What made you think that I won't hate you for cheating on me like this...????
What made you think that it won't hurt if you vanish without saying good bye... ????
What made you think that pain of losing you will be less if you won't let us know what were you going through... ????
Aashu, where are you?? It's not the same without you.. I just cannot stop thinking about the time we enjoyed together ...
JJKN and Jassi_Pretty would never be the same again for me..
I still remember the first msg you wrote for me on SETINDIA... That was heartfelt support for me... I still have that msg with me.. and then we joined JP.. where we had blast... and our late night chats in Yahoo messanger.. Where u used to crack me up with your amazing and classic sense of humour..
When we arranged First Chat-meet of Armu fans on SET .. which was very succesful.. but when we tried to do it again on Diwali... I came online and waited for you... but you were not there.. I still can't forget how restless I was for not knowing the reason of your absence... and after 7/8 days Your Sis Deepa left one msg on Yahoo that You fell in coma on the same day when I was waiting for you on Diwali night.. That was a big shock for me.. but fortunately You came back to life... and again we started enjoying like never before... but you Devil always kept lying about your health...
...But one day you were very upset because you had fight with some I F members.. and you wrote your good bye message in frustration...(but afterwards you said sorry and joined I F again.. ) We were chatting in yahoo and you asked me to check your goodbye message on I F... I logged in here and was shocked to read the way you wrote that message.. You wrote, "Thanks for making my last days more painful ..." or something like that...(now i don't remember exact words.. ) That night I bugged you so much to tell me the truth... and you swore on me and promised me that you will write everything about your health in detailed... next day I got your mail.. in which you assured me that everything is fine with you and now you will going to be here to bug me for all my life... If I post that mail here then all your friends on I F will come to know that how beautifully you made fool out of me .. as they all are aware of the fact that how talented writer you were.. !!!...........
Aashu.. mere sar ki zoothi kasam khayi tune.. you wait for me.. I won't let it go.. Achhi khabar lungi tumhaari.. Tum ne kitani baaten adhuri chhod dee..
I was waiting for your exams to get over... U promised me that after your exams you will again write updates for JP... and I can take break..
Do you remeber ... you said you will send all your short stories to me.. and then I will make one site for you... (I m going to ask Deepa to send your story collection to me ..)
Last time when you came out of coma.. You wrote me jokingly that, "Preetu, I came back to unite Armu-Jassi"...
We both planned to post our RAMKAHANI together on JP when you will be free from exams ...
Every promise of yours, every joke of yours is just echoing in my heart and mind.. .. and 2 days before.. one thing happened...
I still remeber that night.. you told me that you want to join I F as JP doesn't open on your comp... You asked me to suggest one ID for you.. and I spontaneously replied, "Aashu ... you be Devil_Driver.. cause you are the girl who drives devil away.. "
... and on this you flashed that laughter smiley so many times.. You liked it so much that you instantly registered with that ID...
.... and guess what Aashu.. after you have gone.. when I got to read that news of One particular actor wants to leave JJKN... I was stunned.. Oh... that means my Don Aashu is at work.. and really used all her power to drive devil away...
Till now I never objected on various tactics of Tony and Deeya to drag the story of JJKN.. but now I really hate them for not uniting Armu-Jassi for you.. I just wished you could have seen this ultimate romance being successful which we loved so much...
You know Aashu.. one selfish thought brings pale smile on my face.. as you supported me everywhere.. you fought for me, you stood up for me on every brd.. and now since My Don Aashu is up there before me.. that means now I can relax.. cause Aashu is going to bargain best deal for me ... when my time will come... Aashu Don is going to make all the angels work hard to arrange grand welcome for me.. Tumhe aise hee mai Don nahi kahati.. I know this is what exactly going to happen..
Now whenevr I see Armu-Jassi or that OTHER THNNG .. I just remember you.. You know if ever I get chance to meet Apoorva Agnihotri.. then I will surely tell him everything about you.. How we planned to kidnap him.. and share him between us.. oohhh Aashu.. we had 50-50% partnership of him.. and now you left him all for me..
Aashu.. although we met in this virtual world of Internet.. and spend very little time together.. but I will remember you till my last breath.. ..and I m sure when we will meet again up there.. we are going to have blast together.. And this time I will update you with how Armu got his Jassi finally.... till then you rest in peace baby!!!
Love you forever... and ever.. I know you are with me always..
Love - Preet
I. F. thanks for making all the Scenes (written by Aashu) available to us on separate thread... Thanks a lot..