Aunty,
I thought that the wordings of the letter were a let down. The SW who wrote for angry Jalal on Friday did his homework well and covered all the points. But today the letter which is supposed to be a very important part of the story was a let down
The part saying, had I loved another man... I would have done jauhar part was fine.
But couldn't it have been ...though I grina-ed you initially later as I told you it changed. Prem ka kamal or whatever had begun to bloom and you crushed it with your anger. What else but love would prompt a person to drink poison for another. But you mocked even that. In what action of mine thus far did you see me capable of zinakari. You had once accused me of adultery earlier, that you yourself proved wrong. But at that time you trusted me. But now you declare to have fallen in love with me. Why not the similar trust? My silence I agree was hurting you. But I wish you had trusted me a little more. Given me a little more time to prove myself . Has our relationship that has progressed from distinct hatred for each other to love, seen extremes and withstood thunderstorms capable of that.
I really wish my brother had not bound me by that vachan that sealed my lips and gave you so much pain . If not for the vachan I would you have told you right at the start. You don't know, how guilty I felt at hiding the meetings from you. May be I was wrong. I don't know. I agree, you were not at fault either...the circumstances forced you to think otherwise...but was adultery the only explanation you could come up with. I am not blaming you but perhaps bhagya is not my friend.
I felt angry and fought against your earlier accusation of adultery. But this time I feel hurt and broken and cannot bear it as I have fallen in love with you. I cannot take it again and again and hence I leave.
Then...the don't send sena part... and wherever I am my prayers are there for you.
The vachan and hriday part of the letter sounded totally irrelevant and in fact strangely funny. The letter itself in most parts was incoherent and contradictory.
Edited by Sandhya.A - 11 years ago
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