i just can't stop crying. my fav. soap, KYPH, has ended and tho i haven't watched the last episode yet and i have known this for awhile, it just hit me all of a sudden and i just couldn't control myself. i mean, Kaisa yeh pyar hai opened me up to a whole new world, it taught me the meaning of true luv and sacrifice. it sounds stoopid, but its the truth. it was my world. and now, its over. TRPs r everything... believe it or not!
at times lyk these, i hate myself for getting so attached to the characters, for luving them, for hating them, for crying when they cried, for laughing when they did, for being happy becuz THEY were happy. i can't stop luving angad, wanting to see angad again. i hate myself for becoming so attached. and now, im doing the same thing to jai. im so in luv wit him, i trust him more then i trust myself for godssake! how can i get involved so much? if he is sad, i cry. if he is happy, one smile brightens up my day. i mean, its just a show and someday it will end. IT WILL END. that realization just hit me and im hysterical. i feel stoopid and idiotic, but i still wanted to share my feelings wit u cuz im feeling lousy. i need a hugðŸ˜