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And the Dangerous , toxic Journey of Love begins ...
What he was , What he is now ...
What name should I give to his Providence ?
Cursed ? Nowhere to be found ? Horror-struck ? Or Fate loves to play Games with this innocent heart who have just found a Rose of his Life to hold on forever ?
Everything he touches ; wants to make his own with love, rolls back with black Ashes in his hands ?
So, he was the beast , pride , rakhshas , laad governor , monster , and every other cruel name would have been garlanded upon him. Isn't it ? Definitely it is. But , today that Pride had a great fall from his own castle cliff , own desires , own uprightness , own cruelty , own heart and mind - and most crucially on the surface he had collapsed from the tower of life , love and emotions. There is no measurement vessel could bring up here to gauge up his endless , precarious pain - Shattered , devastated , quivered , broken , lost his paths , heart stained over with stillness and numbness , eyes dipped in the red blood tears.
For once , he was the only Beast who had locked himself in the cage of steel. He glares out at the world with his silence , tranquil, dead oceans of life. There is no rage , no complain , no emotions. There was just blankness that the pride contradicts to implant. He locks that innocuous, naive boy inside him everyday so that he doesn't come shattering out. He confines him everyday and today everything shuffled in a different way.
He had never feel any advantage or fabricate any definition of Love in his Life-dictionary until Khushi had taken his hand beyond the heaven of celestial meadows at the very first glance. Still not prepared - unknown from any sentiments. She was the only one who made him feel that behind every nests there lies a tree who supports the whole castle of the bird she prelude the pride as alight feather who can float on the upper level of water - instead of being drown in the swift hurricanes by carrying the burden of stubborness , wheezed in heart which he formed himself as a King of ruthlessness.
And Yes, for the very initial step of Love as a preface his heart fluttered - he found something rare and ornamented beneath her innocence , joviality , cuteness. Its Khushi who had lighten up her life with her shining Beauty, who rub out the dark shades of arrogance inside him. Its her who appear as a waltzing soft breeze, its her who made him as a thousand petal of roses soft and fragile, precious, full of beauty and glistening with glowing shimmers. Its Khushi who made him feel like flying high above across the skies, she liberate his shrunken wings into the air, Starting off with smiles , dreams , everlasting wishes as he found the whole World in her Innocent beauty.
For once he was a storm who always traps her in his callous ship with quarrels , personal remarks , brutality served on salver. She came in his existence as a fragile Queen of beauty who has all the smells of flowers in itself which eventually made him freeze in her spell.
But Alas! As if Fate wants to twirl and overturn the Book of his life once again - even the love has not printed out on the pages , it twists as if the frail book tear apart by gushes - the writings has fade away and each slip dies on its own death molded in the storms of black ashes. Things are different , nothing standstills same as it had, every lights of gold he had just gone with the toxic aura swallow , thrown , lost ? That his heart is broken, and he doesn't know how could he go on. Ravaged , destroyed by his own bonds.
A hell nightmare on the dark lonely street - it is not just a dusky roadway. Infact , the dead Soul standing in the middle of ocean whereby his life turns into a tunnel of disasters , a dark cloud surrounded over the deceased spirit , every bit of sharp nails biting his chest and body - as the entire oceans slapping across his face , heart. His blood moving as a river, that drained down everywhere , like his heart carelessly tossed away, and made him a cutter of danger.
Is there any pathways to rescue yourself when curse bound you beneath acidic drops of anguish ? When he steps out, turns his head and heavily, powerfully screamed out ' MAA '. A 14 year old boy alarmed the senses , screwed up his body , he begun to shoot himself on his own , emaciated and thrashed himself - fallen , wrecked , unable to breath - sticked on the tattered pieces - as each word of past digging his grave in the body. How could he forget that someone did care of him ? How can a person stopped believing the heart that was just fallen in essence of love is nothing more than fire which has blow off ? Door closes ...
To fight with his demons , drowned himself in the vast sea and the haunting memories of angelic sister and betrayed love begun to haunt , taunt as a laughing clown. So, Fate made amuse of him ? The beating heart ravaged, heavily destructed, devastated - feel robbed of his own heart and destroyed by force and violence of emotions. She completely robbed him from every normal feeling again ? The pillars of love began to tremble in the ocean of life curved more darker and darkest in struggles abound. Trapped, no way Out. Not believing that the Girl who has been sent by the God as an abode of happiness , could actually snatch away the soul from him.
Endless tears, a broken heart , the life that had so much potential and blooming will now be left in his own blood to rot. Such as a competition of Providence , the person who had just blossomed to sing rhymes have to prepare himself to walk underneath circle of igniting fire. Those deep brownie eyes is no more left in shines , turned as razor-sharp eagle eyes- veils have covered with tears of blood rolling down over his cheeks - impregnated from tip to toe , with anguish , nuisance and rage. Burning irate unleashed purely, with threatening vengeance. He found splattered on the ground, beside the sea rocks with a heart-shaped cut on his chest, and a note that says love has killed him , sacred bond rattled the walls of heart. Lost , forgotten - in the world of angst , depression , restlessness. On the brink of last pebbles , Arnav suicides into the avalanche of brimming volcano , and the birth of Pride ASR is born. But, this time more courageous, more vengeful , more smeared and within reinforce. Look Out!
Goodbye to Love. As memories of love flashes through the pierced eyes, for all those moments became shamed , delicate , a frame of delusion - a box of laughter which Fate has given him. He did not let go off his fuming exasperation because he contemplated in his meaningless life once again , something wild to grow up - dipped his face into the bottle of poison again securely , tightly , flexibly stretch the tear drops state of mind burn the emotions of heart in the flames and tossed the key into the sea.
And as he breaks down on the dark paths like a wounded tiger , striving to renovate his sentiments and lunacy , what you see a shooted , smashed , tiresome who has lost his avenues and foot to explore anything forward - the spirit ripping propel , drained strength - the feelings winding his body up and all he could do is just to fight with the aggression of life and love both. And the Pride , annoyance , ire , valor , depth of power all have come back.
Sometimes in the voyage of Love a moment escalates when the person have to carry himself in mysterious shadows all at its own because until the breath departs no one gives you a shoulder to lean on. Isn't it ? The atrocious fact of life. Indeed. The excruciating Arnav, busted and mind conquered :
" In the inscrutable veils of bond every person pretends the fake feelings, and what i learnt love is just a disaster - a material to ruin the life - without knowing it opens the door - without notifying it leaves you in the gales of misery. Nobody seeks for one's feeling , Nobody seeks for the distress in which one is sinking , Nobody is made for each other , Nobody cares for those flames whom we holds for them. Love is just a Game of use and throw - these feeling less people only knows the language to shred the heart with their harsh words - dices away the soul into fragments "
His heart beat against his cold frozen heart - brownie eyes keep quiet - just giving a single glance to hear out that she couldn't take the edge off his rant and rave now. He began to rule on his each move , beneath the bitterness of brown pond eyes - its a fire of desire - a clear declaration to get ready herself for touching out the burning incense sticks which will blaze her from his own hands. Decided , stamped , done! Though Khushi, Didn't you have made another social blunder - failed yourself to knock at his door again ? Let it be. You have to ready yourself for taking the warm electrifying currents in your body.
Now a new journey of Soulmates begins ahead, where love once abode are now the hell of Fire. Beast has unlocked the doors of heartlessness , no more wet tears, no more emotions. The scorching sun has risen which will take both in the dark gloomy nights of turmoils. Two separate roads , yet entwined as one under the Castle of Hatred.
Nafrat Paas Aane Naa dey , Mohabbat Dur Jaane Naa Dey ..
New Life .. New Beginning .. But, the Old Flames of Love Never Departs as True Love Never Dies.
Arnav's Burning Anger Emotions
Could you see inside my bloody eyes, the pain you gave me ?
Cutting deep, bleeding cold breathing hard , my soul is sold by you,
Was i'm the ball , you played and thrown away back ?
I gotta be strong and just turn away to block out the sounds
From all they say they'll never change if i don't take a stand
I will be lost forever in the World of lies and cruelty,
I will be lost forever in the World of lies and cruelty,
Your sweet intoxication of love, poisoned my body and mind,
Locked inside pain and love, locked for ever to stay safe,
It is the heart of stone now, Forever frozen in time.
It is the heart of stone now, Forever frozen in time.
Never knowing what true love feels like ,
No one could get in, even you don't ever,
If you try to open up your hands gonna shudder as thunderclaps,
My burning anger teach you what pain is,
My burning pain will tear you apart, i'm gonna taste you my pain,
If i'm not only the one you always reach to see,
I'm gonna take your life forever,
If i'm not only the one who brought smile on your face,
I'm gonna make your life just apiece of shattered toy,
If i'm not only the whose kiss leaves you breathless,
Then i'm gonna take your whole body with inflict agony,
You taken away my sunshine my life, my love from me,
I'm gonna consume your breath forever; you'll scream
Just tell me why did you do this ? why you tear me apart ?
Have you ever tried to taste, how much this heart loves you ?
Have you ever see this sharp pain in my eyes ?
You never did , all i did wait , wait and wait for your love to come,
But you! You never loved me , you never loved me for even sec,
If you could ever taste my tears of blood, the pain, the acid,
Its all over , Its all over , Its all over , Its all over,
I close the chapter of my Love book,
The happiness you brought in my dead existence,
I will turn up as a sharp knife under your neck,
I will stand by your side as a shattered beast, as a cold heart.
P.S - My hands , heart are shaking. 😳 One word, Barun Take a Bow! 👏
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon
