DAY 20! - To fight is to love!
In person they are fighting, over the phone they are fighting. In each other's company they are fighting.. Apart from each other's shadows they are fighting. Whilst asking questions they are fighting. When answering answers they are fighting. She's fighting as to why he's staring at her. He's fighting that she hasn't left and hence he can't stop staring at her. Whilst holding hands they are finding. Whilst pushing and pulling they are fighting.
The struggles are real. The struggles of being in love. Even amidst fights, the love can't hide. They are fighting to stay away from each other. Yet they are fighting to stay with each other.
He's her ultimate goal and she's his ultimate goal. And their ultimate dream is to achieve this goal. Back to back they stand for now. Because face to face they wish to stand for life.
The need is increasing!
"Agar woh sach mein mujhse pyaar karta na...toh mujhe akela chod ke jaata hi nahi"
"No! You're wrong! Tum sab galat ho"
What is this Mr Malhotra?! Do I smell a clean victory somewhere? She's not here but I hope you're keeping the score.
Ironic isn't it? You want your best friend to believe in her love. Believe in him. Abhi. Fight for him. Give him one more chance. Then where is your fighting spirit? Why have you left her alone in this battle? Nandini. Why must she fight for her hope if you're not interested in hoping anymore? Or are you trying to mask your feelings again? Pretend that this replacement is the least of your worries at this stage. Naaah.. can't be! A bandaged finger you couldn't tolerate and you want her to believe that you're ready to accept this replacement? Let me answer it in your own words. "Bullshit!"
Today you've managed to regain one position. Your fingers and her hair reunited. Tomorrow you will reclaim your other rights too. Your and her shall be reunited. In the world of music. At the concert of hope. On the stage of love. That day we shall witness the victory of this fight. The fight to become each other's.
So Nandini...tell me. Why don't you want to tell him about your cut? Why hide the reason? Never mind. He guesses the culprit anyway. And yet again you protect him. Protect him from his own anger. This is what you were fearing. Another confrontation between him and panditji. And you avoid the whole topic. Why? Because his anger has no boundaries. Especially when it comes to your pain. You fear if you reveal panditji, there will be a fight. He will fight for you. But it may not only remain to the use of words. Fists will be clenched. Hands may be raised. And then all hope of his comeback will diminish. Then this fight will no longer remain.
But there is hope. Don't worry. It's impossible of him to let go of you now. You're his necessity. His breath. His life. His tears. His anger. His smile. His love. His fight. A mere phone call he was struggling to disconnect. It's beyond impossible for him to disengage with this fight.
As they say; you fight the most with the one you love.
So if he can fight with you, he can fight for you.
You see he loves his friends too. Hence he's always fighting for them. Yesterday he fought for Cabir, Today he's fighting for Mukti and tomorrow... tomorrow has left him in a dilemma. Whilst you're love, he's friendship. Whilst you're his life, he's the reason he has this life. Whilst you're associated with his future. He's been there since his past. Dhruv. He's protected him... his brother all his life. Just like you're protecting him now. He's taught him to always trust him. To trust that he will never leave him. Just like you're teaching him to trust on your love. That you, his true love will never abandon him. He's taught him to hope for the best. Just like you're teaching him to hope for your mutual hope.
You're not wrong. But he's not at fault either. He loves you both. Unconditional love. Unselfish love. Manik love.
His brother doesn't realise his love's value just yet. He was already clouded by insecurities, now he's being blind-folded by false hope. He doesn't realise the cruelties of this world. Yet he wants to wonder around in this darkness alone. He disowned a brother and set out to discover a new family. Befriend a new friend. And just look at his infortune. Forget friend, not even an enemy... he has bumped into a devil. Notice the contradiction here... his name signifies the teaching head. He's meant to be the idol of righteousness. Panditji. Yet his actions are so contrasting. They are misleading. Everything about him screams evil! Immorality, wickedness and deception are his motto. To divide and rule is his intention.
I pray for this brother. For when he was under Manik's umbrella, he remained unharmed. But now, I fear for this soul.
I know you tried to reason with him again today. And he mocked your concern so conveniently. He ridiculed your love so rudely.
"Manik gya hai na... so I'm not needed."
You were trying to be his friend and he considered you to be his foe.
You were upset, irritated, frustrated. Your Manik is fighting so devotedly for whom? This unrecognisable and strayed soul? Impossible! And in this process, you lost your identity for a second. You forgot you're Nandini. You possessed upon yourself the other half of yourself. You became Manik. The fury, the rage, the temper. You looked like Manik's nandini today.
His love has instigated this madness. His fight has fuelled this insanity.
Today your actions mirrored him completely. You called him just like he calls you when he needs to calm down. And whilst the fury ceased, your fight with him continued.
You fought like little kids and a like a married couple too. You fought like there was only hate but love was evident too.
The quarrelling continues... the love sustains
The arguing is persistent...the hope remains.
You absorbed a little bit of him again and he stole a little bit from you. And when the senses unclocked, a question was asked.
"We're still fighting huh?"
"Of course"
Because it's true for you both... that to fight is to love!
Okies..here i am..so yesterday's post when i re-read, i realized it sucked..lol..hopefully this one is a tad better.
Let us talk about Mukti and Cavya first.
Cavya: Amma Naveli's misunderstanding seems like all fun and games now, but this situation can get very serious and messy. Cabir and Navya both have fragile hearts and they helped each other cope with life..but they are friends,each other's best friend but they can't ever have a romantic relationship for obvious reasons. But how exactly are they going to explain that to Amma Naveli ? And Navya not being able to tell Cabir of her mother's misconception has disaster written all over it. Even then, our Cavya are still somewhat 'sorted'.
A person not sorted at all is Mukti. She is not "in control"..In the deep end, she is making mistakes. She has three bodyguards (well 2 temporarily) in the name of her best friends. While i am all for women power, i still don't think it was a wise move on her to confront Rocky all alone, that too at the bar. That's why Fab 5 stick together na, so no one can hurt them, so no one can bully them. Mukti doesn't need to fight alone, she has friends. She still has her family but only person she wants to her save her is her love. Deep down, she wishes that Abhi comes back and becomes her hero.
His Nandini tells him, "Love is selfish." Loving someone makes us both selfless and selfish in a way where we want to give our better half as little pain as possible, that's the selfless part..because, their pain is our pain, the pain amplifies in our heart; that's the selfish part. Nandini Murthy teaches her Manik another lesson and not only does he learn, he remembers them and moreover, he believes her words and they become his words. I found that absolutely beautiful. All his friends are defeated in love, so hopeless about it. But his hope is still alive, his shining star is keeping their hope alive. That's what your fight is all about, isn't it ?
Yesterday i had said, where there is love, there are always fights. Because when we fight, you know there is something special worth fighting for. " Are we still fighting ?" of course you are. You two are stubborn, stubborn to love one another. stubborn to keep fighting for your love. stubborn never to give up on each other.
"One cut on her and i would have cut your throat.", That's the gist of Manik Maltorta's words to Harshad once upon a time. And today, that Pandit has hurt her, precious drops of her blood has been shed. And Manik Maltorta knows nothing about it ! Because had he known, he would have forgotten everything..even Mukti i think and gone to confront Pandit. And nandu knows that too ! So that's why she doesn't tell him,..she realizes that his friend, Mukti needs him right now. Really liked the point you made that she is protecting Manik from his own anger, she isn't protecting that Pandit, bur rather her love.
That one soft 'ouch' and he realizes it that she are in pain..because that's how well he knows her...knows her voice "Your voice, it's not sounding right." So she goes off on him and picks a fight just so he doesn't find out. But he will find out, he noticed the bandage on her finger later, it's only a matter of time before Pandit gets a beating. Please Manik, please beat him up..lol And totally lol to their 'you hang up first." It's clear that you two don't want to hang up my babies..you can even listen to each other's silence and still be content. I think that might have been my beautiful moment where literally for a few seconds, they listen to each other's silence, because even in silence, they rather stay connected. And my Cabs..haha, way to go buddy, does the job for Manan.
And that daal and rice moment, as unhygienic as it seemed to me while watching. You actually pointed out the main reason: Manik's hands are back where they belong. Unknowingly, they have erased the Pandit's dirty touch. That moment actually reminded me of Manan's scene with Soha in the library, where Nandini after getting off the ladder touches Manik's face, where Soha tries to touch the same cheek, he halts her. I absolutely love that about Manik, they were not 'together' at that time but still he wouldn't let anyone replace his Nandini's touch..
Hmmm..this seems it for now..kinda all over the place but oh well..you are my twinkie, you shall be nice about it..lol
Amazing writeup babe...flawless as always.
Love as always,
- Reya aka Your Sunny <3