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Dear readers,
This is my first Akdha SS. I hope I am able to meet your expectations. Do forgive me if you find any fault.
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Jodha was sitting beside her window staring out into the open sky. The stars were twinkling brightly. The breeze blowing outside was cool. The leaves were rustling outside, dancing to their own harmony and melody. She pushed behind a lock of hair behind her ear. Everyone was busy preparing was Shahenshah Akbar's birthday celebrations.
While she sat here staring out into infinity. Rukaiya Begum's earlier words replayed in her mind like a tape. The words had hurt her and made her feel furious but she had no right to say anything.
*flashback*
'Don't think that just because Jalal saved your reputation from coming to any harm. it means he loves you. He only did it become he is bound by duty towards you. He only ever loved me and will always continue to love me.'
*end of flashback*
She sighed. From the past couple of days she couldn't sleep at night because she was haunted by dreams of him. She was afraid to sleep. She was afraid that she would lose herself in her dreams and forget the reality.
She knew that Rukaiya Begum was Shahenshah's favorite and it had never mattered to her before, but now she was not able to accept the fact.
It made her insides hurt when she she saw him smile at her, when he gave in to her simplest gestures. Was it jealousy?
She hurriedly got away from the window, although the air outside was cool she felt hot and bothered. A sudden and deep longing was raging a never ending battle within her.
'No, I am not jealous' she said aloud to her self and that was the truth. Yet it seemed nothing but a blatant lie to herself.
She was loosing her piece of mind. It was becoming difficult to be control her emotions.
She would end up crying softly to herself as she lay down to sleep at nights, while she pictured Rukaiya and Akbar together.
It was like thousands of knives stabbing her.
She knew that she could never be who he wanted. She knew she was just the Hindu princess in the Harem. She knew that wanting anything more meant trouble.
But yet her heart wanted more.
It longed for more.
She felt her insides burn whenever Rukaiya called him 'Jalal'
Like she had no right to, although she had all rights to do so.
She was so close to him yet so far.
Jodha was afraid of her new feelings, she didn't want to accept whatever she was thinking to herself.
But for how long would she be able to act indifferent, and pretend like she didn't care?
No.
Just once.
She wanted to see him just once right now.
She knew she shouldn't, but before she could stop herself, her feet were carrying her towards Akbar's room.
She ran down the palace corridor's rushing past the maids and the palace guards. For once she didn't care.
Her ghunghat fell from her head while her anklets made the gentle trinkling noise as she turned around the corner and stopped outside Akbar's room.
Her hair was on her face now, beads of sweat lined her brow, from the running that she had just done.
She was about to enter his chambers when she caught a glimpse of him through the thin curtains.
His handsome features were clearly outlined in the dimlight of the room. She took a sharp intake of breath as he flexed his bare muscles.
The battle wound proudly adorning his bare torso.
Her steps didn't advance any further when she saw Rukaiya Begum wrap her arms around him while he hugged her back passionately.
She took a step back, her heart shattering into million pieces yet again, as she somehow stopped herself from crying out aloud.
She clenched her eyes shut and let the silent tears slip down as she slowly backed away from there.
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