Chapter 31
shiv ki gauri..
As shiv takes a step at the front his own property the sort of look on his expression. Portrayal of his presence was very much Shiv Kapoor. Dressed in that signature white shirt accompanied by a certain shade of blue in the form of his suit shiv looked as influential as ever his every action gave of his personalty hiding all the distress behind his own persona shiv showed no essence of insecurity simply walking up to the entrance of his residence naturally he was the owner he needed no permission nor acknowledgment to make his presence felt yet walking past the watch man he stopped. An conventional looking watchman Inform greeted shiv with a "good morning sir" to which shiv replied with a nod. With something in mind shiv asked.. "muje ghar ki spare chaiyay doe.." asking the guard for keys the man hands them over instantly. "tum yeh dekho ke koi ghar ke andar na ayey." nodding in acceptance the guard does just that whilst shiv walks into what he just proved was undoubtedly his property. Taking very defined steps..towards the lounge of the house shivs only aim was to lay eyes on his family. His eyes in search of gauri and his daughter he takes a look around the house with a sense of easiness. The sort of looked that showed off the fact that where ever they both may be he was going to take them home with him without question. The sort of thought process that came with being shiv kapoor and with it all influential. Looking around in that certain ease shivs sight passed the specific layout of the house. Very simplistic and somewhat conservative too the presence of a seating area..sofa of a deep shade..followed by open spaced lounged that seem to take to other areas of the house.. bedrooms and kitchen but before shiv could get to any of that he took note of what was something that was noticeable straight away. The sound of baby cry from a distance within the lounge..looking into it shiv noticed his daughters cot placed next to the breakfast table and making his way instantly in her direction. The fatherly felling within him stuck stopping looking over his daugher shivs expression was a mixture of feelings from the look of worry of to what was wrong, to the overwhelmed moment of seeing his daughter after what felt like such a long time. Picking her up to stop her discomfort shiv didn't feel quite so prepared. Taking off his blazer hanging it over a chair at the table..himself now more comfortable picks his daugher up ever so gently and as soon as he does so the crying stops. The fatherly touch had worked wonders. The moment so soothing it had put a smile on both shiv and the babies face. Looking around the room for any sign of gauri shiv... "tumari mama kaha hai?" Cradling her in his arms ever so gently shiv had been waiting for this moment for days. The content feeling that shiv felt matched uep to none other, watching his daughter fall asleep in his arms shivs smile was one to remember. On the other hand as further into a room in the house gauri had just about completed her morning routine. Her expression looking rather drained her appearance was a little more relaxed than usual. Dressed in a light shade of pink her saari seemed somewhat appropriate for home . The rest of her appearance was as per personalty perfected. Her sindhoor...mangalsurtra yet her hair she wore in a more casual way. Having It tied back in appreciation of all the running around she had to do over her daugher and also maybe a loss of interest in her own appearance as she had another now to look after. As per usual finishing her morning puja gauri headed out into the lounge..her routine a little altered now she relied on her daugher as her only company. For carrying out her routine she did yet when it came to breaking her morning fast there was no shiv and to consolidate for that missing factor gauri would walk out into the lounge where she kept a framed portrait of shiv, taking what she thought was her permission from shiv she spent a few minuets with that photograph being stopped now and again by her daughters demands yet she always found the time and even more so that phone call she made to kapoor house to make sure shiv had taken his breakfast before her strengthened her routine even more. Her determination in her beliefs was being questioned and she succeed every time this was something shiv was aware of too. As gauri made her way towards the lounge unknown to shivs presence she simply in her own world walked past shiv who was still very silently putting his daughter to sleep. Both in there own concentration failed to notice each other. As gauri walked some distance past shiv and stopped at a certain wall that carried that portrait of shiv she spent a few minuets silently, certain emotions going through her mind had resulted in the flow of tears...yet It was only minutes later she noticed in the reflection of the portrait that her husband was behind her not only was he in such proximity she also noticed the farther and daugher reunion. Overwhelmed to see shiv here..gauri was delved into mixed feelings. What was she too do..?all this time she was scared as to tell shiv of the truth..in fear of facing him and his questions and on one end her feeling of attachment for her husband the love..the amount that she had missed him everything. With it more a flow of more tears yet her expression showed a certain happiness mixed with all that worry yet it was nothing short of what she had expected. Turing around to face shiv yet shiv still had his back towards her but not for long. As shiv too sensed gauris presence he put his daugher down in her cradle and turned to face gauri. Noticing gauris appearance, her tears which she had done well to hide from him everything told him that gauri had been though much more than had and it was for him to find out what was bothering him. As shiv took a glance over his wife..the feeling within had melted somewhat. He had come with a little irration at gauri. Annoyance at why she was creating such circumstances but after seeing her for himslef those feeling relaxed somewhat but not completely. As shiv looked over gauri..placing his hands into this trouser pockets as per personality shiv seemed to be in his own persona. Very controlled yet gauri looked emotional..not able to face shiv her expression seemed to search other areas to concentrate on but essentially shiv was the most important factor. Lifting her expression a little and with some hesitation gauri spoke "aap?" shiv had no reation for him it was his home, his wife his daugher he had no reason to be questioned. "yeh mera ghar hai...tum meri patni ho aur yeh meri beti toe mein yaha nahin aasakta?"gauri was in a little fear as to shivs response. His tone very sharp but even he knew that gauri didn't mean it in that way. His response was just to make a point of the fact of what he he considered as his own. As gauri was a little warry of her her husbands nature she said no more for her it was hard enough the awkward interaction let alone anything that would become controversial. After all it wasn't in her nature to speak up in front of him and that he knew too. As shiv let the moment pass by gauri approached him with as much devotion as ever taking his blessing gauri encountered a cold moment when she found that shiv had no reaction. Finding herself in that lowerd position before him gauri waited for that certain gesture of acceptance. Usually shiv was one to stop gauri inbetween or even just place his hand over her but there was nothing of the sort..in return shiv soley walked away leaving gauri to pick herself up. Watching shiv walk away gauri worried as to his behaviour dwells on her doings. Had she caused him so much pain for him to treat her in this way..thinking about it in worry gauri spent a few munits gathering herself yet after that few minuits shiv returned with a glass of orange juice.walking up to gauri and placing it on the breakfast table next to them it showed that it wasnt what gauri was think. Her husbands gesture had proved to be more caring then anything . Not able to speak nor interact with shiv properly gauri prounces her words with some caution. "mein aapke leighyey chai le kar aati hoon." making that exuses and walking a few steps past shiv gauri feels a certain grasp at her twist which stops her. Looking up she finds shivs eyes taking there watch upon her. Nervous with the moment gauri finds it hard.
"muje kuch nahin chahiyey gauri..sirf satchayee jaana chahta hoon." shivs dominace was always something else for gauri..As shiv wanted gauri took a seat before him and listened to what he had to say. "mein jaanta hoon gauri kuch hai joe tume parishaan kar raha hai..kuch hai jo hamare beech mein aaraha hai. Aur tumara pati hone ke naate mein aaj tumse waoh baat jaana chahta hoon gauri. " the amount of deep deterimination on shivs face was strenghting. The look in his eyes showed all the love for his wife..all that she was going through he wanted to destroy As gauri broke in to silent tears before shiv..shiv could no longer take it. "tum kitna bhi jooht bol lo gauri magar joe aasoon tum chupana chahti ho waoh muje dekhte hai." shiv words had forced gauri to a certain stage where she had taken up from her seat and walked some distance away from shiv. Taking to a certain chest of draws in the room gauri pulled out a file. A convertional medical report style blue folder she silently brought up and handed to shiv. Not looking up at him once gauris words filled with emotion. "hosake toe muje maaf kardijyey" with those words silently said gauri left the room walking to what was her bedroom which could be seen from the lounge, shiv and the baby were left on there own. Discomfoted by the way gauri seemed to be so distressed shiv looked at the file gauri had given him. Whatever was inside it...the only way to solve the impact of it was to find out for himself. Opeing up the file shiv read its contense...laying eyes on the line:
FARTHER OF CHILD: SAMAR KAPOOR... shivs moment froze. His expression turned cold with a loss of realilty. Sometime later and as shiv got to terms with the truth he sat thinking in what was his chair...watching over what for him was his daugher shivs expression was drained. Having gone over everything in his mind shiv had wiped away his tears. Having spent time listening to gauris weeping behind the door of her room there was nothing he could do feeling helpless shiv tried to gather himself and just as he did so the door of gauris room was opened...gauri made her way out into the lounge. Shiv noticed all the traits of gauris emotion her tears everything and watched silently as she approched him took a seat beside him on the floor against his chair and lay her head in his lap. What could he do or even say...his feelings within him had told him everytihng yet gauri still needed to confess. "darti thi aapse..aap kya sochnge...aap kya karte..jab aapne ne kaya ko nikal diya toe...waoh toe.." shiv didnt want to hear anymore..he knew exactly what gauri was thinking and stopped her. "aur tume laga ke mein..meri beti ke saath bhi aisa karta??" wooh meri beti hai gauri aur ismein ek kaakas ka tugra kuch nahin karsakta.. as gauri lifted her expression from shivs lap shiv rose from his chair picking up that file he tore out that medical report and tearng it into pieces trew it aways. As gauri watched in emoiton all she wanted is to be In shivs arms and thats just what shiv allowed her to do. Stopping her from appologising further or explaining herself he simply conforted her ..both in tears..shiv made sure that gauri was aware..woh meri beti hai gauri..aur tum meri patni...as shiv and gauri spent sometime in each others arms..the baby..cry had begun..woh roh rahin hai. Shiv not hearing the silent cry asks.. "kaun?" woah..gauri in shiv arms tries to expain but shiv takes over...hah magar uska naam nahin hai naa toe..patani chalta tum kiski baat kar rahin ho.
Gauri feels at ease now.." mr kapoor?
Shiv replys with a "humm"
to which gauri asks innocently "uska naam kya rakhe?"
shiv looks down at gauri..."uska naam gauri rakhte hai."
gauri looking at shiv questions... "gauri??..gauri kyun"
shiv: kyun ke woah bikul tumari tare shiv ki gauri hogi!
…...........note for all readers: what can I say guys there it was the end of shiv ki gauri. I think for sometime I have been thinking of ending skg..because as always my ffs have a planned route and end and I guess skg had got to that point. I have to say a BIG BIG thank you too all my readers..saba...stranger in us..sonia..blue jen..swetha 1o, deizy..starfan everyone atop..every single reader..kuku ,pria..pia..kb war..sweetscopio, bunny fun..everyone..cant thank you enough for reading my ff time and time again...and believe it or not this was my first ff..and since then ive completed ansooni dastaan and started unki shiddat se too..what more can I say. Will miss writing this ff but all things come to an end and I feel skg needed that end. Im wanting to write something new..and for that it was essential for me conclude..but thank you again to all my dedicated readers..ALL MY SILENT READERS TOO now the ff is over it would be nice to hear from you...all so I can thank you all individually..pls do comment for one last time!!!
ok there we are guys SHIV KI GAURI CONCLUDE...CHAPTER 31 : "14TH/SEP/2009"
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