Day 21! - The confidence Kiss!
It's a timeless emotion. It's a boundless emotion. Love... it's an endless experience.
There never was a time when love didn't exist. There never will be a time when love won't exist. Yet they are afraid of the ticking clock.
Tearful eyes begging him to let her experience this emotion. Fearful heart, dreading this opportunity that time may never return. He had wavered the flame of confidence a few days ago; today he shielded the flame from blowing out completely. Once again it stands tall and fearless... afraid of no destructive breeze. Never will there be a time when the lamp will blowout. Never will there be a day when their hope will stop burning. It will continue to burn... and burn...and burn.
She has nothing to fear. She has nothing to lose. He's already lost himself completely to her. He's actually lost this battle long time ago.
"Thankyou!"
A thankyou? Wait wait wait! He wasn't informed of this. We've been lovers. We've been friends. Now what relationship must we taken upon he questions the heart! Psssht! Never mind! We're still supposed to be fighting!
No but seriously?? Is she serious?!! There's no relationship left for them to trial. He had once agreed on becoming "friends" for her accordance. But not this again! They were no strangers...not friends...more than friends. Much much more than friends.
Love is painful, yet divine. You need to witness the rainfall, in order to appreciate the sunshine. You need to let out the tears to welcome the smiling shine. ( absolutely love this thought )
Her exhausted heart.. Finally wept out its cry. She couldn't do it anymore. Just no more. It was all over...before it even started.
Wait..No! This is going all wrong! It's all falling apart, he thought! Her Manik had thought they were still fighting. What happened to his soldier today?? She could scream and shout, pull and push but cry?? This wasn't his Nandini. He realized his blunder. He realized his loss. He had crushed her determined hope. He had once again pained the heart for it to cry those priceless tears. His soul, mind and heart... all questioned him the same. Manik Malhotra... How could you be so blind and oblivious?? Manik Malhotra ... How could you be so helpless and careless??
He had been warned. She had warned him herself. The fury, the anger the questions... they all were the signs of the breaking heart. Once completely shattered, the eyes were bound to weep. Fighting had just gotten difficult. Fighting with him was still bearable... yet fighting with herself had taken an unbearable turn. However, fighting for him still remained her unchangeable goal. She wanted him for herself. She needed him for herself. Selfish may be her love today... But selfless love she wanted to shower upon him.
Her tears... They spoke her desperation. Her sobs... they spoke her false consolation. Her cries... they spoke the lonely heart's pleas. Her sniffles... they spoke her understanding of him.
She never wished to take away from him his brother, his friends, his family. She only hoped to make a little space for herself amongst them. She only wished to not be disowned from his heart. A little love, a little care, a little trust is all she craved. And in return she promised him all her trust, all her trust, all her life.
But he wasn't so ruthless. Nor so sacrificing. Long gone are the days when his feelings for her were nameless. Long gone are the days when his love for her could be shared. Long gone are the days when their needs for each other were still doubtful.
This monsterous facade, this fusion concert, this challenge. It was never a test of her love. It was a test of his hatred. To what extent he could pull off this act. And in every way, it was all over, before he had a chance to even begin.
She wanted his love but he wanted it for the whole of his life. She craved for her hope to win but he needed for her hope to win. She wished everyday how she could win his trust back and he so fearlessly surrendered every inch of himself to her so there was no need to win anything. He happily lost himself to her.
But he had hurt her. These tears... he was their reason. This frown... he was her culprit. It was unintentional yet that wasn't a good enough excuse. He had simply hoped for the return of his brother, but he didn't mean it at the cost of her. You see he is selfish too. Whilst he might be a tubelight sometimes, he knows better than to repeat his mistakes. This fusion concert, him being replaced...yes it mattered to him but it wouldn't have in anyway affected his hope...her hope. Seeking deeper into that scene last week, we realise what he had meant through this fight with her was that this fusion concert wasn't the decision-maker of their relationship.
When she had asked him "what about us?" There was a little bit of an irrelevance of this question from his side. He had wanted to tell her that their hope would remain unaffected.
But he faltered. He was unable to express. And today, this mistake became the cause of her heartache. But if he had shattered her hope, he would re-heal it too. If he had done the sin of making her cry, he will make her smile too.
So the apologies started.
Apology no. 1: The eyes apologised to the eyes. The fingers soothed out the burning trail left behind by the tears.I'm sorry Nandini... these tears cried because of me. But these will be the last ever to leave your eye. I promise to bring back your smile in the next few minutes.
Apology no. 2: The hands tried reached out to sit her down on his car. She needed to calm down. It was time to put an end to this fight. It was time for her to hear what she had been wanting to. I'm sorry Nandini... I've driven you absolutely mad and furious throughout the hours of the day. You had wanted me to answer your questions but instead silence is what I provided. Now it's time I answer those answers and clear those doubts.
Apology no. 3: Placing his hands on either sides of her and leaning in. Running away from him, running to find him. She was tired. But more than that, the bizarre thoughts in her mind had made her exhausted. She deserved a much-needed break!I'm sorry Nandini...I simply just walked away. No reasons provided. No justification given. You even called me to ask of my whereabouts, but I disregarded the concern. Now I'm here. Not going anywhere. And now you're here too, and I don't want you leaving just yet.
Apology no. 4: Let's do some talking! He had some explaining to do.I'm sorry Nandini...I let you down. I walked away when you most needed me. You needed me today and I was too absorbed in my own sorrows, But I swear I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't mean to say quiet. I didn't mean to make you feel neglected. We need to talk now.
"Dekho...nandini...mai..."
"Manik...tumhe explain karne ki koi zaroorat nahi hai...Dhruv ki khushi tumhare liye kitni important hia. But Manik phir hum...?
Apology no. 5: Let me do the mocking and talking! She was broken. Her hope was fluctuating. Her strength was shattering. Her confidence was wavering. She couldn't just give up like this. He needs her to keep hoping.I'm sorry Nandini... this frown, this essence of loss, this stressed out heart and mind. I know it's my entire fault. I let this uncertainty enter your mind. I allowed for this flame of hope to start flickering. But you can't give up like this. I will go to every extent to make your hope win. I will do all that's possible for you to believe in our hope again. To believe that there is still a chance.
Raised eyebrows, tilted head, a mocking tone; "Haar maan gayi? Itni jaldi?"
You're not allowed to loose Nandini. I won't let you lose. You started hoping because of me. And you will continue hoping till I say so. My hope lies within yours. I live within you. You can never stop fighting for us. You're the strength I've always needed in life. You're the peace I've always craved in life. You're the love I can't afford to lose in this life.
Apology no. 6: Okay let's change plans! No... she can't leave just yet. He hadn't finished yet. She still needed assurance. I'm sorry Nandini... it's been a tough ride with me. I'm not easy to bear, yet you managed to put up with me every single time. I've given you enough tears and now you're tired. Even I'm tired too. I want to come home once and for all as well. So let's make it easier for you...for the both of us. You own everything of mine anyway.
"I had all my hope, on the fusion concert. Aur ab..."
"Aur ab who sara hope haar gaye...Koi hope nahi? Jab ki fusion concert shuru bhi nahi hua?"
"Mere paas koi aur option nahi hai"
No options? Broken hope? No nandini. This fusion concert can't decide our future. That's for you to decide. You can't give up on our hope and that's final. Because more than you, I want to come home now. I want to be back where I belong. With you.
Apology no. 7: Let me have a look at you! She had cried it out and talked it out. Yet no sign this hope was going to revive. So hands reached out to try and read the lines of worry on her face. Hmmm... A clear case of missing Manik Malhotra.I'm sorry Nandini... I've been rather unfair haven't I? Not only your hope but your smile has disappeared too. Amidst fighting for me, you have seemed to lost yourself somewhere. You have every right to fight with me... to fight for me. But not at the risk of losing yourself. Losing your confidence. Losing your peace of mind. You need to stay the way you have always been. My Nandini. Stubborn, impossible, a fighter. Fight for your hope. Fight for your heart. Fight for your right. Nothing can stop you. Not even myself.
"Concert shuru nahi hua aur abhi se keh rahi ho keh options nahi hai?"
Options are in our hands Nandini. If we want to be one, no one can stop us. If you want me back, no one will stop you... not even I.
I'll make it a little more simpler for you. I'll give you the final push for you to reach your destination.
"Your hope... still has a chance to win!"
I don't want this hope shattering Nandini. I don't want this flame from burning out. I don't want my future to be dark. We shall only blow hope's flame out when I finally return to you; my shining star. Then no light will be needed. You and your fireflies will be enough to lighten up my whole world.
As the apologies concluded; a promise, a gift, a reassurance was made.
A peck. A touch. A kiss.
Nandini... your hope is my hope. I need it to win probably even more than you. I'm sorry for all those tear-filled eyes, all those lonely moments, all those harsh words. But the bad days are over now. Everytime you will doubt yourself, I will reassure you. Everytime you will stumble, I will catch you. Everytime you will feel the least important, I will love you. But there is no room for options between us. It's just yes, yes and yes.
And with that kiss, her confident returned like it had never stumbled. Her smile returned like it had never frowned. He was with her; she could now win over this world. Hopes intact, trust as strong as ever, he farewelled her to bring their hope home. And she set out again; to make their hope win, win over this world, bring him back home!
It's renowned as love is in the air. But today it was understanding is in the air.
She was ready to take a step back, understanding Dhruv's value in his life. But he pulled her forward, where she much wanted to be, understanding her fear of losing him.
Losing a loved one tends to leave a scar behind. Some are lucky to have that scar healed, yet some scars remain painful and forever. They understood each other's fears and needs today because they have tasted separation. It's not bitter. It's poison. And when poison spreads through the body, all sense of control is lost.
Poison seems to be spreading rapidly through Mukti too/. It had started with the heart, because that's where the poisonous dagger of loss had stabbed her. But now it's slowly seeping through the brain. Overpowering every thought process, every emotion. She's dying. Bit by bit. A painful death. Love however can be selfish, but not a murderer. She has a need too. As much as she denies of wanting to see him, he's her need right now. Abhi The antidote to her poison. And that letter remains the only forms of his discovery.
Manik may have lost a brother, but his best friend still remains with him. A friend who needs not to hear anything from the horse's mouth, yet understands the root of his worries is Nandini. The friend who time after time, assists him to listen to the heart and for once think about himself rather than his friends. The friend who introduces him to the priorities of his life and makes him realise that they may be a very important part of his life, but Nandini is his life. God bless everyone with such a friend.
Twinkle <3
I loved the opening scene...all hail women power...what a kickass scene with the girls beating up those excuse of men up..maybe not all that logical showing girls fighting in a bar, but what the heck..the Cvs had a strong message associated with it. It's isn't us women, it's the dirty perception of the men who look at women..A quote: "Don't teach your daughter what to wear, teach your son how to behave." Society, it's so quick to blame the girl, no matter the reason. This inferiority of women must end, this blame game must end. So i love that this issue is being touched on by the team. The team of KY2 has always successful tackled social issues..and it's one of the things i love about this show.
My Manbir. Two dudes who like to talk it out and i simply adore them. Their relationship works because they are so in sync with one another. They say it when they don't feel like talking..they come to one another when they need to as Manik does. And i am not making a comparison but Cabir is the friend i had thought Dhruv would be for Manik. And had it not been for Cabir being there for Manik, Dhruv's behaviour and indifference would have broken him further. Nandini and Cabir have really held Manik together. My heart warmed when Manik is quick to give it to Cabir when he playfully mimicked Dhruv's attack..and he says "he's our Dhruv." no matter what happens, they are buddies. Dhruv may not see right at the moment but Manik, he knows they are each other's buddy.
And Cabs..the loyal Manan shipper makes such a good parter in crime..lol
And now, we talk about our Manan. Loved the instance where Manik is so aware of Nandini during the bar scene. That he leaves his beating up session and halts a punch coming her way, a protective alpha moment. And lol to the moment where Manik predicts her trying to calm him. haha, your girl was doing the beating up earlier. She aint gonna stop you. Keep going lad.
As much as i love how well they can communicate through their eyes, their gestures, their silence. I love it when they simply TALK. Glad Manik took the step today knowing his girl was upset, knowing she needed words of reassurance from him..and her tears are simply his undoing. He cannot stand them, especially when he is the reason for them. To see her this undefeated, to see her hope dying, he cannot stand it. ...So now, her hope, their hope it must win, Manik Maltorta shall find a way. Manik Maltorta does not lose ! and if Nandini's hope loses, then he too shall be defeated. You spoke beauttifully about him taking on their hope battle now so i won't expand on it.
And the Look Look moment..lol.I laughed at Manik when he claimed he didn't have all night to do look look. What a liar. Dude, looking and staring at his girl is probably his fav pass time along with tucking her hair gently behind her ear ( And now whenever Manik tucks Nandu back, my heart warms) and oh yeah, holding her hand and caressing it..
There is this gentleness about Manik Maltorta that only Nandini brings out. He is Manik Maltorta until he is with Nandini, then he is 'simply Manik'. A man who possess the ability to love unconditionally, a man who can tenderly wipe her tears, and a man who can handle his girl like porcelain doll. There is a vast height difference between them..Manik a giant, all anger and rough and tough and Nandu, like a tiny fairy, tinker bell, all softness, sweetness and innocence. When he touches her, when he handles her, he does with utmost care. Because he knows, his anger, she still fears it, not because she believes he will harm her but because his anger has the power to consume him. But like i was saying, when he puts her on the car, it made me think for a second, at that moment i realized, how gentle Manik tries to be when he touches her.
That nose peck, MY beautiful moment ! So much love and adoration in that one second. It was if he kissed her all her worries away..and she smiles ! his heart is once again content. His girl has her hope back, she has her smile back.
Okies so this probably sucks but for once i don't care..lol only because it feels sooo good to be able to do this.
You my love are perfection. Beautiful words. beautiful ideas. Beautifully penned. Loved it all
Toodles babe,
- Reya aka Your Sunny <3
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