Battles within the Heart - ASR

''Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul."

- Ezra Taft

i was working on a assignment and came across this quote and thought how much it suited ASR at this exact moment. He is torn between the heart and mind, both leaving him much restless as he struggles to find his own path lost among his turmoil. At one side, its his sister, who had supported him endlessly, being there at every step and on the other side, its khushi, the person who made life worth living before she came along he was living for the world, after her he started to live for himself because khushi gave him a reason too. And now he is on the brink of loosing many relations that he is trying to hold on dearly too, and the only he can keep in control is to not break, is to vent out wearing the mask of ASR hiding away the vulnerable Arnav who is lost among many truths and lies.

Its just so painful to watch him struggle with emotions which are so pure and true only they have been mislead, how do you wrong him there. His pain is so vast that he is drowning among his own inner battle, desperately failing to find the light at the end of the tunnel he wishes to see. He seems tired of having to choose, but still has to choose, because when its between mind and heart either has to loose and at the cost of much. He will repent later but today, his inner battle with his own feelings is painful despite his venting ways you can feel the tug at your heart which implodes telling him the truth already. With a haunting past, troubled today, and indecisive future, you end up feeling immensely for hard - hearten ASR who struggles to protect the tainted Arnav who is on the edge of breaking.

Today i saw him once again lost in his path, struggling between the right and wrong and finally being overpowered by the love he had for his sister, yet when he tried, he couldn't fully wrong his love either. Something within triggered his actions and he was much apprehensive with his feelings in front of khushi not really siding with her but never walking away either. He searched so much but all was vain. to pursue something that has many valuable relations attached to it, is not only hard but scary, to step on the unknown and try to be in control yet never finding that self control and aimlessly shooting for the unknown is much of a struggle, he fights within only. His love for his sister greater than any wrong being done to khushi by him and his love for khushi is greater than the pain he struggles with inside, he tries but can't rid of either, they are part of him more than himself.

do share your thoughts? 😳

(not justifying any of his physical actions towards khushi, just configuring the emotion within )