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Ok here it is!
I am single.
Never been in love
Never had a boyfriend
Never have gotten that fluttery lovewala feeling for a guy in real..
Never had the hots for a guy
Ok all the above list of factors seem to say the same thing..but the point is i have never found 'the' special person in my life.
And come last June, sigh i saw Arnav..
and,
I was in love.
I started imagining this man every moment be it during a class or in my dreams
He started being the last person i thought before i fell asleep and the one person about whom i was thinking as i woke up
I started talking about him to anyone and everyone who would listen
I used to drool on him everytime he came onscreen, everytime i saw a VM, everytime i read about him..everytime i saw a picture...i just got lost in him..
i got lost in those caramel eyes that spoke thousand emotions..that held softness and love..
i got lost in the blazing hate darkened eyes that expressed anger, betrayal and hurt..
And by today, around 14 months since this started,
it is the same...
I 'awwwed' today!! i swooned today..drooled...madly fell in love with this man all over again as he looked on at Khushi and wondered about 'how easy it was to talk to her when she was asleep'
i again 'awwweeed' when he said, "aaj mausam hai suhana.." trying to bring a smile on her face..
i completely drooled over them..
but more than drooling i was having this fuzzy warm feeling in my heart, that i have begun to associate with him whenever he did something sweet regarding Khushi..
it is a feeling i have for him, which i think is something like love..
i am saying something like love, cz he is the only man i have ever felt this for..
so like everyone else, with first love i am also unsure..thinking, wondering if this is love..
and well i believe it is love..
that i am truly and irrevocably in love with Arnav Singh Raizada..
So ok now that u guys came this long, let me get to the crux of the matter..
All of u married people/ people who have a boyfriend /people who have been in love out there, i think u guys r lucky cz u already have felt that feeling for someone..u guys either have/had someone special of ur own..
so i guess u guys can't have Arnav as the center of universe cz u naturally have that one special man in ur life already..
But for the unmarried/inexperienced girls out there who are like me,
tell me if u feel as u have been spoiled for every other man in the world?
do u feel that no other man will ever match up?
do u feel scared cz after loving Arnav..just may be, u will never love someone as much as u love him?
I am honestly wondering..
So married people tell me if it is possible to fall for someone real and achievable when i am already in love with this fictional guy who i think symbolizes my own definition of perfection..
And other people who are in the same boat as me, do u think ur own fates have been sealed too,
'has Arnav spoiled u for every other man in this world?'
Ok one more thing..i am writing this seeing one reply..
I am in love with Arnav! NOT Barun!!
I have a very clear understanding on this! I love Barun and adore him But i most certainly am NOT in love with him!
I am in love with the fictional Arnav..
Added this just so no confusion ensures about the question i want to ask..
PPS: another fact. I am 22, have watched million movies, read so many books, watched serials..seen hot looking men who i myself admired or thought cute..but i have never liked them in the way i like Arnav..not even an iota!! so well consider that as a fact too as this is a first real or fiction!
and honestly i know he is fictional...but i also know my own feelings are real n not fiction! So where does that leave me!!!:s
I am single.
Never been in love
Never had a boyfriend
Never have gotten that fluttery lovewala feeling for a guy in real..
Never had the hots for a guy
Ok all the above list of factors seem to say the same thing..but the point is i have never found 'the' special person in my life.
And come last June, sigh i saw Arnav..
and,
I was in love.
I started imagining this man every moment be it during a class or in my dreams
He started being the last person i thought before i fell asleep and the one person about whom i was thinking as i woke up
I started talking about him to anyone and everyone who would listen
I used to drool on him everytime he came onscreen, everytime i saw a VM, everytime i read about him..everytime i saw a picture...i just got lost in him..
i got lost in those caramel eyes that spoke thousand emotions..that held softness and love..
i got lost in the blazing hate darkened eyes that expressed anger, betrayal and hurt..
And by today, around 14 months since this started,
it is the same...
I 'awwwed' today!! i swooned today..drooled...madly fell in love with this man all over again as he looked on at Khushi and wondered about 'how easy it was to talk to her when she was asleep'
i again 'awwweeed' when he said, "aaj mausam hai suhana.." trying to bring a smile on her face..
i completely drooled over them..
but more than drooling i was having this fuzzy warm feeling in my heart, that i have begun to associate with him whenever he did something sweet regarding Khushi..
it is a feeling i have for him, which i think is something like love..
i am saying something like love, cz he is the only man i have ever felt this for..
so like everyone else, with first love i am also unsure..thinking, wondering if this is love..
and well i believe it is love..
that i am truly and irrevocably in love with Arnav Singh Raizada..
So ok now that u guys came this long, let me get to the crux of the matter..
All of u married people/ people who have a boyfriend /people who have been in love out there, i think u guys r lucky cz u already have felt that feeling for someone..u guys either have/had someone special of ur own..
so i guess u guys can't have Arnav as the center of universe cz u naturally have that one special man in ur life already..
But for the unmarried/inexperienced girls out there who are like me,
tell me if u feel as u have been spoiled for every other man in the world?
do u feel that no other man will ever match up?
do u feel scared cz after loving Arnav..just may be, u will never love someone as much as u love him?
I am honestly wondering..
So married people tell me if it is possible to fall for someone real and achievable when i am already in love with this fictional guy who i think symbolizes my own definition of perfection..
And other people who are in the same boat as me, do u think ur own fates have been sealed too,
'has Arnav spoiled u for every other man in this world?'
Ok one more thing..i am writing this seeing one reply..
I am in love with Arnav! NOT Barun!!
I have a very clear understanding on this! I love Barun and adore him But i most certainly am NOT in love with him!
I am in love with the fictional Arnav..
Added this just so no confusion ensures about the question i want to ask..
PPS: another fact. I am 22, have watched million movies, read so many books, watched serials..seen hot looking men who i myself admired or thought cute..but i have never liked them in the way i like Arnav..not even an iota!! so well consider that as a fact too as this is a first real or fiction!
and honestly i know he is fictional...but i also know my own feelings are real n not fiction! So where does that leave me!!!:s
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