She is a Mughal Begum but also a Rajvanshi Shehzaadi. She is wife of Shahenshah but also sister of Sujamal. Its new identity vs old identity and a new relationship vs an old relationship. Be it old or new, identity and relationships are not mere terms which change or become superior with due course of time. Circumstances may change equations with a person or community but can never root out one's genuine feelings associated with it. The harsh truth of every relationship, even between those who love each other is that even though they don't want to but at some point of time they prove that love is always unequal though its never them but the circumstances which compel them to prove so. Otherwise their love was never unequal. And the one who gets hurt the most in this is the one who has to choose between her loved ones. How much I felt for this poor soul!š She was so helpless! She wanted to go both ways but at the same time she knew that she has to choose one.Sometimes you have to face the greatest struggles of life about what you want to happen and what needs to happen, what you wish to do and what you need to do! She was so damn helpless. Sometimes there's nothing you can do. Sometimes they don't have enough to fight with. Helplessness is such a rotten feeling. There's nothing you can do about it. Being helpless is like being paralyzed. It's sickness. The cure calls for a monumental effort to stand up and start walking somewhere, anywhere. But that takes some doing. Dilemma! Isn't it? According to me, yes it is. For a moment Jodha's road of life was dissected where she had to choose between Sujamal and Jalal. Sujamal- A friend, philosopher and guide and most important of all a brother or Jalal?( If now I start to explain what Jalal means to Jodha, then I'll deviate from the topic. And is it not that everyone knows now how much they have changed?) Though Sujamal is her brother but its hard to trust someone the second time around after they have already given you one reason for not to trust them again. Trust and belief are like mirrors and you can fix them if they are broken (but never completely). But you can still see the crack in that person's reflection who broke your trust. Right indeed! Sujamal's step to join hands with sharif makes Jodha feel this way. So, then it becomes difficult to believe him. Jodha idolized him but when he went on to support mughals during her marriage with Suryabhan, he lost that respect which she had for him. This happens when you realize that your idol does not value his own ideologies and principles but its more heartbreaking when he is someone very close to you. But still she could never wipe out that love of a sister for her brother because somewhere in her heart she knew why sujamal was doing this. She was the only person with whom Sujamal used to share everything. She knew that he was a person who lived with criticism(from Bharmal and co), hence learnt to condemn, a person with doubts, hence learnt to be apprehensive( whether he would get the throne he deserved), a person with hostility and insecurity, hence learnt to fight(against his own people). His anger was justified but not his way of expressing it{Sometimes I feel a lot for this guy when I see there is no one from his family to support himš). And for Jalal, she knew he was not wrong on planning to punish Sujamal for backstabbing them. But at the same time, she could not believe the fact that Rajvanshis can ever backstab anyone. But did you see? She did not stress more on that point. The way Jodha was justifying her stand to support Jalal to Moti also shows that she doesn't want jalal and her growing relationship to return to its early phase (Probably she has realized that growing up in a relationship is never easy. You hold on to good things that were and discard the bad ones. You wonder what's to come and hence need to be careful). This time she doesn't want any sort of misunderstanding to creep in between her and Shahenshah. How much I loved thisš³? [And I know everyone must have realized that and loved it too].
She wants to handle both the relationships but somewhere I think even she has understood that its better to leave one of them broken because in an attempt to mend both she might end up hurting herself and loose both. And she definitely does not want this.
What I have learnt from this part is that you don't develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity. At every stage of life, our relationships present us with both joys and challenges. God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches by means of opposites so that you will have two wings to fly, not one. So, this now adds another feather to Jodha's character.š
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