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CHAPTER-3
I'm driving ever since towards South Delhi and my impatience seems to grow with every passing second. I know I'm just close to south Delhi but a mile seems like 10 miles. I'm going to meet my Jalal after more than 2 months, I don't want to fight with him, I just want to hug and stay with him forever. Ok! Forever sounds so damn cheesy but I want to stay with him until I can, till my last breath sounds appropriate. Yes, precisely the right words are last breath. I finally halt the car and I get out of the car. The color of the sky is getting darker I try to find my phone as I've not informed teddy I'm going out, but it's not there. I again climb in the car and try to find the phone but it's not there I've forgotten my phone, how could I? I've become so careless. I've to head back home soon. I check the clock kept in the car the times 6:45. I step out of the car again I can feel my legs which are shaking out of excitement. Calm down Jodha. Calm down no use my heart is beating like an express train. The watchman sees me and greets me and allows me to go in and as reach nearer the door I can hear my heart beat more fast than the earlier minute, note to self express trains are better than your heart precisely speaking better than my heart at least they slow down when they reach their station but my heart beat increases when I reach the goal. I can guarantee that doctor if he/ she whatever the gender is checks my heart rate or hears my heart beats with the use of the stethoscope, the doc just to keep it short, will declare either I'm an abnormal person or an alien. There I'm finally standing at the door I ring the bell with shaky hands and anticipation, wishing he opens the door.
I could hear the bell ring I have no clue who is it as I have not been expecting anyone. I have sent all my servants on leave as I wanted to spend some lone time. I keep her photo gently on the bed and get up and wipe off my remaining tears and drag my lazy body through the hallway to the door I could feel my heart beat at the speed of an express train, as it always is beating at this speed when Jodha near. Is she here? My heart can never ever be mistaken it always recognizes her .Please Allah! I can't face her at least not now. I beg my heart to stop shouting saying- she's here. I can't, I can't for god sake face her right now. What will I say? How will I react? How will tell her I'm marrying Benazir? I open the door with shaky hands as soon as I open the door I see Jodha, my Jodha I think whether I'm dreaming or hallucinating? I stand at the door staring at her brown orbs which are delighted to see me. I curse my heart for being like a sniff detector always recognizing her aura. May I come in? Her voice breaks the bubbles of my thoughts. I curse my heart for being always right. I can't speak anything it seems my voice has been lost. I simply open the door further allowing her to come. She comes on holding something in her hand, an envelope I don't know what is it. She is staring at me, I knew she is reading my eyes and she has succeeded. My eyes scan her persona it is disturbing she looked weak and checks have lost their original color, the flush and what not. She looks more than anything fatigued. It looks like she has lost weight. Under her eyes are purple crescents caused due to sleepless nights. Oh! I've ruined her. I see in her eyes her beautiful brown orbs begging me to embrace her once. I couldn't refuse her plea and I capture her in my iron grip and she doesn't resist it she embrace me back. What a peace it is to take her in my arms once again. How could I forfeit such peace? She is crying because I could feel my shirt get wet. Noo... please don't cry it pains me. Before I can ask her to stop crying I remember I'm getting married to Benazir. I immediately break the embrace, she look at me confused. I have to fake my anger I have to make her leave before I completely lose myself in her. I ask her faking my anger - why are you here Jodha? My voice in actual sounds like a kitten who's trying to roar. Note to self- you suck man. Big time. For heaven's sake why can't I fake my anger now? She says- To congratulate you pain is evident in her voice. I look at her baffled has she come to know about mine and Benazir's marriage? That is when she hands me the envelope she had held and she says- thanks for the invitation. What invitation? I immediately tear off the envelope, and I'm shocked to see mine and Benazir's wedding card. I didn't send it .I don't even have guts to tell her then how can I send the card? Benazir I grit my teeth did she send the card? I told her not to even think of that. I looked at her she gave me a look, a betrayed one, I'm sorry that is what I all keep on saying in my heart but I can't say it in front of her I'm helpless. I haven't betrayed you baby I love you it's just that I'm helpless, How can I say her the truth? How can I be so helpless that I can't lessen her pain, how can our fate's be so cruel? If I tell her the truth I know she will die but not let the marriage take place. I wait for her to breakdown and launch her missiles of queries, because I know she has always been sensitive. I hear her meek voice- You promised me right Jalal. How can you get ready to give my place to someone else? Are you not a man of words? Tears rolled down her eyes. I'm speechless. I knew she will ask me these questions but I have never ever thought what answer will I give? I say- you cheated me. How can I then keep my word? See your reflection in the mirror that who you are? Then come to me asking queries about why I'm marrying Benazir. I closed my eyes waiting for a slap and then a statement. A statement stating that dare you doubt me or something like that? But she just looks on and says- I have no reflection in the mirror Jalal. I've no reason to look upon it. You know why? Because I'm reflected in your eyes. If you still think I've cheated on you. But what if I told you were wrong. She is hurt badly; why can't she reciprocate the hurt I'm giving her. Why? I turn away from her because I know a tear is going to fall from my eye and it falls I hope she has not seen it. Otherwise everything will be ruined. She says- Jalal you still love me na? From where did this come from? Has she.. No she hasn't seen the tear fall. I say - no. Allah! Who am I Lying to myself? I love her more than myself, sorry baby. I close my eyes trying to control my tears. She says- seriously. I say- why are you so stubborn? She says- because I love you and I know you also love me. This woman is impossible here I'm humiliating her and she is not ready to leave, leave going she's not ready to even believe that I don't love her. Could she ever stop loving me? I'm such a pathetic liar that she is catching my lie. No I'm not I've lied millions of times, I'm an honest man no doubt but every honest man has lied right? The thing is just that she knows me inside out. Please go baby. Please I don't have guts to hurt you.
That's when I hear the door bell ring again who is it now? Before I could open the door I see Benazir enter. She is shocked to see Jodha. Oh! Allah was it necessary for her
to come right now and break my last moment with her? She asks Jodha- What you are doing here. Jodha is fuming I know she is. She never likes people questioning her what is she doing with me, because she is possessive for me. Benazir continues- How dare you come and meet my Jalal? Don't you .. Benazir has set her on fire. I can see her eyes are ablaze with anger. She is going to rain fire. She says in anger- I came to meet my husband. Benazir spoke but... Jodha cuts her off and says- you want to say that he is your fianc. But before that he will always remain my husband. Remember that, you can claim his body but not his heart and soul. They belong to me. What she said it oh! Allah she has no sense. She said I'm her husband. Her words are true she said something which I could never say to Benazir I thank her from the depth of my heart she said- Benazir can claim my body not my heart and soul. Benazir isn't supposed to know this that I'm Jo's hubby. I don't blame Jodha for blurting the truth she is angry and her anger is reasonable. I'll manage things out. She looks at me and I say in my heart- My body also belongs to you. She comes near me and gives me no time to comprehend why she is near to me she snatches the wedding card from my hand and gives it to Benazir and she says- thanks for sending it. I believe you send it. I'm blessed by this invitation, but sorry can't make it to the weeding .I'm too busy, but I've a present. I'm confused what present does she have for her, but when I see Jodha removing her engagement ring all I could do is nothing but say no. She gives the ring to Benazir and says- Here this is my present to you, my love. The depth of her words, the pain hidden under those words I could feel it. She turns and looks at me saying- Jalal you no need to marry if you don't want to. A.. an. And take care of yourself and she left slamming the door. She is about cry I can guarantee it; her voice is just so shaky. Surely she left saying take care of yourself but she left with a query. Asking who will look after me? Benazir she looks happily at the ring, woman get happy when they see jewelery but not my Jodha. This ring means the world to her. She said to me that this ring means that I'm hers. She gave this ring away to Benazir telling her that I'm now hers. Never, I'll always belong to my Jodha. Damn my helplessness. I go near Benazir and say- Benazir I need the ring. She looks at me with disbelief and say- She gave it to me. I could feel anger building up inside me I say- Benazir give me the ring and leave. I'll call you later. She reluctantly gives me the ring and leaves. I believe I've managed to scare her. I check the clock it 7:45 I go open the drawer and take out my car keys; I've to see that she reaches home safely it's too late. I ask the watchman did she have a chauffeur when she came. He says-no. Why is she so careless she travelled all alone? I jump into my car and put the keys in the key hole and the care roars with life. She might not have gone far it's just ten minutes or so since she has left. Unless she's driving harshly this thought gives me chills.
Promo - Jodha thinks about the events of today and decides to act strong. To teach Jalal a lesson.
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Edited by ....Anabella... - 9 years ago
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