OS| You Could Be Happy

You could be happy and I won't know, but you weren't happy the day I watched you go. And all the things that I wished I had not said, are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head. Is it too late to remind you how we were, but not our last days of silence, screaming, blur. Most of what I remember makes me sure, I should have stopped you from walking out the door. You could be happy, I hope you are, you made me happier than I'd been by far. Somehow everything I own smells of you, and for the tiniest moment it's all not true. Do the things that you always wanted to. Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do. More than anything I want to see you, girl'take a glorious bite out of the whole world.

There's so much I would have liked to say to you. But you and I both know, that I wouldn't have been able to put them into words. Its been approximately two years since you left. Like any other person in your place would have.This is my eleventh letter..I know you won't reply..but somehow you seem to be the only outlet to all my anguish, pain, joy and my whole life.

Anjali Di passed away..a week ago.The doctor couldn't save both the mother and the baby. We named the baby, Anjali. Everyone at home is fine, yours and mine.

I'm lost without her Khushi. Without you.I don't know what to do anymore. I feel sick, disgusted with myself. Its like the only reason I'm living for is, Anjali.

Moving on, how are you? I know are well, because Payal visited you last month and told me of the school you had established in Lucknow.I want you to know, I'm really..truly happy for you and NK. Its ironic, but true. Although it pains me at the very thought of you with someone else, I deserve it. You deserve to be happy, and NK makes you happy. You Khushi, deserve all the joys of the world. You should do all the things that you dreamed of as a kid. I still remember that night when you constantly blabbered about Salman Khan and going to Mumbai and meeting him.I think you should do all those things. Go to Mumbai, meet him and visit the Juhubeach. Its beautiful. And you should consider openng up a Jalebi shop, named 'KKGs Jalebi Corner'. You and your jalebis, unbelievable. Oh and has NK improved his dancing skills? You should teach him, seriously.

I love you Khushi, always have, always will. That is the only reason I want you to do all those things you dreamed of. Take a glorious bite of the whole world.