"I must have done some sin in my life to get a child like you. I am cursed that's all I can say. You are a failure in my life. Just when I thought maybe at least you will do something great in your life, you prove me wrong. Just like your bloody useless father. Why can't you just drop dead."
There she goes again, ranting about my life being an utter failure. Just like any other weekend, I sit inside my room drowning myself in music, hoping it would tune her out. Tears flowing down to the wide spread of my blanket, I hold on to it, wishing I could escape to another dimension.
"You will never go far in life. The plan was to become a doctor, but you changed your mind for that. My dream for you was that and now that too is gone down the drain. Why can't you ever do something right in your life?"
Wiping away my tears I put on my coat and decided it was time for me to take a walk. Making sure she didn't notice my presence, I slipped outside to the windy, night, autumn weather.
Red and orange leaves haloed around my wild flying hair. The cold winds dried away the tears, smeared on my pale face. Just another Saturday where I ran off to the nearby park; my sanctuary.
Once I reached to my special corner by the willow tree, I took a seat on my favorite bench and closed my eyes. Throbbing nerves at the side of my eyes started to disappear, calming my stressful thoughts. Something about the Autumn weather and willow trees was liberating. As it was designed to suck all your problems away.
10 minutes of my pure silence was disturbed when my phone vibrated. The screen flashed of a message, which I received from my best friend. He was worried I knew and just like any other day, he sensed something was wrong.
"Khush, sweet heart, are you at the park? Is everything okay? I know something is wrong. Please reply soon.''
I smiled through my tears at his text. What would I do without him? Sometimes the answer scared me to death. He was everything to me, and without him, I wouldn't be able to hold myself together.
"I am at the park.''
Within seconds his reply came.
"I am coming.''
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20 minutes later I heard leaves crunching along the side walk. I knew he was coming closer. A glimpse of his beautiful face made my heart soar with overwhelming emotions. Without another word I ran straight in to his open arms, hugging the life out of him.
Before I knew it, tears streamed down my face and I began to bawl. His sweet whispers filled the cold, windy air, as he carried me like a child to the bench. My fragile hands tightly held on to his neck, burying myself in his chest.
"Sh, it's okay sweet heart, I am here now,'' his sweet whispers travelled to my ears, sending shivers down my spine. Finally after an hour of quietly staying his arms, I looked up right in to his brown eyes.
"Ready to talk now?'', he asked me lovingly stroking my hair. I nodded my head and laid my head on his shoulder, loving the comforting feeling, of his arms around me.
"Same old story... Mom cursing me... nothing new. But I am so tired of being strong Arnie... So tired. I cannot keep doing this. Just because dad did wrong to her, why does she take it out on me?"
"Sweet heart... your mom is hurt just like you... That's her defence mechanism... I know it hurts baby, but...''
''But what Arnav... Why can't she understand that I sacrificed too? I did everything to protect her too. She wasn't the only one that got hurt, I did too. Why for once can't she let us have a moment. Why Arnav? Why?,'' I asked, once again tears filling up my eyes.
He gently placed a kiss on my forehead, ''sweet heart I don't know whether your mom will ever heal, but if she can't give you love, I can. I am here aren't I? I will protect you, I will keep you happy and I will be there with you. I am proud of you and I want you to hold on to that."
See what I mean? How can I ever breathe without him. He was the source to my strength and the only reason I held on to it.
"Arnav... I love you.'', I whispered in to his ear, suddenly shy to meet his eyes. Long time ago, I promised myself, I would never tell him how I felt, but today I couldn't help it. Every ounce of control I had was lost.
His long fingers tipped my chin up to meet his gaze, "I waited so long for you to say that.." My eyes closed at his whisper and I felt his soft lips collide with my own. He was kissing me with so much love, yet so passionate. It was our first kiss... A kiss I would never be able to forget.
As we broke away to capture our breaths he leaned against my forehead and smiled.
"I love you,'' he whispered, making me smile widely back at him.
At that moment I knew that even though my life was a mess, his love will be there to hold me up. His love is and will be my saviour for eternity...
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Cheesy as hell eh? *sigh What can I say? I am an emotional cheese ball right now. :P Lol Anyways, comment and like if enjoyed. :)
