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Part 9 (c)
Somehow the thought of him and pia together slowly creeps into her mind. The times when she caught them together not suspecting anything. These scenes flash before her. They are on the bed but still clothed. She stiffens and stops responding to Jai. Jai senses it. Stops and looks into her eyes. He sees the sadness, the pain in them ,they were brimming with liquid. She pushes him off her, gets up and sits at the side of the bed.
B: I can't do this.
Runs to the bathroom. Locks the door. Leans against it and falls to the ground in a heap and lets the tears flow. For a moment she had forgiven him and wanted to forget but then it all came crashing back. The floodgates of memories, betrayal opened. She wanted to forget she tried but it was all too much.
Jai put his t-shirt back on, bewildered. For that moment he thought he was making some headway. It seemed to him as if she had given hope that she was on the way to forgiving him. Perhaps he only saw what he wanted. it wasn't going to be easy. He knew that but he was hoping against hope. He was desperate. Desperate for her. Desperate for forgiveness.
J:"Dammit" he cursed to himself.
He stopped outside the bathroom door. He was almost going to call her name, but pulled back and walked to the study where Tarun kept his liquor bottles. Poured himself a scotch, looking outside the window cursing his fate with tears falling down his face.
He was feeling so empty. Had he lost her?? was there no redemption for him in her eyes? if only, if only he could turn back the hands of time. How is he going to carry on with his life. "Oh, meri Bani, kaise jiyu mein tere bina"? gulps down the scotch. Good thing Tarun had a full bottle.
After an hour, Bani slowly composed herself. Washed her face in the sink. Looked at herself in the mirror, her face pale and eyes red and swollen. "Get a grip on yourself girl!" " Stop feeling sorry for yourself cause no one gives a damn" "Don't look back into the past. Move forward girl"
With a renewed resolve she knows what she must do. " I must speak with him, I have get this out of the way" .
She finds him in the study.
B: Mr Walia, we need to talk.
Jai turns to look at her. She next to him albeit at arms length.
J: That's why I am here Bani.
J: Bani.. I am really remorseful for my actions. Jai literary falls onto her feet.
J:Believe me my dear. My sweet, sweet Bani please forgive me.
Bani is shocked by his action. Tries to lift him up.
B: Mr Walia. Yeh kiya kar rahe hai aap.
Bani never imagined in her life Mr Walia would fall at her feet. She was not comfortable.
B: Yeh tumey shobha nahin deta. Uttho Mr Walia.
Well he is on his knees now and hugs her at her waist and breaksdown crying repenting for his mistake begging for her forgiveness.
She is at a loss. This was not going the way she expected. Slowly she bring her hands onto his head and pats his hair gently, she was afraid of too much physical contact. It would make it difficult for her to break away.
The crying stops but he still holds on to her. His grip on her as tight as before.
B: Please Mr Walia, uthiye. we really need to talk.
After much coaxing on Bani's part, he stands up to face her. She leads him to the sofa. They are seated next to each other. She looks at him and he at her.
B: Mr, Walia, I always believed that pati parmeshwar hota hai. I placed you on that pedestal. How wrong I was. Aaj mujhey pata chala key, pati bhagwan nahin per insaan hai. Aur insaan galeti kartey hai.
She continues
B: It is very painful when your trust breaks. The two people whom I trusted the most, the two who were my world, the two I lived for, they broke my trust in them. Not one blow but two blows.
A tear escapes her eyes. She gathers herself. He holds her hands and bring them up to his lips and kisses them. Demonstration seeking apology. She looks into his eyes and sees his sincerity.
B: If you have faltered, then I am also an accessory. In my bid to save you I put you through so much pain. more than you could bear. I couldn't see that. I blame myself for driving you into her arms.
He places his index finger on her lips.
J: don't Bani. Never blame yourself for my mistake. Never. Do you hear me? I will not tolerate that.
They stare into each other's eyes.
B: I want to forgive you, Mr Walia. I want to move on with our relationship but I can't control it, the memories and the hurt keep coming back to haunt me. I don't know if I ever can... especially since there is a child involved.
B: I know how much you love children and how much you want a child.
J: Bani, Bani listen to me, I don't deny I love children but the only children I want to love is ours Bani. Ours.
He looks earnestly into her eyes.
B: This child is innocent Mr Walia. Why should an innocent child pay for his parent's mistake. He deserves the love of both parents.
B: Mr Walia, I know what it is like to be an orphan and I will never wish it on anyone. Especially on a child who has done no wrong. There are many couples who long for children they cannot have. Here god has given you this precious gift.
Jai is not liking this. This conversation is heading where he doesnt want it to go.
He places his hands on both sides of Bani's face and she says what he dreads to hear.
B: Make your family with Pia Mr Walia, for the sake of this child.
she pauses, she could see the pain on his face.
B: for my sake, Mr Walia.
His hands drop and he stands up.
J: Yeh kiya keh rahe ho tum Bani. A family with pia? tumara dhimag kharab ho gaya hai kiya?
Just then, his cell phone rings. looks at the caller id. Its Aditya.
J: Ha Adi bolo
J: Kiya. Maasi hospital mein hai! Heart attack. I'll be there asap.
Bani hears it. She is shocked.
J: Masi had a heart attack she is in ICU, she was asking for you on the way to the hospital.
B: I'm coming with you.
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