Hey peeps. Those of you who will recognize me will know me as the girl who posts the sad, emotional OSs on the forum. Cause, I don't usually do this. Actually I never do this, post episode analysis or reviews or rants as I like to call them. I only rant on Twinkle's thread cause her words demand it. But this week, I kinda covered the entire week so I figured I would throw it onto the main forum and see what everyone thinks. And lately the main forum activity has gone down in terms of episode reviews. So here is my 'the week in review'
Monday- Getting ready for the road trip.
"What's on your mind ?"
Nandini, she's always on my mind. Actually, she is just about everywhere. In my heart, she is the reason my heart beats. She is in every breath I take, I literally breathe for her. She is in the every fiber of my existence. And for her, I can do anything and i mean, anything !
For her, I can 'be mad' and stay up all night getting the classical musical workshop scheduled. I will show up at the Principle's office at 4:30 am and make it 'morning time' when this time used be my 'bedtime'.
For her, it's doesn't matter to me whether we are together in Mumbai or Mangalore. For me, home is wherever she is.
For her, I can stay away for her for a few hours so I can be closer to her eventually. So when she finally sees me, she smiles and rushes out to meet me because being away from each other, it's just as agonizing for her as it is for me.
For her to realize, I can tease her about missing me all night even i know exactly how miserable the feeling is. For her, I can say a simple 'bye' when in reality I want to hug so close, so close that even a breath of air doesn't pass through us.
For her, I can be 'cheesy' and buy 'something like this'. Two cups kissing. Just cause I miss the feel of your lips. just so i can remind her that i miss being close to her that way.
"Bye" I am saying bye but only for a few hours, we will see each other sooner than you think.
Manik, he's always on my mind. He is even on mind when I don't want him to be. He is in my heart, my heart craves his sight, his voice at every moment. I will call him even when I have walked away from him. He is in my dreams, I miss him so that I imagine him being close to me. I crave his touch, his touch breathes life into me. I will stare at my fireflies knowing they still glow for us. I am telling him "distance brings people closer' but in reality I never want to walk a step without him. He is saying 'bye' to me but I don't want him to let me go so easily. I want to call out to him. I want him to stop me. I still, I still need him.
"Bye Manik." I don't know how I will survive days without you when just these few hours have been unbearable.
Tuesday- A road trip begins. Mumbai to Manglore.
Nandini, for him, for them, she has started a journey without him so she can return to him as his Nandini. But she misses him. she misses him so much that she thinks she is imagining him like she was last night.
Manik, for her, for them, he has started a journey that will lead him to her, that will bring back his Nandini.
And they meet. Mid journey at a dahba because they meant to be together. Together in every phase of this journey. Every phase of life.
"enough is enough"
Enough of this distance. They both can't stand it, they can't be away from each other. He doesn't want to be away from her. She can't be away from him but yet, she pretends. She pretends to be gussa' with him knowing he sees right through her.
Enough of living without their sense of touch. Their touch, it breathes life into them. Her hands are planted against his chest and it's like his heart has started beating again. His hand, it finally finds it's way back as he tucks her hair behind her ear. He takes back the right to touch her freely because "enough is enough", he pulls her close with righteous care and stares at her to his heart's content because "enough is enough".
Enough of this seriousness. Let's bring back the fun. "I am hot". Perfect opportunity to tease her. Manik misses his best friend, he misses teasing her. Because teasing her, it brings him joy. She makes him live as childish, carefree Manik. He wants to make her smile again. So he will tease her relentless. "It's fun to see her flustered.", he thrives on the fact that he can drive his 'little' calm and composed Nandini a tad crazy. But she scares him shitless, lol. She may seem small but he knows the strength of the punches she can throw. She's got the power to kill. lol
"I know that you need me as much as I need you."
She will deny it but Manik knows it. Manik knows that she needs him close. Even if she sits a few feet away, he knows that her eyes still find their way back to him. Manik knows she will pretend to be gussa' when in reality she is ecstatic to see him. She needs him so she will eventually come to him even if it is in the pretense of taking Rishab away.
She needs him to help her stop sneezing so he will hold out tissue after tissue knowing she will eventually take one. He could threaten to stop her sneezing like she stopped his hiccups. She needs him, even when she tells him to go back. He knows, she needs him just like he needs her. Because they need each other, Hamesha.
Wednesday- A roadblock created by Superman and Batman
A roadblock-the perfect excuse to romance. Let us reminisce the good old days of the jungle romance. During those days, he was trying to find a way to stay away from her. Now, he aches to be close. Close enough to breathe in her scent. Close enough to hold her. Now, he just needs to be close to her. So he can make her angry because he can bear her anger, because it means she isn't sad anymore. Her sadness breaks his heart. He wants her 'Hasi', her smile, her laughter because in her smile, in her hasi' lies his reason for being.
In those days, they didn't talk, didn't communicate to solve their problems, that's why the distance existed. Now, they can be standing a few feet away and their eyes will do all the talking. Because one's eyes speak and the other's heart understands. Such is the love. Reya loves their silent communication as much as she loves their talking communication.
In those days, she had purposely put thorns in his shirt because she wanted to make him suffer. Now, she wants to ease his pain. Now, she can't bear to see him suffering. Now, she can't see even a droplet of his blood, because it feels like a painful stab to her heart. In those days, she dug her nails into his flesh to leave painful marks. Now she wants to bandage his wounds so no scar remains. In those she didn't understand that she loved him. But now , she knows she loves him, loves him limitlessly. In those days, he was her reason for tears. Now he is the reason for her smiles, her 'hasi'. In him, she has found her world, her Earth and her sky because he has become her world, her everything.
Thursday: A pit-stop.
They make a pit-stop, at a guest house, one that comes with a housekeeping room. Perfect opportunity to romance. Because Manan, they can romance 'anywhere'. And i mean anywhere !
Our Nandini pulls a Manik Maltorta' and messages him to meet up in the housekeeping room. Even thou our Nandu is simply here to heal his wounds, just to bandage his hurt. Our Manik is totally enjoying himself. Because after so many hours, he finally has her to himself.
They are in their own world. Their world of white, where only purity, innocence and love exits. Their world, where Manik can be kiss her fingertips without the fear that she will recoil. They can lay close to each other once again. His touch, she recognizes it once again. It no longer scares her.
He has "come all the way over here". Just for her, for him. For them, because his world needs his Nandini. He doesn't a third person, a Navya Naveli to enter their world. He loves her touch, he truly does but he needs her to come back to their world willingly for Hamesha so he will brush off her touch. Because he needs her to realize that she doesn't want to stay along, away from him. And she knows it. He won't leave her alone, ever. They destined to be and she has to live with that.
He doesn't want her to shed away their world of white and go back to the real world. The real world, it holds her bad memories, the harsh memories that come up abruptly and leave her shaken. Forget one guitar, he can let her break countless guitars if it meant bringing music into her life again. She thought running away from the place of her memories would help her but one can't cheat the healing process. Replace every bad memory with a good memory. Nandini will have to learn to see the brighter side of life. If water reminds her of Pandit, then she has to realize, she has even more beautiful memories she has made with her Manik. She has to remember the color of love they wore on the day of holi. She has to remember the good times. That's only how the bad times will stay away. She has to heal before she can confess her true love to her Manik so that they can become Manan for Hamesha in every sense.
He doesn't want them to remain in their world for a short moment or two. He wants them to live in 'their world' for a short span of Hamesha, where he can be Nandini's Manik and she can be Manik's Nandini, where they can be each other's, for Hamesha.
On side notes of this week
Keeping Amms in the dark about the Pandit. Not a good idea, Murthys. Amms's singing constant praises of her 'favorite student' isn't going to help Nandini forget her bad memories.
This role reversal of Manik and Nandini I am freaking loving. Manik, all calm and composed with a dash of teasing. And Nandini, all sassy and hot tempered with her tantrums. Those little foot stomps. There was a time Manik used to do them. What can I say ? love truly changes a person..lol.
I adore Cabir and Navya..simply adore these two friends to bit. I love how Navya can read him better than his best friends. She realizes he isn't his usual jovial self and kinda shares his worries and hugs him. These two be all sorts of love.
Rishab has the perfect partnership going with his jijju..haha. and him taking the happy wala coconut and giving Nandu the sad one, smart lad. I loved how he sided with Manik and I can foresee the future where Rishab and Manik will trouble Nandini together.lol.
Loved Manbir aka our superman and batman. Haha. Truly the perfect superheros duo. That entire scene had me stitches.
Cabir is gay and he is proud of it. Way to go, Cabira. I absolutely love the fact that despite all he has suffered, lost his love, his family, lost his home, lost everything he can now be proud it. Give the boy some closure from Raghav and give him a nice boy' to love. The cupid needs love in his life too.
Harshad and Aryaman are on their way to Manglore too. Aryaman is here to help a 'friend' but something tells me Aryaman will soon see Harshad for the Jerk-shad he is. And join hands with Super Seven.
Mukti- getting hoaxed into Harshad's trap again or is the girl up to a plan of her own ? I am going with she is up to something, and that something is figuring out what Harshad is up. Mukti is grown up and she is over Harshad. Abhi's love has made her a different person. But only time will tell what happens.
Okies, here is my rant.
The End.
- Reya <3
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