Jodha's Diary - Part 6 updated - Page 3

Originally posted by: hely

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Originally posted by: ngayou

Hi, Good read, Kshithi 😊 . Was very pleasant to go back to the golden memories of JA & especially trying to understand Jodha s inner workings.Thanks 😳

Originally posted by: MaddyO

Kshithi I am so glad to see you really back 😆

Please make loads more posts. 😃

Lovely diary of Jodha. Please continue, if at all I wish you go into lot more details and cover each and every event. Jodha needs a wonderful sensitive, positive, insightful writer like you to see her innermost feelings and put them in such gracious manner. Just so eager to read them.

What journey she has traveled from ghrina to prem. Would love to see it through your eyes.

Originally posted by: AkDha_Fan

Really nice and creative idea!! Looking forward for more!!!

Entry 6:

The other day, he made fun of me while taking aarti. This playfulness was totally unexpected. And the way he teased Rahim for pulling by dupatta, was also nice. Now he praised my gift. Is it another way of manipulating me? No, I will be careful. I will not and I cannot trust him.

Today he honored me as his queen. But I still remember the times when I felt so humiliated. He manipulated me into feeding chicken when he knew that we are vegetarians. He lied to me that his hand is hurt just to embarrass me. All I asked was that our conflict does not become known to my family. He may be my husband legally, but I have not accepted him. And he knows that. Yet, he still made me bathe him, touch him. I felt so violated. I really hate him. I have told this to him many times, to his face.

One day he came to my room, drunk. He hurt my hand and said such hurtful things. I am his trophy and next to nothing in Agra. I am not to be given any respect of a woman, queen or even a dasi. But I will not relent. I will not show him how much he can hurt me or how much power he has over me. No, he will never see me weak and vulnerable, no matter what. And I will hurt him as he hurt me. He would be sorry for the rest of his life.

But Mother, Kali Ma, please help me. I took a vow that I will get his head and gift it you. This Rajvanshi is breaking her promise, Ma. I am really sorry. How can I kill my own husband?

I have to go. Someone is at my door.

Entry 7:

Kanha, please help me. What do I do now? What happened? I do not understand. I cannot bear such accusations. How can he even think that I killed his unborn child!! How dare he accuse me of such vile crime!! I was so scared seeing his rage. He wanted to burn me alive. He even accused my family. I was so shocked that I could not even defend myself. I have never seen a person with so much of anger and rage. I am scared of him now.

What can I even say to defend myself when he has already made up his mind? I really hate him, from the bottom of my heart.

He says he has evidence. Ha!!! I am a Rajvanshi. Does he not know that Rajvanshi cannot commit such a crime! He insulted me and my family again.

Antara says that as a King, he has the right to punish me based on the evidence he has. But, I say, he did not even give a chance for my defense. That is not justice. He is doing all this to destroy me. I am supposed to be kept in isolation. I do not know when I can write again.

Entry 8:

I do not have much time.

He told me that my father is coming to Agra. It seems Sukanya's wedding is fixed. But I cannot even be happy. I am so scared of what he will do to my father and my brothers. And I am so scared of what he will do to my sister's life.

I was allowed to meet my father and brothers. I think he is going to arrest my father too.

Entry 9:

Kanha, he killed my sister's fianc, in the pretext of justice. How I can trust him when he says that the guy was not good, that he looted people. He is doing all this to get back at me.

Antara says he has a soft corner for Bhagwan das and Amer now because my brother saved his life. And that now he will be objective in solving the miscarriage crime. Antara also says that that the Sukanya's fianc was indeed not good.

But I do not trust him one bit. He hates me and he enjoys other people in pain. He is cruel, heartless beast of a man. And for him, this is all a game.

Originally posted by: Jaz713

This is a nice glimpse into Jodha's point of view!

A lot of pride here but also helplessness that you can't help but to feel bad for her. I would love to continue reading this.

If you ever get the time, try to write an entire episode through Jodha's point of view. That would certainly be interesting!