Just stay with me, cause I don't wanna know what its without u ch-3

Hello, guys I'm back with another torture. My 7^th torture. It's a modern Akdha story. It has been hovering in my mind for weeks finally I decided to jot it down. This ss is mostly based on point of views of Jalal and Jodha. It's gonna be different from what is usually write. I've my exams going but I had 3 days leave in between plus I couldn't resist myself from typing. So I'm here..

Prologue..

I am Jodha... Jodha Mohammad or Rajput whatever you would like to call me. Why I'm saying this I will surely tell you in a while, if you are ready to know more about me. I live in 21^st century and my name dates back to the 16 or 17^th century but it is the only thing left back for me by mum so I love this name. My mum died while I was four, suffering from leukemia. Since then I have my teddy that is what I refer to my daddy to look after me. Surely I had always known how much teddy loved mum because among the vague memories of childhood I always saw them together, they were never- never alone. My teddy's name is Bharmal Rajput he owns Amer Corporates and he is filthy rich and my Mum's what to say I don't know but her name indeed was Mainavati Rajput, I don't remember much about her, but teddy said she was lively and bubbly just like me and I reminded him of mum, but am I like mum I doubt? Or whether it is teddy who is pacifying me because he feels that I should not feel like I've never have known mum? And I now even doubt whether was I ever bubbly and lively? Because I feel I've no life. It's just I feel the life out of my body has been sucked out since he left me correction I left him. I still remembering saying him that I'm forgetting how mum looked like when I was 5. He smiled in spite of the pain evident in his voice and eyes he said- you may forget how she looked but she is always there in your heart. He always tried his level best to show that he is not upset but who on earth would not be upset when you come to know your love of your life is not there with you and will never be there. He's an excellent actor at least for my sake he faked that the pain of his beloved not being with him and knowing that he could never see her again had faded away with time, but now I realize this pain of not having you beloved can never- ever fade with time. Gradually this pain takes the form of agony and then simply nothing happens except that your shattered heart falls deeper and deeper into the abyss of agony. With each day I realize that it falls more deep than the earlier day but I'm helpless, because there is no remedy to this agony, all I can do is what to find the end of this bottomless pit. Which I believe will only come if I lay my head on eternity's lap. But I can't, I'm helpless with the thoughts of death hovering around my head twenty four I've to live. Yes, I'm depressed according to the doctor but according to me I'm just lamenting over the loss of my beloved, my Jalal. It's not that I'm forced live but I've a choice. But I've the choice of being selfish. Selfish enough to take my life without even thinking about the consequences. Teddy also had this choice didn't he? But he is strong so am I after all or at least I can act right? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger but that's untrue and true at the same time right? Dadisa forced him to marry for the second time because he still had a life, but he refused afraid that the woman he may marry would never accept me and love me like mum did, he clearly said to dadisa that- Nobody can love Jodha the way Maina did. Dadisa passed away 3 years ago. I knew he could never give mum's place to anyone neither could I. We are best friends ever since and I'm my teddy's little girl no matter what. I'm 24 and he still treats me like a baby, he never even allows me to cook, rather he would cook for me, even though we have tons of servants I love the taste of teddy's food its heaven. I believe he's the best cook in the world. The void place of a mother in my heart was filled by Hamida, she is Jalal's mother. She died a month back due to a major heart attack I could not say her goodbye. I went for cremation though, but again I lost my mother who I got. Jalal is my hubby according to me and according to him I'm not his wife or at least that's what I think now. Because he is marrying or planning to marry that witch. It all happened because of that witch and her devilish brother. I tried everything to explain him what he saw that night was not true, but he is stubborn and now he is marrying or thats what I heard that witch, who*e , the f**king social butterfly...

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Index

Chappy 1- Pg 3

Chappy 2- Pg 8

Chapter 3 - Pg 10