~OS : BENAZIR AND JODHAA'S DANCE DUEL , *UPDATED PT 12* : pg 32 - Page 17

Khushi , my beauty , I was totally disgusted as when I have nearly written whole story down and while editing some details , whole story got erased in an instant 🤢😭😭 Now , I am hooked on the newly FF : The grief of my guilt , so will update it first hope you understand love 😳😛

~OS : BENAZIR AND JODHAA'S DANCE DUEL , IN THE COURT~

~ Part 12 ~

There she makes her entry in the royal garden , admirative and staring at the unique portray that is drawn infront of her ! A giant of crowd overflowing the large spaced and widened area , mixed of all casts , all differences ,restrictions and prejudices seem dissipated along the ecstacy and bliss that are accompanying the rest of festivity , this mass of crowds seem only forming one alone ! Hindus aren't only to participate in this colorful fiest , mughal commoners were also joining in no matter how new and weird such celebration and culture may appeared for them ! Mix of people , origins, cultures , casts and religions , such a symbolic day according with the symbolic event , well enough to make Jodhaa's vision fuzzy filled with tears , melancholic and touched to find familar faces of her Ameri people after long date being imprisonned in this imposent fort , doomed to see same faces of unwanted people everyday , to hear their futile and boring complaints over little things and yell on their terrified and shivering maids as if they were only to live in this palace , to be reprimanded for inattentionally overlooked mistakes that results to scatter embarassing and false rumors all around and gossips by gossips , it will finish to reach at ears of unwilling people , to be blamed unlassably for each imperfections pffuuu none knows how tiring it's to be an Emperor's Begum , specially when the same Emperor is a maniac of perfection , cynical , pitiless who finds pleasure in other's unhappiness and unfortunes in short a Devil ! How much she was longing for this urgently needed fresh air , for this change from daily rituals , for this change of environment and that occasion to see new faces that would change her mind and enlighten her mood ! She inhales as much as she can of oxygene to fill her poorly suffocating lung like a swimmer profiting of last seconds of pause before sinking under meters of water merging their whole body inside entrying in contact with the coldness of liquid ! As the plain peace gained her whole body , with her eyes enjoying this everlasting moment a maid comes to interrupt her meditation to rely her the given message that would probably dissolve her difficultly built jolly mood in fraction of seconds ! The maid calls her timidly with a discreet voice fearing that she may roars over her like other Begums for disturbing her : "BEGUM SAHIBA ! MY SINCERE EXCUSES FOR THIS SUDDEN INTERRUPTION BUT I HAVE BEEN ORDERED BY SHEHENSHAH TO DELIVER URGENTLY HIS MESSAGE TO YOU" , Jodhaa barely controls her nerve which suddenly gained her by hearing "SHEHENSHAH" but to preserve her calm nature infront of this poor maid , she wore a faint smile by muttering "WHEN WE REFER TO DEVIL THERE HE COMES" breaks the annoyed princess , and she nods to let her covey the entire message and the maid conveyed : "SHEHENSHAH WILL BE WAITING FOR YOU BESIDE THE RIGHT SQUARE OF THE GARDEN" , Jodhaa sighs miserably saying :"TELL HIM THAT I'M COMING" and with this response , the maid leaves with lowered head leaving behind a frustrated Jodhaa ! She murmurs to herself with regret : "WHY SUCH HASTE ? COULDN'T HE WAIT FOR THE NEXT DAY? GOD KNOWS WHEN WILL I GET TO SEE THOSE FACES AGAIN ! ONLY TODAY I COULD SHOUT FREELY FOR MY FREEDOM AND THERE THIS DEVIL SPOILED EVERYTHING ! AT THE DIFFERENCE FROM THESE PEOPLE , I WOULD GET TO SEE HIS FIERY AND ARROGANT FACE DURING REST OF MY LIFE THEN WHY COULDN'T HE RETAIN HIMSELF FOR A SINGLE DAY ! " and she fastly strides toward the square while trying to adjust a straight and serene composure on her face so that he doesn't get any chances to taunt her !

< AT THE RIGHT SQUARE <

As the alarmed princess reached there in a rush , she caught the Emperor tranquilly leaning against a trunk of tree facing her his back ! Reluctantly she begins : "PRANAM SHEHENSHAH ! I WAS INFORMED THAT YOU URGENTLY ASKED FOR ME ?" There , the supposed Devil breaks in a sarcastic laugh sounding her tone : "YES , I ASKED FOR YOU , DID I OFFENSE YOU BY ANY CHANCE ?" smirks the cynical King turning to her ! Jodhaa cursed herself with all imaginable names for his rightly notice but she tries not to budge her serious face as she wouldn't support to see his triumphing grin and downcastes her eyes not even to get a glimpse of his face ! Jalal requests gentilly : "JODHAA BEGUM , WOULD YOU ACCOMPANY ME FOR A WALK ?" , she mutters under her voice : "IF IT DEPENDS ONLY ON MY CHOICE THEN OFCOURSE , I WILL NOT ACCOMPANY YOU DEVIL ! WHO WOULD LIKE TO GO WITH YOU FOR A WALK ?!!! BUT AS IT'S A RHETORIC QUESTION , I GUESS , I HAVE TO !" and she answers timidly with a forced smile : "FOR SURE !" And there he forwards toward her with an angered Jodhaa trying to master her senses , and they begin to walk awkwardly beside each other , sufficiently distanced in a suffocating and unbearable silence while gazing at the large hectares of lawn surrounding the garden with gardeners discreetly working at their place under the sweating sun ! When one thinks to start the conversation , then their subconscient relents to let the other take this privilege and their a long period of silence took place until Jalal starts with his imposent royal tone : "JODHAA BEGUM , I WOULD LIKE TO DISCUSS OVER THE PAST INCIDENT ! FIRSTLY , YES IT WASN'T FAIR OF ME TO BEHAVE IN SUCH WAY WITH YOU BUT I HAD MY OWN REASONS THAT JUSTIFY MY ACTS SO I WOULDN'T APOLOGIZE FOR MY DEEDS NEITHER WOULD CONSIDERATE MYSELF GUILTY TO SEEK YOUR PITY EVEN THOUGH YOU ALSO YOU WEREN'T TOTALLY INNOCENT . . ." , Jodhaa couldn't gulp the last part of his sentence and exploses sarcastically : "IS IT AN APOLOGY SHEHENSHAH ?" , there an infuriate Jalal barks back : "OBVIOUSLY NOT ! I AM TRYING TO CLARIFY FEW THINGS THAT . . . " , Jodhaa fires him before he could finish : "YOU KNOW WHAT SHEHENSHAH ? NOT ONLY YOU'RE A BIG HEADED ROOSTER , YOU ARE ALSO AN EGO-MANIAC WHO THINKS THAT HE IS THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE AROUND WHICH THE ENTIRE WORLD REVOLVES BUT YOU KNOW WHAT LET IT BE ! LET IT BE COZ FOR A PEOPLE LIKE YOU , ADMITTING THEIR OWN MISTAKES MEAN LOWERING FROM THEIR ARROGANT AND FIERY STATUE ! AN APOLOGY IS A HEARTFULLY APPROACH OF SINCERITY AND HUMBLENESS BUT FOR A PEOPLE LIKE YOU IT'S LIKE DEMANDING FOR AN ENORM RANSOM , WITHOUT ANY HUMBLENESS AND SINCERITY IN IT SO BETTER NOT EVEN AS FOR PEOPLE OF YOUR GENRE , A MISTAKE DOESN'T CHANGE THEIR LIFE ! SO GO FOR IT AND YES IF IT'S AN ATTEMPT BECAUSE YOU MAY NOT SLEEP WITH A PEACEFUL CONSCIENT AT NIGHT WORRYING THAT YOU MAY LOOSE YOUR FACE THEN DON'T WORRY ,YOU CAN SLEEP PEACEFULLY ! NOW , I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE MY LEAVE IF YOU HAVE THE KINDNESS TO PERMIT ME" and there she hasts to leave from there but the uncontrollably infuriated King grabbed her strongly by her thin arms with his tenacious grip and dragged her toward a secluded corner from the exposed place ! There he screams at the top of his voice : "HOW DARE YOU JODHAA BEGUM ? HOW DARE YOU TO BARK AT ME WITH SUCH AUDACIOUS TONE ? YOU KNOW WHAT ? I THINK YOU'RE COMPLETELY RIGHT NOW ! I AM SUCH A FOOL TRYING TO DEAL WITH YOU GENTILLY FOR ONCE TO EXPECT A GOOD RESULT FROM THIS ATTITUDE BUT IN RETURN , YOU MESSED UP EVERYTHING BEGINNING BY MAKING ME LOOSE MY TEMPER ! FOR THE FIRST TIME , I DECIDED TO TAKE A NEAT STEP TOWARD YOU BY PUTTING MY DUTIES ASIDE BUT RIGHT NOW , I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL DID I EXPECT BY COMING HERE " and he literally throws her away to trace his road away but an unsatisfacted Jodhaa responds back : "EXACTLY , EXACTLY ! YOU BETTER DID NEVER COME AND LET THINGS EXACTLY THE WAY THEY WERE ! AND BY THE WAY , WHY DID YOU EVEN COME ? TO SPOIL MY JOURNEY , TO SPOIL MY MOOD , WHAT DID YOU ATTEMPT . . . " , suddenly silenced by his swift move ! He angrily cornered her against the wall and roars : "WILL YOU KEEP QUIET FOR ONCE ? LET ME TALK ! TODAY I WILL TALK AND YOU WILL ONLY LISTEN ! GOT IT ?" and there he brutally slapped his hand against the marble wall leaving an aghast Jodhaa ! He started to cont : "I CAME HERE ONLY IN ATTEMPT TO CLARIFY MY DEEDS AS THEY WEREN'T ANY JUSTIFICATIONS FOR . . . " rudely cut by the stone headed Begum : "THEN DON'T WAISTE YOUR TIME IN TRYING TO FIND ONE SHEHENSHAH !" and she tries to escape by the none cornered side when a fortified hand thumpered the wall inched away from her cheek making Jodhaa breathless ! When he reassured her with a solemn tone : "I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I CAME HERE , I JUST KNOW THAT I WAS FORCEFULLY GUIDED AND I LET MYSELF TRAINED BECAUSE I HAD TO ! I AM BLABBERING WITHOUT ANY EVIDENCES BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW FROM WHERE TO START ? NEITHER WHAT TO SAY ? I WAS NEVER TAUGHT WHAT IS A SINCERE AND HUMBLE APOLOGY ? I AM A KING AND I HAVE NEVER DUED TO APOLOGIZE FOR ANY OF MY DEEDS ! BUT DON'T KNOW WHY BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME , I AM FEELING GUILTY , I FEEL THAT I DID SOMETHING BAD AND I FELT THAT I MUST ATTEMPT SOMETHING TO ERASE THIS YEARNING GUILT INSIDE ME SO I CAME ! IS THIS ENOUGH FOR YOU AS AN EXPLANATION ?" , Jodhaa is left silenced , once Jalal stopped talking , Jodhaa's heavy breath was only the hearing sound between them , her heavy breath that was heating Jalal's cheek and tickling his nerve ! Jodhaa was unconsciously staring at him , with her attentive blinks and flickering wet lashes , Jalal's anger got melted in and he forgot about his own words , he forgot that he was about to leave in anger ! He imposently scotched her against the wall , blocking the passage from both sides as two barriers into which she is imprisonned but his posessive and forceful transacts haven't any effect on her , she is there only by her presence but her eyes are blank , those doe like shapeful hazel eyes which used to be a great hand for Jalal in sensing and guessing her sentiments once are themself lost and dreary now but Jalal isn't easily going to give up ! He takes off one of his hand without quitting her from eyes and takes a mound of red colour into his manly fist , he insisted much in taking lot that , some of those lently begin to escape from the little holes of his fingers but does he care about it ? He does as fast as he can as if it was question of life and death for him , there he reaches infront of her face , that craving and desirable face which isn't glowing nor smiling today , noticing it he feels a sudden pinch on heart enough to make him realize that she isn't in mood at all , she is unhappy and nor his taunts , nor his posessive and anormal antics would be able to change it , but recalling the event of this special day , he forces himself to gulp down those sentimental lake of emotions and he forwards close to her face , too close that this lady is taking pleasure in belittling Jalaluddin Mohammad's heart , he is there inches part of fingers away from her face , too close but surprisingly , still her eyes aren't fixing toward him , nor there is any gests of embarrassment from her ! He wants her to react immediately, he no more can bear it , her morn and unhappy face , her silence , her inexpressive eyes are engrossing his guilty feeling ! He forwards his impetuous iron fist front her face making finly crumble those colour between them , Jodhaa's senses are brought back by this sudden change of decor and scenery infront of her face , first she was taken aback but she didn't say anything , she just lowered her eyes , breathing difficultly thinking that he is still in amused mood ! He obviously noticed it and hurries to rub those colours on both of his hands , and leisurely applies it on her cheeks as if caressing , the warmth in his manly hand is so tenderly that she lose herself in this unknown feeling , and each of his moves and gestures are drowning her deeper in this nameless feeling ! Jalal isn't facilating her to resist , the lion is abnomally tamed and soft today ! With his large hand , exceeding the measure of her delicate and plain forhead , he smeared them all over by excessing the forhead line and smearing a bit inside her hair ! There he gently displayed them under her neck by encroaching them at each corner , finished at front , he gripped her by the shoulder so that she shows him her back ! The sensitive and blown princess timidly return with hesitance , unknowing how to react as she couldn't backward anymore ! There he swept her hair aside , spreading it all over her exposed back , Jodhaa shivered at this novice feeling , she doesn't know why is she giving herself to this supposed Devil ! There she tried to get her senses back while he was smearing the colour whole over her sleeve , descending her thin arms ! With confused soul and enraged mind , she finally cries : "IS IT OVER NOW ?" but Jalal nods in disagreement and comes to closen on her ! Now , their breaths were reaching on opposite cheeks , in a composed and husky tone , he whispers : "HOLI MUBARAKO JODHAA . . ." , shaking for good a teary-eyed and confused Jodhaa ! Jalal himself extirpate a little bit away from Jodhaa but still close enough to murmur : "APNI SHAUHAR KO MUBARAK BAAD NAHI DOGE JODHAA ?" , and he slipped his palm whole over the bangles on her wrist to be guided till inside her palm , there he caught hold of it and pulls her slowly toward the colours stalks ! Jodhaa woke up after feeling her wet lashes over her eyelids and blinks thrice , gazing non stoppably inside the Brown iris of the devil standing next to her , not matching the resistance of his intact eyes ! During all her blinks , he hasn't even blinked once ! Charmed , she approached him conquered and removes her palms from his clutches to run them elegantly over his manly chest and there appeared a timid smile across her lips , still newly found and hesitating one !