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Chapter 19
On the Same day.. ( haha see I didn't do a time lapse!!😆!)
Jalal POV
Sitting in the meeting room , staring out the only transparent wall in the room , my mind was on some,thing else suddenly feeling nervous it was as if some thing had happened. Since I've arrived in Canada I've worked day and night just so I could get my mind of her. No matter how hard I tried it seemed fairly impossible. Not being in mood to work I dismiss the meeting , adjust my coat and walk out of the meeting room, As I left some of the employees confused.
Narrator POV
"All these past days without even himself knowing he had begun to have a cold heart , being someone he never was before but yet this character of bitterness seemed familiar to him.
As I walk towards my cabin other employees fearfully moving out of my way as i climb the stairs to my cabin seating myself into the chair. Opening up my laptop typing away , even is there's that split second when I'm not working the person that I think of was jodha. I no longer cried thinking about her but that pricked feeling in the heart but something had made me feel restless all of a sudden , I go through the pile of neatly placed files on my desk getting frustrated of not being able to find it.
Jalal: errrh
I grab the contact phone , and dial my secretary's number
Jalal: ATIFA WHERE THE HELL IS THE TAX FILE! I yell at her
Atifa: Sir wo main.. Main abhi lati hui she says fearfully
Jalal: I want that file in less than 2 minutes understand
Atifa: uh yes sir!
Just after a few seconds later I can hear someone's footsteps up the stairs , and knocking on my door.
Jalal: "come in! "I say without taking my eyes of the computer screen still typing having one of my hand out for her to give me the file. She shakily hands over the file , I lean into my chair more quickly going through the file getting frustrated at the fact she bought the wrong,one .
Jalal: THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU ATIFA! I yell at her which gives her a jerk I get up from my chair.
Jalal: LOOK IF YOU CAN'T WORK HERE PROPERLY THEN GET OUT!
Atifa: so.. Sorry sir her voice shakes , almost as she was about to cry
Atifa: sir what .. happened..
I throw the file to the ground , as some of the papers fell out
Jalal: WRONG FILE! ATIFA! THESE PAST DAYS YOU'VE BEEN DOING NOTHING BUT STUPIDITY AND USELESS THINGS! I yell at her more
She began to cry uncontrollably Infront of me wiping of her tears every then and now.
Jalal: GET OUT!
I sit back on my chair going through another file , but she stood planted on the spot.
Jalal: GO!! She nods , she gets down and picks up the file as well as the loose papers.
As she made her way out of the room still crying, I sighed as I lean closer to the table placing both hands on my forehead. I've had enough for one day I thought. I shut the laptop down as I made my way down the stairs not wanting to look at anyone I fix my eyes down my footsteps. And quickly enter the elevator and press the ground floor, the doors shut and I'm alone finally I thought. I lean on the back wall sighing again This seems to be what my daily routine is same thing over and over getting fed up with everything. I've at least got myself to regret whatever I said , yes I'm obnoxious I admit it, Thinking about all the pain I've caused jodha
And yes I'm sadistic as I slowly began to drown in those painful memories.
Voice: mr Mohammad.. Mr mohammad someone calls out i come back to my senses as I see the receptionist calling out for me.
Jalal: ah yes! Sophie I blink a few times
Sophie: you alright sir? She asks me with concern
Jalal: yes I'm okay
Sophie: you sure about that? You've been standing inside the elevator for the past five minutes
I realise to see I've already reached the ground floor
Jalal: um right..
I step out of the elevator and walk away
Sophie: sir are you leaving? That to this early
Jalal: I don't have a mood to work late today I say still walking away from her.
Sophie: oh um okay have a good evening sir she replied back ,I could kind of hear what she said but I've already walked away too far. As I reach outside the main doors of the office , as usual same view of the overly wide fountain synchronised movements of the water my phone rings as I see that surya's name flashes on the screen I angrily ignore it and cut the phone call I don't knew why this phone call me made me angry he called me again as I cut that too . With in no time my car arrived but some one calls out for me.
Man: Sir ...sir!
Jalal: I swear these idiots won't let me live
Without even looking I keep walking towards me car but who ever it was caught up to me
Man: sir he said panting
Jalal: what! I say reply rudely rather than walking towards the passenger seat Then stopping for a second as I walk towards the drivers door.
Jalal: out! I signal the driver to get out of the car, he fearfully nods and gets out of the car
Man: sir please!
I sigh again and turn around to see rashid there
Jalal: what! I put one of my hand inside my pocket
Rashid: sir um we have meeting with the singhaniya industries at 7 you're already leaving?
Too cold to take out my hand from my pocket I take out my phone to know the time , as I press the home button to, check the time I suddenly stop to see the lock screen photo for the first time in these past few days I actually felt my lips curling into a smile. A picture of me and JODHA the side of her face leaning on mine , as she places both of her index fingers on the each side of my mouth to make it look like she's forcefully making me smile.
Rashid: umm sir?
Jalal: yea.. I reply still looking at the photo
Rashid: are you going to attend it or?
I look at him for a second and look back to the photo still smiling
Jalal: you know what! Actually cancel it
Rashid: but sir! It's such a important one sir they've been trying all week to get to this meeting.
Jalal: this is more important I say holding my phone at the bottom rocking it back and forward in front of his face as he looked at me confused.
Rashid: a phone sir?
Jalal: nope
I get in the drivers seat as I start the engine
Jalal: tell you what! We'll have it another day
With that I drive off ( omg yes I know a billion drive off's lol forgive me guys ) to my house.
~ time lapse~
After having a shower, I lie down on my bed one arm behind my head as I stare at the ceiling. I felt awfully exhausted not by work but the horrible things happening in my life. I pushed jodha out of my life , never gave her a chance to speak , making her cry over and over again. It seemed as if it was the only thing I knew how to do, why do I always hurt her?. I love her with all my heart but I always and always hurt her to the extreme maybe that's just who I am a sadistic human being. I frown upon the thought of jodha marrying someone else whenever I thought About it it always gave me a strained mental pain , . within a second or two my phone started to ring , i clumsily sit up and grab my phone which vibrated on my bedside table. It flashed up Abdul's name on the screen, should I answer it? Not sure whether I should answer it or not carried away with my mental discussion with myself on what I should The phone stopped ringing, I sigh and go through the messages abdul , akshay , Moti and Salima sent me non stop I didn't reply to a single one of them but I'm thankful coz of the fi scroll down the contact list for messaging when I came across me and jodha's messages I clicked on the messaging box read the texts which bought me a smile on my face , I was re-reading them as if it was new. After reading a little too much I placed my phone back. I close my eyes for a while , but all those painful memories flashed before me , my harsh words , the grip of physical pain I caused her as she cried in front of me. How could I say all of that to her? Thinking she did this for revenge?. Ether ways did it matter now? I lost her to someone else , she probably hates me I deserved her hatred even if she hates me I want to talk to her so badly, it's been way to long maybe now that want had evolved into a need .Should I call her? I pick up the phone as Anxiety curled into my stomach
As I slowly dial in jodha's phone number , when I finally finished dialling I take a deep breathe and press call , I shakily place it on my ear as my jaws clenched in anxiety. The phone rang and rang and after a few minutes it went to voice mail.
Jodha ( voice mail voice guys lol) : hey this is jodha , I'm not available right now please leave message thank you!.
~beep~
There was a moment of silence , maybe she purposely ignored my phone call I frown as I try again , and again but yet no attendance from her. But her chirpy voicemail message did bring a smile to my face.
Jodha ( voice mail voice ): hey this is jodha, I'm not available right now please leave a message thank you!
~beep~
Jalal: jodha?! *I say with a heavy voice *
It's me Jalal umm I know that you...must really hate me right now... and I deserve that.. ...And I don't deserve your forgiveness ether coz what I did
*I pause for a second , I was having one of those feelings you get in your throat when I'm trying to speak.. But I'm about to cry over what I've done to her.* ummm and * I lower my eyes * i don't deserve you.. Because I'm obnoxious and sadistic .
* my lips trembled as I was trying to speak , and not cry * jodha I love you but I hurt you. Jodha I always hurt the people I love that's just who i am. I am so sorry
Not wanting to speak more , coz I could feel the tears rushing in as I cut the phone and send the voice mail. Yea she might hear this but I wanted to talk to her in person, I don't care if she hates me I needed to see her and apologise to her in person. Should I go back to India? After a while I had myself agree I should as I book my jet to go back to India.
Few hours later...
Jalal: what u mean I can't book it today!!!! I yet at them angrily!
Man: sorry sir!
Jalal: what sorry! It's my jet!
Man: sir we know it's your jet but it's in our airport, main reason a huge storm coming up! It's highly dangerous sir! But not to worry you can book your jet tomorrow. He says calmly
I cut, the phone and pace back and forward , gosh I need to talk to jodha straight away, she's not picking up my calls, moreover I needed to see her.
I wanted to hear her voice so badly calling my name , and I remember when everyday I used to tell her I love her now it doesn't matter how I love her and how she hates me all that now matters is the fact that I wasn't ready to except the fact I lost her. Not just lost her , but I lost her to somebody else, I remember how my dad used to say "that one day even when you push someone you love out of your life , out of nowhere your defences will break down and out of nowhere you'll end up going back to that time, that place and that one person." Maybe as a kid I didn't fully understand the meaning but now it seems that this quote which my dad used to say related to me so well. I look behind my back to see my suitcase all packed up for tomorrow, grab my jacket as I head outside the icy air that numbs my face, making my hands cringe. I walk down the streets still lit with one of those fancy tall black lamp lights. This was my usual routine , but today I felt restless , nervous. And what am I gonna say to jodha when I meet her? She'll never take me back ofcourse she won't , I needed to apologise I needed to See her.
Back at the rajput haveli ( mansion whatever lol)
Everyone grew anxious of jodha not being back yet! It was past midnight she still wasn't back what was going on?, Ashwini grew more anxious by the minute sure jodha and her particularly didn't have the best relationship. But Ashwini was always protective of jodha unknowingly , after all she was in a every mother's position. Bharamal feared for safety now , she never came this late she did but she had always informed him if she was going to be but no! Not this time. Rithik and surya were trying to call her but got no attendance from it. Surya's parents reassuring she'll be okay.
Ashwini: why isn't she back yet! She asked for the 100th time
Surya: I don't know she said she was going to the mohammad mansion
Rithik: and we have no idea where that is! We're trying to possibly find it on like google maps or something but like dad said mohammad mansion it's situated in a private place so I actually have no idea.
Surya: and no one here knows any contact number.
Rithik: u tried Jalal?
Surya: yes but he kept on cutting my phone, and he blocked me so
Bharaml: I think we should call the police
Mr Singh ( surya's dad): yes I think we should
There was a moment of silence.. Amongst them but rithik's phone rang breaking the silence without checking who it is , he placed it onto his ear.
Jalal POV
24 hours later... ( count this as like the hours of him flying the plane and finally reaching india)
I walk down the jetbridge rolling the suitcase behind me , a fair air hostess near the door of the jetbridge.
Air hostess: sir your car is waiting outside she says with a bright smile
Jalal: great... I say walking off towards the arrival exit, soon enough my car arrives , the driver takes my suitcase too tired i clumsily sit down in the passenger seat.
Driver: sir um where to? Mohammad mansion yah?
Jalal: errrum I check my time on the watch it was around 10:45 at night
Jalal: um yeah
He nods and we drive off to mohammad mansion , I think I should go tomorrow it'll be a disturbance if I go now that too at this time. I lean my head against the seat closing my eyes for a second trying to go to sleep. But all I could now see was jodha still thinking what I would say to her when I finally come face to face to her. After all that I've done but she refused to see me?!.
*Chota sa time lapse hehe*
~ residence mohammad mansion ~
We finally arrive I finally breathe properly , I smile at myself for a second I can finally see ammi jaan and Adham Bhai this will be a surprise.
The driver opens the door for me
Driver: sir should I inform them?
Jalal: nai! I say quickly , he looked at me confusingly
Jalal: rehene de! Main khud baatogi!
Driver: okay sir! He grabs my suitcase and climb the flight of stairs with me everything seems like it hasn't changed one bit and I liked it that way. I dismiss the driver as I stare at the tall craved with Mughul patterns , I look at the time it was 11:15 I doubt everyone is asleep now. I ring the bell few times when I could hear footsteps coming closer to the door and opening it in no time. As they open the door, javeda Babi awfully surprised and happy her jaw hanging down.
Javeda: JAALAL! She exclaimed as she hugs me for a quick hug
Javeda: kaise ho tum!?
Jalal: baatogi may I come inside I tease her
Javeda: oh sorry! I laugh a bit as she leads me inside and towards the living room , there they were all seated infront of the TV , ammi jaan on the arm chair shalini and saumya sitting in the floor not taking their eyes of the TV!. Adham Bhai having his arm around hussain's shoulder and watching the movie. Everyone looked so happy , I miss these days.
Javeda: dehk Kaun aya hai! She exclaims loudly
Everyone's attention towards me and javeda babhi , everyone's jaws literally drop down , the popcorn from shalini' mouth dropped on to the carpet.
Shalini and saumya : OHMYGODD!!!
Adham: jalal!
Hamida: beta! They all come towards me , I plaster a smile on my face as Adham Bhai hugs me! Then shalini then saumya then Hussain and finally my ammi jaan, i Hugged her for a little more time I needed a motherly hug right now.
Hamida: kaise ho beta? She breaks the hug and smiles brightly at me
Jalal: tik hui I say heavily aur aap?
Hamida: main ab bohot khush hui!
Hussain: Jalal Bhai jaan this is breaking news! Aap Yaha aye! Wo bhi without jodha di! Wow! Breaking news nahi world breaking news he teases me.
Just as he took jodha's name I frowned in the inside , thinking she'll never come here again.
Jalal: oye! I just came and you already started
Adham: Hussain go ahead buddy he winks at him
Jalal: oh ho! So I'm out he's in!
Shalini: wo sab chodo! I'm done standing lets go sit nah!
Saumya: lazy girl she mutters under her breathe
Shalini: oye I heard that! Main lazy nahi there's one lazy girl and that is anaya.
Jalal: waise anaya kaha hai!?
Shalini: Yahi Kahi hoga!
Jalal: wow very specific!
We all began chatting away , i remember how I used to get jealous whenever I came here with jodha everyone would be talking to her non stop! Miss popularity. Whenever a argument broke out anaya became her lawyer and argued with me 10x louder. All those memories that'll never be here again in this house or in the near future.
Jalal: um I'm really tired right now , so I'm gonna go to sleep we'll talk tommrow okay! I say as I get and plaster a fake smile.
Ammi jaan: okay beta Shaba khair
I smile I bit more , as I went to pick up my suitcase Adham Bhai picks it up.
Jalal: Bhai it's okay I'll take it
Adham: u must be tired waise kaha gaye thi?
Jalal: ummm a place I say walking up yet another flight of stairs.
Adham: um okaaay! Jalal about jodha!?
Jalal: I need to see her tommrow I'm going there.. I say quietly
Adham: hey it's gonna be okay
Jalal: no it's not he frowned at my reply we reached my bedroom as he push open the door.
Adham: you never know Jalal!
( amongst all this sad sad stuff I'll make it a bit smiley for u guys)
Jalal: maybe I do.. Moments before I could hear something , a sound of moving sheets we both look towards my room to spot something rather unusual moving around my bed.
Jalal: what the!? I couldn't see what it was but it was under the sheets of my bed. A person? A dog? Later followed my giggles, then Adham Bhai started laughing as he went near bed pulling the bed sheet of. And there was anaya with her headphones staring at the ipad screen. Then later realising we were looking at her as I laughed.
Jalal: the hell are u doing?!
Anaya: JALAL BHAI JAAAN!!!!! As - Salam walikum She yells at the top of her voice as she hugs me!
Jalal: walikum as - Salam kaise ho jaan?
Anaya: bilkul tik! Aur aap?!
Jalal: main bhi tikhui!
Adham: waise anaya what u were doing under the blankets?!
Anaya: Adham Bhai jaan I was so cold!
Adham: wear your jacket then!
Anaya: YEH main bhi socha tha! But look how far away it is! She says pointing towards her jacket that was less than 2 meters away.
Jalal: Malika e laziness I say as me and Adham Bhai laugh at her
Anaya: oh ho! Lazy bulaya mujhi! Says MR. Ummm she thinks for a while standing on top of the bed with her hands balled into a fist on the each side of her waist.
Jalal: pagal
Anaya: ur a moose!
Jalal: what!
Adham: anaya! U can fight with him later! Now come and have ur dinner
Oh sorry um ur might night snack.
Anaya: nahi mujhi khane!!!! She says with an annoying voice
Ruthshalini: kamal hai ur saying this princess the one who eats every 2 hours we turn around to see her laughing at her little sisters reply. As she sticks her tongue out at her.
Anaya: MUJHI NAHI KA NA!!!
Ruthshalini: there's pizza..
Anaya: don't have to tell me twice jumping off the bed and running towards her sister.
Jalal: pagal
Adham: yep! Chal goodnight yrr
Jalal: goodnight
He exits the room closing the door behind him, I couldn't go to sleep today not now, after a while I take a shower and get into some night clothes as I head outside near the pool area. And seat myself in sofa my forehead felt hot I had no idea what I was going to say tomorrow nothing I had no idea. What if she didn't want to talk to me? Being in Deep in thought I was sort of in a trance, zoning out again.
Anaya: OH HELLO??!! YOU LISTENING OR WHAT!!!!!
I open my eyes in a jerk and breathe to see anaya and ruthshalini there.
Ruthshalini : anaya calm down! She says sitting in the opposite sofa
Jalal: Kya yrr??
Anaya: MOOSE!
Jalal: how am I a moose?!
Anaya: I don't know! Waise! Kya soch rahe thi?? She sits down next to me
Looking up at me.
Jalal: umm that...
Anaya: Kya ummm
Saumya: Anaya CHOD yrrr
Saumya comes in with a bright smile and sits down next to ruthshalini.
Anaya: you know guys! And moose! She says turning to me
Jalal: saumya , shalini I think it's time we tell her I say in a fake serious tone, I wink at both of them at first they both looked at me confusingly but then they got what I meant.
Anaya: TELL ME WHAAAT!!!
Ruthshalini: Jalal are u sure?
Jalal: yes!
Saumya: Ruthshalini I think it's time we tell her
Anaya: TELL ME WHAAAT!
I turn towards her , and plaster a fake sympathy and serious face on
Jalal: anaya baat YEH hai ke , we found you in a fish market.
Anaya: KYAAA!!!!
Ruthshalini: princess wo Kya hai nah me , saumya and Jalal we were shopping fish with begum sahiba when we were little and you were sitting on top of some pile of fish.
Saumya: Anaya the lady who sold fish at that stand sold you to us! Infact they didn't make us pay!
Anaya: KYAAA!!!! Shut up!! Very funny!! NOT! She says getting annoyed
Jalal: Anaya I know it's very hard to believe but that's the truth we really found you in a fish market!
Anaya: JALAL BHAI JAAAN!!!!!! she says getting up
Anaya: no no I know your joking
Ruthshalini: becharri I think it was too much for her
Anaya: DIDUUU!!! Anaya looked so frustrated , sad! And in utter shock I started laughing, Anaya's whole face expressions changed into " I'm gonna kill you " angry face she comes towards me and hits my arm.
Anaya: MEANY!
Ruthshalini : and Didu aap bhi nah!!! U guys are all meanies!! She crosses her arms and puts on a cute angry face.
Jalal: acha acha sorry!! She walks towards and playfully kicks my leg, I drag her and make her sit down next to me.
Jalal: sorry baba!
Anaya: apology accepted moose! Waise u know jodha di came here she said looking up to me. After she said that sentence I was kinda shocked jodha came here? But why?! I could see that I could no longer plaster a fake smile.
Jalal: Kya? When?
Ruthshalini: like 2 days ago..
Anaya: u know she was crying!
I lower my eyes and frown
Jalal: why?
Anaya: pata nai! She says looking down
Saumya: also without telling anyone she quickly left the house also
I look towards saumya , and lower my eyes but why did she come in the first place? Why was she crying?!, coz of me obviously but.
Anaya: and she ran away u know I nearly caught her but I didn't.
Saumya: Jalal is everything okay..
Jalal: uh yea anyways um I'm really tired right now we'll talk tommorow goodnight I say trying to change the topic I get up and walk away, when I arrive in my bedroom a tear out of nowhere escapes from my eye.
Next morning...
I walk down towards the dining table , where everyone was talking and laughing while eating their breakfast. I put on a fake smile as everyone notices me and greets me as I sit down.
Anaya: ka rrr ho krr.. Says with a million food in her mouth
Jalal: what!
Ruthshalini: she said " kaha ja rahi ho"
Jalal: how the heck did u understand that?
Ruthshalini: u kinda get used to it
Saumya: Anaya eat then talk!
Anaya: arrnser.. Mrr
Saumya: answer me she said
Jalal: ha wo um um I'm going for a meeting thing I lie to her , but really I was going to meet jodha.
Anaya: orrkay
I excuse myself from everyone , and exit the place as I get into my car I see a police car driving my opposite direction. I was still confused to what to say to her , overly tensed but no matter what I had to talk to her.
~ residence rajput haveli ~
I arrive outside the rajput haveli , I expected it to be highly decorated because of the marriage but it wasn't but that hallow of silence crept around there. I park my car , the guard notices me as he lets me pass my heart races. As I knock on the door and a servant open the door she didn't smile much she lets me come inside , and left instantly but even in the inside it wasn't decorated but This silence not one I was used to rather it made me feel uncomfortable. I walk a little more in keeping an eye for anyone jodha mostly I tried to look for someone that could help me but everyone seemed to be cleared off.
Surya: Jalal? I turn around to see surya there , his eyes blood shot he looked awfully tired.
Surya: what are u doing here? He says quietly
Jalal: umm wo surya I wanted to talk to jodha I say at the same tone he used for me, I walk towards him, after I said that his eyes shine with tears which made me feel confused coz I've never seen him this way before.
Jalal: surya u okay!? I say with concern
Surya: don't you know... He said with a scratchy voice
I felt myself drowning in anxiety what was going on?
Jalal: know what.. I said blankly his lips trembling he looked as if he was going to erupt into tears , which is was strange coz I've never seen him like this before. I could see he was struggling to say it
Jalal: surya what happened?.. My voice was raising
Surya: Jalal... Jodha he sobbed , what about her?? ,
Without not realising what am doing. I grab his collar
Jalal: What happened to her!!!
Surya: Jalal... Jodha died I stared at him blankly as if i didn't understand what he just said , I didn't feel an emotion I didn't understand what he just said.
Surya: she's gone Jalal... I found it hard to digest it , I stared blankly at him no.. This can't be true what's he saying?
~ flashback~
2 days ago past midnight...
Bharamal: I think we should call the police
Mr Singh ( surya's dad): yes I think we should
There was a moment of silence.. Amongst them but rithik's phone rang breaking the silence without checking who it is , he placed it onto his ear.
Rithik: hello
Caller ( police): sir there's been a accident near Kabul *his voice getting more nervous* and miss rajput's car was identified. Rithik nearly drops his phone , he suddenly didn't know how to react to it, he found it difficult to breathe the other family members shocked to see his expression.
Ashwini: beta Kya Hua? She asked alertly
Rithik without responding to her he shakily places the phone back to his ear.
Rithik: wo wo tik hai nah?.. His voice shaking he couldn't believe what he was hearing. The police man paused for a moment before continuing
Police: sir you see Kabul , and this happend beyond Kabul which is the dangerous cliff areas. See her car was found half hanging near a cliff. Sir we did not find her body he says nervously I'm so sorry sir.
Rithik cut the phone and sat down in unbelieving shock, everyone began throwing questions at him it seemed as if he didn't know how to speak, breathe. His lil sister was gone , he was never gonna see her again.
~ flash back ends~
I let go of the grip from his shoulder after hearing what he had to say,
At first it took me a while coz I failed to understand, as if my brain short-circuited and needed to be rebooted. Around me, everything was in fast-forward while i was motionless in the middle of it all middle of no one How could this happen?" I felt suffocated though no one was there I could barely breathe she was gone. No she couldn't have she wouldn't go just like that I back away from surya as if he was a lock ness monster. I looked at him as I backed away he was saying something but I couldn't hear was he calling out for me? Soon enough my vision blurred but there was no tears , I wanted to cry but I couldn't. Nothing made sense anymore how could this happen? Was she really gone?.
Precap: the story takes another stupid turn!
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