I stare at those clouds aligned on the beautiful pink sky and then compare it my grey fate . I see contrast.
" I won't be weak " I whisper to myself ,
yes , you won't be weak " my heart murmurs
"maybe It was an answer" or " was it a question " ?
.I don't know.
Maybe we all are just tiny universes bottled into little bodies , who are trying to find a universe that they want to spend the rest of their lives exploring !
I looked at my palm and the lines on it , abruptly yet thoughtfully drawn by the god . How alien is it that they hold a lot of secrets, those lines which I don't even care a lot about know everything about me .
Im scared sometimes, may be someday my unsung notes would disappear into a void and that I've so much to say and I won't ever be heard.
I close my eyes and think about all the albums locked in my cupboard , covered with dust ,even the telescope is there , I remind myself .
Whenever, I open that cupboard, I hear them calling me, they sound just like my mom's lullaby and my appa's praises. I wish the dust fades away on them one day and that hand is mine .
I wish ..but now I can't , maybe this now is long for if I do , I ll fade away , just like that night .
That dark night , when I lay under the rubble helpless .
.That dark night .
That was how those days were, for me when I lived in the sprawling verandahs of my hometown, Mangalore.
Today I observe, sky has turned a little black and I remember all that ever was of me.
.It's changed.
The coast changed, the city lights changed. Mumbai, it is.
Suddenly, I hear his sweet whisper in my ears, although he isn't here right now .
.His words ring :
" But you are a star , which shines for me . Always "
"you give me light "
"You have galaxies inside you , which drive me ,direct me like a map "
I laugh at those words , for maybe I couldn't ever word myself to tell him , that he was my universe.
He is the one for whom my fireflies shine .
He makes me have peace with my demons , whenever I m in his arms
He makes me believe that I'm a flame and I can conquer all.
I help him fight him, for himself . But maybe he himself doesn't know, that in the process I fight myself too .
I find myself , a little bit more of myself , every time I'm with him .
Its an exploration or an adventure or maybe I don't know what it is!
He makes me calm , gets me calm with all I have lost all my life .
His solace makes me believe in true love again and again , every time he so gently kisses me .
His eyes , those dark brown orbs speak of loyalty that anyone in any time n space couldn't ever question .
Maybe, just maybe I ll someday find words to tell him , what he means to me .
My Best friend? My soulmate? Or my lover?
I find none justifying what he is to me or what I'm when I'm with him!
All I will ever word him would be " my Manik ".
.Forever and eternally mine.
my Manik , just like I'm his Nandini .
.Manik's Nandini, till eternity.
- his Nandini
At first glance, she'd appear quiet and reserved, like a solitary bird, and as fragile as a wing bone .but if you looked deeper, you would see she was so much buried light, only waiting for someone unafraid to get their hands on, to come along and unearth themselves with her.
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its all an nandini's pov about her life and how its changed .
my apologies for grammatical errors , if any
ps : i have written this as an ode to her character , whom we all love dearly and probably relate to the most in the show .With the show coming to an end soon , i will miss Nandini Murthy a lot . hence this small piece , for rarely such strong female leads are portrayed .
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