SS: ~Ehsaas~updatd chptr 14 on page 81 - Page 39

abe lal mat ho...kar rahi hu update...meri baaghin😆

i m back with the update...😉

actually i am having an important interview for TCS on 31JAN...😕

so was quite busy in that...😭

and vacations have also come to an end...😭

chalo here is the next part...😃

hope u will like it...😳

waise kuch khaas nahi hai...as wrote it in haste...😆

Hakim: - zeherdoshi(vishkanya) shenshah...ek esi aurat jise khaas taur per inhi kaamo ke liye taiyaar kiya jaata hai...tabhi janbujhker(purposely) ye humla is tarike se kiya gaya hai...taki kisi ko shaq na hone paaye...haatapayi ke bhi koi nishaan nahi hai...hume pura yakin hai ke ye kaam ek vishkanya ka hi hai...

(jalal was flabbergasted...and clueless about all this...suddenly he remembered about the conversation with salima about vishkanyas...so she was right...but how is it possible...if she has attacked jodha so smartly...then she has to be someone from the palace itself...someone that was very much familiar with the palace surroundings...someone whom jodha knew very well...but who??...)

Jalal:- ya allah...(he looked at him...)...hume fauran pata lagan hoga ke wo insaan kaun hai...magar hakim sahib...tab tak hum haath per haath rakhker to nahi baith sakte na...koi to ilaj hoga is zeher ka...aap hindustaan ke itne bade hakim hai...kya aapke paas bhi is marz(disease) ka ilaj nahi...

Hakim:- muaff kijiyega shenshah...duniya ke kisi bhi marz ka ilaj karne ki kuvvat(capability) rakhte hai hum...per yaha muamla behad nazuk hai...kyuki ek vishkanya ke zeher ka tod keval ek vishkanya hi bata sakti hai...humne filhal begum saahiba ko dava de di hai...magar ye bhi inki saanse jyada der tak rok kar nahi rakh payegi...ye to inke jine ki icha aur buland hausla hai...jiski badaulat abhi tak inki saanse chal rahi hai...aapke paas keval kal subah tak ka waqt hai shenshah...agar kal subah tak aap us vishkanya ko nahi dhund paaye...to begum sahiba ko bachana namumkin(impossible) ho jayega...ab keval wohi hai jo inhe thik kar sakti hai...

Jalal: - matlab aap kuch nahi karege... (In a disgust voice)...yu hi dekhte rahege bus...

Hakim:- hum kaise kare kuch shenshah...ek hi dawa aur hai jo hume yaad aa rahi hai...magar wo zyadatar registaani ilaako(desert areas) me paayi jati hai...kal subah tak us dawa ka mil paana namumkin hai...us vishkanya ko dhundne ke alava ab aur koi rasta nahi hai...

(jalal nodded in agreement and ordered hakima saahiba to take hakim sahib to the guest room...and make all the arrangements...and provide all the necessary things that he requires...as hakim came out of the room hamida and all other royal people surrounded him to know about jodha's state...on the other hand...now jalal was all alone in the room with a completely unconscious jodha...he looked at her lost in thoughts and started walking towards her slowly...he remembered about what he said to maham in rage...he dint remember what he said to hamida because at that time he was completely shattered...he only remembered the words he said to maham...that he loves jodha...but he was still not aware of it...was still confused about his emotions...was that really true??...was he really meant what he said??...because at that time...His anger was at its peak and beyond the proper limit...he just wanted to make maham feel defeated...to make her feel that she can never ever succeed in her evil plantings...to show her..her actual position...did he say all that just to take out his wrath as he couldn't bear maham talking ill about her??...with all these thoughts...he approached jodha and sat down beside her on the bed...he looked at her with concern in his eyes...he raised his hand to touch her forehead...but stopped it in mid...but later put it on her forehead hesitatingly...this touch really send thousands of sparks in his body...he had touched her before many times but never felt this kind of unusual sensations...this feeling was indeed eternal and different...or it might be that he always felt it every time she was close to him but never realized the reason of it...he looked at her pale and innocent face...his eyes got filled with immense guilt and regret... )

Jalal: - (in a soft voice) kitna sukoon(peace) hai na aapke chehre per is waqt...magar sirf hum jante hai...ke is masoom chehre ke piche kitna dard chipa hua hai...bahut taklif di hai na humne aapko...bahut dil dukhaya hai na humne aapka...hum mante hai ke humse bahut badi galti hui hai...magar galtiya bhi to insaano se hi hoti hai na...bhale hi shenshah ho hum...magar akhirkar(finally) hai to ek insaan hi ...hum to ahmak hai...per aap to samjhdaar hai na jodha begum...humare gunaah ki itni badi saza bhi mat dijiye hume...janti hai...hakim sahib ne hume kal subah tak ka waqt diya hai...magar...(his voice chocked a bit) ..magar hum to ek pal bhi aur is halat me nahi dekh sakte aapko...

(he tried his level best to control himself...to prevent his tears...but not became succeed in doing that...his eyes stormed with enormous tears...he wiped them off again and again by running his fingers at the edge of his eyes... but they were not stopping from coming out...finally he gave up and put both of his hands on the bed... beside both of jodha's shoulders in frustration...without touching her...but yet almost locking her upper body b/w his arms...moved his head down a little towards her ...looked at her with a complaining face... )

Jalal: -(in a husky voice) kabhi dekha hai aapne hume ese...is tarah kamzor aur tuta hua...kya se kya bana diya aapne hume jodha begum...jis jalaluddin Muhammad ko dusro ki taklif me sukoon milta tha...jo dusro ki aankho me aansu dekhker khush hua karta tha...aaj khud... uski aankho se aansu thamne ka naam nahi le rahe...hum kabhi ese nahi the jodha begum...kabhi kisi ki parvaah nahi ki humne...apni zindagi apni sharto per jite aaye hai hum...sab kuch thik chal raha tha...kitne khush the hum...phir kyu aayi aap humari zindagi me...pata nahi kyu us roz humne aapko dekha...kyu aapse mile...kyu shadi ki aapse...kyu aapko apne itne kareeb aane diya ke ab aapko dur jata dekh...(his voice became really glitch...he stopped for a moment...)...bardashat nahi ho raha humse... (He moved his face away for a moment.....wiped his tears then again looked at her...and this time moved really close to her face...and stopped at almost an inch distance from her...a few droplets made their way from jalal's wet hairs to jodha's face and fell down on it...some on her lips and other on her cheek and forehead...the proximity itself caused jalal's breath rate to get increased a bit...even in this drastic condition...her divine beauty was making him speechless...he observed her face very closely and ran his fingers on it to wipe the droplets from her forehead...then cheek...then his hand moved towards her lips but he stopped it at the corner of her lips...and again looked at her...but this time with an intense yet painful gaze...)

Jalal: -(in a confused tone) hum nahi jante ke humne badi ammi se wo sab kyu kaha...hum nahi jante ke humare paas dil hai ya nahi...hum bus itna jante hai(now in a deterministic tone ) ke hume aapki aadat ho gayi hai jodha begum...aapke gusse ki...aapke tano ki...aapki baato ki...aapki maujudagi ki aadat ho gayi hai hume...aur hum apni ye aadat kisi bhi kimat per chor nahi sakte...kisi ko bhi humari marzi ke khilaaf humse dur jane ki izzazat nahi hai...aur khaasker(specially) aapko to bilkul bhi nahi...jalal se picha churana itna bhi aasan nahi hai jodha begum...ho sakta hai ke hosh me aane ke baad aap hum per gussa ho...chikhe hum per...ke kyu shenshah...kyu bachaya aapne hume..??

Lekin phir bhi...hum aapko marne nahi dege...aapko wapas aana hoga jodha begum...humare paas...hum majboor kar dege aapko...aur haan...ye mat sochiyega ke hum ye sab isliye kar rahe hai kyuki hum aapse mohabbat karte hai...nahi...koi mohabbat nahi hai hume aapse...bilkul nahi hai...bus hum chahte hai ke aap humare saath rahe...humare paas rahe ...kyuki... (His face saddened a bit as he had nothing as a reason to tell her...and finally he spoke after much difficulty by putting his hand on her forehead...)...kyuki hume aapki zaroorat hai...bahut zaroorat hai...(saying this he almost tug his face beside jodha's face in the pillow...his cheek touching hers slightly...almost hugging her lightly...whispered in her ear...)...hume apni galti ka ehsaas hai jodha begum...aur hum aapse wada karte hai...ke apni sari galtiya sudhaar lege hum...phir kabhi aapko shiqayat ka mauka nahi dege...bus aap wapas aa jayiye...kyuki ek aap hi hai jo hume is uljhan se bahar nikal sakti hai....(he lifted up his face a little to see her face...)...ek aap hi hai...Jo humare jazbaato ko samajh pane me humari madad kar sakti hai... Boliye... madad karegi na humari...

(Saying it he got up from her ...Still sitting beside her... glided his hand on her arm...approaching her hand...and clutched her hand cross finger...and moved it towards the left side of his chest...close to his heart...for the first time he did want to feel his heartbeats...that were racing hard...and only her touch was capable to calm them down...he pressed their cross finger hand against his chest...and closed his eyes to feel this eternal feeling...and indeed his heartbeats did start to slow down...and soon it became clearly audible to him...the room was having only two souls in it...one who was striving to get back her life...and other who was trying to find his life...his heart...he had closed his eyes...and beneath those closed eyes...he saw something...though his vision was quite fade...but yet he tried to recognize the person...she was standing behind a white curtain...facing away from him...he moved towards her a bit...and removed the curtain...placed his hand on her shoulder...she turned...and looked at him with the cutest smile ever ...oh god...it was her only...his jodha...she put her hand on his cheek...and said in an assuring tone..."yes...you are in love shenshah..."😳...jalal snapped out of his dream with that statement of her...he opened his eyes with a jerk...and looked at jodha...she was still unconscious...it seemed so real to him...for a moment he thought that she was indeed there with him...so divine and eternal feeling it was...a faint smile appeared on his lips...he again held her hand but this time with confidence and determination... ... )

Jalal:- (with a smile) aap fikr mat kariye jodha begum...hum aaj khud se ye wada karte hai...ke kal sham isi waqt...isi jagah hum dono saath honge...magar tab aap humse yu nazren nahi chura payegi...hum jaa rahe hai jodha begum...aur hum wapas tabhi aayege...jab hume aapke hosh me aane ki khabar milegi...hum aapse wada karte hai...jis kisi ne bhi aapki ye halat ki hai...hum use nahi chorege...use saza dekar hi rahege...(and with it...he caressed her forehead with his hand...and placed a soft moist kiss on her forehead...)

(At the same time adkha khan entered in the room without any prior announcement...but seeing jalal sitting on the bed with his begum...he backed off and lowered his sight...)

Adkha: - is tarah bina izazat ander aane ke liye muaffi chahege shenshah...magar hume aapse kuch bahut zaroori baat karni hai...

(jalal looked at him and nodded his head...)

Jalal: - kya baat hai adkha sahib...

Adkha: - huzur...kabul se aapke chote bhai mirza hakim tashrif laaye hai...wo aapse fauran milna chahte hai...wo aapke hojre me aapka intezaar kar rahe hai shenshah...mallika e aazam ne hume unhe mehel me hue hadse ke bare me batane se mana kiya tha isliye...hum unhe aapke hojre me intezaar karne ke liye bolker aaye hai...

Jalal: - (he was quite surprised by mirza's sudden arrival) mirza...is waqt...??...acha ...aap chaliye...hum abhi aate hai...aur haan...jaate jaate moti bai ko ander bhej dijiyega...

(Adkha left from there and ordered moti to go inside...she came in a bit hesitantly...jalal kissed jodha's forehead again...and got up from the bed...moti noticed this...jalal made his way out and while passing moti...he looked at her...and said "don't worry...your friend will be fine soon...I know you don't trust me...but I really appreciate the way you stood by her side...and made me realize my mistakes again...I never said this to anyone but *he stopped for a moment* "thank you moti"...you are indeed a true friend...plz take care of her until I come back... " and he left from there for his room...before leaving he gave her a final gaze with a faint smile..."you will be back to me soon my khunkhaar baaghin...I won't let you leave me...")

(jalal reached to his room where mirza was waiting for him...as jalal entered...mirza's eyes became astonished to see his state...he was drenched completely...his face was dull and his eyes were red and puffy...jalal plastered a fake smile on his lips as he knew that mirza dint know anything about what is going on and hugged mirza with all warmth...Mirza responded back to his hug but not wholeheartedly...because he was still in a shock to see his brother's state... )

Jalal: - (with a wide smile...but surely not a real one) are mirza...tum yahaan...itne dino baad...achanak...aane ki khabar tak nahi di...are apne bhai ka istekbaal(welcome) dhang se karne ka mauka to diya hota...

Mirza: - (with a stern voice ...breaking the hug) ji...baat hi kuch esi thi...ke humne khud aaker batana zaroori samjha...per pehle hume ye bataiye...ke ye kya halat bana rakhi hai aapne apni bhai jaan...chehre per koi raunak nahi hai...itna utra hua chehra...aap hans to rahe hai...magar aapki muskurahat aapki aankho tak nahi pahuch rahi...kya baat hai bhai jaan???

(jalal dint utter anything...he put his hand on mirza's shoulder...and said all smiling...showing that there is nothing like that...)

Jalal: - nahi mirza...sab theek hai...tum khamkha(unnecessarily) hi fikr kar rahe ho...

Mirza: - nahi bhai jaan...hum dekh rahe hai...jab se mehel me daakhil(enter) hue hai...har taraf maatam ka mahaul hai...kuch to zaroor hua hai...jo aap aur baaki sab humse chupane ki koshish kar rahe hai...batayiye bhai jaan...kya hua hai??

Jalal: - mirza wo... (jalal was about to speak further when mirza noticed his clothes that were totally wet...)

Mirza: - are bhai jaan...aap to pure bhige hue hai...jayiye pehle kapde badalker aayiye...vrna sardi lag jayegi aapko...chaliye ab jayiye...

Jalal:- iski koi zaroorat nahi hai mirza...hum theek hai...(but mirza dint listen to him and started argue with him...finally jalal gave up and put his hand on his head...)...tum bhi mirza...bilkul nahi balde...tum yahi thehro...hum abhi aate hai...(and he went to the changing room...and returned after few minutes...now he was dressed in dark pink color jama...as soon as he returned mirza again asked him the same question...jalal was not willing to tell him...but he had to...because he knew mirza really well...and even he was not able to hide his sorrow from him...he told him about everything that happened with jodha...and again his eyes got flooded with tears...but he wiped them off as he dint want mirza to see this week side of his elder brother...)

(Mirza was shocked to the core listening about his bhabhi jaan's critical condition...and was cursing him too for not reaching the palace on time...)

Mirza: - (completely flabbergasted with tears in his eyes) ya khuda...jiska dar tha wohi hua bhai jaan...lagta hai humne aane me kafi der kar di...

(jalal dint get what he is talking about...he held mirza's shoulders...)

Jalal: - ye kya keh rahe ho tum mirza??...kiska dar tha tumhe...??...kya matlab hai tumhara...saaf saaf kaho...

Mirza: -(extremely worried) bhai jaan...humare kaabul se yaha aane ka maksad hi yehi tha...ke hum aapko abul mali ki karguzariyo(wrongdoings) ke bare me khabar kar sake...humne khud apni aankho se use aapke khilaaf saazish karte hue dekha tha bhai jaan...wo apne kisi khaas hathiyaar(weapon) ko agra bhejne ke bare me baat kar raha tha...jisse aaj tak koi nahi bach paya...aur ho sakta hai ke wo khaas hathiyaar koi aur nahi balki yehi vishkanya ho...phir to ye zaroor wohi baandhi ho sakti hai...

Jalal: - kiski baat kar rahe ho tum mirza?? Kaun baandhi??...humare paas jyada waqt nahi hai mirza...naam kya hai uska??...jaldi batao...

Mirza: - naam to hume yaad nahi bhai jaan...lekin pichle saal abul maali ki saalgirah ke jashan me us baandhi ki peshkash(performance) dekhi thi humne...aur jis tarah se wo baath ker raha tha...hume pura shaq hai ke uska ishara usi fanqara ki taraf tha...

(Mirza's words shifted jalal's attention to someone...he was quite sure about the culprit now...but he still wanted some proof...because without any solid evidence he couldn't do anything...as Mirza dint know her name...and was not confidant enough that it was her only...and jalal had to find the actual guilty...because he dint want to waste even a second of his time in roaming here and there only on the basis of doubt...and suddenly a trick came in his mind...)

Jalal: - mirza...tumhe pura yakin hai apni baat per...??

Mirza: - ye to hum nahi keh sakte bhai jaan...lekin agar wo baandhi is mehel me hai...to phir beshak wohi bhabhi jaan ki is halat ki zimmedar hai...

Jalal: - tasvir banva sakte ho uski tum???...

Mirza: - haan bhai jaan...hum koshish karege...

(jalal urgently called adkha sahib and ordered him to send the finest sketcher of Agra in his room right now...and as per his order...after some time adkha return with Raashid*the sketcher* with him...jalal asked him that if he could be able to draw a sketch only by wordily description...he responded positively by nodding his head...he immediately instructed mirza to tell him about her features...)

(Mirza explained about everything that he remembered about her face...her eyes like a sharp dagger...her beauty that was incomparable and was able to attract anyone towards her and everything that he could remember about her...with each of his words...jalal's doubt was turning into confirmation...he started pacing fast back and forth...as he was being way too impatient and couldn't wait to see the sketch...)

Raashid: - ho gaya janaab...ab aap dekh sakte hai...

(Jalal stopped at once...and looked at him...his heartbeats started growing faster and faster...he slowly stepped towards mirza and stood beside him...as soon as he watched it...his eyes widened in immense shock...)

Jalal: - (shocked) Benazir...

Precap:- benazir ka band bajega...😆

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Unres

Wow. I just LOVED how you desribed jalal's feeling and thoughts. First, he said that he loved her to MA but now he is wndering if he meant it or was to show MA. HE is a confused soul, right now. He is trying o reason himself that it is become jodha has become his habit and nothing more but he is in such a dilemmma and finally he found about benazir. Hopefully, he will admit he loves jodha soon.

Just loved jalal's dailogues. Perfect.

Plzzz update soon. Thx for pm.

study well dear

all the best for the interview

may u get the job

Plz continue soon

all the best for your interview...