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Hellooo loveliess!!!!
I know!!! It has been seriously late!!!
But you jnow its never too late!!! Challo challoo enough of me and get ready for a emotional ride!!!
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There is something like line of gold thread running through a mans words when he is talking to his daughter, and gradually over the years... It gets long enough for you to pick it up in your hands and weave it into a cloth which feels like love itself!"
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CHAPTER 4 - Awaited reunion!!!
Muskan just stood there rooted to the spot listening to him. Her heart squeezed painfully as every node played by manik hit her ear making the hole in her heart even bigger. Her eyes only noticing the anger and hurt and a bit of hate in his eyes.
Muskan had never seen her dad as angry as he was right at that moment, his eyes red, his breathing loud and his whole body clenched.His knuckles were bloodied; I didn't know which wall he had punched. His studio was upside down, half of the things were broken and the other half lay strewn around the room.
She let out a gasp as soon as she saw his knuckles bleeding profusely due to furious plucking of strings of guitar.She was scared to go near her own dad would be an understatement but more than that she was confident that her dad can never hurt her in anyway which made her strode towards him.
As soon as she reached Manik and her eyes widened in shock as she saw the same box of kisses kept open in front of Manik. Her eyes instantly looked at manik's stern face. Her heart cried blood tears seeing what she bought out of her dad while Manik was still oblivious of muskans presence there and was continued plunking the guitar strings furiously with steel face and clenched jaw.
Her tears knew no bounds and she didn't even try wiping them as she stood exactly in front of Manik diverting his attention towards her. Manik's hand instantly stopped moving on guitar stings as he saw his muskan standing in front if him when he least expected her to be.
'I want to say something!" Said muskan looking at his bleeding knuckles. She wanted to hug him tight and cry out loud for hurting him but she was afraid to do so. But putting up a strong face and with sharp intake of air she started.
" I know I have been downright stupid and fool to behave like this, I know I'm your bad little rich spoiled brat, I know I let you down, I talked to you like a stupid brainless child, I hurt you, dad. I'm very bad because I could not stand up to your expectations, you supported me every time and love me unconditionally and I did nothing for you...I just...I'm...I'm so sorry...dad...!' she sobbed hard as she couldnt keep her emotion in check anymore.
And she did something which manik could never imagine in his entire life. She folded her hands and silently thanking him for accepting her in his life. Manik was shocked again. He, within a second, stopped her and held her hands.
She waited for him to react, but she found his reaction calm, he did not say anything, he just looked at her. His silence was killing her. She was impatient and afraid now.
'Dad...! Punish me. Take all my luxuries back, I don't want any car, scold me, slap me but say something, dad! Just give me a big grand punishment, I deserve it, dad! But please talk to me!' Please dont hate me dad!"she cried as her dads silence was piercing her heart.
He took a deep breath and got up from the chair and held her by shoulder .
'Look at me, smile!' he ordered her.
She looked at him nervously.
'Look at me, straight into my eyes!"
She did it; she was still uneasy and afraid.
'What do you see? Do you see anger? Pain? Rage? Distraught? What do you see?'
'Dad...! I don't understand what are you...?'
'Smile!" Manik said her name ever so softly that made her heart blossom and lips smile.
"I love you, I can never hate you. I can scold you because I want you become tough and I want to teach you, but I can't hate my little rich spoiled brat' he smiled encouragingly.
'Dad...I...'
'Shh...you talk too much. Just like your mother.'
And they hugged. He let her cry and wash away all her guilt and pain. A single drop of tear slipped down from his cheek but he successfully managed to hide it from his daughter, but not from his wife - his life, who was watching them from the corner of the wall, behind door. He thanked her silently; she gave him an angelic smile.
Nandini wiped her tears seeing the duo with satisfaction. She decided not to interfere them and she moved out and sat on the bench out to provide much needed space to father daughter duo.just when her eyes meet something shiny placed on the bench besides her. Her eyes welled with tears as she opened it And she smile between her tears.
"Dad! What i said i never meant it... Infact i have been the worst daughter to bestest dad in the world... I am sorry dad! For being such a dissapointment to you... I am so... Sorry dad!" Muskan spoke sobbing hard against manik's chest. Manik held his daughter more tightly giving her all the strength she needed.
"Dad!! I will do whatever you ask me to... I will never disobey you... I will never go against your decision! I will try my level bet to meet your expectations and become a shining star for you!" Muskan spoke looking straight in his eyes with utmost determination as if she meet each word she spoke.
"Gosh! Do i seriously look like some dictator with this overgrown beard... Shit! I thought it made me look sexy!" Said Manik with utter disappointment and a sad cute pout to lighten the mood around.
" dictator!!! Sexy!!... What the!!!" Muskan whispered audibly looking at Manik as if he had horns grown on his head.
Manik chuckled at her expression and made her sit before taking a seat beside her himself.
" you made me sound like some dictator of some state! " said Manik casually and mimicked her words " like i will obey you... I will so what ever you want me to do!!! Seriously!" Manik gave her an amazed expression still receiving a confused amazed look from his daughter made him sigh. She wasn't expecting there talk to be this chilled out.
Manik held her hand in his and looked straight in her eyes and spoke" smile! I never ever what you to do what i ask you to or what i want you to do!" Which amused Muskan.
"Hell!!! I too never did that!" Manik said shrugging his shoulder making muskan chuckle. Seeing her giggling finally he too smiled genuinely seeing his smile smiling.
"Smile! I never want you to do what i ask you to... I never want you to obey what ever i say!" Spoke manik to which shock would be an understatement for muskan.
"I never want you to obey what ever i say... I may not be right always! I want you too scold me and make me realise my mistake. See like...You knew i wasnt giving enough tome to you that i should have... You should have confronted me and nagged me to no extend like the way i did to you today!! You know you have complete right to do that!" Manik spoke while tears again made way out muskans eyes seeing how the hell can someone be so sweet and pure soul.
"I neer want you to do what i ask you to... Because i will never ask you do do anything what i wish... As you grow older i want you to fly like a free bird... Go further and pursue all your dreams...live life to the fullest and make sure your happiness is never second to none!"
"I don't want you to tell me and do according to my will... But i would love to advice you or suggest you when ever you need them!" Manik smile seeing her daughter lovingly while story on the other side was completely opposite. Muskan realised that she never knew the person sitting in front of her or she never made advances to know him. She suddenly felt a sense of pride to be daughter of such a beautiful dad but her guilt over took that feeling as it just git pumped up with each look at her dad. She just flung her arms around his neck to which he smilingly accepted and eased her.
" dad! You had all right to shout at me... Dad.. I never knew i have such double standard friends ... I never ever thought thy could ever cheat me and back stab me like that... How can i be such a fool!"
Muskan let out her pain and showed him her shattered side to Manik which pained him to no extend seeing her vulnerable state.
"Heyy!" Manik pulled her out of hug and cupped her face while wiping of her non stop flowing tears ever so gently and made her look towards him.
" smile! Dont you dare call my smile foolish! She is one of the most sensible girl i ever met!" Said manik strictly making muskan smile faintly.
"Daddy! You dont need to lie to make me smile!"
0Hey! I dint lie at all... If it had been any other girl of your age wouldnt have come to apolozise for hwr mistake and realised it so soon!"
"Dad! How can you find positivity in every thing around you!" Muskan asked smiling questioning her dad. Manik smile remembering the time when same question was asked by him to Nandini when fab5 was on verge to break and it was Nandini who supported him at that time and showed him positivity in that also.
"Thats probably because of your mom and my loving wife!" Said Manik with admiration smile for his wife.
"Don't blame yourself for wrong choices you made... You know good people sometime make bad decisions. They mess up, they let others down...but taht doest make them bad people. After all we all are humans and tend to make mistakes.!" Manik spoke as he hugged muskan side ways snaking his arm around her shoulder while she rested her head on his chest listening to him contently.
"In life we do things... Some we wish we Never did and some we wish we could replay it million times in our head. But they all make us who we are and at the end they shape every detail of who we are. If we would have reversed them as we wished then we wouldn't have been the person we are right now." Manik spoke calmly while Muskan was in deep thoughts as he register each word her dad spoke.
These are the life lessons or what we call it 'sanskar' that parents endure in their kids helping them to be a better person and discover what they are meant to be.
"At this age, we tend to meet all limd of people some are too good some are harmful... Most dangerous ones are those backstabbers disguised as friends. They look like diamonds when they are actually just fake glittered stones. A true friend is those who dare to tell you your mistakes ad even show you ways to mend them rather than agreeing with them on wrong things. Friendship is a bond which gradually grows and becomes stronger with time... Don't trust anyone instantly! If ever your heart gives in for even 1 percent of hesitation or feeling restless! Back out of it. Because when ever you do anything good or bad, you inner conscious at least for a nano second will question you for your own decision... If ever that moments come, just back out of it." Manik explained his daughter the harsh reality of the dog biting dog world and mentally preparing her for the obstacles she might face in her life. He wanted his daughter to be the strongest and toughest that even problem thinks twice before facing her.
And another unexpected thing happened again as he heard his daughter sobbing hard again in his chest. He instantly tried to break the hug and see her but he felt her grip getting tighter on him and soon he heard her mummering.
"I missed you dad!!! I missed you sooo much... I... I am tired of this mess... I want to be your little angel again... I want to hide in your embrace so that no one can hurt me!" Came shaking voice of muskan who was making its way between her hard sob. Manik felt his heart skipping a beat. He wanted to kill himself for not giving attention to her daughter when she most needed it.
(She missed me! SHE MISSED ME... And what the hell was i doing!!! I am si sorry smile... I couldnt be best dad to you... I couldnt save you and jeep you protected from all the odds of world... I am so sorry sweetheart!!! Am so sorry!!) maniks heart cried out making a unsaid promise to his daughter to protect her from all the odds of the world.
"My smile has to fly... I want you to fight all the odds and take the highest flight... I am gonna watch you shine... I am gonna watch you grow... I am gonna paint a sigh that as long as one and one makes two...there is not gonna be any father who loves his daughter as much as i love you! I will always be there for you."
" Hamesha and forever!!" Whispered manik as he placed light kiss on the top of her head in hairs and sat there hugging each other tightly making unsaid promises to each other for each other by each other.
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"They say that the very instant a man lays his eyes on his daughter he adores his daughter to no extend and even when she grows up she still remains his little angel with long ponytails. And i. Return he promises never to see the awkwardness of her teen years, the mistakes she does or the secrets she keeps!"
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Thats what dad are like... They can forgive you one one mere sight of you... He can fight the world for you coz you mean that world to him. I am not a bloody saint as i am most flawed kid that no one deserves and what my dad did and is doing for me is something i can never pay him back even for seven births to come.
This chapter is really close to me as most of the things where part of what my dad told me. When i was to step out of the protective atmosphere of the house to face the real world. He did made me see the reality from his point of view. Now when i am back home after 2 long years and it has been 1 month i am home i am again the little ninja for him. Yes you read that right! He calls me ninja... Coz i am always over excited over enthusiastic around him and keep hoping around him or diappear suddenly. And yes! I am after all his daughter so i am no less... We have saved each others contacts like he named me ninja and i named him 'hagemaru'... Yeah its my favourite cartoon and it resemble my dad alot!!! Rofl!!!!
And most of my friends mistake him to be my boyfriend!!! Am serious... M not lying... They did ask me so many time. I am so proud to be daughter of such and handsome dad.
Achhaaa!!! Ek minute... I being so nice asked you readers to only like atleast so that i come to know who reads it... Tum logon se woh bhi nahi hota!!! Huh!!!
Urrghhh!!! I sooo HATE SILENT READERS!!! Chalo abh sabh comment karooo lambaa lmabbaaa!!!! ;) ;);););)
Comments awaited!!!
And do hug your dad tonight or make something sweet or anything if you and ur dad arent that expressive but but but!!! Only if you are not a disaster at it like me... Aur kitchen jala kar jab mummy chappal le kar tumhare piche dodh rahi ho you say her " mummy misha ko pitooo she gave me idea!!"
Hehehhehehehere lolololololol!!!!
Chali abh seriously bye!!!
Comments awaited!!!
Stay happy stay blessed
Mishshergill
PS- thanx for reading my blabbering disguised in note! ;)
I know!!! It has been seriously late!!!
But you jnow its never too late!!! Challo challoo enough of me and get ready for a emotional ride!!!
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There is something like line of gold thread running through a mans words when he is talking to his daughter, and gradually over the years... It gets long enough for you to pick it up in your hands and weave it into a cloth which feels like love itself!"
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CHAPTER 4 - Awaited reunion!!!
Muskan just stood there rooted to the spot listening to him. Her heart squeezed painfully as every node played by manik hit her ear making the hole in her heart even bigger. Her eyes only noticing the anger and hurt and a bit of hate in his eyes.
Muskan had never seen her dad as angry as he was right at that moment, his eyes red, his breathing loud and his whole body clenched.His knuckles were bloodied; I didn't know which wall he had punched. His studio was upside down, half of the things were broken and the other half lay strewn around the room.
She let out a gasp as soon as she saw his knuckles bleeding profusely due to furious plucking of strings of guitar.She was scared to go near her own dad would be an understatement but more than that she was confident that her dad can never hurt her in anyway which made her strode towards him.
As soon as she reached Manik and her eyes widened in shock as she saw the same box of kisses kept open in front of Manik. Her eyes instantly looked at manik's stern face. Her heart cried blood tears seeing what she bought out of her dad while Manik was still oblivious of muskans presence there and was continued plunking the guitar strings furiously with steel face and clenched jaw.
Her tears knew no bounds and she didn't even try wiping them as she stood exactly in front of Manik diverting his attention towards her. Manik's hand instantly stopped moving on guitar stings as he saw his muskan standing in front if him when he least expected her to be.
'I want to say something!" Said muskan looking at his bleeding knuckles. She wanted to hug him tight and cry out loud for hurting him but she was afraid to do so. But putting up a strong face and with sharp intake of air she started.
" I know I have been downright stupid and fool to behave like this, I know I'm your bad little rich spoiled brat, I know I let you down, I talked to you like a stupid brainless child, I hurt you, dad. I'm very bad because I could not stand up to your expectations, you supported me every time and love me unconditionally and I did nothing for you...I just...I'm...I'm so sorry...dad...!' she sobbed hard as she couldnt keep her emotion in check anymore.
And she did something which manik could never imagine in his entire life. She folded her hands and silently thanking him for accepting her in his life. Manik was shocked again. He, within a second, stopped her and held her hands.
She waited for him to react, but she found his reaction calm, he did not say anything, he just looked at her. His silence was killing her. She was impatient and afraid now.
'Dad...! Punish me. Take all my luxuries back, I don't want any car, scold me, slap me but say something, dad! Just give me a big grand punishment, I deserve it, dad! But please talk to me!' Please dont hate me dad!"she cried as her dads silence was piercing her heart.
He took a deep breath and got up from the chair and held her by shoulder .
'Look at me, smile!' he ordered her.
She looked at him nervously.
'Look at me, straight into my eyes!"
She did it; she was still uneasy and afraid.
'What do you see? Do you see anger? Pain? Rage? Distraught? What do you see?'
'Dad...! I don't understand what are you...?'
'Smile!" Manik said her name ever so softly that made her heart blossom and lips smile.
"I love you, I can never hate you. I can scold you because I want you become tough and I want to teach you, but I can't hate my little rich spoiled brat' he smiled encouragingly.
'Dad...I...'
'Shh...you talk too much. Just like your mother.'
And they hugged. He let her cry and wash away all her guilt and pain. A single drop of tear slipped down from his cheek but he successfully managed to hide it from his daughter, but not from his wife - his life, who was watching them from the corner of the wall, behind door. He thanked her silently; she gave him an angelic smile.
Nandini wiped her tears seeing the duo with satisfaction. She decided not to interfere them and she moved out and sat on the bench out to provide much needed space to father daughter duo.just when her eyes meet something shiny placed on the bench besides her. Her eyes welled with tears as she opened it And she smile between her tears.
"Dad! What i said i never meant it... Infact i have been the worst daughter to bestest dad in the world... I am sorry dad! For being such a dissapointment to you... I am so... Sorry dad!" Muskan spoke sobbing hard against manik's chest. Manik held his daughter more tightly giving her all the strength she needed.
"Dad!! I will do whatever you ask me to... I will never disobey you... I will never go against your decision! I will try my level bet to meet your expectations and become a shining star for you!" Muskan spoke looking straight in his eyes with utmost determination as if she meet each word she spoke.
"Gosh! Do i seriously look like some dictator with this overgrown beard... Shit! I thought it made me look sexy!" Said Manik with utter disappointment and a sad cute pout to lighten the mood around.
" dictator!!! Sexy!!... What the!!!" Muskan whispered audibly looking at Manik as if he had horns grown on his head.
Manik chuckled at her expression and made her sit before taking a seat beside her himself.
" you made me sound like some dictator of some state! " said Manik casually and mimicked her words " like i will obey you... I will so what ever you want me to do!!! Seriously!" Manik gave her an amazed expression still receiving a confused amazed look from his daughter made him sigh. She wasn't expecting there talk to be this chilled out.
Manik held her hand in his and looked straight in her eyes and spoke" smile! I never ever what you to do what i ask you to or what i want you to do!" Which amused Muskan.
"Hell!!! I too never did that!" Manik said shrugging his shoulder making muskan chuckle. Seeing her giggling finally he too smiled genuinely seeing his smile smiling.
"Smile! I never want you to do what i ask you to... I never want you to obey what ever i say!" Spoke manik to which shock would be an understatement for muskan.
"I never want you to obey what ever i say... I may not be right always! I want you too scold me and make me realise my mistake. See like...You knew i wasnt giving enough tome to you that i should have... You should have confronted me and nagged me to no extend like the way i did to you today!! You know you have complete right to do that!" Manik spoke while tears again made way out muskans eyes seeing how the hell can someone be so sweet and pure soul.
"I neer want you to do what i ask you to... Because i will never ask you do do anything what i wish... As you grow older i want you to fly like a free bird... Go further and pursue all your dreams...live life to the fullest and make sure your happiness is never second to none!"
"I don't want you to tell me and do according to my will... But i would love to advice you or suggest you when ever you need them!" Manik smile seeing her daughter lovingly while story on the other side was completely opposite. Muskan realised that she never knew the person sitting in front of her or she never made advances to know him. She suddenly felt a sense of pride to be daughter of such a beautiful dad but her guilt over took that feeling as it just git pumped up with each look at her dad. She just flung her arms around his neck to which he smilingly accepted and eased her.
" dad! You had all right to shout at me... Dad.. I never knew i have such double standard friends ... I never ever thought thy could ever cheat me and back stab me like that... How can i be such a fool!"
Muskan let out her pain and showed him her shattered side to Manik which pained him to no extend seeing her vulnerable state.
"Heyy!" Manik pulled her out of hug and cupped her face while wiping of her non stop flowing tears ever so gently and made her look towards him.
" smile! Dont you dare call my smile foolish! She is one of the most sensible girl i ever met!" Said manik strictly making muskan smile faintly.
"Daddy! You dont need to lie to make me smile!"
0Hey! I dint lie at all... If it had been any other girl of your age wouldnt have come to apolozise for hwr mistake and realised it so soon!"
"Dad! How can you find positivity in every thing around you!" Muskan asked smiling questioning her dad. Manik smile remembering the time when same question was asked by him to Nandini when fab5 was on verge to break and it was Nandini who supported him at that time and showed him positivity in that also.
"Thats probably because of your mom and my loving wife!" Said Manik with admiration smile for his wife.
"Don't blame yourself for wrong choices you made... You know good people sometime make bad decisions. They mess up, they let others down...but taht doest make them bad people. After all we all are humans and tend to make mistakes.!" Manik spoke as he hugged muskan side ways snaking his arm around her shoulder while she rested her head on his chest listening to him contently.
"In life we do things... Some we wish we Never did and some we wish we could replay it million times in our head. But they all make us who we are and at the end they shape every detail of who we are. If we would have reversed them as we wished then we wouldn't have been the person we are right now." Manik spoke calmly while Muskan was in deep thoughts as he register each word her dad spoke.
These are the life lessons or what we call it 'sanskar' that parents endure in their kids helping them to be a better person and discover what they are meant to be.
"At this age, we tend to meet all limd of people some are too good some are harmful... Most dangerous ones are those backstabbers disguised as friends. They look like diamonds when they are actually just fake glittered stones. A true friend is those who dare to tell you your mistakes ad even show you ways to mend them rather than agreeing with them on wrong things. Friendship is a bond which gradually grows and becomes stronger with time... Don't trust anyone instantly! If ever your heart gives in for even 1 percent of hesitation or feeling restless! Back out of it. Because when ever you do anything good or bad, you inner conscious at least for a nano second will question you for your own decision... If ever that moments come, just back out of it." Manik explained his daughter the harsh reality of the dog biting dog world and mentally preparing her for the obstacles she might face in her life. He wanted his daughter to be the strongest and toughest that even problem thinks twice before facing her.
And another unexpected thing happened again as he heard his daughter sobbing hard again in his chest. He instantly tried to break the hug and see her but he felt her grip getting tighter on him and soon he heard her mummering.
"I missed you dad!!! I missed you sooo much... I... I am tired of this mess... I want to be your little angel again... I want to hide in your embrace so that no one can hurt me!" Came shaking voice of muskan who was making its way between her hard sob. Manik felt his heart skipping a beat. He wanted to kill himself for not giving attention to her daughter when she most needed it.
(She missed me! SHE MISSED ME... And what the hell was i doing!!! I am si sorry smile... I couldnt be best dad to you... I couldnt save you and jeep you protected from all the odds of world... I am so sorry sweetheart!!! Am so sorry!!) maniks heart cried out making a unsaid promise to his daughter to protect her from all the odds of the world.
"My smile has to fly... I want you to fight all the odds and take the highest flight... I am gonna watch you shine... I am gonna watch you grow... I am gonna paint a sigh that as long as one and one makes two...there is not gonna be any father who loves his daughter as much as i love you! I will always be there for you."
" Hamesha and forever!!" Whispered manik as he placed light kiss on the top of her head in hairs and sat there hugging each other tightly making unsaid promises to each other for each other by each other.
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"They say that the very instant a man lays his eyes on his daughter he adores his daughter to no extend and even when she grows up she still remains his little angel with long ponytails. And i. Return he promises never to see the awkwardness of her teen years, the mistakes she does or the secrets she keeps!"
************************************^*****************************************
Thats what dad are like... They can forgive you one one mere sight of you... He can fight the world for you coz you mean that world to him. I am not a bloody saint as i am most flawed kid that no one deserves and what my dad did and is doing for me is something i can never pay him back even for seven births to come.
This chapter is really close to me as most of the things where part of what my dad told me. When i was to step out of the protective atmosphere of the house to face the real world. He did made me see the reality from his point of view. Now when i am back home after 2 long years and it has been 1 month i am home i am again the little ninja for him. Yes you read that right! He calls me ninja... Coz i am always over excited over enthusiastic around him and keep hoping around him or diappear suddenly. And yes! I am after all his daughter so i am no less... We have saved each others contacts like he named me ninja and i named him 'hagemaru'... Yeah its my favourite cartoon and it resemble my dad alot!!! Rofl!!!!
And most of my friends mistake him to be my boyfriend!!! Am serious... M not lying... They did ask me so many time. I am so proud to be daughter of such and handsome dad.
Achhaaa!!! Ek minute... I being so nice asked you readers to only like atleast so that i come to know who reads it... Tum logon se woh bhi nahi hota!!! Huh!!!
Urrghhh!!! I sooo HATE SILENT READERS!!! Chalo abh sabh comment karooo lambaa lmabbaaa!!!! ;) ;);););)
Comments awaited!!!
And do hug your dad tonight or make something sweet or anything if you and ur dad arent that expressive but but but!!! Only if you are not a disaster at it like me... Aur kitchen jala kar jab mummy chappal le kar tumhare piche dodh rahi ho you say her " mummy misha ko pitooo she gave me idea!!"
Hehehhehehehere lolololololol!!!!
Chali abh seriously bye!!!
Comments awaited!!!
Stay happy stay blessed
Mishshergill
PS- thanx for reading my blabbering disguised in note! ;)
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