SS: ~Ehsaas~updatd chptr 14 on page 81 - Page 8

(jodha made her way back to her room...but as she was about to pass jalal...he noticed the wound at her arm... ...he couldn't stop himself from asking)

Jalal:-(he tried his level best to sound as much casual as he could but couldn't be able to hide the concern in his voice that he had for her ) jodha begum...(jodha stopped)...aap thik to hai na...zakham jyada gehra to nahi...??

Jodha:-(without looking at him) jaane dijiye shenshah...jab aap hume nahi samajh sake...humari bhavnao ko nahi samajh sake...to humari pida ko kya samjhege aap...(now she looked at jalal)...kyuki kisi ki pida ko samajhne ke liye hridaya ki aavshyakta hoti hai...jo kadachit(perhaps) hume bhram ho gaya tha ke hai aapke paas...parantu nahi shenshah...aapne hume galat sidha kar diya...aapne siddha kar diya ke aapke paas jo hai wo hridaya nahi...matra ek pather hai...jis per jitna bhi chahe chot kar lo koi anter nahi padta...(her eyes have become flooded with tears by now...but she dint allow them to come out...her words stunned jalal to the core...for the first time in so many days after that night...he was feeling her pain...he was feeling how much shattered she were because of his behavior...jodha continued) humen aur kisi baat ka dukh nahi shenshah...na hi aapke hume apmanit karne ka...aur na hi aapke humse ghrina karne ka...dukh hai to sirf is baat ka...ke itne din aapke sath bitaane ke baad bhi hum swayam ko is layak bhi nahi bana paaye ke aap hum per vishwaas kar sake...itna bhi nahi jaan sake aap hume ...ke hum kabhi jhut nahi bolte...

Jalal:- (in a husky yet angry voice) aap kehna kya chahti hai jodha begum...ke hum galat hai...ke saari galti humari hai...??

Jodha:-(with flooded eyes and extremely painful voice) nahi shenshah...galat to halat hai...hum jante hai ke aapki koi galti nahi hai...aap apni jagah bilkul sahi hai...kintu hume bhay hai ke kahin apko sach ka pata lagte itni der na ho jaaye...ke humare bich sahi karne ko kuch bhi shesh na bache...

Bg starts:- tujhe bhula diya from the movie anjaana- anjaani😳

(their eyes were locked in an intense eye lock...jodha had said it all in a single stroke...jalal was completely in a trance...he can sense the depth of her words...the words of her that he doesn't poses a heart caused a sharp pang in the middle of his chest...as if someone has stabbed him with a dagger...he wasn't able to even breath properly for a moment...he couldn't take his eyes off jodha... ... For the first time he was feeling guilty...guilty for hurting such a pure soul... He dint realized but her tears had started emerging in his eyes too...and they have become flooded also...both of them were in tears with some unspoken emotions in their hearts)

*Naina Laggeyan Baarsihan
Tu Sukke Sukke Sapne Vi Pijj Gaye
Naina Laggeyan Baarsihan
Rove Palkan De Kone Vich Neend Meri
Naina Laggeyan Baarsihan
Hanju Digde Ne Chot Lage Dil Te
Naina Laggeyan Baarsihan
Rut Birha De Badlan Di Chhaa Gayi*

(jalal was all lost in her painful eyes...when a voice made them come back to the reality...it was Benazir...shedding her crocodile tears...calling up for jalal to help her...holding the injury at her shoulder with her hand...mourning in pain...but jalal dint pay any attention on her...he was just too lost to hear anything...jodha looked at Benazir and then at jalal...her throat had become chocked but yet she managed to speak...)

Jodha:-jaiyee shenshah...aapki aavshyakta yaha se adhik kahin aur hai...hume to ye pida sahne ki aadat si ho gayi hai...jayiye ...aapka khaas taufa aapka intezaar kar raha hai...

(saying this she turned her face away and started moving away from him...jalal was just watching her going away from him...he couldn't be able to utter even a single word to stop her...but somewhere deep in his chest...he was feeling extreme pain that was not explainable...jodha's words had pierced his heart completely...)

*Kaali Kaali Khaali Raaton Se
Hone Lagi Hai Dosti
Khoya Khoya In Raahon Mein
Ab Mera Kuch Bhi Nahi*

(and finally he faced away after much difficulty...and started moving towards Benazir...but her mind was still occupied by jodha's words...he never felt like this before in his entire life...now they were moving in opposite directions...)

*Har Pal Her Lamha, Main Kaise Sehta Hoon
Har Pal Her Lamha Main Khud Se Yeh Kehta Rehta Hoon
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh,
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh
Phir Kyun Teri Yaadon Ne
Mujhe Rula Diya.. Oh
Mujhe Rula Diya .*

(he reached to benazir's side...but yet was not paying any attention towards her...she was continuously crying...showing him her injury...mourning in pain...it was her good luck that she was wearing black cloths so that the color of blood couldn't be seen clearly...she tried to hold jalal's arm to draw his attention...but all in vein...he was not in his senses...his eyes were flooded with tears but still they were not coming out...finally to drag his attention towards herself...benazir pretended as if she is fainting and falling down...jalal sensed that immediately as her hands were on his shoulder...he quickly caught her before she reaches to the ground...at the same time...jodha stopped and looked back...and what she saw...shattered her completely into pieces...she saw Benazir in jalal's arms...she remembered the time...when her leg was slipped in the garden once and jalal held her in the same way...the thought caused her tears to flow down on her cheek...it was the first time when she realized how far she has gone from jalal...it was not jealousy that she was feeling...it was immense pain deep down in her heart that was beyond words...jalal looked at her...his hands were on Benazir but his eyes were continuously fixed on jodha...his condition was not very much different from her...his flooded eyes began to flow down his cheeks too...he could clearly see jodha's broken heart through her wet eyes...)

*Teri Yaadon Mein Likhte Jo Lafz Dete Hai Sunaai
Beete Lamhe Poochhte Hain Kyun Hue Aise Juda.. Khuda,
Khuda Mila Jo Yeh Faisla Hain
Khuda Tera Hi Yeh Faisla Hain
Khuda Hona Tha Woh Ho Gaya
Jo Tune Thha Likha*

*Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh,
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh
Phir Kyun Teri Yaadon Ne
Mujhe Rula Diya..
Mujhe Rula Diya ...*

(jodha moved her face away...as she was not able to watch this anymore...and ran away from there...her action was sufficient for jalal to know about her state...he quickly removed his hands from Benazir...and helped her to stand up...)

Benazir:- (amazed) shenshah...aapki aankhon me aansu...fikr mat kariye...hum bilkul thik hai...humare liye aapki itni fikr dekhker humari to ankhen hi bhar aayi....(she thought its for her...bevkoof ladki...)

(jalal touched his cheek with his fingers and realized that he was crying indeed...he quickly wiped them off...he called up for a baandi and instructed her to take Benazir to hakima sahiba's room...benazir was amazed that he is sending her with a baandhi even after she is injured badly...she tried to argue...)

Ben:-lekin shenshah...

Jalal:- (interrupting her meanwhile) aap jayiye Benazir...ye aapko hakima sahiba ke hojre tak pahucha degi...hum kuch der akele rehna chahte hai...

(Benazir put her hand on jalal's shoulder...but he dint like her touch...)

Benazir:-aap thik hai na shenshah??

Jalal:- (removing her hand...) ji... hum thik hai...bus kuch der tanha rehna chahte hai...aap...aap jayiye yaha se...

(It was again her insult...Benazir fumed in anger...)

Benazir:-hum jante hai shenshah...aap hume apne karib kyu nahi aane de rahe...magar fikr mat kariye...humare bich ki duriyo ki wajah jald hi apni aakhiri saanse gin rahi hogi...aur uske baad aap sirf humare honge...sirf humare....(she smiled evilly...and left with the baandhi...)

(on the other hand...jalal was still lost in his thoughts...each and every word of jodha was echoing again and again in his mind...for the first time he was not thinking about seeking revenge...but somewhere was afraid...that what if jodha really be innocent...what if he had mistaken in understanding her again...what will he do then...how will he make up for this blunder...he won't be able to face her ever in his life after what he had done to her...for the first time he was feeling guilty...was cursing himself for tearing out the letter...he was in a dilemma completely...was not getting whom to believe... )

(he walked through the garden...completely lost in the sweet memories of past...a slide show of flashbacks were going on in his mind...the first glimpse of jodha...when he saw her sitting in the palaki...how much attracted he was towards her...the first time when he came face to face with her...how they used to hate each other to extreme...all the harsh memories...their first night...when he declared that he hates her...that he do not have even a single bit of interest in her...then how his hate turned into trust...be it forcibly but they started liking each other's company...spending time with each other...suddenly his eyes stopped at the sitting area in the middle of the garden...and he remembered about that night...when they talked to each other whole night sitting there...how he had forget about the time while talking to her...how cutely she was mimicking him...and they were laughing together...looking at each other...every moment became alive in front of his eyes...)

*Dol Pal Tujh Se Juda Thha,
Aise Phir Rasta Muda Thha,
Tujh Se Main Khone Laga,
Juda Jaise Hone Laga,
Mujh Se Kuch Mera*

(he remembered about their ajmer sharif trip...how she agreed to follow their custom without any hesitation...and raised her hands to pray for his well being...)

*Tu Hi Mera Liye Abb Kr Dua,
Tu Hi Is Dard Se Kar De Juda,
Tera Hoke Tera Jo Main Na Raha,
Main Yeh Khud Se Kehta Hoon,*

(he proceeded further...tears has started flowing continuously from his eyes by now...he wanted to stop them from flowing but he was not able to...)

*Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh,
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh
Tujhe Bhula Diya, Oh
Phir Kyun Teri Yaadon Ne
Mujhe Rula Diya.*

(finally he reached to the terrace near the sitting area...and sat down there like a lifeless object...his silent cry has now turned into sobs...he was so much heartbroken...he could feel his heart beating but was not ready to accept its existence...he knew that he was not getting pleasure in hurting her but was not ready to admit it...he wanted to believe her...but his mind was not allowing him to do so...her words were indeed correct that she never lied to him but yet don't know why...what was stopping him to go ahead and find out about the truth...he was all lost in his dilemma...when a voice drew him out of his emotional trauma...)

"kya soch rahe ho jalal??"

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