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It is hard to believe such gorgeous eyes could hold so much anguish and torment..and it broke my heart to see the extent to this man could love...and why he tries to shield himself from love, stop himself from caring..and that is not because he is cold or heartless or doesn't want to care...but because he cares, cares so much that the mere thought of losing the person he loves can kill him...
hm...ok...i'm still not sure how to react to that anguish..
the very thought that she was going away from him...the way he first reaches and when realized that an accident has happened, urgently inquires for more information..then when his eyes caught hold of the broken bangle, a memory from a few hours back come to him, with HER wearing similar bangles..and he bends down and picks a shattered piece of a glass bangle in his hand and slowly raise up to his eye level where recognition flashes with the first ray of heart wrenching anguish..and his eyes traverses down on the the road to fall upon the scattered remains of a dreadful accident, the broken glass glistening with drops of red blood on it..and he again gets in to action and runs to his first informer and the mighty Arnav Singh Raizada asks once again the very same question he once already asked...to confirm..to see if there was the slightest chance that what he heard was different..and what he hears are the confirmation of his worst fears, that there was indeed a girl and also a guy..and that the girl is being taken to the hospital in the ambulance and he swiftly turns and stares at the doors of the ambulance a few feet away..doors that are closing..doors that are closing in on her, separating her from him..
and he runs after it..runs after his life...for his life...only to stumble on a shoe and to tumble on to the ground and the second he raises his head his eyes fix on the single golden shoe, a shoe that brings him a stark memory of the same shoe adorning the feet of the reason he breathes..and he softly breathes out her name..'Khushi..'
and he soon screams Khushi once again and sprints after the ambulance to get to her..to touch her...to somehow reach her once again..he runs and runs screams for them to stop..calls out her name again n again..only to have the ambulance leave him behind a hand outstretched unconsciously trying to reach her once again..
the way his labored breath almost couldn't even come properly.. his hand helplessly rises up again clutching the broken piece of bangle in his hand and his strangled sobs, his half formed words..the utter despair and helplessness..soft whispers to the wind murmuring her name over n over again as a mantra..as if to do so would let him to hold her ..
the way he turns to one side, towards where she was taken to the other to where she met with the accident...he is a man lost...he doesn't know what he wants to do..all rational thought elude him in his very own personal hell...he clutches his hand squeezing out the air, in the fury at his helplessness to do something...anything...he can't even cry cz the pain is too great for tears and within this pain a long ago memory calls on him mocking him...'tum samasthi kya hai apni apko? tumhe laktha hai mein tumhari wajase gussa hu? mein jo karta hu tumhari wajase karta hu? agar tumhe yeh laktha hai mujhe tumhari hone ya na honeka koi farak padta hai then forget it..you don't even exist for me! DO u understand?' and he closes his eyes in anguish pressing harder in to the one last piece of her being left with him, not knowing or caring that his hand is bleeding with the glass bangle cutting in to his hand..he relishes the pain, cz it lets him give out a small portion of the actual pain that is burning up his soul as he remembers the harsh words he lashed out at her...knowing what a lie he created at that time..
and after those torment filled minutes pass he opens his tormented eyes..windows in to his tortured soul at the thought of her going away from him...realizing that..
'Jab pyaar hota hai na tub unke door jaane ke khayal se saanse ruk jaati hai..'
And here the way Barun Sobti excels, when portraying every emotion that haunt Arnav...every expression of gut wrenching fear and he almost made me break down in sobs even when knowing after that SBS segment nothing happens...and i bow down once again to this stupendous actor...and every time i decide i have seen acting beyond expectations he surprises me again n again..
hm...ok...i'm still not sure how to react to that anguish..
the very thought that she was going away from him...the way he first reaches and when realized that an accident has happened, urgently inquires for more information..then when his eyes caught hold of the broken bangle, a memory from a few hours back come to him, with HER wearing similar bangles..and he bends down and picks a shattered piece of a glass bangle in his hand and slowly raise up to his eye level where recognition flashes with the first ray of heart wrenching anguish..and his eyes traverses down on the the road to fall upon the scattered remains of a dreadful accident, the broken glass glistening with drops of red blood on it..and he again gets in to action and runs to his first informer and the mighty Arnav Singh Raizada asks once again the very same question he once already asked...to confirm..to see if there was the slightest chance that what he heard was different..and what he hears are the confirmation of his worst fears, that there was indeed a girl and also a guy..and that the girl is being taken to the hospital in the ambulance and he swiftly turns and stares at the doors of the ambulance a few feet away..doors that are closing..doors that are closing in on her, separating her from him..
and he runs after it..runs after his life...for his life...only to stumble on a shoe and to tumble on to the ground and the second he raises his head his eyes fix on the single golden shoe, a shoe that brings him a stark memory of the same shoe adorning the feet of the reason he breathes..and he softly breathes out her name..'Khushi..'
and he soon screams Khushi once again and sprints after the ambulance to get to her..to touch her...to somehow reach her once again..he runs and runs screams for them to stop..calls out her name again n again..only to have the ambulance leave him behind a hand outstretched unconsciously trying to reach her once again..
the way his labored breath almost couldn't even come properly.. his hand helplessly rises up again clutching the broken piece of bangle in his hand and his strangled sobs, his half formed words..the utter despair and helplessness..soft whispers to the wind murmuring her name over n over again as a mantra..as if to do so would let him to hold her ..
the way he turns to one side, towards where she was taken to the other to where she met with the accident...he is a man lost...he doesn't know what he wants to do..all rational thought elude him in his very own personal hell...he clutches his hand squeezing out the air, in the fury at his helplessness to do something...anything...he can't even cry cz the pain is too great for tears and within this pain a long ago memory calls on him mocking him...'tum samasthi kya hai apni apko? tumhe laktha hai mein tumhari wajase gussa hu? mein jo karta hu tumhari wajase karta hu? agar tumhe yeh laktha hai mujhe tumhari hone ya na honeka koi farak padta hai then forget it..you don't even exist for me! DO u understand?' and he closes his eyes in anguish pressing harder in to the one last piece of her being left with him, not knowing or caring that his hand is bleeding with the glass bangle cutting in to his hand..he relishes the pain, cz it lets him give out a small portion of the actual pain that is burning up his soul as he remembers the harsh words he lashed out at her...knowing what a lie he created at that time..
and after those torment filled minutes pass he opens his tormented eyes..windows in to his tortured soul at the thought of her going away from him...realizing that..
'Jab pyaar hota hai na tub unke door jaane ke khayal se saanse ruk jaati hai..'
And here the way Barun Sobti excels, when portraying every emotion that haunt Arnav...every expression of gut wrenching fear and he almost made me break down in sobs even when knowing after that SBS segment nothing happens...and i bow down once again to this stupendous actor...and every time i decide i have seen acting beyond expectations he surprises me again n again..
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