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CHAPTER 22 - JEE LA ZARA...
Main hoon gumsum tu bhi khamosh hai
Sach hai samay ka hi sab dosh hai
Manik strode out of the hospital and started walking aimlessly on the crowded streets of Mumbai.
(What I wanted in life was never mine... But I have everything what others want...I just wished for her and couldn't get her... Was I not trust worthy ... Couldn't I be trusted... Once...just once if she would have trusted me then Today situation wouldn't have been this worse. I feel like killing myself . I acted like a shear jerk around just because my heart and ego clashed...whenever I needed her...I always found her by my side... My nandini was suffering and had to go through so much all these years and she needed me most I wasn't there...and even adding to her pain by hating her... I m tierd of pretending I don't love you. Because I convinced myself I was over you and now I know it was all pretend.I pretended that I didn't look at you when you didn't notice I was... I presented to doubt you when you were last thing I could doubt... I pretended I don't love you when youvwere only one in my mind)
Dhadkan dhadkan ik gham rehta hai
Jaane kyun phir bhi dil kehta hai
Jee le zaraa, jee le zaraa
Kehta hai dil, jee le zaraa
He replayed the nightmare of events which had taken place, faster then he could imagine and in seconds his life took a u turn as some unknown pages got unfolded. His love. "Why did I let her go?!", he screamed in despair. He banged his fist on the car window, raged by himself.
(That day i could see the betrayal ...Why couldn't i see the pain that day in your eyes...when itwwashardest thing to believe that nandini can cheat me...Am i so bad...donti deserve the happiness...that all my life I was craving for my loved one...first dad, thennyonicamy so called mother... Then nandini whom I gave everything but couldn't get her trust in return... It would have made no difference if you would have rather killed me )
He welcomed the pain once again. Lifting his head to the skies he let out another cold maniacal laugh rumble from his throat as the dark red liquid oozed from his hands. Now on his knees, the shard of clear crystal glass was clutched tightly in his hands, splattered with his drops of blood.
(I have stopped feeling any thing... Because I wasn't broken once but twice... Whenever I think of happiness coming my way all my ways get blocked.
Even before they were created... The guilt is killing me)
Kehta hai dil, jee le zaraa
Aye humsafar, aye humnawa
Aa paas aa jee le zaraa
With each passing minute, mukti's worry mounted which was not letting her sit peacefully...
(What is manik does something stupid...what if he leaves India...shit..)
" I have to go to manik...my best friend needs me right now" saying this mukti ran out of hospital to which Navya panic.
"Cabir, stop mukti... If manik is terrible right now them she is not less if not more...please"
"No!!! Don't worry... You guys stay with nandini and keep me updating...I am going after mukti..." Saying this Cabir too ran towards parking lot.
Phir dil ke dil se, pul kyun toote hain
Kyun hum jeene se, itne roothe hain
Broken, he thought again. The glass was broken. Ironically just like his heart. His laugh now died down to a quiet sob that pierced even the god as he watched on. Shutting his eyes to stop these thoughts, he let the sensation of anguish, regret and destroyed love take control as he dropped to the floor.
Hai zindagi maana dard bhari
Phir bhi is mein yeh raahat bhi hai
Main hoon tera aur tuhai meri
Yoon hira hein hum,yeh chaahat bhi hai
Mukti came running. She cupped her mouth to stop the sob and the shock seeing manik fallen down on the roadside , crying bitterly with hand bleeding badly. Her stomach twitched and a loud sob "Manik!" escaped her mouth seeing her best friend so worn out so broken. This site of manik killed her because never in her life she has seen manik falling apart and it killed her even more that the she was reason somewhere.
She ran towards manik and took his hand in hers
Phir dilk e dil se, pul kyun toote hain
Kyun hum jeene se,itne roothe hain
his tears rolling down his cheeks uncontrollably. He was tormented, he was in an inner turmoil and no psychiatrist, or medicine could calm his mad rage, "Please come back to me... My nandini " He emphasized her name, hoping she would somehow hear him and comply. "Nandini.", hereapeatedagain as he looked towards the warmth that caught his bleeding hand which shocked happiness thinking that it was his nandini.
But he jerk his hand brutally off seeing the owner of the hand which left mukti numb.
"Leave me alone... I don't need your fakesympathyandcare when u actually don't... You knew all this while and couldn't tell me... Was this yourfreindship?"
"Manik please listen to me once... Please don't hurt yourself" mukti again tried to get hold on his hand.
"Get lost...just go away... You should have rather killed me it wouldn't have made any difference... Go away!!!!!"
"No manik!!!! Not at any cost you can kill me right now... But u am not leaving you..." Said mukti with
Stubborness
Aa dil ke darwaaze hum kholein
Aa hum dono jee bharke rolein
Stubborness.
Mukti held his face in her hand and looked at his helpless face as more tears rolled down her face.
Please manik ... Talk to me...beat me kill me ... Punish me...but please don't push me away. I want you to share with me about your pain... I ma sorry manik...I m sorry"
"Sorry works when mistakes are made not when trust is broken , mukti"
"Please manik! , don't hate me"
"No mukti I don't hate you... I m disappointed because you turned into everything you told you will never be"
"Please manik" mukti pleaded while crying badly.
"I don't know what's worse, people who lied to me or the people who found me stupid enought to believe their lies...which indeed proves that I am a fool... I am found trustworthy that I could be told something that is related to me only. Today I have multiple reasons to cry... But at the end love hurts... Loving anyone and everyone hurts...that what makes me fool...isn't it mukti" manik spoke with a bitter smile looking aimlessly on the road.
Road "
"Please make I had to lie... I was bounded... I had reasons behind it"
Lie is a lie, regardless the reasons, you can say you did it for a good cause but the point is u did that"
"Fine ,manik I agree I lied... But please react to the situation don't bury it inside you... "
"Sometimes Its better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel, Because it hurts badly when you come to know that, they can hear you But can not understand!" Said manik and turned his face from manik and mukti sobbed harder.
You think I don't understand. Trust me, I know how exactly it feels. I know how exactly it feels when your world falls apart in seconds which was beautifully built by your own hands. I know how exactly it feels crying under the shower so that no one can hear you.
I know how exactly it feels to waiting for other to sleep so you can fall apart. I know how exactly it feels when yesterday you were made feel special and the very next day you yourself doubt your existence in world.
For everything To hurt so bad you want end to it once and for all , I know exactly how it feels" mukti almost screamed out of pain and ended up sobbing. No one utter a word as their crying was soothing one at that time.
Jee le zara, jee le zara
Kehta hai dil, jee le zara
Aye humsafar, aye humnawa
Aa paas aa, jee le zaraa
Manik looked at mukti.He was on the verge of disclosing the biggest secret of his life, of her existence to her. Manik looked at her trying to get the right words to tell her what he had discovered and is not greeting his emotions right. how much this truth had shattered his dreams, dreams that he saw every day for him. Why he feared that there would never be a happily ever after for him. No one would accept him as the world was not meant for him. But he had already started and there was no looking back.
"Why me mukti... Why always me... It hurts so much not to have her around me. Not to have her by me...not to be by her... Why life is so unfair with us."
"No manik! love doesn't hurt. Rejection hurts loneliness hurts, losing someone hurts, pain hurts and all these are named as love hurts but when in reality love is the only thing in the world that cover ups all the pain and make you wonderful again."
"Than why nandini dint trusted me... Was love this strong?"
Manik... You guys Were 19... Nandini loves you more than anything in the world. After we came to know about it, she tied all of us into a promise and made a decision to let you go... Honestly speaking I don't objected it much... Because somewhere deep down I felt it was right... You had your while life ahead but for nandini each day was like the last day... You could move on in your life ... But when I saw meet you in london ... I realised how wrong we were... You were still at the the same page where nandini left you... You were still not over her so as nandini... So I made you come back to India , to get all what you deserve."
Mukti looked towards manik tear's face , completely lost in his own thoughts and trying to join the dots of his puzzle.
She rushed towards her car and bought first aid box.
"Manik... For nandini... Her love for you is selfish and selfless. Selfish as she love you so much that it will kill her million times seeing you hurt. and the one we love the most we never want to see them hurt. But selfless as if she her self become The reason of your pain she would rather let you go then holding you back even if she has to go through hell should would do it if that becomes price of your happiness." Said mukti while gently cleaning his wound and dressing it tiedly.
Manik dint spoke a word, he stood up and started walking towards his car but was stopped in his traces as mukti shouted.
"Manik!!! Don't lose nandini...we don't get love easily...but when you get grab it and never let it go"
One day you will wake up and realise that you should have tried.
Nandini is worth a fight!
Gham ke yeh baadal guzar jaane de
Ab zindagi ko nikhar jaane de
Chhod de ab yaadon ke dukh sehna
O sun bhi le jo dil ka hai kehna
Manik turned around and ran towards mukti and engulfed her into a heart warming hug.mukti hugged him even more tightly. They both cried... Loud sobs were evidence of there sorrows and pain leaving their souls.
"Manik I know we betrayed you...""
"Shhh!!!...confession is not betrayal...it doesnt matters what you did and what not...
Only feeling matter... If you could stop me from loving you then its called a real betrayal. "
This was silently observed by Cabir standing near his car. He ran towards them and hugged them tightly letting out all their pain.
"And about love... Love is indeed selfish and selfless but I will make nandini meet new meaning of love being selfish and selfless" said manik breaking the hug.
Manik mukti and Cabir smiled and hugged each other again.
Jee le zaraa, jee le zaraa
Kehta hai dil jee le zaraa
Aye humsafar, aye humnawa
Aa paas aa jee le zaraa
"Chalo!!! Come on... We have to reach hospital before jhansibki rani wakes up" said Cabir to lighten the mood.
"Otherwise, we will find doctor operating himself" said mukti with small chuckle.
And the drove back to hospital with new agends, hope and will but same motive.
Badi muddat se chaha hain tujhe,
Badi duaon se paya hain tujhe,
Tujhe khone ki sochu bhi to kaise,
Kismat ki lakiro se churaya hai tuje
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I know I couldn't myself stop cryong while writing it... It took me days to get in mood to wrote this emotional stuff...
This last chapter of this thread... I have so many memories ...which were given by you all...
I myself don't know when so many strangers became a part of my family...
This chapter ends one phase of the story and will start with next phase of story with new thread...
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Mishshergill...
Edited by mishshergill - 9 years ago
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