.... | 08.12.2017

I had told myself that I won't be watching IB until the 15th due to exams, on top of that, IB having the most emotional track, it became a very convinient excuse for me to stay away and just survive with the pics and written update.

Guess what? I broke that promise and now I am in a state where I don;t know whether to regret on my decision for literally crying like a baby by the time the episode ended, or be proud of to be part of such an spectacularly-amazingly-mind blowing-ly-marvelously glorious show consisting of such god-gifted talented actors who literally redefine 'acting'.

And you know the most gorgeous part about this show that I have realized today? EVERY. SINGLE. PERSON in this show are equally capable to pull off the EXACT emotions that the producer, script writer and director expects and they just go beyond everything to prove that IB team has some of THE BEST actors any producer could ever ask for, for their show to be successful.

Today, it wasn't Shivay but Rudra who moved me to tears. I'm not even exaggerating, I literally had to cover my mouth to stifle my cry seeing him taking those baby steps towards the poolside, telling himself over and over again that the situation will be back in his control if he just talks to his Shivay Bhaiya calmly once, trying to keep himself calm despite the inner turmoil that was nothing but tearing him apart,, and the fear in his eyes to lose his father figure...

"Bhaiya...bhaiya I know andar papa ki jo halat hai usme aap aapne aap ko responsible manti ho lekin aap..., and his unassertive hold on his bhaiya's hand to make him listen to what he had to say because he had so much piled up within him to make sure his brother doesn't take any hasty step, yet he appeared so afraid and unconfident as to what to say, as if he was scared that even his attempt might not stop this dangerous storm that seemed to be knocking at the door.

Taking a painful gulp, he continued, "Isme aapki koi galti nahi hai...sari ki sari galti svetlana ki hai...His eyes were pleading his bhaiya to not abandon him...Gawd, I felt like pulling him out of my laptop screen and hug him until I'm assured that he's fine, flashing his teeth wittily like he does every time and is back to being the old Rudra we have always seen him as.

"Please ghar chhor ke...maath jao... please, his voice was cracked and he was shaking with the overwhelming emotions that was shredding him into fragment.

"Please samajh ne ki koushish kar...I tried to control everything... lekin nahi hua yaar...haar gaya mein..., uttered shivay in guilt and shame. You know, in this fictional show, the great wall of shivay was shown to be gradually breaking...but in reality, I (read we') was breaking down...my heart tugged and twisted like anything today, seeing these two in such miserable state...as if they're my family and I'm feeling all those emotions due to being closely attached to them. I guess, that's exactly how you know why this show has been winning almost all the awards in the past 1.5 years...

"Maine decide karliya ...mujhe jana hai.., he says with finality, holding his phone back to his ear And Rudra' outbursts, frustrated, for not being able to get the fact through the thick head of his brother.

"Okay...okay ...Ekbar Om ko ajane do...ekbar woh ajayega to sab kuch thik kardega..., he was hyperventilating, his restlessness at the current mess, desperation to make his bhaiya understand, fear for losing the most precious person of his life, and his frustration for not being able to handle the situation...he looked like his limbs are paralyzed...it was like someone had brutally chopped his wings and now he can't fly anymore...he looked like he was suffocating in those few moments... I don't have words as to what I felt for Rudra today...And I probably will never have.

And the last thread of his patience breaks as he shouts in agony and despair, "You can't decide everything all the time okay? You just can't!,

And immediately holds his hands, lowering his tone as he apologizes...The way he said sorry to Shivay, it looked like he was terrified that his behavior be the reason that shivay might walk out of his life...someone please give a hug to this poor child. I heart still rips every time his face flashes in front of my eyes.

He holds his hand as he goes on to remind him their promises, "Aap bhul gaye, one for all, all for one?

He literally looked like baby, trying to plead his father to not to abandon him and snatch away his right to be at the recieving end of the pamper, adoration and love only his shivay bhaiya can shower him with...

"Why Don't you understand? You are not a kid anymore! Act mature..how many times do you want me to tell you?! I have decided, I'm leaving, Shivay roared like a raging bull , smashing his phone in the floor while Rudra lowered his gaze, just like how a son does when the father scolds...

Holding his face, shivay makes him look into his eyes, asking him to be the strong one to hold his family together, running his palm over his face to calm him down as Rudra breaks down in his Shivay Bhaiya's arms like never before...

I have seen Leenesh to be one of the best in the comic field...the witty dialogues with a mixture of his own innocence brings out one of the finest comedy scenes in IB. His intense scenes, with bhavya (mostly anger) was pulled off extremely well and I was yet again surprised seeing the new side of his acting. Today though, I have realized what an immensely versatile actor he is...

Leenesh Mattoo won my heart today, hands down!

P.S. Y'all send me tissue boxes...will be needing it everytime Rudra's face would flash in front of my eyes...which...is gonna happen multiple times till I fall asleep tonight.

P.P.S. YES this post is solely dedicated to Leenesh because his performance needs to be acknowledged, recognized and most importantly REWARDED! I pray that very soon, through this show, he becomes one of the most popular actors for the kind of talent he possesses and receives numerous contracts and awards, for he deserves every bit of it and much much MUCH more!

Love,
Mushfika

Originally posted by: metoyou

Tu kyun try karti? Tujhse nahin hoga... With this kind if high voltage drama, you won't be able to miss a single episode. So meri baat mano, study bhi karo and enjoy IB too. Win-win!

Rudra Singh Oberoi, lovingly called Rudy or Ru, by his family and dear ones. Immature, childish, irresponsible, not serious types; this is what most will think of him. But he is not, absolutely not.

Yes, Rudra is baccha. And why shouldn't he be? Being the youngest, he is allowed to be naughty, to do mischief, to be carefree. But that does not mean, he is not capable of being more than that only. He is the jaan of the family and most importantly of his brothers. Bachchpan se leke aaj tak, his brothers have been there for him. Laughed on his silly jokes, scolded whenever needed, comforted him with a hug and loved him from the bottom of their hearts. Special mention to his Shivaay Bhaiya who has been more than a brother to him; a parent, a friend, a confident but most importantly, his Superman.

Rudra has always been protected by his Superman, come what may, and today he sees his Superman breaking down, step by step.

Om said once to Shivaay that Rudra hero worships him, and that is true. Shivaay is Rudy's here and there is nothing in this world which can change that. He knows that whatever his Superman is doing, is for the well being of this family, but leaving the house, leaving the family, leaving his Rudy is not. And that is when the baccha breaks in tears, that is when the baccha's heart cries for his bhaiya. For his Superman; begging him not to leave them uncovered and unprotected, because who will hold his hand when he falls?

Rudy is scared of the unknown; he does not know what the future holds for them. He is afraid he won't be able to handle it by himself, because he never had to. Time has come now though to show that this baccha is a grown up man now, who is able to keep his family together until his Superman comes back. And only then he can bring back the child in himself and continue to bring joy and laughter to everyone's life...

If this guy brings a smile on your face by cracking silly jokes, or by the most illogical logic theories, then I am sure, the same guy will make you cry your heart out by showing his unconditional love for his Superman. More drama is coming up, so we all should be ready for more tears and khidkithod performances.

The man responsible for leaving all of us teary eyed deserves all the praise for delivering an outstanding performance; showing all of us that he is much more than the jovial Rudra Singh Oberoi who truly believes in 'One for All, All for One.'

Leenesh, take a bow! 👏

P.S. Thanks Mush for this post. Love it! 😳

I don't like a crying Rudy because it gives you that feeling when a child is hurt and you must comfort him and bring his smile back, whatever it takes!

Originally posted by: Maisha123

Oh and by the way, yeh kaunsa title hai? dot dot dot?

Originally posted by: LoveNakuulMehta

Hey I just wanted to say that I have been reading your comments on Mush's posts for sometime now and I really like your thought process. You're very good with words and I love your comments on her posts. A khidkitod episode without Mush's analysis is just so incomplete. She h walks me through the depth of a particular character's emotions and give meanjng to every unsaid word and you give an overall completion of that from a different POV. Keep it up dear.

Originally posted by: metoyou

Tu kyun try karti? Tujhse nahin hoga... With this kind if high voltage drama, you won't be able to miss a single episode. So meri baat mano, study bhi karo and enjoy IB too. Win-win!

Rudra Singh Oberoi, lovingly called Rudy or Ru, by his family and dear ones. Immature, childish, irresponsible, not serious types; this is what most will think of him. But he is not, absolutely not.

Yes, Rudra is baccha. And why shouldn't he be? Being the youngest, he is allowed to be naughty, to do mischief, to be carefree. But that does not mean, he is not capable of being more than that only. He is the jaan of the family and most importantly of his brothers. Bachchpan se leke aaj tak, his brothers have been there for him. Laughed on his silly jokes, scolded whenever needed, comforted him with a hug and loved him from the bottom of their hearts. Special mention to his Shivaay Bhaiya who has been more than a brother to him; a parent, a friend, a confident but most importantly, his Superman.

Rudra has always been protected by his Superman, come what may, and today he sees his Superman breaking down, step by step.

Om said once to Shivaay that Rudra hero worships him, and that is true. Shivaay is Rudy's here and there is nothing in this world which can change that. He knows that whatever his Superman is doing, is for the well being of this family, but leaving the house, leaving the family, leaving his Rudy is not. And that is when the baccha breaks in tears, that is when the baccha's heart cries for his bhaiya. For his Superman; begging him not to leave them uncovered and unprotected, because who will hold his hand when he falls?

Rudy is scared of the unknown; he does not know what the future holds for them. He is afraid he won't be able to handle it by himself, because he never had to. Time has come now though to show that this baccha is a grown up man now, who is able to keep his family together until his Superman comes back. And only then he can bring back the child in himself and continue to bring joy and laughter to everyone's life...

If this guy brings a smile on your face by cracking silly jokes, or by the most illogical logic theories, then I am sure, the same guy will make you cry your heart out by showing his unconditional love for his Superman. More drama is coming up, so we all should be ready for more tears and khidkithod performances.

The man responsible for leaving all of us teary eyed deserves all the praise for delivering an outstanding performance; showing all of us that he is much more than the jovial Rudra Singh Oberoi who truly believes in 'One for All, All for One.'

Leenesh, take a bow! 👏

P.S. Thanks Mush for this post. Love it! 😳

I don't like a crying Rudy because it gives you that feeling when a child is hurt and you must comfort him and bring his smile back, whatever it takes!