SS:'Because I Don't Actually Hate Him!'Pt13-SR+Epilogue - Page 12

Originally posted by: SARA4444

di is writing an os .. baas 😆

thankfully!!!!!!!!!😃

Originally posted by: SARA4444

di is writing an os .. baas 😆

Originally posted by: najma123

thankfully!!!!!!!!!😃

NO I AM NOT ... but yes SARA has PROMISED US AN FF very soon & SHE has started working on it as well ... ask lashy about it 😳

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Part 5 (A)

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Present

The Next Morning

En Route To Jodha's Chambers

Jodha was returning from Devi Maa's temple. After a long time, she was feeling peaceful. She was now calm and composed. The incidents of the previous days still haunted her yet she felt a tad bit better. The wounds were unhealed and fresh though. She thought about the whole thing over and over. She had performed a special pooja that day. On the way to her chambers, she heard that HE was practising sword fighting in the arena today. She anyway had to pass the arena, and encounter him; she mentally rehearsed what she would do, when she saw him.

I wouldn't smile. He doesn't deserve it. But I wouldn't glare either. I will ignore him. But what if he calls out to me? No. Jodha, think sensibly, he is mad at you. He wouldn't bother.

HE WON'T BOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That hurt. It hurt terribly. Ouch! Her presence, her absence, her smile, her tears, her happiness, her grief made no difference to him. His hatred was now replaced by apathy. So she thought. She even wished things would be the same as those earlier days of her marriage when her tears mattered to him. He was happy when she cried, when she grieved. But, her presence affected him. Her tears did make a difference to him. Albeit not in a very pleasant manner.

All because of that Benazir. Jodha became angry again. She was feeling extremely low that the same Jalal who showered her with his unwavering attention and all of his free time now did not hate her. He did not like her. He cared a damn about her anymore!!!!!!!!!! Something she could not digest. If someone likes you, you like it. If someone hates you, you are disgusted and you don't like it. But when your existence alone doesn't make a difference to that person, it hurts. It hurts terribly. It is one thing to be hated and totally different to be uncared for.

Tears started welling up in her eyes. She stopped herself. No.

I will NOT cry for him. Why should I bother when doesn't? I will not undertake this wasteful exercise any longer. No more do I care about him than he cares for me.

My life does NOT revolve around an egoistic king who married me only as a trophy.

This was the consolation she had found to be more effective than any other these days. The harsh reminder of the main reason she was here. She knew things had taken a 270' turn since her marriage days. Her equation with him had changed. His equation with her had changed.

From the fierce Rajput princess whose hatred for Mughals had compelled her to wish for Jalaluddin Mohammed's severed head, along the way, Jodhabai, had melted and become, she had to accept albeit grudgingly that she HAD become a Begum of the Mughal Sultanate. To top it all, she had even grown to like "Jodha Begum'' now contrary to "Kunwari Jodha" every time.

She had realized that her husband wasn't as bad as she had thought him to be. She had even dreamt of a probability of loving him. Only if he weren't a Mughal! It was a totally baseless logic of him being a Mughal. Still, it was an excuse she had cooked up herself for not accepting him even now, after such long months of their marriage.

The same Jodha who regarded love above all religion and caste distinction was now refusing to accept her own life partner wholeheartedly because of his religion. In her heart of hearts though, she knew it was a lame reason. Hadn't she accepted Ammijaan as her own mother? Salima Begum was no less dear to her than Sukanya and Shivani. Rahim was closer to her than she knew or realized. Then why HIM? It was her never satisfied ego she was feeding by harbouring such unpleasant thoughts about Jalal.

Now where did all of this start from? Oh, yes. What I would do if at all I met him? Why am I over thinking so much? We will cross the river when the bridge comes.

With that one last self-correction, the queen regained her calm demeanour once again.

In The Arena

Jodha had to pass through the arena to get to her chambers. At last, she decided it would be unfair and incorrect if she went away without giving him the prasad. After all, prasad was given to every guard, bandhi, daasi, officer who met her on the way. Then why not Jalal? She would go, give the prasad and take her leave. Matter finished!

Jalal was practising fiercely. It was a long time since he had some fun with his sword only this time it wasn't the same...

To Be Continued.

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Wow very nice chapter, poor Jodha going crazy thinking about everything!!
Hope Jallu takes prasad nicely...when will u post part 2??

Originally posted by: rishbala3018

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Wow very nice chapter, poor Jodha going crazy thinking about everything!!
Hope Jallu takes prasad nicely...when will u post part 2??

Lovely chapter Najma😛...Jo is totally confused...To give Prasad or not, to overlook him or not, to talk to him or not...kashmakash.😆...She thinks about him a lot and then thinks why??? ...kashmakash continues😆...I love my fiery and proud Jo and so my Jalal😳...Update the next part soon buddy and do PM (I didn't receive PM this time😕)

Originally posted by: Pals2411

Lovely chapter Najma😛...Jo is totally confused...To give Prasad or not, to overlook him or not, to talk to him or not...kashmakash.😆...She thinks about him a lot and then thinks why??? ...kashmakash continues😆...I love my fiery and proud Jo and so my Jalal😳...Update the next part soon buddy and do PM (I didn't receive PM this time😕)

Awww!! Awesome update!! Plzz continue soon!!

Originally posted by: dharshu

Awww!! Awesome update!! Plzz continue soon!!