad che (6) mahine meh!
Jai: Bani???????? Really mad pulling her, are you serious about this, who is this, I have to meet him
Bani: miloge toh tumbhi pyar karne lagoge
Jai: what???
Bani: encircling her hands around her husbands neck and smiling up at him: budhu jaab apne bete ko dheko to kya pyar nahi karoge.
Jai: thinking, beta?? Mera beta and than suddenly, what you mean..you mean that you are
Bani nodding her head in a yes, Jai lifting her up from the bed and shouting in happiness: im going to be a father, now, we are having another baby
Bani laughing as she nodded her head in agreement to him, shssh neech karo mujhe, Jai placing her down and than smiling, when did u know?
Bani: kaal? Going to the cupboard and getting a print of the sonogram and that's how I also know it's a boy.
Jai worried about her age and what not Bani shutting him up and pulling him into a bear hug, im fine aur doctor aunty ne kaha hai that im perfectly normal and it should be a good pregnancy.
Jai: and what did Krishna say?? She didn't feel too old to be a sister or threatened for that matter?
Bani: she is thrilled to have a baby bother to bully, laughing Bani related him the reaction she had when her daughter found out.
Krishna: ma meh na uski choti ma hongi aur meh usko college lajaugi aur sabhi ko kahugi mera beta hai…laughing and hugging her mum.
Jai hugging his wife, I love you, thank you baby, I love you so much! He was the luckiest man on earth. There wasn't a day he would imagine life without her.
Jai: smiling and looking at her…lifting her up, with a mischievous glint to his eyes
Bani: Jai?? Kya kar rahe ho?? Knowing fully well what that meant
Jai: winking at her, you have to admit honey; I still have it laughing at the expression Bani threw at him.
Bani: really?
Jai: koi shak??? Kissing her I love you!
Bani: forever and always?
Jai: forever and always honey!
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Arjun
