Prologue
"I've always said that one night, I'm going to find myself in some field somewhere, I'm standing on grass, and it's raining, and I'm with the person I love, and I know I'm at the very point I've been dreaming of getting to."
-Drew Barrymore
I have been here all night thinking about the very day on which you became mine. It has been so long, since I have been coming here. All the happy memories I shared with you haunt me till date.
How I wish I could live that day again and again; and today I stand staring at the dark clouds hovering in the dark night sky. My life's has been as dark as these clouds from the day you left me.
My lone point of existence is at stake because there no I/me, without you.
But just because of my loved one's I need to stay for they can't see me in this state.
There's been not a day when I didn't think about you... never been a day when I didn't cry. I hate myself for being such an immature kid that didn't think for a second before saying, before hurting you with those harsh words of mine.
I'm sorry, I'm ready to apologize for every time I have made you cry. I know have hurt you a lot and you would never will be able to forgive me.
I'm ready to go to the end of the world just to speak to you once, just to see your face once and tell you I have been in grief from the day I saw you leaving, to tell you how much have I missed you and
How much more have I loved you since the day you left me...
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"Di! where's Bhai??" asked Aakash while coming down from the stairs of the grand and very beautifully (designed with utmost care) mansion where you would never find a bit of dirt on the floor except for one room on the first floor of the house facing the poolside.
No one answered.
"Di! Where are you? I already can't find Bhai and I'm getting late for office, i need to show him the Gupta's file for..." He was interrupted by seeing the cutest and the loveliest sister a person can ever have. She was sitting in front of the temple and praying to God for the sound health of her family, with full concentration.
He saw a smile on her face and didn't want to interrupt her as he hasn't seen her like this for very long time. So he waited until she was finished with her praying and after that asked about the whereabouts of his elder cousin.
"Di! I have been searching for Bhai all over the mansion and I can't find him anywhere. I have to talk to him about the conference and I can't even afford to get late or else we will kill me!!! Btw where is he???" asked Aakash all in one breath with fear of getting late.
Anjali giggled at Aakash's state. She felt sorry for him as she knew how afraid he was of his cousin and said
"I don't know where he is... Wait! What...what is the date today?? she asked with curiosity.
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Today is the 25th of November. Why? What happened??" he said as if he didn't know the importance of the date.
Anjali's expression changed from happy to shock. She remembered the day when all their lives changed, all the world became upside down, the day when the souls in the house forgot to smile. The day when her 'Chotte' did the biggest mistake of his life...
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The way I loved you, I will never be able to love someone else. You were my life and my everything. You were the colours in my life, you were the light, and you were like bright sunshine.
I cherish the moments we spent together and I love the every single breath we took together. Thinking of those times still makes me happy. I consider it to be a picture perfect fairytale where LOVE is innocent and Love is pure. But today it haunts me in my very dark nightmares.
Yet today I stand staring at the night sky, trying to find you the real you in these twinkling stars that shine like the way you used to smile.
I still remember you as a very loving and caring sweet boy who stood there every day, holding my favourite flowers in his hands and pleading for me to look at him once, while I gaze from my window towards the street. My mother's been shouting for minutes from the kitchen but little did she know that her daughter's going to be broken.
But I'm standing there and trying to catch a glimpse of you without bothering about the world and the people I knew as I wanted to capture every loving moment of ours.
Nor is my mother here by my side today, neither are you to support me when I needed you the most in the hardest of times. Still I stand here recalling the every sweet memory of ours.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive you after that night on the very same date. The day you took advantage of my innocence and my love, I was shattered when you spoke those harsh words.
I've never ever been myself again after that. It seems like somebody dimmed the lamp of my life and took away all the happiness in one go and leaving just sad memory behind.
You betrayed me on this very day. You killed that old Khushi this very day when you told me you loved me but you didn't. It could have taken just one more minute to change your mind but there you stood stubborn as a mule.
The days are long gone and I don't have any regrets because I'm stronger, bolder, more confident and not dependent on anyone like I used to be. I 'm not that older Khushi who used to laugh unnecessarily, sacrifices her own happiness without thinking of herself for others and she doesn't anymore cry on the petty things.
Today I stand here as KKG and I'm successful in life and you thought that I'm good for nothing! From the bottom of my heart I loathe you.
But yet again I here stand on the very day thinking about you and me.
Suggested listening: Far Away by Nickelback
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