Chaahat: A RoNakshi Story- Chapter seven updated 23/03 - Page 9

Originally posted by: sohit-mishbir

She is a little caught up with real life dear..

She will update soon..

Thank you meriii alu for this🤗 love you lotsssss!!!!

Originally posted by: AnushkhaA

Oh okay....no hard feelings.

None felt my darling.🤗 Thank you for waiting. I feel blessed to be a writer of such loved work. Updating upcoming.

Hey Wasu. Forgot to comment earlier. Though I read it earlier, was caught up with my exams to comment on it.

I really like the way Rohit connecting dots and also not to forget when Rohit found about Chaahaat being his daughter. I hope he doesn't do something drastic. I hope you are okay. Update soon.

Originally posted by: Andy3456

Hey Wasu. Forgot to comment earlier. Though I read it earlier, was caught up with my exams to comment on it.

I really like the way Rohit connecting dots and also not to forget when Rohit found about Chaahaat being his daughter. I hope he doesn't do something drastic. I hope you are okay. Update soon.

Andyyy🤗

Thank you so so so so much for loving it. And this love and appreciation is something that will make me do better always. Hope you did great in your exams.

I am doing good.i actually was caught up with my life a bit but I am doing alright. Thank you for all that love. ❤️

Rohit is about to do something drastic. Brace yourself meri andy. And here I come.in a very few minutes.

Love.

A little talk before this chapter.

Firstly,this was an update which I planned to do way earlier.i am sorry that I had kept you all on a terrible delay and in waiting. Life got a bit busy and I had to be here and there. However you all still hold on to me and asked how I am doing.thank you for all the immense love and also for the awesome patience. I am so lucky indeed.

Secondly, I am creating a satanic rohit. There will be parts or dialogues which might be disturbing to the readers, since I cannot point out where it exactly will be,I plead you to kindly apologize me if you find that particular part disturbing and please feel free to cease or skip reading that parts.it is purely for fictional purpose and no emotional torture was intentioned to be written.😳

Brace yourself however.and I expect all the chappals for this update,for many reasons including satanic rohit’s repeated dialogues all over the update.its his mentality talking in a very disturbed manner.

there is a part I have allocated for mental health too, and I do not promote self harm in any way,and that is mentioned here for fiction and also for awareness.I want everyone to know that any strong person can fall into a sudden depression and resultant harm at anytime. That is it,so kindly apologize me for that sensitive topic inclusion. mental health is a very important topic and let’s be kind to make lives and world a better place for people.

Chapter four: Ki Tumse Juda hoke hum tabah hogaye

“Hein tume himmat ab bhi mere saamne kade hokar kuch bolne ke liye?”

Rohit roared at the woman who almost was going to slip off his hands. He had no idea how weak sonakshi herself felt on her knees while being clutched by him like that.she sensed the smell of liqour in his breath,but he wasn’t tipsy,so still in senses he was.

“Haan sonakshi? Hein tum mein himmat?”

He repeated. From the dim light of the street lamp that peeped to her dark room he saw her looking down unable to meet his eyes. Furiously he took his right hand off her shoulder and stomped it against the wall switch,thereby spreading enough light in the room,making her gasp at his ferocious ways. Without a seconds delay he held her shoulder exactly where he had his hand on and tightened his grip more.

“Tumare tarha,logo ko andhere mein rakhneke aadat nahi hein mujhmein. Lo teek se dekhlo meri taraf aur dikhado apne himmat,wahi himmat jo uss wakt tumari andhar thi mujhe chod kar jaane keliye,mujhe wo sab pareshaan karnekeliye,meri pyaar ke mazzak udaanekeliye, aur.......most importantly MERE chaahat ko mujhse dhoor karnekeliye.....”

he yapped at her,shaking her hard in his arms. Sonakshi had nothing to do,nothing remaining to do than letting her eyes overflow the pain that was increasing every moment with every word he uttered at her.

“Kya kami rehe gaye tumko? Kya kami rehe gaye tumko mere pyaar mein? Haa? Dekho mere taraf...dekho...aur bolo mujhe eisa kya kami tha.....”

he paused noticing that she was yet disobedient at his command. He held her chin and forcefully made her look at him. His red eyes scared her so badly this night. This wasn’t the rohit she knew but it was she who made him to be like this,she knew.

“mere aakhomein aakhein daalke bolo mujhe ki eisa kya kami tha jiske wajeise tume eisa karna hua,wo bhi kisi aur ki saat nahi teek mere saat? Kyun? Mere saat hi kyun? Why damn it why?”

She sobbed out badly as he was shaking her constantly.

“Uss din....paanch saalo pehele uss raat jab tumne mujhe chod diya wo bhi uss ghatiya baatein kehe kar.....pata hein tume uss recording bhi nahi wishwaas kiya mein neh....call kiya tume yaad hein na? aur tum mujhe itna rudely bolne ke bawajood bhi I begged you. I freaking begged you to tell me what is wrong.i told you ki hum saat mein milkar jo bhi problem solve karte,tume srif bataana tha mujhe ki kya problem mein thi tum lekin nahi,ulta meri mom ko lekar dhamki di mujhe. Haan? Itna kator kese ho sakti ho tum?”

She stared as he lashed at him all these,speechless.he placed his index finger against where her heart beater so fast.

“Tume....nahi agar tume phir bhi nahi pata hein,ye jo kator dil hein naa tumari andhar....usko to kamse kam thoda sa bhi andaaza hoga ki issmein,iss paanch saalomein,yaa ye jo kuch bhi horahein ussmein mere koi galti hein hi nahi,right?”

He questioned.

“Jaanpuchke toh iss janamein mein ne koi parishaani nahi kiya hein tume.toh kiss janam ke badla le rahi ho tum mujhse? Bolo sonakshi bolo. Chup mat raho bolo mujhe.uss din toh itni himmat thi toh aaj bhi hona hoga right.looks like you had that bloody himmat inside you till today to hide chaahat from me so find that courage and talk back at me like you always used to do!!!”

She shivered being screamed at like that. He was right,the whole courage she has mustered went down the drain the moment she saw him,not now not today but the day he got hit with her car two days ago infront of her own eyes.but he had no idea about this at all.

“Pata hein tume? Jitna bhi galtiya hue wo sab tum ne kardi hein.lekin iss sab mein mere koi kazoor naa hone ke bawajood bhi,mein neh har ek subha utthehi tumari number try kar rahe the.ye soch the hi ki shaayad....shaayad ek din tum sarroor jawaab denge lekin nahi.har bar ki tarha Mein hi bewakoof bangaye.bangaye nahi,actually mein bewakoof hoon.shaayad pehedahi bewakoof hoon mein ki chaahe jitna bhi naa insaafi hota hein mere saat mein hamesha sab jhel kar rehete hoon.jeise mere baap ki bewafaayi.aur ab tum.pagal hoon mein.pagal.”

He stomped his hand against the wall with a thud and she feared at his ways more. She noticed his bleeding hands and also there were blood patches on his shirt which she then noticed. Her hand extended towards him but he blocked her way.

“No.mujhe haat mat lagao tum.don’t.”

He glared at her.

“Ye jhooti tasalli mujhe mat dikhao.pata hein mujhe ki ye sab ek dikhawa hein.itna bhi humdard thi naa tume meri liye,tum eisa kabhi nahi karti.kya Kahaan tum jaate wakt? Ki mujhe pyaar nahi kiya right? Pyaar srif mere paisose aur apne reputation se tha right? Teek hein,mere liye pyaar hi nahi sahi lekin kabhi tumari man mein thoda sa bhi apnaapan nahi tha kya? Itna saa bhi insaaniyat nahi tha kya?”

She sobbed helplessly,not being able to say anything.

“Lekin mein tumari taraha nahi the. Pyaar Apnapan sab feel kiya tumari liye mein ne. Issiliye hi shaayad itna dil thodne ke baad bhi tumari kayaalo mein gus rahe the har bar ab tak.haan mujhe zyaada dher tak apno se naaraz nahi rehe sakte.par ab....”

He paused as angry tears overflow his eyes.

“ye gussa mere sar chad jaaye hein,issiliye ab kuch bhi yaa koi bhi mujhe normal nahi kar sakta.aur apnaapan ke baat mein bhi kisse karti hoon, tumse? Jiske man mein apnapan toh dhoor ki baat feelings naam ki koi cheez bhi nahi hein.itna kuch hone ke baad bhi iss pal tak mein tumse poochtata ki eisa kyun kiya lekin ab bhi tume kehene keliye kuch hein nahi yaa shaayad tum kuch kehenaahi nahi chati.so ab bas.bohot hogaya.Ab tumari level thak ghir ke mein tumare saat wahi karunga jo tumne mere saat kiya hein”

He held her shoulders and hovered to her frame.they were dangerously close and her eyes stuck at his at that moment.

“Pyaar yaa nafrat,dono cheez har ek insaanko apno se hoti hein.pata hein tume right? Toh aaj se samajlo ki mere man mein tumari liye naa pyaar hogi naa nafrat. Kyun ki aaj se tum,Ms.sonakshi rastogi...aaj se tum mere liye koi bhi nahi hoon.Not even a stranger.you will not be anyone for me.”

He declared at her,into her eyes.

Sonakshi felt like all her being was just set on fire, every nerve of her being ablazed by that and her being charred down as his declaration hit her ears. Her lips quivered and she knew she was going to loose him. And that overpowered her silence and she uttered his name.

“rohit....”

“mera naam mat lo.ab koi faida nahi hein.ab tak tumse poocha ta.infact as I said mein khud tume phone karte karte panch saalose tume ye mauka derahata.Ab bas. Ab tum jo mein kehene jaa rahe hoon wo suno.”

He said as he pulled her towards him and made her sit on the bed. Then he placed his knee on the edge of the bed bending himself close to her and held her from her wrists.

Showing her empty wrist to her by signalling towards them from his red eyes, he nod his head in question.she realized that he was indirectly asking about the bracelet, that friendship band he put on her on their engagement.she has been frantically searching for it since she came home from hospital that night,but not being able to find it,she feared in guess that may be it had got stuck in him by chance. And confirming her doubt he took out that very thing off of his pocket and let it pendulate infront of her eyes.

“Jab mere pyaar se yaa mere kuch bhi se koi matalab nahi thi tume,tab toh yeh pehenkar rakhne mein koi faida nahi hein right.unfortunately ye mere wallet se atke the,aur ye mujhe yahaan aane ki raasata bhi batadiya hein.pehele bhi aaya aaj subha, tab mujhe ye sab pata bhi nahi the.srif tume dekhneke chaahat se aaya tha.tum toh nahi the toh mein chalegaya. Kabhi nahi socha ki waapas aana honge dubara,lekin aana pada,ab mere chaahat ke liye. Mere bachchi keliye.”

He threw the friendship band to the bed with force making another sob escape her lips.

“Ab naa rahe koi rishta toh naa rahenge uska koi nishaan.just like this useless thing I threw away. Ab tume jo chahiye wo kar sakte hein wo bracelet ke saat.jalna hein toh jalaado.thodna hein toh thod lo.tukda karna hein toh tukde kardo,yaa sadak mein phek naa hein toh phekdo.teek jeise tumne mujhe phek diya paanch saal pehele.”

Her sobs started getting intense and she couldn’t do it silent anymore. He sobs got louder and her shoulders started shaking badly. He let go off her wrists and held her upper arms tightly and a hiss of pain escaped her lips.

“phek de ne se yaad aaya.uss raat jab mein tumare gaadi ke neeche aaye,mujhe bachaaya kyun tum? Meri sar par chot lage the,aasani se mar sakte the mein,toh mujhe bachaya kyun tum haan? Tumari fidrat hein hamesha chod ke bhaag jaana. Phek dena chahiye tha naa mereko bhi, chod dena chahiye tha ek aawara khutte ke tarha sadak pe marne keliye.....”

she couldn’t bear it,she fiercely held his collar from both her hands.

“Shut up rohit.shut up.kya bolte jaa rahe ho tum.tume andaaza bhi hein kya tum kya bakwaas bolte jaarahe hein.” She screamed her guts out.

He stared at her,as if he got startled by her outburst and after few seconds he started bursting into an evil laughter,now startling her.

“Arey arey arey arey.aaj bhi har dialogue speed dial pe hein tumari.jab chahiye hota tab aajati hein baahar.wow I am impressed.”

He then pushed her hands off his collar and drew himself closer to her by holding her by her waist,still kneeling one leg on her bed.

“Mujhe pata hein,kadwaa sach suntehi bohot naaraaz hote hein log.tum bhi eisa hi hein.lekin sach hi bataadiya mein neh sonakshi.kadwi cheez kiya toh kadwi sach sunneka bhi himmat rakhlo.zindagi aasan hota hein tum jeise kadwi logo keliye.”

He roared at her rending her speechless again.

“Ab toh tumari sabaan bolna bhi shuru kiya hein toh isse achcha mauka nahi hoga mujhe tumse kamse kam meri aakhri sawal ka jaawab lene keliye I guess.”

He gave a devilish smirk,mocking her state. Nearing her to an extent that his breath fanned her lips, he felt her breathes being put up and down fast. She feared at his bold ways,and she felt weak in her whole body.

“r...ohit.”

“Mein bolenge.tum nahi....”

his lips moved oh so close to hers,yet not touching them.

“You are d....runk rohit.please.” She said clutching his arms over his shirt.

“nashe mein hoon lekin itna bhi drunk nahi hoon ki kal mein ye sab bhooljau.samje?”

He whispered sternly. She gulped hard but she couldn’t gather any courage as she expected.

“uss din....hum dono ke beech sab kuch hua.mujhe achche tareekein we yaad hein....tume bhi yaad hoga achche tareekein se....right?”

She nodded,unable to meet his eyes.

“Isharose nahi lafzose baat karo.yaad hein right?”

“R....ight.”

“Kya right?”

“Mujhe bhi...yaad hein..”

“Kaafi nahi hein....bolo ki achche tareekein se yaad hein.....”

“H...aa rohit mujhe achchi tareekein se yaad hein...” she shivered.

“Uss raat...mein tumse hum dono ki....bachcha manga....yaad hein....”

Sonakshi nodded.

“Yaad hein?” He repeated threateningly indicating an anger.

“Yaad hein.” She said in a defeated tone.

“Kya boli tumne....”

“Ki...pehele tum mujhe dedo....aur” she tried to complete with a stammer but he interrupted.

“Aur nau mehene baad tum mujhe wo waapas kardungi...wow you remember?”

He gave a mocking laugh making her look at him with fear.and his face changed evil next moment.

“Toh kardiya tum eise?” He asked.she stared at him with widen scared eyes.

He gripped her waist tighter and made her jot back to reality.

“Kardiya kya?!”

She nodded in negative while sobbing.

“Nahi kardiya.right.nahi kardiya,nau mehene ke baad nahi,poore paanch saal tak waapas nahi kardiya.mujhe apne sab se badi sach se chupa kar rakhi thi tum.”

She sniffed up her sobs.

“No no no no.don’t cry.tum kyun ro rahi ho? Ulta mujhe rona chahiye.mujhe.pataa hein kyun?”

She stayed silent.

“No you don’t know.iss paanch saal me agar ek din bhi....ek din bhi koshish kiya hoti mujhse baat karke mujhe ye sach batanekeliye....bas ek baar try kardi to kya bigad jaati tumara? Paanch saal mein har ek subha agar mujhe tumari number try karneki sarroorat tha despite having no bloody fault in my hand toh tume usske sarrorat kabhi mishoos kyun nahi hua? Itne saari mauka thi tumari haaato mein lekin uss ek mauka bhi kyun nahi liya tum? Hein tumari paas koi explaination? Hein? Haa sonakshi? Bolo? Chup mat raho.bolo.”

But she didn’t uttered a word.

“no.tume himmat nahi hein bolna.nahi hein.ek aakhri mauka diya wo bhi tum nahi leliya.toh tumari samein ab katam hua hein.hamesha ke liye.” He said. He then held her chin and made her look at him. He rested his cheek against hers the next moment,and she unknowingly clutched his arms as he did that.

“Chaahat tumari hein right?”

She stared at the way he said it in a total husky but dangerous voice. Not getting an answer he brushed his stubble against her again. She knew that indicated him wanting her to go verbal.

“H...aan.” She whispered.

“Humari hein naa wo?” He asked again pressing on the first word.

“Ji...hein.”

“Tumari bhi hein aur mere bhi hein?Right?”

“Right.” She gulped and replied.

“Puchne ke sarrorat bhi nahi hein lekin phir bhi,tumare muun sein sunne ke bohot...man kar raha hein....toh.kahin aur mat dekho,srif mere aakhomein dekh kar bolo ki chaahat...mere bachchi hein.mere khoon hein.mere nisshaani hein.mere hein.bolo.”

He ordered with that same whispering husk against her ear.

“Chaahat....tumhare hi hein rohit...tumhare hi....”

he covered her lips with his palm.

“Bas,ek baar ye kaho.ki chaahat srif rohit ka hein.tum mana nahi kar sakte.aaj tak mujhe ye baat tum kabhi nahi kahaan so aaj,mere saamne teek wo baat hi kaho... ki chaahat srif rohit ka hein.”

She shudders at his lips that were touching her ear,and the arms he hand on her waist holding her tightly at him.this was a pure torture and she had no idea if this touching torture from himself will let her survive it or not honestly. She wanted low key for him to understand what she was going through but she also knew that he knew but he doesn’t care at that moment.

“Bolo sonakshi!!!! Bolo ki chaahat srif rohit ka hein.”

He ordered as if to say this was the last time he will tolerate her silence. She froze as she met his eyes at their closest distance.

“chaahat srif rohit ka hein.....”

she said in a clear gapped one sentence,giving him what he wanted.

There was then a silence. A bit long one.and the next moment she felt his hand was being lifted off of her waist. And his lips left the vicinity of her ears. He moved away to around a hand’s distance from her, She looked in his eyes trying to read what his emotion was,and also she was secretly feeling that her heart didn’t really like him moving away off of her like that either but she had no option. Meanwhile rohit did stand straight infront of her,his hands held crossed at his chest,his eyes shining in red still and then his lips formed into an evil smirk.

“Toh bas,tum roz, har ek dum,har ek pal wahi baat apne aapse kehe kar jiyo.Kyun ki abse tume srif chaahat ko yaad kar ke jeena hogi.”

He said. At the first moment,she didn’t understand it,but as he opened the mouth against she was slowly figuring out what he was going to tell her.

“Nahi samaj mein aaya? Well...” he smirked again. And bent forward to her face,still maintaining a distance from her well.

“Mein,Rohit sippy,apni beti ko tumare aakhoki saamne.....tumse cheen kar le jaanewale hoon....hamesha keliye. Got it? Aaj se,tumhari paas koi nahi hoga,nahi mein,well mein toh tume chahiye kab ta?! Toh naa mein rahunga tumare paas,naa mere nishaani.yaniki meri chaahat.” He declared as she felt as if her head was hit against a metal.he snapped his fingers infront of her lost form to bring her back to reality.

“Haan,mein apne beti ko mere saat lekar jaati hoon, wo bhi aaj ab issi wakt aur tum mujhe rokh nahi payegi. In fact,tum khud apne haato sein chaahat mujhe dedungi, uski pura haq mujhe dungi. Bina koi saawal utaaye mein apne beti ko lejaate wakt wo sab apne aakhose dekhungi tum. Samji?”

He cleared. And she felt like she couldn’t put down the breath she took up.

“tum chahiye toh custody ke liye lad sakti hein. I don’t care.weise bhi bina wajein mere beti ko mujhse dhoor rakha hein tumne, poore paanch saal tak. So mein bhi case kar sakte hoon tumari kilaaf uske naatein.”

He shrugged giving a total i don’t care sign. She looked at him with widened eyes,unable to really tell anything as always till now.

“Tume koi takleef bhi nahi hoga actually. I mean tum khudi dekhlo.Tum ne chaahat ko mujhse dhoor rakha.Aaj tak.Agar aaj bhi mujhe andaaza nahi hua ki wo apne beti hein,toh mein kab jaanpaayega? Haan? Kabh? Kabhi nahi right. Kabhi bhi nahi.shaayad mein usko dekkhe bina hi marjaungi.Hein naa? Mere ek bhi galti ki bina tum mujhe ye kya sazza dekhar rakhi hein sonakshi? Mein ne eisa kya kiya ki tum meri beti ko mujhse chupaakar rakha? Kyun kiya tum. Kyun?”

Tears rolled down her cheeks at his words pierced her heart so harshly.

“Mein batate hoon kyun. Kyun ki just like i said,tumari seene mein koi dil nahi hein sonakshi. Issliye kiya hein eise.Aur issiliye, chaahat se dhoor hoke bhi tumari iss dilko koi takleef nahi hoga i am sure. Five years ago, you took all what i had from me. I lived alone, i had no one. I had nothing. I had nothing and f**k mere koi galti bhi nahi the. Aur sab galti tumare haat mein hone ke bawajood tumari paas sab kuch thi,chaahat ki swaroop mein sahi. And five years later,baazi palat chuke hein aur i am taking all what you had from you.aakhir bekazoor rohit ne apne gunegaar ko sazza dekar teek uske aakhoki saamne usse uski chaahat ko lekar jaate hein aaj raat. Damn the palat hue baazi right!?”

He gave out a mocking chuckle.

“So,this is it.Now,right now. Handover every single document related to chaahat to me.”

She stayed immobile for awhile.

“Mein pooch nahi rahe hoon. Bata rahe hoon tumse. Uski sab documents dedo mujhe. Sab kuch. Go.”

She flinched at how loud he said the last word at her. Not said,literally he bashed out at her. In a trance she walked to her cupboard, took few files and walked back to him and handed over them all to her as tears dropped smudging the cover of the top file he now had in his hand. She knew she was rapidly loosing everything she had till now. No,not everything. The only thing she had till now. He turned all the files and checked everything inside. Looking up and he ordered his next.

“Phir chalo,Tumari baari hein, kese bhi chaahat ko samjao aur apne haato se mere beti ko mujhe waapas dedo.”

He uttered.

Sonakshi opened her room door in shivering hands while being so very lost, following his orders and walked out and rohit walked behind her.

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As they reached the hall on the way, ajit,pooja and sharanya all three stormed inside the house in a unison.

They both halted at that arrival.

Ajit and pooja both ran to rohit.

“Bhai please. hum jo bhi hein, thande dimaag se baat karte hein, alright?”

“No don’t take trouble ajit. Sonakshi, hum thande dimaag se hi baat kar rahe the hein na? Bataao aapke ex devar ko... dekho kitna tension mein hein, unnecessarily.” Rohit smirked.

“Bhabhi, please hume batadijiye aapko hua kya hein? Hum sab ko laga ki aap....”

“Marchuke hein right pooji? Yes. Sabko eise lagta ta yes. Mein hi wo akhele bewakoof jissne ye soch soch kar reheta tha ke ye zingda hein.nahi? Kyun tum bhool gayi ki ye parvati hein jo sab kuch kar sakti hein? Maut se lad kar aayi hein. Yahaatak ki, maut ke baad paanch saal bhi zingda rehethi thi aaj tak, hum tum sabse chupte chupte, specially meri beti ko bhi mujhse chupaakar reheti thi tumari so called bhabhi.” Rohit screamed. Ajit took off a file from his hand meanwhile.

“Chaahat ki documents? Ye sab kya hein bhai?”

“Tu beech mein mat pad ajit. Mein wahi kar raha hoon jo mujhe actually isse bhi pehele karna chahiye taa.i delayed too much talking to her even, i should have just taken my daughter away the moment i got to know everything. Lekin nahi waapas gayi iske peeche jawaab mangte mangte. What a bloody fool i am.”

“You are taking chaahat away from bhabhi? Bhai are you m.....” ajit was objecting but a tiny voice interrupted all the chaos.

“Mumma?!”

Sonakshi, Rohit and everyone turned to the voice in an equal shock hearing chaahat’s sleepy voice.

“Mishter shippy?”

She asked again rubbing her right eye with her tiny right palm while holding her favourite pooh hugged to her left chest.

“Aap shab yahaan? Itni raat? Chilla kyun rahe the? Mumma? Mumma aap...” her face changed as she saw sonakshi’s tear stained face as her eyes got cleared from sleep.she came forward but sonakshi quickly ran to her and knelt before the little girl.

“Mumma aap ro kyun rahe ho? Kya hua? Kisshine daata aapko? Mishter shippy neh kuch kahaan? Lekin wo eishe kabhi nahi karte.wo hein jo dosht jisshke baaremein mein ne aapko kaha tha.Hein naa mishter shippy?”

She asked cupping sonakshi’s cheeks and then turning to rohit who was staring at his own daughter with all the damn feelings that surged through him.

“Arey taqdeersh par mile the hum shab aaj right. mujhe naa aap dono ke introdukshan karna bhool hi gayi.”

She planted her palm against her forehead then.

“Mishter shippy come here naa?” She waved her tiny hand asking him to come and rohit walked to her with slow steps and without a complaint,kneeling next to her tiny form.

“Mishter shippy, ye hein meri mumma. World ki besht mumma. Mishish shonakshi rashtogi. Beautiful name naa. Aur naam she shyaada khoobshurat hein meri mumma.hum dono bohot milte hein naa ek dushre she...dekho” She said with a smile and nearing her face to her mother and rohit gave a difficult smile and nodded.

“Aur mumma,ye hein meri dosht Dr. rohit shippy. Actually doctor nahi shurgeon. mumbai malabar hillsh ki doctor shurgeon. mumma ye bohot good looking hein naa? Sho cute. Isshke shmile shab she shyaada cute hein. Shachchi.”

Said chaahat and sonakshi smiled among her hidden tears. She took both the hands of sonakshi and rohit and placed them together. Rohit and sonakshi stared at their touching hands on top of each other while everyone else in the halld were still in shock seeing all this.

“Arey hello toh bholo naa ek dushre shein. Aap dono ithna parishaan kyun dikh rahe ho.” She asked.

“Chaahat..Baby... meri baat suno....”

Sonakshi stammered.

“Kya hua mumma? What ish da matter?”

“Baby....Ye...aapke dost nahi hein. Alright?” She completed with difficulty. Chaahat curled her eyebrows. Rohit stared at sonakshi meanwhile.

“Dosht hi hein mumma. Wo bohot achche hein.... don’t worry. He ish very naish.” Chaahat asked in a worry but sonakshi stopped her mid way.

“Haa....chaahat...dost hi hoga.Lekin.... kher aap ek minute mumma ki baat sunenge ab ok.Please?” She begged and chaahat nodded. Sonakshi took off her hand from rohit’s and kept her daughter’s tiny hand on his then.

“Chaahat. Ye aapki paapa hein.”

The little girl stared at her mother with big eyes for a while,and then her gaze transferred to rohit,who was suddenly turned her father from her friend. Rohit stared at her with hopeful eyes.

“Kya?”

“Haan baby.aapki paapa yaad hein mumbai mein kaam karte hein,mein ne aapko pehele bola tha kahi baar.ab paapa aayi hein.see.”

Sonakshi said hiding all her troubling emotions.

“Lekin....mishter shippy mujhe nahi pehechaana....wo kyun? Aap chaahat ke shaat katti tha mishter shippy?”

Rohit looked at sonakshi without a word’s reply.she held her tiny chin and made her look at her.

“No baby.mumma neh paapa ko aapke pictures nahi beji hein naa.so paapa doesn’t know ki uska beti itna pyaari hein.but.....see now,he is so happy.ab achchi bachchi ki tarha paapa se baat karo,jaao.ye mishter wagera chod lo,aur teek se baat karo please.”

Chaahat turned to rohit who still held his hand in hers and slowly took her hand back from him. Rohit was hurt at that very moment owing to the void he felt but the next moment chaahat took him by surprise when she cupped his stubbled cheeks with her tiny palms.rohit automatically held her tiny wrists with his fingers as he eyed on his daughter who now knew that he was her father.

“Paapa.”

Then she said that word he longed for her to utter and rohit’s heart filled immense love for the little being who is now his bloodline. A tear surfaced his eyes and he didn’t want anyone to see it. Hugging her tightly to his chest he kissed her tiny head here and there as he felt her baby arms tightly clinging to his shirt.

“Chaa...hat.”

He Completed trying to keep his sobs in as he felt his little baby planted sweet kisses on his cheeks.

Sonakshi felt her tears rolling down her cheeks and she sniffed up her rapidly coming sobs trying to stop.she was touched beyond words as she saw the two people she loved the most uniting after so long. Them two who was aparted by her and because of her till now.

Rohit knew he always loved chaahat but now he felt he is hugging a part of himself and her sweet baby scent gave him all the feels of being a father.he had never felt before about how it would feel to be one,but right now he suddenly knew this undepictarble feeling of pouring love in his heart can only be inside a father. His chain of thoughts broken when chaahat broke the hug and looked at sonakshi while being in his arms.

“Mumma aap wahaan kya karti ho?! Aap bhi aao yahaan,paapa wait kar rahe hein aapka.”

Sonakshi wiped her tears and gave a smile.

Phir chalo,Tumari baari hein, kese bhi chaahat ko samjao aur apne haato se mere beti ko mujhe waapas dedo.

She remembered that she had to do that.not just because rohit asked her to.but because she knew,she knew that she was wrong and she had to correct what she did years back by keeping them apart, and most importantly keeeping her rohit alone. He was right,she at least had chaahat,but rohit had nothing.he suffered a mistake which he even didn’t commit at the first place. She had her reasons,she still had. That is why she cannot disclose him why she did all this. But still, she knew no matter what else can go wrong,chaahat will be safe in rohit’s arms and he will not let anything happen to her. And more than anything rohit now deserved chaahat with every right he had. She held her daughter’s chubby cheeks with her palms.

“Chaahat,paapa aapko mumbai leke jaane ke liye aaya hein.aapko.....paapa ke saat jaana hogi....aaj.”

She said.

“Shachchi?”

Chaahat asked from rohit. To which he gave a nod.

“Toh naish noh mumma.paapa aap aur mein,hum shab,ek shaat.chalo chalo hum dono jaake pack karenge shaari shamaan... chalo naa mumma....chalo..”

She tried to run taking her mother’s hand but sonakshi held her tiny waist and slowly stopped her and took chaahat to her lap.

“baby,mumma....nahi aarahi hein....srif aapko paapa ke saat jaana hogi....okay?”

“Kya!!!! No no no no. Mein aapki bina kahin nahi jaungi.pleassh.mumma no pleash pleash pleash....” her face turned red.

“Baby.please.mumma ke baat sun lo pehele.”

“No mumma.mein kahi nahi jaungi.abhi nahi aur kahin nahi. no no no no no.” She started struggling in her lap.

“Chaahat.please dekho.dekho meri taraf.please.” Sonakshi made her daughter look into her eyes.

“baby yahaan,taqdeers mein bohot saare kaam hein.sab kuch beechmein daalke mumma eise nahi aa sakti hein naa.mumma baad mein aaungi.ok?”

“Itne shaare kaam aap keshe akhele karungi mumma? Meri bina keishe....” sonakshi found herself smiling among tears at her cute talks.

“Arey sharanya mausi hein na,mumma kaam katam karkehi waapas aaungi,okay baby.please...”

“Toh aapke kaam katam hone tak paapa yahaan rukh shakte,hein naa paapa.” She said all her ideas. Rohit eyed at sonakshi again without saying a word.

“no chaahat,paapa ko bohot zyaada kaam hein,wahaan usse treatment lene keliye bohot patients uska intezaar karte hein.its not nice noh.aap uske saat jaao ok. Please manjao.”

The little one stared at her pleading mother and then turned to look at her father who was also looking into her eyes silently. Finally she gave a nod and a smile.

“Okay.”

As her words escaped ajit and pooja shut their eyes in disappointment and sharanya looked on in shock. It was sonakshi and rohit who just stared at each other without moving even a muscle and chaahat excitedly ran in to her room wanting to pack her belongings.

“Bhaiyya aap eisa nahi kar sakte.bachchi hein wo.aap usko uski maa se eise alag nahi kar sakte.”

Pooja came saying that.rohit got up and looked at her with anger.

“Toh jo issne kiya hein?! Wo galat Nahi hein? Uske paapa ko bhi usse dhoor rakha. Tum usske baaremein bhi kuch kaho pooji?!” He yapped.

“Bhabhi aap please kuch bolo.aap bhai se eise kese alag ho sakte? Apne beti ko eise yuhi usse dekar aap peeche hat rahi hoon? Magar kyun bhabhi?! Kyun?! Please ye matter yaahan solve karke,aap bhi hamaare saat mumbai chalo.please bhabhi ab bohot hua ye sab.”

Ajit pleased kneeling down at sonakshi.

“Kya? Ye? Waapas mere saat.no ajit.i don’t want her to come.you freaking have no idea ki pichle ek gante se kitne baar isse mein kitne sawaalon ka jawaab mangta ta. Lekin uss har sawaalon ko khaamoshiyan ki alaawa kuch nahi mila mujhe.takchuke hoon mein ab,aur mujhe ab aur kuch nahi chahiye.naa ye,naa isski pyaar naa aur kuch.”

Ajit stormed up and walked to rohit who was screaming at him.

“Bhai aap iss wakt bohot gusse mein hein.aksar uss wakt humari dimaag kaam karna bandh karta hein.isska matlab ye nahi ki aap kuch bhi kare.aapko baad mein regret karna padega bhai please....”

“Ajit.....”

“Filaala aap kahenge ki aap bhabhi ke bina rehe sakte.lekin eisa nahi rehe sakta aap...”

“Of course rehe sakte hoon damnit.paanch saal jiya aage mein bhi jeeyenge.”

Rohit screamed and ajit shook his head in impatience,

“Bhabhi please bhabhi kamse kam aap toh sunlo mere baat.aapke bina bhai har ek pal bohot suffer kar rahe the.just because he says all these,don’t believe him. He doesn’t mean a thing he says right now.he cannot live a second without you.jeete ji margaya ye paanch saal pehele.keise jiya ye aapke bina,ab tak mein pooji aur wahaan humare parivaar sab dekhliya hein.bhaike alaawa sab ko pata hein ki wo aap ke bina jee nahi sakte.please bhabhi,hamari saat chalo.hum sab ye matter solve karlenge.”

Ajit was begging and sonakshi sobbed looking down without saying a word. Meanwhile,rohit pushed ajit back and took him away from sonakshi.

“Chup ho ja ajit.tumare bak bak as kuch nahi hoga.chillao gidgidaao aasubahaalo lekin wo dekhne keliye yaa feel karne keliye isske paas dil naam ki koi cheez hi nahi hein.usse koi farak nahi padta.aur mein bhi koi mazaak nahi karte hoon ajit.ab mujhe bhi isse yaa isske ye nakhli aasuon se koi farak nahi padta.sab kuch katam hein aur ab mein apni beti ko yahaan se lekar isse dhoor jaana chate hoon bas.aur kuch Nahi hein.tumari so called bhabhi aur mere beechmein ab kuch nahi hein jo tum log bacha sake.honestly,I think there was nothing at all ever.”

Rohit said loud enough to make sonakshi shiver in her sobs as pooja and sharanya held her from both the sides.

“bhabhi aap...kuch toh kahiye naa.aap abh abhi chup rahi toh bohot galat hoga.”

Pooja begged but sonakshi stood up and walked away to see her daughter.

Everyone was stuck midway in their own accord and a torturous silence prevailed in the hall area.

Some minutes would have passed and then sonakshi returned back to the crowd that awaited,carrying chaahat who was clinging to her shoulder in one hand and the bag that contained her belongings in the other.walking to rohit without looking anywhere else,she first handed over the bag to ajit who stood near by.then she came to rohit. Silently,she planted few feathery kisses on her daughter’s face and kept hugging her to her frame for sometime. No one said anything and they all stared at this extremely difficult moment while rohit waited there in silence.

“be good okay.zyaada sharaaratein mat karo.please.” She said.

“mumma aap ek din ke liye humare shaat chalo naa,I don’t even know who ish with paapa in wo...malabar hillsh.you come naa,aake mujhe shabki introdakshan karwadoona please.”

“Arey paapa aapko sabse milwadenge,aap pooji bua aur apki ajit chachu ko toh milchuki hein.aur wahaan aapki dadi hein,daada hein.daadi bua hein.YK daada hein aur bohot aur log bhi hoga.wo sab bohot achche hein,aur aapko bohot pyaar karegi. Specially aapki daadi.wo bohot pyaari hein. So aap fikar mat karo.kushi kushi se jao aur sabko milo. Aur tum wo sab ko batao ki mujhe wo sabka bohot yaad aati hein.teek hein?”

Sonakshi said and chaahat agreed.

“I will miss you so much baby.” She said as a tear rolled down her cheek.chaahat cupped her cheeks and planted a kiss on her.

“I will missh you more mumma....aap jaldi aana okaaay.”

She begged. Sonakshi faked a smile and then planted her last kiss on her baby daughter. The one she gave birth to.the one she kept looking at to keep on living till now.the one whose smile could vanish all her worries away.The one she loved without any bounds.

From today,she is never going to see her daughter again. And she had no idea how she is going to live without her. This tiny human was the only support that gave her courage to stay alive without having her rohit around her,but today she has to give up on her,so that her rohit will finally get a chance to feel alive after so long. A chance that was well deserved and more deserved by him.

She slowly handed over chaahat to rohit,who took his daughter to his arms and the baby girl slowly held onto her father’s shoulder and hid her face in his neck.

Ajit wanted to stop his brother,but with having the little girl around now his hands were tied,so was pooja’s and sharanya’s because their one action will surely make chaahat start having thousands of questions. Rohit signalled ajit to take the bag and the pile of files silently and asked pooja to follow them.

And he turned away from sonakshi not even saying one final word to her and started to walk away from her. Sonakshi watched them all leaving.rohit looking away and ajit and pooja walking hesitantly,and chaahat,her little daughter waving a continuous good bye till her mumma disappeared from her view. Sonakshi waved her final good bye as she saw her daughter and rohit exited the door and then she felt all her courage dissolving away,all her resisting powers vanishing to thin air and her heart making a tight tug and her legs giving away. She fell down on her knees as sharanya clutched her from her shoulders.

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Rohit placed chaahat on the back seat as ajit and pooja watched them. Closing the back door rohit turned to his siblings.

“Tum dono kya dekh rahe ho? Get in.hume jaana hein.”

“Bhai...”

“Bas kar ajit,aur kuch nahi kahenge tu.chup chaap,gaadi mein beto aur haan uss files mein chaahat ki passport hogi,wo nikaalke hum sub ke saat uski bhi ticket karwaado kal subha ki flight mein.pooji get in.”

“Mein nahi aaungi.”

Pooja’s declaration made both the brothers halt.

“What?”

“Mein nahi aaungi bhaiyya.bhabhi ki bina mein nahi jaaungi yahaan se.aap uski saat ye nahi kar sakta.”

“Pooji I told you one last time.we are leaving.And she cannot come with us.”

“I disagree.”

“Tumari marzi pooji,tumare paas kal subha tak time hein.aa sakte ho toh usse pehele aajaana.warna tum akhelehi mumbai aajao.ajit,let’s go.”

Rohit finalized and got into the vehicle after ajit and the car drove away, whereas pooja turned back and went inside the house to see her bhabhi.

“Sonakshi,pagal hein tu?! Eise kese uss aadmi ko chaahat ko lejaane diya tu? Really!?”

Pooja heard sharanya talking to a silently sobbing sonakshi on the floor. Pooja took slow steps to her.

“Wo koi aam aadmi nahi hein shara.Rohit chaahat ki paapa hein.haq banta hein uska.”

“Haan toh haq tume bhi hein yaar.mumma hein tum uski.tum jee nahi payegi uski bina.yaad hein naa tumare liye chaahat kya hein? Ussne tume aaj tak zingda rakhi hein sonakshi.bhoolo mat.hum dono kya haalat mein mila yaad hein tujhe? Tumari saari ummeedein khatam hoti ti tab,yaad hein? pata hein naa tujhe ki agar chaahat nahi hoti to tum marne jaa rahi thi? Yaad hein tum suicide karne jaa rahi thi. Rohit ki bina zingda nahi rehe paakar marne jaate wakt pata chal gaya tume ki tum maa banne waali hein.uss din se aaj tak uss bachchi thi tumari jeene ki wajah.”

Pooja stared at them in shock. Her bhabhi? The strongest woman she has ever seen in her whole life.the one who stopped her from giving up on life,tried on committing suicide? She couldn’t register what she was hearing.

“Mera galti thi.agar mujhe saraasa bhi pata hota ki wo teri wahi rohit hein yaa agar aaj ussne teri saat ya sab karne waale hein toh mein usko chaahat se yaa tumse mulaakat hone bhi nahi deti.”

Sharanya said in the frustration.

“Eisa mat kaho shara.rohit ke koi galti nahi hein.ek bhi galti nahi hein.bina koi galti ke aaj tak bewajaa kissi aur ke galti keliye wo suffer kar rahe the.wo teek kehe rahe the....akhele tha wo,meri paas Kamse kam chaahat toh thi. Lekin rohit.shara he had no one. no one.he had no idea ki uske ek beti bhi hein iss duniya mein.akhele the rohit.he is not at fault.He was all alone.”

Sonakshi said with a sob.meanwhile Sharanya held sonakshi’s wrist and showed her the scar on it.

“Toh uss raat yahaan kaatthe wakt tujhe nahi laga tha kya agar tujhe kuch hojayae toh tab bhi tumare uss rohit ko koi nahi hoga iss duniya mein?! Haan? Tab nahi laga?! Aur kya kahaata ussne? Ki ussne tumse jawaab mangta ta lekin tu ne kuch nahi boli? Of course nahi boli hogi tu. Meri laakh poochne bawajood bhi aaj tak tum mujhe kuch nahi kahaan.aakhir kya hein iss sab kuch ke peechein chupi wajein sonakshi? Tu ab tak kisse chupti hein eise.kamse kam ab toh bata.”

Sharanya pleaded all the way to go unheard by sonakshi. Pooja who had reached sonakshi then,sat down next to her holding both her hands.

“Bhabhi ye sharanya kya kehe rahi hein? Aap sach mein....suicide.aap ne? Par kyun....”

Sonakshi was shocked seeing her nanand near her.

“Pooja,tum please yahaan se chali jaao.please.mujhe kissi ko kuch nahi kehena.”

“Bhabhi aapko bolna hoga. Agar aaj nahi toh kabhi nahi.please.”

“Pooja mein ne kahaata naa,please jaao.”

“Bhabhi ye galat hein.bhaiyya aapse dhoor jaane waale hein.saato saat aapki beti ko bhi aapse dhoor karne jaa rahe hein. Chaahat aap dono ki hein aur aap dono ko uss par baraabar haq hein.eisa mat karo uss massoom bachchi ki saat kamse kam. uski toh koi galti nahi hein.maa baap dono ke hi pyaar usse milna chahiye.please bataao ki aap eisa kyun kar rahe hoo.eise kya hein jiske wajeise aapko aaj tak itna kuch karna pada. Please bolo bhabhi....please.”

Sonakshi looked up and met pooja’s eyes.

“Agar mein ek din ke liye bhi tumari liye ek achchi bhabhi bani thi naa pooja, toh,meri kasam tum mujhse aur kuch nahi puchengi.”

“Bhabhi?”

“Haan.aur tum meri ek kaam karlo agar ho sakte to.meri rohit aur meri chaahat ki kayal rakhna.rohit ko kabhi mere liye waapas rone mat dena.zingdagi mein kabhi bhi chaahat ko uski maa ki kami mishoos hone mat dena.please.meri liye bas yehi kaam karlo.please.”

“Why are you saying all these bhabhi?!”

“Karungi naa?! Karungi naa tum pooja?”

Unable to say anything at all,pooja bursted into tears hugging sonakshi,and nodded among the tears.and sonakshi broke their hug and stood up the next moment and walked inside the room,leaving pooja no option but to leave.

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Rohit saw ajit resting his head on the dashboard in frustration along the whole way to the hotel they resided.he had initially tried hard to explain his elder brother a numerous times about the mistake he was doing,only to receive silent treatment from rohit’s side. Chaahat has fallen asleep on her father’s chest and there remained a deep silence in the vehicle.he hand rested on her tiny head and he slowly patted her head trying to put her at ease.

Somewhere yet,an unknown incompleteness still gushed over him despite of all the things he thought he achieved by having his chaahat in his hands. He was not full, not content,not happy and not sure about something. Some uncanny felling troubled him to an extent that he repeatedly tried to push it down to the bottom of his being but somewhere his gut feeling was awaring him of an impending storm. Which might finish everything.

A phone ring broke his silence,he read the caller ID to find that it was YK. He disconnected very well knowing what he might tell him. A beep of a message disturbed him then.

Phone answer kar.ab.

YK’s message read,and then came his call and rohit had to answer. He placed chaahat safely on his lap sideways and answered the call.

“Rohit,ye ajit kya kehe rahe the.sonakshi zingda hein?! Tumne mila hein usse right? Waapas le aayenge naa tum usse? Bolo rohit.”

YK’s impatient voice annoyed rohit more.

“Haan haan zingda hein,saalo se pehele aap aur paapa le aaye hue DNA report galat hi nikhle.zingda hein,akhele bhi nahi the....”

“Mein le aaye hue? Wait haan mein ne apply kardi reports keliye lekin collect karne toh naren bhai sahab akhele hi gaye hein,uss din jaana hi nahi mila.kher chodo mein uss baat keliye tume phone nahi ki hein rohit.ek baat bata,ye nishi ne mujhe ek recording sunne de thi....jismein sonakshi kuch prenup ke mutabein usko milnewaale paiso ki baaremein bolti hein.....”

“YK tume sach mein koi achcha kaam nahi hein kya ye past digging ki alaawa.aur nishi boo.mein ne usse kahataa ki isske baaremein koi baat kissiko mat batane keliye.phir bhi...wo bhi Itne saalo ki baad...”

“Sun rohit,tu mujhe ye baat aaj tak naa bataakar bohot galat kiya hein. Mein khud apne haatose uss papers banadi rohit,uss mein srif ye likata ki agar koi divorce ho tum dono ki beech,toh sonakshi ko kuch nahi milega bas.yahaan tak ki naren bhai ussko monthly kuch paise limit dene keliye bhi offer kiya tha lekin wo bhi reject kar kehi sonakshi ne prenup sign kiya.so yeah recording mein jo kuch bhi keheti hein wo sab galat hein,rohit kahin naa kahi kuch galat hua hein.i am sure sonakshi eisa nahi karungi tumari saat kabhi bhi,tum please isske baaremein thoda.....”

“YK....YK listen.mujhe iss sabse ab koi matlab nahi hein.mujhe ab koi farak nahi padta ye jaante bhi hue.jo mera hein,wo mein ab apna chuki hoon,aur wo hein meri beti.usse lekar mein waapas ghar aaraha hoon aur ab sonakshi mere zingdagi mein nahi rahi,it’s over and I don’t want to talk about it.”

“But....”

Rohit cut the call. And by that time they had reached the hotel. He carried his baby to his arms and got down asking ajit to settle the payments. Chaahat woke up meanwhile as he walked ahead.

“Pata hein aapko....mumma alwaysh keheti thi ki paapa bohot good looking hein,sixsh feet hein aur shuperhero ki tarha hein jo logo ki jaan bachaana. Uss din jab aapshe pehele baar mile the,tab bhi mujhe kuch ajeebshi laga.mumma ne kahaan hui shab factsh aapse milte the. Aur meri guessh shahi nikhli....kyun ki aap aakhir mere paapa hi bangaye,”

She said halfway in sleep. Rohit felt an unusual tug at his chest but he said no word but walked away.

Putting her to the bed,he placed a lots of pillows around her.then ajit entered the room and kept the bag on the table and sat down in a corner without a word, and started to search for chaahat’s passport to book tickets because no other option left.

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It would have been ten minutes passed when pooja stormed into their room stunning ajit and making even rohit look up at her.

“Bhaiyya aap bohot galat kar raha hein.i mean really.you have no idea ki what you are doing.”

“pooji hum isske baaremein koi baat nahi karenge....got it.”

“Nahi mein karungi discuss,baat bigadne se pehele kuch toh karna hi hoga.”

“bigad neh keliye koi baat nahi hein yahaan.”

“Paanch saal pehele sonakshi bhabhi ne suicide attempt kiya hein. What do you want? Ki wo situation waapas dohoraayein?”

Ajit stood up as if in a jolt and rohit turned pale as a paper.

“What?”

Asked ajit the question which ran in rohit‘s head in disbelief.

“Haan ajit.mujhe sharanya ki baato se srif wo baat jaane laga.but I know one thing, sonakshi bhabhi ek strong aurat hein,jo even mujhe....kabhi give up karna nahi diya hein.eise insaan uss tarha ki kadam kyun utayenge,mujhe to wishwaas bhi nahi horahahein.Mujhe pata nahi wo eisa kyun kiya lekin iss suicide attempt ke peechein koi solid wajein hogi jissne usse uski breakpoint ki beyond push kiya hein...”

Rohit sat down near his baby daughter. He really had no idea what else pooji was telling him but he hugged his little daughter to his chest. Somewhere he felt like his heart skipped a scary beat which he had never gone through before. The word suicide shook him to the core and and with sonakshi doing that out of all,he couldn’t believe it. He did,but then again that with sonakshi? He shut his eyes as a memory of the way they found pooji attempted suicide flashed infront of his eyes,but this time he saw sonakshi instead of pooji there. And he felt like his breath got hitched.

He was a doctor.he knew that anyone’s mind could go astray at one point of time but putting sonakshi in that situation,was yet difficult for him. However he brushed off all the thoughts that came troubling to him and tried not to loose his cool infront of his siblings.he just didn’t want to. And he didn’t want to show that he freaking cared still. despite of all the injustice sonakshi has done to him.

“Ye jaane ke baawajood bhi aap usko yahaan chod kar jaana chate hein? You can’t do that bhai.you will not leave her this time like that.”

He heard ajit pleading.

“Rehene do ajit.wo nahi sunne waala.pyaar se zyaada,aaj inke andhar gussa hein,kehediya ki bhabhi ki seene mein dil nahi hein.lekin inko bhool gaye ki iss dil ki doctor ka dil bhi isske seene mein nahi hein.”

Pooja complained in anger.

Rohit stood up.

“Ajit tickets book hue!?”

Both siblings were shocked at how casual was rohit about this.

“H...aan.kal subha ki flight hein.”

“Fine.ajit tu pack karna shuru kar. Aur haan,dher mat karo pooji tum bhi apna samaan pack karo,kal subhe hi nikhalni hein.aaj raat keliye chaahat tumari paas hogi.uska khayal rakho.”

He said walking out and they heard him entering his room at next door and locking it behind.

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The next morning,still pooja couldn’t believe how royally rohit ignored such a huge thing last night.and ajit was frustrated not being able to do anything about what was happening.and finally when it was time,rohit came to the room and took chaahat to his hand without a word,and all of them left to the airport.And after an hour the three sippys boarded their flight to leave goa,thinking that this is the last time they get to come there ever again.

In another corner of goa,sonakshi was attended by sharanya who had been with her throughout the past hours.

“Sonakshi,chal doctor ke paas,you have running fever.”

Sonakshi nodded in negative.

“Itni zid mat karo yaar,tu already bohot weak hein.kal raat ek pal bhi nahi sauya hein tu aur yahaan eise betke kya karengi?”

Sharanya asked just to be ignored.

“Ab toh kuch bol.chaahat bhi chali gayi hogi yahaan se.aur teri rohit bhi.ab itna kuch karnese yaa chupaanese kya faida hongi? Kuch nahi.ab toh kuch bol.eisa kyun kiya tu paanch saal pehele? Teek hein tu mujhe nahi bata sakti,abhi rohit ko phone kar,aur bata tumari kahaani kya hein. Shaayad wo sunege aur apna faisla badlenge. Waapas aajayenge.”

“wahi hone se hi rok rahi hoon mein.”

“kya?”

“Mein rohit se kuch hone nahi de sakti shara.agar wo waapas aajayenge toh bohot problems hoga.chaahat ko usse issiliye diya kyun ki ab mein hogi yaa nahi hogi,hum dono ki bachchi uske saat hi hogi,aur dheere dheere mere saari kiyadar aur mere saree yaadein mitjaayenge rohit ke dil se.”

“What the hell are you saying sonakshi? Eisa kuch nahi honewaala.paagal mat ban tu.”

“Shara please mujhe akhele hi reheni hein thodi dher.weise bhi aaj aunty ko dekhneke liye jaanewaali thi naa tum.please jao.”

“No sonakshi I cannot leave you.not in this state.”

“Mujhe kuch nahi hoga.please jaao.mein tume phone karungi kuch hua hein toh.”

“Par...”

“Tum jaa naa sach mein.please mujhe aur takleef mat de shara please.”

Sharanya knew sonakshi wasn’t going to listen,so she took the bag and left half heartedly.

Sonakshi shut her eyes and tried to be calm against the storm that was starting inside her.

Everything was over. There is no hope left. Chaahat has gone and so has her rohit. And more than anything, rohit hated her. She has seen that hate which was equally burning his eyes and her heart,but she was rendered helpless. No matter how much she wanted to tell him everything,she just couldn’t. She has survived everything that happened,but she had this doubt now. That she will not be able to survive the hatred rohit had for her.

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In a half unconscious state,sonakshi tried to move her hand to get some water.she felt her body was burning and she wondered if she could fall asleep like that. The next moment she realized that she was having fever and now probably it has rocketed up making her disoriented like that.The glass was empty so she stood up herself with so much of difficulty. She felt like the whole surrounding was spinning around her and she immediately clutched the glass in one hand and the bed railing in the other.

Where is chaahat? What time is it? She saw the time and noticed it was 11.30 in the morning and it was chaahat’s time for her favourite bonvita. She stammered trying to take her name,but her throat was so dry. With so much of difficulty she started to walk to the kitchen and then she halfway saw her messed self in the mirror. She saw herself as pale as ever,lifeless and fragile. She for a moment couldn’t recognize herself in the mirror.trying to keep her eyes open,she wiped them from the free hand and the next moment,an image appeared in the mirror,and it was of her rohit, whom she saw as if he is standing behind her. His eyes directly stared at her without a blink even and she smiled alone.her head was spinning badly again so she clutched a corner of the dressing table and tried to turn to where he stood but found that he wasn’t there anymore.

“Rohit?”

She said weakly,knowing that he is gone now and a huge void invaded her.

She moved a bit forward,wanting to drink some water but then she saw him a bit far,now seated on the tiny sofa of her room again looking at her with that expressionless face.slowly and clinging to everything around she carried herself till she got there,before he disappears this time.

“Tum....ne waapas aaya....rohit?”

She stammered,trying to steady herself but his image just stared at her. All cold.

“Nahi....aaya hein.meri wehem....hein sab...tum nahi aaya hein.” She repeated as she felt the whole wide world was spinning around her. She gave a weak smile.

“Rohit....kaash tume mein bataapaati ki...tum mere liye kya hoon.doctor surgeon, tume nahi pata ki .....mein tumse kitna pyaar karti hoon.nahi pata.aur mein bata bhi nahi sakti.....tumari sawaalon ka koi jawab bhi....”

She felt a lump stuck in her dry throat and a cough interrupted her.

“jawab bhi nahi de sakti mein....kese kahoon tumse mein ki .....mujhe ye sab..tumare liye karna pada....? Paanch saal pehele.....naren paapa....”

She breathed fast earning no response from the cold image of rohit infront of her.

“Naren paapa neh mujhe kahaan ki.....tumse dhoor hone ke liye hamesha ke liye....tumari nazron mein khudko girane keliye....agar nahi kiya toh eisa mein ne,usne dhamki di mujhe....kahataa ki wo apna aur pooja ki asliyat khudhi jaakar mumma ko batadenge...rohit,mujhe pata tha....ki mumma bardaash nahi kar payegi wo sab,aur mumma ko kuch ho....jaaye toh,tum tootjayenge poore tarha,aur...wo mujhe nahi dek sakti thi....”

she clutched the nearby something as her legs tired to give in.

“Karwaaya usne mujhse wo sab....aur yahaan aakar....I had no need....mujhe koi sarroorat nahi laga jeene ki....tumari bina kese jiu mein rohit.....lekin marte jaate wakt....pata chala ki....ki chaahat aachuki hein meri kauk..mein.tumare nishaani...pata ta tume ki i....wanted to tell you first. I felt like....I got everything that you wanted...growing inside me.lekin mein aau kese tumare paas....paapa ne mujhe damki diye the ki kabhi waapas nahi lautne keliye....issiliye...srif issiliye chaahat ko tumse dhoor rakhna pada.....I am so sorry rohit.”

Hot tears rolled down her cheek as she apologized for all what happened.

“Kese kahu mein tumse ye sab....asliyat mein...nahi bata sakti mein....lekin chaahat ko tumne dehi diya....kyun ki....tumse zyaada usko koi aur deserve nahi karta....mein bhi nahi....tumare khoon hein wo...aur wo hein tumare har dhardh ka maram....mein rahu yaa na rahu....chaahat tumare saat hamesha hogi....hamesha....”

Sonakshi smiled weakly.

“Ye shaayad....aakhri baar hein hum dono ki milne ke...rohit.tum....nahi aayenge....mere mare hue muu dekhne keliye bhi tum nahi aayenge...lekin tumari koi galti bhi nahi hein....itna takleef mein the tum.kitna sazza bhukatchuke hein tum,wo...bhi bina koi galti ke....”

She waited as she felt her eyes going black from time to time.

“Iss janam mein....tumare pyaar mishoos kiya bina marne hogi mujhe....rohit. I cannot believe ki I will always....be hated by you.....lekin,tum...kush rahenge....toh wahi kaafi hein mere liye.aur kuch...nahi chahiye mujhe....”

The image of rohit that was infront of her seemed to be disappearing,and she smiled.

“Har ek dum tumehi maanga rab se mein,rohit....lekin unhone mujhe tum nahi diya...meri paapa ki tarha...tume bhi cheen liya mujhse wo....kami meri hogi....meri...”

Sonakshi clutched that glass in her hand tight but her grip seemed to be wavering.

“I love you....so much rohit...I love you so much that...bas....I just love you.”

She could only tell that.everything went black and sonakshi heard in a dream like shatter of glass pieces, probably the glass fell off her hand. And then she fell down,and her head hit against something very hard and she went all unconscious having no idea about the blood that spilled around her.

Chapter title credit: tabah ho gaye (Kalank 2019)

Wasu!😭😭

Ye kya kar rahi ho tum! I have no words to describe my feeling right now. This was beautiful! Pata tha mujhe ki Sonakshi itni heartless nahi ho sakti thi... Naren asked her to do this? Makes a lot of sense. I'm looking forward to understand the circumstances involving this.😭

So far I only felt bad for Rohit but ab my heart beats for Sona too. Bechari! How did she live for so long like this?😭

And the way you ended things... It's still unclear to me if Rohit was there or if she was just imagining him.😭

So glad you updated today! Today being my birthday and all. I just hope you update soon!

Love always❤️,

Naina

Nice and villainous

Oh God!!! GOD!!!GOD!!! THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!!! I thought it might be Naren who did this....poor Rohit! But somehow for all the mystery built around the truth of why Sona did what she did....i still somehow feel she shouldn't have done this!!! It is Rohit's right to choose which separation he can bear....or more correctly which pain he can survive...living without Sona and his daughter or seeing his mom heart broken...

Still you have captured their emotions beautifully and my heart is breaking for Sona. But i can't understand how can Rohit be so insensitive. He went away even after learning Sona tried to commit suicide...or did he????

Wasuuu🤗🤗

Jaane se pehle rula diya na pagli...

I was in tears.... 😭😭😭

Both of them are in pain... Nd that's all because of that idiot Naren.. For 5 bloody years.. Both cried for each other ... Like how hard can destiny play💔😭😭.. Staying apart from someone that too by loving the person sooo dearly.. Well yeah.. It requires greattt strength.. 💕❤

I understand sona.. And so do I understand Rohit for his behavior.. Again both are right in their own places.. But put together both are wrong.. She taking a decision for both of them was wrong.. Nd he doing the same is also wrong... But they are two flawed individuals.. So they will make mistakes.. Nd woh pyaar hi kya jismein maafi na ho.. 💕❤

The emotions captured the best... I absolutely loved it.. Addressing the condition of suicide is also necessary... And I love the fact that you brought it up here.. And I know Rohit.. Howmuchever he may hurt her.. I know it was him.. He returned... Sona was not delusional.. She actually has now confessed everything to him... 💞💕

But she is broken, weak and fragile... If Rohit doesn't return.. She will lose hope for life... 😭😭😭

Amidst all the tantrums Rohit was throwing ... I could literally see him like that.. Maybe coz even in episodes he is shown like that... But all of that here, came cooling down when he saw chahat.. When all of them saw chahat... I could literally imagine everything playing out in front of me.. And I am just a silent spectator to all this...💕💕

Yes chahat.. My girl.. You will get your parents together.. Because these two are crazy in love... Hadh se zyaada pyaar hai inka.. Nd tum unke iss pyaar ki chahat... ❤

This was a fantastic update wasu.. I am running out if words to describe it's beauty... ❤❤

So I am stopping it here... 😄

Duniya mein kitni hai nafretein, phir bhi dilon mein hai chahetein, zinda rehti hai unki mohabbatein..❤

And I strongly believe the above line.. Coz love prevails,no matter what! And so will RoNakshi💞💞💕💕💘💞

Loveee you loads wasuu🤗.. Nd don't thank me.. We are friends... ❤️

Update soonish.. I won't promise of reading and commenting on them as you upload.. I may get real late.. And I hope you won't mind that.. knowing about my schedule... I hope you will understand.. 😭

Love, hugs and tc ❤🤗

Your Aluu.. 😘😘❤❤

Wow.. So emotional zabardast plz continue soon