Hey guys, I am back with another FF(based on the current track). And this time, it is about Navya dealing with her pregnancy mood swings, about her feelings for Cabir and Raghav's entry back in his life.
The Raghav track has bugged me enough to ABHOR him, especially when Raghav-Cabir hugged. I mean WHYYY?! :S What was even the need?! Okay okay, this is not about me ranting my head off because of Raghav and definitely not about how much I loathe him because of his wrong timing -_- Thanks to the CVs.
Coming back to the FF, so it is basically Navya trying to see Cabir some sense about Raghav since he's keeping mum about his feelings, also keeping her feelings aside, since Cabir needs solace.
Talking about their current track, I'd really like to see Navya being mature and strong enough and NOT goofing up this time, and the one who tries her best to convince Cabir that Raghav is not the right guy. But yeah, I can only HOPE..its solely on the makers how they'd like to progress CaVya. Uh huh maybe I really need to shut up now!
Onto the FF!Pic creds- @kaisiyehyaarian_fc//Instagram
I NEED YOU, PLEASE TELL ME YOU NEED ME A LITTLE BIT,TOO.
Everything seemed so perfect. Things were eventually falling in place for both, Cabir and Navya. But happiness didn't last long in their paradise.
It was during the Mangalore road trip, when Cabir broke the news of losing his RJ job to Navya. In fact, it was because of Navya's constant interrogation that made Cabir admit that something was actually troubling him. Navya, who was feeling truly sorry and sad for him, tried her every bit to cheer him up and when he appreciated Navya's thought about giving the baby for adoption, she succeeded in winning back his sheepish grin and was in a chirpy mood throughout.
But THAT wasn't actually troubling Cabir, it was not like he was worried, what he truly missed was Raghav- his so called "love of his life", who left him,without once thinking about Cabir, and all Cabir could make sense,it was because of societal pressure'.Cabir felt vulnerable.He cribbed from inside,though he masked his sadness with a tired smile and deep down, he was glad that Navya was actually trying to perk him up. That made him a bit sentimental but of course, he wouldn't let Navya know about it! Why do guys always mask their feelings? :S It's a silly question to think about but it can have a lot of meaningful reasoning when we attempt to answer it. Anyway, that's not the point!
The next day was a real shocker for Cabir. It all started with his cranky hunger pangs that made him bump into R. Yes, his R, who looked incredulously unapologetic,though he tried to make up for it somewhat. What came as a surprise that without demanding a proper explanation from him, Cabir, without even thinking once, hugged him and then he became numb. REALLY numb. He was speechless and Navya soon realised it from his constant nagging but didn't want to go into the details as it was already dark. She was thirsty and decided to drink water from the matka downstairs. That's when she saw R. She sort of..well, flipped. She now perfectly could relate with Cabir's glum expressions. R didn't really notice her.She somehow managed to regain her posture and immediately went upstairs. She wanted to forget all about it and was too tired to even think about it. She retired to bed without thinking twice.
Next morning, Navya woke up with morning sickness and wasn't her cheerful self. Only Cabir knew how to deal with her during this situation, and she was missing him though he was in the next room.Navya vomited in the washroom and forcibly dragged herself to change her clothes. Nandini helped her with the breakfast and she ate 3 crispy,golden vadas at one go. All this while, R was nowhere to be seen. Even though, Cabir joined them shortly. He focussed more on the vada than anything else around. He didn't chatter much, that's when his eye caught Navya's,who was staring at the vada in her hand which made it look like she would gobble it anytime. Both of them knew her overeating and puking right after. Cabir got up from his chair and kept a hand on her left shoulder and shook her a little.
"Navya", he almost whispered.
"Hm..haan?", Navya regained her composure and looked up to Cabir. He was giving one his small smile, which meant he was nervous about something, yet tried to conceal it.
"Tum thik toh ho na?Dekho, hume wapas travel karna hai,zyaada mat khao",he kept his voice calm.
This irritated Navya a little, she was supposed to feel at least happy that Cabir was actually concerned about her. She didn't say anything and nodded. He was about to get back on his chair when Navya gripped his hand.They had their micro second eye lock'.
"Aur tum?" She asked in her softest voice.
"Hmm" , he said and again, gave one of his small smiles, which Navya knew clearly meant a NO and she wasn't feeling to ask him either as there was everybody around and she herself was feeling a bit gloomy, maybe it was because of her morning sickness, she thought. Although, deep down she knew it was because of Cabir and also because of Raghav's coming back all of sudden,which shook her a little. In an hour or so, they left for Mumbai.
Cabir was on the drivers' seat this time while Manik sat beside him due to a hand injury. Navya sat in between Mukti and Alya, comfortably uncomfortable, having a boring expression on her face.Cabir drove absentmindedly and none of them were talking or chattering either. They all were dead tired and couldn't wait to reach back home. The workshop has been a cakewalk for Navya already.
*Mumbai* ~Cabir and Navya's apartment (Next day)-
Navya was doing the dishes as usual while Cabir was out for his job hunt. It was a Saturday morning, but not like the regular one. Every Saturday Cabir made breakfast for him and Navya and helped her doing the household work. Today was different, he didn't bother to inform Navya about his whereabouts but he cared enough to left a note for her.Well, the actual reason was-he didn't want to face Navya's interrogatory mode plus she wasn't her usual self and slept a little longer. He didn't want to disturb her peaceful sleep so he quickly scribbled about his job hunt and kept the note beside her.
Navya was done with the dishes and was making her bed now, suddenly she felt a pang in her stomach. She didn't want to think about anything. Why was Raghav bothering Navya so much?!She growled and her purse fell on the floor. She didn't bother to pick it up, she felt in a strange way...helpless..She couldn't fathom. She hadn't questioned Cabir about this either, more than glum she felt sad for Cabir.Hundreds of what ifs popped in her mind!
What if Cabir goes back to Raghav? What if Raghav and Cabir patches up and what if Cabir throws me out of his apartment..no no he wouldn't do that..he HAS promised me..he wont..but WHAT IF..it wasn't just stopping..!
It annoyed her and she realised her eyes were starting to get moist.
"Nahi,hum nahi royenge,nahi Navya",saying this she burst into tears. There was unknown fear that has gripped her.Fear of Raghav coming back and most importantly fear of falling for Cabir. NO NO NO,she kept reassuring herself from the loudest to the softest voice she can. That day, Mukti saw her stressed and told her about how often stress and depression leads pregnant women to miscarriage. It wasn't like Navya didn't have any idea about it but she was fine until she saw Raghav. She couldn't make any sense of it. It wasn't like she was head over heels in love with Cabir, that can't happen just because he was helping her so much. It was that she genuinely developed a soft corner for him in her mind. She got used to him in her 3 months stay,so much that it felt like she knew him since ages. She knew his mood just by the quality of his jokes now.
There was a soft knock on the door and Navya knew it was Cabir because he might have thought she was still asleep and didn't want her to disturb. Forcefully, Navya wiped her face. Rehearsed a fake smile and opened the door.
"Aagaye tum, job ka kya hua? Mili ya phir..?" She casually asked him.
"Haan, intezaam hua hai. Monday tak pata chal jayega" Cabir gave her a tired smile and sat on the couch.
"Oh yeh toh bohot acchi baat hai, hume pakka pata hai ke tumhe hi milegi ye job"Navya said in a fake cheered up tone
"Hmm..dekhte hai, thanks Navya". He looked up at her and smiled, though you could tell from his expressions, he wasn't that excited about it.
She gave a hint of blush but noticed his expression,"Cabir, tumhe khush hona chahiye, kya hua?Kal se dekh rahe hai, flat kyu ho gaye ho tum?" though she exactly knew the reason, she was dreading to ask him but she had to..she wanted to make him feel better about himself, just the way he did when Harshad returned a month ago.
After a deep breath Cabir said,"Its raghav, its him, he's back..kal uss se main amms ke ghar me takraya..woh bhi waha workshop ke liye aaya tha" Cabir's voice broke.
Navya, too couldn't contain her feelings, so not only Cabir saw Raghav but he met and spoke to him,as well. She was in a dilemma. It was time. Time to make Cabir realise that R isn't meant for him. She has to think of Cabir as a friend ,not anything else. She mentally scolded herself giving a pained expression.
"Dekho Cabir",she sat beside him on the couch and kept a calm hand on his shoulder,"Hum jaante hai abhi tumhe kaise lag raha hai, hum bhi iss waqt se guzar chuke hai,in fact guzar rahe hai,humare liye bhi easy nahi hai"
"I know, Navya,lekin tumhare reasons different hai,Harshad ne tumahare sath jo kiya wo bohot hi galat tha aur iss baat ki saza tum use de rahi ho,,lekin mere liye..he left because of societal pressure..ek baar piche mud ke tak nahi dekha and now he's suddenly back..kahin na kahi mujhe lagta hai ki meri bhi galti hai, usne mana kiya tha iss revelation ke bare mein fab 5 ko batane ke liye aur phir wo sab drama bhi nahi hota" It looked like Cabir was ready to breakdown. Navya passed him a tissue kept on the table in front of her.
"Cabir, pehli baat, iss revelation se tumne khud ki dignity badhai hai, kam nahi ki. You should be proud of yourself. Aur kitna normal hai ye sab aaj ke zamane mein, tumhi toh kehte ho, kiya na tumhe society ne accept. Aisa nahi hai ke society ke pressure ke wajah se tum kisiko shakal nahi dikhaa paa rahe ho, aur tumhari mom ne bhi kuch samay liya..lekin wo aayi na tumhare pass wapas" she continued,"dekho humare reasons alag ho,lekin hum dono ne humara pyaar khoya hai, abb jab hum dono ke zindagi mein wo mud kar humare pass aaya toh hume move on karna bhi sikhna padega Cabir"
A tear fell from Cabir's eye. Navya tightened her gripped on his shoulder.
"Jab Harshad wapas aaya tab humare liye asaan nahi tha,abhi bhi nahi hai,hum bahar se keh dete hoge ki hum thik hai lekin andar se hum abhi bhi bhikare hue hai, tumne hi toh tumhara life ka funda hume bataya na,ke zindagi agar thoda sa punch aith rahi ho,toh tike raho aur kaho "bring it on"..hai na?So Cabir, hume emotional aur bewakoof ban kar nahi rehna chahiye..hum bhi Harshad ke jaal mein phase the uss din, wo tum the jisne hume sacchai baatai..hum bhi wohi kar rahe hai"
He nodded and bit his lower lip.
"Kya raghav ne tumhe bataya ke wo kyu chodh ke gaya tha? Societal pressure Cabir, yeh sahi reason nahi hai? Wo kyu darr gaya tha?Usse tab darr nahi laga jab usne pehli bar tumse kaha ke wo tumse pyaar karta hai,tum dono relationship mein the,use ek bar bhi nahi laga ke wo pakda jayega?Toh ye baat sabke samne aane ke baad hi use society ka darr kyun mehsoos hua?"
Cabir gave in this time. He became all thoughtful now.
"See Cabir, humare heartbreak se humne bohot kuch sikh liya hai, hum pregnant bhi hai,ye badi badi baatein tumhe abhi lecture lag rahi hogi lekin hum soch samajh ke bol rahe hai..aur tumahri bhalaai ke liye..kyuki jis dard aur dukh se hum guzre hai,hum nahi chahte ki tum bhi usi tarah."She paused for a moment and realised she was fumbling,"humara matlab hai tum ya hum jiski parvah karte hai,use ye waqt dekhna naa pade" She was literally exhausted for speaking non stop from the last 5 minutes.
"Raghav agar tumse saccha pyaar karta hai toh usne tumhe ek baar contact bhi karne koshish kyu nahi ki..yaar woh toh tum use dikh gaye issliye..sochne wali baat hai Cabir..hum sirf tumhe samjaa rahe hai..uske khilaaf bhadka nahi rahe hai..phir bhi ..tumhe kya karna hai,yeh tumhare upar hai.." She sighed.
Cabir realised that it was time he should stop being on his devdas mode.It has been almost a week since he felt lost,at least for the sake of Navya, he should cheer up a little because he knew she was feeling low too, he took a deep breath,wiped his face and said,"Thank you so much Navya, dil se thank you yaar,aur tumhe pata hai ki main jaldi nahi bolta kisi ko thanks" He held her hands and gave a slight pat on her back,which made it look like a hug,well,almost.
She blushed a little.
"Navya,sach mein..mujhe aise..you know.. kabhi bhi itna khulke bolne and all wo bhi iss bare mein..nahi..matlab aadat nahi hai..and tum nahi hoti toh sach mein mera kya hota" Cabir's eyes lit up. Navya gave him a genuine wide smile this time, because yesterday she read a line somewhere that said- "I need you,please tell me you need a little bit me,too" and this seemed so appropriate at the moment.
"Hona kya tha,tum bane rehte wo gumsum se devdas..tumhe suit bilkul nahi karta ye sab. Abb rona chodho saas bahu wali heroine ke tarah..abhi breakfast lagate hai hum"she teased him and made a yummy breakfast for him and he willingly ate. He had to be clear cut now.
It was always like that..they both had the potential of turning a gloomy moment into a light hearted one in minutes. And Navya truly hoped that her lecture' has helped Cabir realising his feelings about R now..whether to move on or stick in the past and accept him..though she wished for the former one,desperately!
And that is it! Let me know what do you all think of it. I really cannot stand R being back with Cabir. I wish it is Navya who makes him realise that he's wrong for him, just like in this FF, well, that'd just make their bond stronger! GAH, CaVya are LURVE forever!
Will be back with some more FF when I have time! Till then, take care people!
Ciao
~Hussie.
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