PARTH - take a bow.
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"Do not ask me for the same intensity
with which I loved you once
I turn, I turn again and again to the pain.
You are still beautiful, so beautiful
but -- the pain"
(Faiz Ahmad Faiz)
I can't determine how I should be behaving now that she's all around,
Revolving about me as if I'm the core of her universe.
The things that I have sought after so long,
Are making their appearance one by one, like the songs from a river.
Those words of love that my heart has craved for since the beginning of times,
Are on her lips at all moments in time now.
The pain must have taken its leave with her admittance, the same pain that this love for her inflicted on my soul,
But no, it is relentlessly existing here as if its my alter ego, my shadow, my best companion..
Now that I had decided to desert myself from her and move away from this lovely yet painful liaisonshould I be elated that I am finally receiving what I always did not wish to have? Should I believe that I don't have to run away into nothingness any more??
But the suffering that should've been forgotten with her acknowledgement, is still there.. I, who should have felt blessed on hearing her plans to be 'the woman' for me, don't feel as blissful as I should haveall these things didn't fill the void in me that those stings have left, a void that cant be crammed unless the heart is sure that she's not bluffing this timeit needs assurance that this time wont be a pull back, and that she means what she is singing songs about..
Is it my Nandini? Am I her Manik? Am I the same old man? Or the Manik who cared for Nandini is in hiding? Has he gone? When will he return? How will he come back? Help me find? Do you have an answer? Anybody?
Lost,
Nandini's Manikor AGAIN MONSTER Manik..I don't know any more.
