heres the next part..hope u enjoy....i gotta say this isnt my best writing....i was just so lost in wat to write...so if its crappy...forgive me...i'm just really out of ideas.
recap: gauri find out from shahshank that shiv was the one to bring shahshank back into her life.
PART 30
gauri sat in front of the mirror, taking out her bangles. the women who stared back at her
seemed to have lost her glow. hollowness filled her eyes...there was no sign of the dent on
her cheek. she closed her eyes..trying to block out his words....
*flashback*
shahshank: that's right gauriâŚshiv was the one to bring me back
into your life. he hated you so much that he came to me for helpâŚ.and you know what
happened after thatâŚ.
she didn't want to believe shashank, but when she took
one look into shiv's guilt laden eyes...she didn't need to ask him if this was true or not.
everything seemed to freeze around her..as if the world stopped moving. her mind went blank
and she could think of nothing else but to run from there. all she heard was shiv call out
her name as she faded into the darkness...
*flashback ends*
gauri slowly opened her eyes to look into a pair of soft brown eyes...she knew those eyes
too well...
her own eyes filled with tears....
shiv: gauri I...
he was cut off when gauri brought her hand up..letting him know that she didn't want to hear
anything.
gauri took her time standing up and turning to face shiv.
shiv saw the emptiness in gauri's eyes and cursed himself for being the reason behind it.
he waited patiently for gauri to speak, but a half blind man can see the fear in shiv's eyes.
shiv was scared....he didn't know how gauri is going to react...so he quietly waited.
gauri: how many more surprises are you going to give me shiv?
shiv: gau...
gauri: ENOUGH! i've had enough. shiv ever since we got married i always tried to
make this relationship work...and at some point i know you did too...but you brought him
back? did you really hate me that much?
gauri's vision blurred as shiv tried to touch her. she hastily backed away.
~Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge...Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge,
Daga nahin karenge sanam...Ho...rab di kasam yaara, rab di kasam...Dil de diya hai, jaan
tumhein denge. Daga nahin karenge sanam~
shiv: gauri please listen to me...
gauri: what's there to listen shiv...i wasn't going to believe shahshank when he said
you brought him back into my life...but i know those eyes(gauri looked deeply into them now)
...those eyes can never lie to me and they clearly told me that it was true...
~Rukh zindagi ne mod liya kaisa...Hamne socha nahin tha kabhi aisa~
shiv: gauri i know what i did was wrong..but believe me i hated myself after that night.
gauri: hated yourself that you couldn't throw me out of your life?
shiv's eyes reflected anger...he grabbed her arms and pulled her close.
shiv whispered: how can you even say that...
gauri pushed his hands away.
gauri: look me in the eye and tell me that you still didn't think of throwing me out of your
life after that night
shiv lowered his eyes...
~Aata nahin yaqeen, kya se kya ho gaya...Kis tarha main tumse, bewafa ho gaya~
*flashback*
shiv thinking: i can't forget that i still want her out of my life.
shiv heard his cell phone ring and without looking at who the caller is, he picked up
the phone.
shiv: hello
gauri: ji..i was wondering when your gonna come home?
shiv: look gauri....i know whatever happened with you wasn't right....but that doesn't
change anything between us. i still don't consider you my wife, so please...don't try and
get too close.
And he rudely cut the line.
*flashback ends*
shiv gently cupped her face.
shiv: gauri you know me...i can't think straight when i'm angry...i was just so angry at you
for coming back that i...jaan please...you know my feelings for you changed after that night.
i was just too stubborn to admit it...gauri, i made a mistake calling shahshank..but believe
me...i didn't know he would do something that low...i could never wish that for anyone.
~Insaaf kar do, mujhe maaf kar do...Itna hi kar do karam...Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein
denge...Daga nahin karenge sanam~
gauri sighed..but then she slowly pulled back.
gauri: but that didn't stop it from happening did it?
gauri truned so her back was facing shiv.
gauri: shiv please...leave me alone.
shiv's heart sank...it's no use...she wasn't going to forgive him. his vision blurred
as he quietely walked out of the room.
gauri slowly slid to the ground...her tears falling uncontrollably. that night shattered
her heart completely...but she was greatful to have shiv breath life into her soul again...
get her heart beating again...finding out that he was behind that night as well...not only
shattered her heart...but it ended her existence.
~Awaargi mein ban gaya diwaana...Maine kyun saadgi ko nahin jaana~
shiv cursed the day he thought of calling shahshank for help. WHAT was he thinking...how
could he have been so selfish...why didn't he realize how precious gauri is to him...
he brought the glass of whiskey to his lips...trying to calm the burn in his throat.
he frowned when he felt something...a flutter in his heart...he looked up to see gauri
walking down the stairs...that same flutter turned into dread when he saw the suitcase.
~Chaahat yahi hai ke, is qadar pyaar doon...Qadmon mein tere main, toh jahaan waar doon~
gauri stopped when she reached the bottom of the stairs...her needed to get away.
gauri: woh...i want to go to baba's house for a while...he's been telling me how he misses
me and i want to check up on his health too.
shiv smiled through tear laden eyes.
shiv: jab jhoot bolna nahi atha...tho kyun bolti ho? jaana chathi ho...jao...mein nahi
rokunga...lekin ek baat yaad rakna...agar tum chali gayi tho mein bhi yahaan nahi rahunga..
mein bhi tumhare peeche peeche...
gauri: shiv don't make this more harder than it already is...
shiv: then don't go...i know i made a mistake...but i can't see life without you gauri...
~Chain mera le lo, khushi meri le lo...De do mujhe dedo saare gham~
gauri: shiv i need to go...i need some space to think about what i want.
shis knew he was loosing her and franticly placed his hands on her shoulders.
shiv: i know what you want...gauri i know just as much as you do that you love me. just
give me another chance...i'll do anything for you.
gauri let out a sob: shiv please...let me go
shiv shook his head..holding onto her tighter.
shiv: you know me...i'll be lost without you..whose going to find my tie for me...whose going
to give me my wallet, my cell phone? whose going to iron my clothes?
gauri: shiv please!...i want to go.
she waited for him to let her go....shiv sighed in defeat. when she felt his hold on her
loosen she spoke.
gauri: you know if i heard the truth from you instead of shahshank it might have been
different.
shiv: what diffrence does it gauri?
gauri: the difference is that my trust in you wouldn't have been broken.
she began to walk towards the door when shiv's voice stopped her.
shiv: gauri...mat jao...
he fell down on his knees when gauri walked out the door...he felt a part of himself die.
~Dil de diya hai, jaan tumhein denge..Daga nahin karenge sanam~
