JA Feb 4th - Jalal takes full responsibility and accepts his feelings!

RT is one of the rare actors who can make man's tears and emotions also look very touching/appealing. I generally do not enjoy seeing men crying, but today the way Jalal prayed for his beloved made me forget about my dislike for tears in men. Yesterday, I did not write much about Jalal as his feelings were not completely out in open. The moment after Jodha passes in his arms, he is not worried about Jodha's life nor guilty about her sacrifice. Yes he was numb, but my take was that numbness was because of shock. Till that moment he had accepted with a very heavy heart that the one he loved did not love him back. He was mad at himself for not being able to stop loving a person that had bruised his ego. Jalal had accepted that Jodha does not care about him at all. After Jodha passes away, he does not understand that Jodha who he thought did not care would go to this extent. Jalal would never have expected anyone to go to this extent for his well being, and never in his wildest dream did he have that kind of expectation from Jodha. Then we see Jalal next to Jodha caressing her hands . He realizes that her condition is because of AbuMali and without thinking twice he orders the execution. The shock of Jodha's act is slowly sinking into Jalal's zehen and his feelings are slowly coming out in open.

Finally now that Jodha has got the crown, we see Jalal's smartness returning as well. What a coincidence?😉 He immediately recollects everything and forces Zakira to tell the truth. I was touched by Jalal's cautiousness in giving Jodha the arkh, how thoughtful was that. All the time making sure that no more mistakes are made as his beloved's life is in danger. I knew Jalal would take responsibility for Jodha's condition, because he is man of character. I was proud of Hamida that unlike the regular Maa of soap serials, she did not add salt to Jalal's wound. Instead she tells her son that you had tried, but Ben was too clever (thanks to CVs). Hamida understood that Jalal is not the one who will put blame on someone else, so out of concern sends Atgah to not leave Jalal alone. I was yet again touched by the warmth of this lady and her character. It was good to see Ruqu being back to her old self. Ruqu was trying to be the support system of Jalal and Hamida today, was very pleasantly surprised by it. She consoles Jalal that everything will be okay and tells Hamida to not lose hope. It shows that Ruqu is a lady with character, her only issue is the extra love for the AUDHA. Today, for some reason I felt as if MA was also shocked like Jalal on Jodha's sacrifice. I felt MA has never in her life thought anyone would go to this extent and not expect anything in return. She was silently observing everyones reaction to Jodha's condition. I wonder if she is going to start being nice to Jodha outwardly from now on and then create a mother of all MU to kick her out or retire from her evil games.

Jalal leaves Jodha's room with so many feelings and thoughts. He recollects Jodha's words that gave him the chest pains. He feels guilty yet again thinking about Jodha words about trust on him. Then he thinks about the DHAKKA night, but only the most beautiful moment of that night. The one where Jodha took his hand to support his emotional turmoil. He remembers the warmth in her eyes when she took his hand. That to me indicated that the DHAKKA night wounds of Jalal are healed forever. The last scene where Jalal prays for Jodha was beautiful, only because of RT. Jalal finally admits that he cannot live without Jodha. He accepts that nothing is hidden from his khudah even though he denied his feelings by telling everyone that 'dil nahin hai hamare paas'. I hope this dialog is never said by Jalal again, if he does it should only be used to annoy Jodha. Jalal just like MH had said went on his knees to pray for his Jodha. Jalal's eyes and face indicated his helplessness. He was the kings of kings, but at that moment had no power to save the life of the only one that mattered most to him! He humbly reaches out to the supreme power to have mercy on his beloved.

This is what I wanted from CVs that Jalal accept his feelings for Jodha. Then, my next wish list is for Jalal to annoy Jodha so much that she has no choice but to accept her feelings as love. She is going to try hard and name her feelings as 'agni ke aage vachan', 'manavta ka dharam', 'bapusa/daadisa/maasa ka prem'. I hope Jalal does not buy any of her excuses and forces the love confession out of her.

P.S: Did anyone notice that Atgah khan actually helped in catching Ben even though he did not tell Jalal 'hukum ki taamil hogi'. Hope he never says that useless dialog again which is never followed anyways by him.

Precap: Hamida realizes that her grandson Salim is not far away. The poor lady had to wait like us for ages. I hope MA quits her posts and accepts that nobody can separate JaJo as destiny wants them to be together forever.