NOVEL~*Hiding behind a Stranger*~THREAD 47-CHAPTER 52, TSR for 53 UPD - Page 19

Originally posted by: lashy

Nice time y'all must have had!🤗

Ma ka haat ka khaana for the young guy!

Yes! since Friday night that is what I have been doing!

He got to hand out with his high school friend, he goes to college in South Carolina, because of Florence hurricane he had few days off, so he was here.

Originally posted by: Testmytest

She will be ok, let her take time to recover. I can imagine what she is going through, I myself had a hard time yesterday to focus on my daily routine. We are talking about her CS here, so it is hard for to keep her emotions in check.

>>>👍🏼 I understand da

Yes! since Friday night that is what I have been doing!

He got to hand out with his high school friend, he goes to college in South Carolina, because of Florence hurricane he had few days off, so he was here.

>>> Happy mommy!

Originally posted by: melovesja

Lashy my heart was like stone ,stopped feeling anything with that barbric lashes that i dont get a single drop of tear, only pain of shahib and both of them condition.

I can understand, sweetie!🤗

At first i like prince fighting with ego but this farooq ...

Thanks dear... for appreciating that scene!

i want coldest but harder punishment for him then any other.

Ugh I wish so too... but... 😔

let me just be in the satisfaction that FS will enjoy no spot in Heaven!

Prince is totally parted between his emotion and ego.

This lashes hurts me more then anything. But for your writing you absulatly well written prince hafty ego and how effect of others ego brushing words effect that royal stoops low in others and his own eyes but still wants to cover up

Exactly... he's fallen in his own eyes... doesn't want to accept it...

That was what that last bit was about...

and as your poem Godess must be steering and aweak till his wounds heal.

I loved the way you saw with one sentence the fear of losing life of royal that at movment of curtain make him insecure.

Yes... Thanks for appreciating the 'curtain insecurity' scene!🤗 It was a one second scene, but showed a lot about his current state of mind!

Like tejraj's meeting with ks. Only hope of ray is tejrajs concious.

Exactly!👍🏼

Don't undermine the genius of the Ustaad though...

Originally posted by: daisydee425

Amazing updates

thanks for pm

Originally posted by: Bindu.

I don't think it was just to keep up his promise of treating her like a noble-woman ,though that's how he convinces himself or tries to convince.Nor it was ego because,his ego was satiated to an extent seeing Heera folding her hands and pleading him.

You have used the words 'natural defence' and 'nascent innocence' to describe what the shehzaade felt.So,I think he found her words and sentiments,genuine and not manipulative like the old fox said.

I think he was conflicted. When he saw her expressions, they seemed genuine. Once he stepped out, he wondered if she was manipulating him by her 'innocence'😊

Also,his extreme anger is for Khan Sahib but not Heera.

Anyway,whatever the situation might be,I feel he does completely believe in the love of AMK and Heera.So,he might not have been able to crush the prized gift she got from her husband.I remember you mentioning about shehzaade's love or am I confusing it with something else😕

I am sorry for being out of action because I was stricken with grief and sorrow literally! I don't remember being enveloped in such distress and being so destitute since I watched Shakti' and Aakhree Raasta' and back then I was so tender and young! I was the one here who was whipped and lashed, my soul was scarred in depth, my spirit was bleeding in pain and trauma, my heart and body was feeling every flogs from the heartless, insensitive, boorish ruler!

Lashy, sorry but I couldn't read the last paragraph, no matter how much I tried and I will not read it, for the sake of my sanity! By the time I went to the third lash I zoned out and words became blur and I stopped! All I could see was the imagery of him chained with his arms stretched up to the ceiling and he facing his back to the monster hearing the metal clink of the whip and thinking to himself it is not the usual leather one and then the first whip and his beseeching voice and plead screaming and begging for the heartless and ruthless savage to hear him out but to no avail! That was it and I stopped! That image kept roaming in my mind and then Lashy's edit didn't help with that blood stain on the wall either!

I can be rough and tough on the front but I do have a faint heart I guess and I abhor such gory violence of any kind. When I read NJAPA and that insane chapter happened there too I shamelessly will say I skipped it, simply scanned over it and in my mind I had this fear lurking from the beginning which I never voiced that here in HBAS, I hoped this sort of violence of any sort would not happen (keeping my fingers crossed) but here I am seeing my love so barbarically and inhumanly tortured! The fear surfaced and shook me to the core with its content and our Author Sahiba's vivid linguistic extraordinaire!

I simply don't know how Heera will survive after knowing what KS has undergone and all because of her innocent ploy to seek justice for her sister's untimely and unjust demise in the hands a of a brutal general! How will she stay calm when she will see the distinct deep zigzags of scars on his back and all she will think with a lump in her throat that she is the cause of it all! No matter how she will physically and emotionally heal him it will haunt her insides to the core! Who and how will she heal herself from all this guilt?

I just read about Chittor example but sorry to say Chittor and this is not the same, it does not fall in the same category! With Akbar and his intentions, if you have read about him and his intentions in his biography, you will know it was a political move to bring all the Rajput kingdoms under his Mughal Empire and he did that deliberately to teach the Rajputs to surrender to him, to instill fear for political reasons. This here was a personal vendetta, a war fought with oneself to win over his ego! Akbar was much more intelligent and had a common sense prevailing in his head over his shoulders and he adhered to his advisers but always used his own judgment to finally decide with reason and logic but here what do we find? A man, a future emperor, the second most powerful man in the nation, caught between his alter ego and his conscience, a weakling because he succumbed to the wily ploys of FS in spite of knowing he was doing something gravely wrong, he was playing in to his hands and yet he did it willingly just to prove to his ego he is supreme!! No, it is not the same as Chittor! I can not equate him with the likes of Akbar! The only grace I will give him in this chapter is what you know, not the order to the Darogah to give the lens back to Heera but that in spite of seeing the idol of Ma Bhavani in Gauri's arms he didn't yank it away and throw it crushing to mere powder! That is the only and only good act of the Shehzade! Sorry all of his admirers, he did cross the line this time by leaps and bounds in the direction of Netherworld! And his punishing those guards proved it too how much he has lost himself to prove to the world to display his power and supremacy over the nation! The first edit shows him looking in to the Chakravyuh on the wall, with his fist in the center! He thinks he holds the center of this problem in his grip and it is in his power how he churns it out but what he doesn't know is he is caught himself in the center of the Chakravyuh and he doesn't know how to get out of it! Yes, in the end, his ego was the winner but in the war between his ego and conscience, what won? Ego gratified - yes but conscience gratified - definitely not! He is nothing but a weakling who allowed himself to be played by an evil wise fanatic and acted exactly how that evil wise old haggard planned and wanted him to! He played in to his hands like a pawn of a chess game! He is not fit to be the emperor who can rule the nation!

And I am not even done with FS yet!

Yes, we see and hear of such inhuman attacks even in today's world, then too I get upset and feel horrible but I move on because I am not personally invested in them. I don't care who suffered what and when and how it is normal to see such pain inflicted on others and by whom in the past!! All I know is it is AMK here we are talking about! Yes, I am seething in anger and pain and sorrow! I was enveloped in this fire of emotions and burnt in them for the past 2 days and no matter how much I try to forget that image lingers in m mind! Now after deliberate circumspection of looking and thinking it over that fire is burning within me now and I do not know how to douse it but with the blood of all the evil souls here specially FS and Shehzade! Yes, I am angry! I have not involved myself for almost 2 years on the characters whom I have grown to love, cherish, respect, admire, adore and dream about to see them writhing in pain! But here I am seeing and feeling it and it feels horrible when you see them in such harsh situation in so much of unbearable pain! All I could see is AMK bathed in blood with the whiplashing and his screaming in pain, he who bears all the pain with a clamped mouth is shrieking in pain this time!

Ok, there I go again! It becomes all blurry again! Sorry, will come back later! And I apologise sincerely if I have hurt anyone with my rantings! I am not myself today.