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I had this forwarded picture could not help uploading it 🙈🙈. It’s like Khushi telling this to Arnav. Just finished reading the chapter, will comment in a while after I gather my thoughts.

Originally posted by: tashi26

Jesus Christ!

I am telling you we are indeed twins.

The number of times i have thought of this line "apne toh humse humara guroor cheen liya" in context of khushi is insane.

You remember in comments of the previous chapter, while taking about your marraige you said, "that would have hurt my pride" this line came to my mind instantly even then.

I have this whole scene by heart, dialogue by dialogue. The whole film was on one side and this scene was on another. Priyanka just stole the show for me as Kashi Bai in this scene, in the film. One of her best.

Originally posted by: Pujakrishna

Jesus Christ!

I am telling you we are indeed twins.

The number of times i have thought of this line "apne toh humse humara guroor cheen liya" in context of khushi is insane.

You remember in comments of the previous chapter, while taking about your marraige you said, "that would have hurt my pride" this line came to my mind instantly even then.

I have this whole scene by heart, dialogue by dialogue. The whole film was on one side and this scene was on another. Priyanka just stole the show for me as Kashi Bai in this scene, in the film. One of her best.

The moment I read the last lines of the chapter, the first thing which came into my mind was this.

And what kashibai said is a fact.

Arpita how do you do it. It was like I was standing with Arnav and Khushi on that terrace and watching every emotion, everything happening with my eyes.

God you had written that scene so beautifully that I a can’t stop re reading it.

And then the confrontation my god I cried. And this I am telling you because I took time to read the update, I took a different route, read the comments and then the chapter thinking it would soften the blow but the impact it still had on me can’t describe it in words.

That’s just superb writing girl.

Every sentence you write has a deeper meaning and as the entire thing is unfolding it’s making more sense, not complete as not everything has been revelatory.

For instance

1) in last chapter you had written he never felt the need to go to Khushi’s room anymore and here you mentioned about his need for companionships. It’s related to Lavanya or not we will get to know. And I also want to mention needs can be emotional as well, and the kind of obsession Lavanya had she might have just tried to use the cracks in their marriage to her advantage. She entered Khushi’s home in her absence for whatever reasons, it was wrong. May be that is how Manali and Lavanya took Arnav for a ride.

2) In the update related to year 2014, their argument after which things really started going downhill, Arnav tells her there are more things important then marriages and children, it really just bugged me. Kind of shows the respect he had for marriages.

3) the party in which he went just after Khushi came to know about divorce, he said something about he felt relieved when Khushi stopped coming to the parties. Again it makes me think of his affair with Lavanya.

4) Arnav is driving and watching her from rear view mirror, again shows she refused to sit with him.

5) the way you drew parallels, where arnav could not enter his home, was crying because he thought he might have lost Khushi in the past and Khushi who was happy back home from hospital, ordering arnav to clean it. Here the same Khushi did not even feel like entering the home, arnav is standing in the middle of his house trying to find what is missing( are they the plants because that says a lot)

Khushi might have not finished her education but how could she when she knew the financial strain Arnav was going through. For her he mattered more and NGO from where she was supposed to draw salary , how would a soft hearted person like her take money from a place which took care of people in need, when she has seen the other side of life where money was tight.

And she not going to parties, it was like she was not going to the important ones, she did everything Arnav asked or expected so what if she was not comfortable.

She says she used to rush home to be Khushi with people who loved her as just Khushi, clearly shows Arnav had become so involved in his new life, he became ASR and in fact wanted the same from her. He had started detesting what actually made Khushi ‘Khushi’.

Even now Arnav is so lost in his being the ASR, that he could not run to her. He might want to do what is right for her but that’s not what she needs, she needs someone who can love her beyond all reasons and logics.

Guilt can not heal a broken heart, only love can.

Then you mention about gaslighting, Khushi understands that, everyone Payal , Arnav thinks she is naive. She can be soft hearted but not that naive as everyone sees her. Also, was it Arnav who was doing the gaslighting or the victims of NGO taught her that.

One thing which really bugs me is Khushi does not even have a friend, like someone to whom she can go with all her problems, one who will not decide for you or treat you with kid gloves but as an equal.

Payal by not asking Khushi what she wanted might have hurt her as well. Plus for Khushi she is Arnav’s friend first.

Also, Khushi did not meet buaji as well while leaving, does she suspect it’s her who called her.

About how Khushi found out about his affair, I am not going to make any guesses but one thing I am very sure is she had solid proof, she would not distrust Arnav just like that even if could see cracks in her marriage.

There is so much more I want to say, have been trying to put all these things in words like with every chapter.

I know I haven’t said much about this particular chapter, honestly I feel it has been covered in all the comments.

I am kind of dreading the next update though, the more the past unfolds the more I hurt for the carefree khushi who was hanging upside down on a tree once and now has become a shell of a person.

But for you Arpita what can I say, you have so beautifully woven this tale that inspite of dealing with something like infidelity your readers are hooked to it.I am sure some of us would not have even touched a book with infidelity as it’s subject.

Hope you have a wonderful week. Take care

OK I resisted and resisted not to get entangled in this story, because in my head, I can never ever forgive and forget infidelity. I have to give it to the writer, and all these passionate people who are commenting here to let me break my vow to myself, so finally, I read last few chapters and all the comments. My one thing is that it seems like I agree with most of the people who have given their opinion here, and they have already said much more than I would have said.

My one thing is that if Arnav brought Lavanya at his home in Khushi’s absence, then that is completely assassination of his character for me, and then no matter how much care he shows by his feelings and actions for khushi( not at all melts my heart)— it doesn’t make sense at all. Either he is that kind of person who could be a hero, but with flaw or he is so full of himself and jerk. Either he is the righteous person who cares or he is not. Unfortunately, he cannot be both.

It doesn’t matter he loves khushi or not. You cannot bring another woman in bed in your own house in your wife’s absence ( how many times does not matter).

that’s disgusting.

Also, khushi is extremely mature and fiercely loyal, and she is going to stand on her feet with her independent opinion. Life is teaching a big lesson to her, and she’s learning.

Lastly, a big sorry to you dear Arpita for writing such an angry rant as my first comment to your story. You are no doubt an excellent writer. Please keep up the good work and continue your story as you planned.

Originally posted by: tashi26

Arpita how do you do it. It was like I was standing with Arnav and Khushi on that terrace and watching every emotion, everything happening with my eyes.

God you had written that scene so beautifully that I a can’t stop re reading it.

And then the confrontation my god I cried. And this I am telling you because I took time to read the update, I took a different route, read the comments and then the chapter thinking it would soften the blow but the impact it still had on me can’t describe it in words.

That’s just superb writing girl.

Every sentence you write has a deeper meaning and as the entire thing is unfolding it’s making more sense, not complete as not everything has been revelatory.

For instance

1) in last chapter you had written he never felt the need to go to Khushi’s room anymore and here you mentioned about his need for companionships. It’s related to Lavanya or not we will get to know. And I also want to mention needs can be emotional as well, and the kind of obsession Lavanya had she might have just tried to use the cracks in their marriage to her advantage. She entered Khushi’s home in her absence for whatever reasons, it was wrong. May be that is how Manali and Lavanya took Arnav for a ride.

2) In the update related to year 2014, their argument after which things really started going downhill, Arnav tells her there are more things important then marriages and children, it really just bugged me. Kind of shows the respect he had for marriages.

3) the party in which he went just after Khushi came to know about divorce, he said something about he felt relieved when Khushi stopped coming to the parties. Again it makes me think of his affair with Lavanya.

4) Arnav is driving and watching her from rear view mirror, again shows she refused to sit with him.

5) the way you drew parallels, where arnav could not enter his home, was crying because he thought he might have lost Khushi in the past and Khushi who was happy back home from hospital, ordering arnav to clean it. Here the same Khushi did not even feel like entering the home, arnav is standing in the middle of his house trying to find what is missing( are they the plants because that says a lot)

Khushi might have not finished her education but how could she when she knew the financial strain Arnav was going through. For her he mattered more and NGO from where she was supposed to draw salary , how would a soft hearted person like her take money from a place which took care of people in need, when she has seen the other side of life where money was tight.

And she not going to parties, it was like she was not going to the important ones, she did everything Arnav asked or expected so what if she was not comfortable.

She says she used to rush home to be Khushi with people who loved her as just Khushi, clearly shows Arnav had become so involved in his new life, he became ASR and in fact wanted the same from her. He had started detesting what actually made Khushi ‘Khushi’.

Even now Arnav is so lost in his being the ASR, that he could not run to her. He might want to do what is right for her but that’s not what she needs, she needs someone who can love her beyond all reasons and logics.

Guilt can not heal a broken heart, only love can.

Then you mention about gaslighting, Khushi understands that, everyone Payal , Arnav thinks she is naive. She can be soft hearted but not that naive as everyone sees her. Also, was it Arnav who was doing the gaslighting or the victims of NGO taught her that.

One thing which really bugs me is Khushi does not even have a friend, like someone to whom she can go with all her problems, one who will not decide for you or treat you with kid gloves but as an equal.

Payal by not asking Khushi what she wanted might have hurt her as well. Plus for Khushi she is Arnav’s friend first.

Also, Khushi did not meet buaji as well while leaving, does she suspect it’s her who called her.

About how Khushi found out about his affair, I am not going to make any guesses but one thing I am very sure is she had solid proof, she would not distrust Arnav just like that even if could see cracks in her marriage.

There is so much more I want to say, have been trying to put all these things in words like with every chapter.

I know I haven’t said much about this particular chapter, honestly I feel it has been covered in all the comments.

I am kind of dreading the next update though, the more the past unfolds the more I hurt for the carefree khushi who was hanging upside down on a tree once and now has become a shell of a person.

But for you Arpita what can I say, you have so beautifully woven this tale that inspite of dealing with something like infidelity your readers are hooked to it.I am sure some of us would not have even touched a book with infidelity as it’s subject.

Hope you have a wonderful week. Take care

Tashi!!! ♥️♥️♥️

You guys make things sooo worth it!!

I loved writing the terrace scene. ‘Running home to you’ didn’t stop playing in my head the entire time. I wished fanfics had a way of plugging in songs in the background of specific sections. You guys would have understood exactly how I was feeling in my Bollywood and drama obsessed mind 😅

I was just waiting for someone to point this out. I know I put in a lot of these things in a chapter and not everyone will remember all that they noticed or wanted to say while commenting. But together, you guys are somehow insanely effective 😅. Combined, you guys always find all the Easter eggs. Yes, this is the first time Arnav has mentioned a NEED for companionship. The context if which we’ll have soon from the chapter that is Arnav’s POV.

About Khushi letting go of her studies, in the flashback, Arnav had raised doubts because she was letting go of her master’s degree to work for the NGO. So somewhere in between, she did manage to finish her bachelor’s. Arnav had also asked her to treat the job more professionally and not think of it just in monetary terms because they will go back and donate ten times more than what she drew as a salary. Khushi had refused that.

Yep. Khushi has loved Arnav like a free river. She was the one who expressed her feelings first. She was the one who admitted to herself first that she was in love with her new husband. Arnav on the other hand, wasn’t even able to tell her in the hospital bed that he was shit scared of losing her. He tried, failed and even then did what he thought was right, focusing on her health. The only time he had been able to truly let her see the paralysing fear he had was once they were back. During all this time, Arnav had missed Khushi terribly, had cried for her and yet, didn’t speak a word on the terrace. Didn’t go for the hug he was aiming for. Wanted to go to Lucknow to bring Khushi back at least twice and held himself back both times. He has not loved her in the unrestrained way that she had. But has he ever loved her in the calm, distant way that he believes he had and was that enough???we will see as the past unfolds. I think this confrontation scene has been the most vocal Arnav had ever been about his feelings this whole time. The only time where we’re seeing him losing the calm, composed, cool aura.

Yep, Khushi has been a social worker, and basically knows that concept of gaslighting is nearly always a pattern before things derail to the worst. This is also interesting to me because when I wrote Khushi’s immediate alert of Shyam and his mother’s behaviour, I would like to think it emerged from her experience with the NGO rather than her previous encounters with the two. Khushi never figured out what it was about Shyam and Shanti that kept bothering her, and always deduced that it was probably due to the horrible past. But in my head, it could’ve just as easily been her own instincts.

We have started having answers, I’m sure it won’t take long to answer the lingering questions all of you have.

Originally posted by: Mrieshka

OK I resisted and resisted not to get entangled in this story, because in my head, I can never ever forgive and forget infidelity. I have to give it to the writer, and all these passionate people who are commenting here to let me break my vow to myself, so finally, I read last few chapters and all the comments. My one thing is that it seems like I agree with most of the people who have given their opinion here, and they have already said much more than I would have said.

My one thing is that if Arnav brought Lavanya at his home in Khushi’s absence, then that is completely assassination of his character for me, and then no matter how much care he shows by his feelings and actions for khushi( not at all melts my heart)— it doesn’t make sense at all. Either he is that kind of person who could be a hero, but with flaw or he is so full of himself and jerk. Either he is the righteous person who cares or he is not. Unfortunately, he cannot be both.

It doesn’t matter he loves khushi or not. You cannot bring another woman in bed in your own house in your wife’s absence ( how many times does not matter).

that’s disgusting.

Also, khushi is extremely mature and fiercely loyal, and she is going to stand on her feet with her independent opinion. Life is teaching a big lesson to her, and she’s learning.

Lastly, a big sorry to you dear Arpita for writing such an angry rant as my first comment to your story. You are no doubt an excellent writer. Please keep up the good work and continue your story as you planned.

Thanks a lot Mrieshka ♥️♥️♥️

It always feels nice when a new reader takes out the time to let me know of their thoughts. Makes me feel that story has more followers, even if I don’t know of it. And don’t worry about it being a rant. As I’ve repeatedly said in comments, this only means that yin felt strongly towards the story ☺️♥️

Yeah, I am aware if just how uncomfortable the topic of infidelity is and I’m so grateful that people are sharing their thoughts about it here. Some of the comments have actually made me pause. At the same time, thanks again for showing confidence in my version of it. I hope it leaves you guys with a good impression of this tale ♥️

Originally posted by: VeiledWords

Tashi!!! ♥️♥️♥️

You guys make things sooo worth it!!

I loved writing the terrace scene. ‘Running home to you’ didn’t stop playing in my head the entire time. I wished fanfics had a way of plugging in songs in the background of specific sections. You guys would have understood exactly how I was feeling in my Bollywood and drama obsessed mind 😅

I was just waiting for someone to point this out. I know I put in a lot of these things in a chapter and not everyone will remember all that they noticed or wanted to say while commenting. But together, you guys are somehow insanely effective 😅. Combined, you guys always find all the Easter eggs. Yes, this is the first time Arnav has mentioned a NEED for companionship. The context if which we’ll have soon from the chapter that is Arnav’s POV.

About Khushi letting go of her studies, in the flashback, Arnav had raised doubts because she was letting go of her master’s degree to work for the NGO. So somewhere in between, she did manage to finish her bachelor’s. Arnav had also asked her to treat the job more professionally and not think of it just in monetary terms because they will go back and donate ten times more than what she drew as a salary. Khushi had refused that.

Yep. Khushi has loved Arnav like a free river. She was the one who expressed her feelings first. She was the one who admitted to herself first that she was in love with her new husband. Arnav on the other hand, wasn’t even able to tell her in the hospital bed that he was shit scared of losing her. He tried, failed and even then did what he thought was right, focusing on her health. The only time he had been able to truly let her see the paralysing fear he had was once they were back. During all this time, Arnav had missed Khushi terribly, had cried for her and yet, didn’t speak a word on the terrace. Didn’t go for the hug he was aiming for. Wanted to go to Lucknow to bring Khushi back at least twice and held himself back both times. He has not loved her in the unrestrained way that she had. But has he ever loved her in the calm, distant way that he believes he had and was that enough???we will see as the past unfolds. I think this confrontation scene has been the most vocal Arnav had ever been about his feelings this whole time. The only time where we’re seeing him losing the calm, composed, cool aura.

Yep, Khushi has been a social worker, and basically knows that concept of gaslighting is nearly always a pattern before things derail to the worst. This is also interesting to me because when I wrote Khushi’s immediate alert of Shyam and his mother’s behaviour, I would like to think it emerged from her experience with the NGO rather than her previous encounters with the two. Khushi never figured out what it was about Shyam and Shanti that kept bothering her, and always deduced that it was probably due to the horrible past. But in my head, it could’ve just as easily been her own instincts.

We have started having answers, I’m sure it won’t take long to answer the lingering questions all of you have.

Arnav tried telling her a number of times, also he gave hints of what he wanted, plus he wanted her to understand his silence (well in marriage though you need to understand each others silences at times communication in clear words is a necessity which both of them clearly lacked).

I feel somewhere Akash and Payal unavailability due to the troubles they were facing after leher was born lead to more troubles for Arnav Khushi as well. Though cracks had appeared and it was not their friends marriage but theirs but still things could have been salvaged earlier.

I would have understood Arnav if he had spoken about all this before doing all that he did, even if he wanted a divorce was understandable, sometimes you just can not do it anymore.

But his Lavanya chapter is something which makes everything irredeemable.

But as I have repeatedly said I trust you as writer.

I remember the companionship thought after he chugs the cigarette holder felt out of place..but it is interesting how you have related that to his relationship with Lavanya.

That may explain his constant mantra that Lavanya is not the issue Manali is. Or why lavanya was privy to the divorce information or the closeness between the two in prologue. Or her past is not important for him. It is more than physical.

Guess she fulfilled the void Khushi could not fill..she having not imbibed the liberal mumbai city culture and still being tied to her archaic lucknow roots. Plus her constant vanishing act and demands of having kids. Friendship led to eventually sleeping together..not really planned.

No wonder Lavanya is at loss..why abandon her ?. Guilt !. that he muses constantly. If only divorce talk was not leaked..and things could fall in place..and he had time to explain everything to Khushi.

Now he has the added burden of a emotionally broken Khushi. Hopefully Khushi will gather more strength in few months and he will get a opportunity to explain that he could not before.

There is no ill will..it just that they have drifted apart. Lovely catch