I am Nandini and this is my journey.
I came here, to study science. I had so many dreams. Dreams of my parents, dreams of my grand-mother, dreams of my aunt and uncle. I was crushed with so many dreams, that it was difficult to find what was mine. Before I could realize and meet with my dreams, I had to sacrifice them for my brother's sake. I became a care-taker, same as always.
I met a monster. And suddenly I felt lot of alien emotions. These new found emotions consumed me. I had never felt this rage, hatred, violent from my entire being. First time in my life, I hit someone out of burning anger. This new enmity bought out a new Nandini to the front. The one who was capable of strong emotions, capable of violence. I became an enemy.
I met the other person hidden inside the monster. The one who will do anything for a best friend, one who is capable to care and affection, one who is capable of being good. But this person was buried so deep that, it was difficult to see him. Monster was denying this person to breath, to just be and never let the world see this person. But I saw him, heard him and beginning to know him. While the monster made people scared of darkness, this person hated darkness, was afraid of it. I became a light.
Monster could not hide the human inside him, from me. I began to see this human more and more. I could see the monster and this human warring inside. This constant turmoil became my life. I could not tell where the monster ended and the human began. I embraced both of them. They both were important to me. I wanted to keep them safe from the world. I became a protector.
Being with this monster bought out a new me. I became carefree. I started to enjoy life. Stopped seeing life as a responsibility, a duty. I felt giddy, I found excitement, I danced, laughed and twirled in happiness. I became free.
Then he left me. Left me to face my heartbreak alone. I learnt a new note, new music which is the sound of your heart, your soul being crushed. This consumed me. I became pain.
He came back, with thousands of apology. But I did not sway. I did not want to hear that soul crushing music again. Heat of his words did not reach me. I became ice.
Then she came. She pursued him. I did not like it. He was mine and mine alone. I faced a new Nandini. The one who was possessive, jealous and ready to do anything to keep him with me. I took him ruthlessly, to a place where he belongs. With me. I became passion.
He poured his heart out. For the world he was the protector. But I was his. He needed me to protect him like always, from himself, from darkness, from rage, from the world. For the world he was the star who shines and guides everyone. But I was his. He needed me to guide him, keep him sane, bring him peace, bring him light. His shining star, he said. I became a star to my monster.
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Indian Mythology
Chakravarti Samrat Prithviraj Chauhan
Shiv Shakti
Anupamaa
