The Metamorphosis has begun it seems but of course it is still in the early stages.
He SENSED her at the school, which does not astonish me as this is Shivvay, and she is Annika. He was strong till then, in control and able to wade through his conversation with Sahil without giving the lil guy any clue as to what had happened. But as the box of memories was gently pried open by his innocent and unsuspecting lil bro in law, Shivvay could not stop himself from being swept away. So much for the guy who spoke about mind control in the girls v/s boys' challenge ..lol
As all the memories with her came rushing back in, tumbling one after the other, he looked awake and less dazed. The channel is still open and the link still maintained. I do not believe that will ever close.
The vow to always look after her and never hurt her tore at his heart. The memory of distancing her from his life blurred his vision. His heart is thawing and changing and with change comes pain and discomfort. It is a metamorphosis after all and cannot be achieved without that pain and discomfort.
As he steels himself and leaves the one thing that links him with her, for a trip to Shimla, he elicits a promise," Say you will call me everyday?", because he still needs to feel connected to her through Sahil.
The single word 'Auto' spoken, not even shouted, reached his hyper sensitive ears in the midst of the hustle bustle of Mumbai city. Do you have any idea how difficult that is to zero in on??
He clutched at his heart, mind and body all sensitive to the slightest clue of her presence. He senses her and scans the immediate vicinity. He cares not that he is being pushed and shoved by a mere rickshaw driver because the fight for his NKK and pride, has gone out of the SSO we know. This is Shivvay we see, Mere Shivvay, who is blocked his mind and has unlocked his heart. The organ that only senses not thinks. He has become hypersensitive in his loss and need for her to all things Annika.
Annika's apparent distress at him being yelled at and cornered can be felt by him. She wants to lunge forward and bite the insufferable man's head off for yelling at her Shivvay who is in apparent pain but alas she cannot do so. She suffocates behind the auto and he suffocates in front of his car. His oxygen is missing he can't breathe. He has been on 'life support' for so long that he has forgotten what it feels like to breathe on his own and fight life's battles all alone. "Annika!!", his heart cries out in pain, "where are you?? I need you!!"
He drive away but his chest still hurts because hers is hurting as well. She is in distress and he feels every second of that distress. He needs to get back to the solace of their room and breathe the air that she shared with him there. Maybe, she in her mercy, has still left a few gulp-fulls behind before she abandoned him so cruelly.
He has not hardened his heart towards her and that is good. It is very difficult to feel with a hard heart and it also breaks more easily. A softer one beats, absorbs and feels it is alive with emotions. Shivvay's heart seems to have become more sensitive and receptive to her and her feelings.
This man who could not gauge her mood while being in the same room as her for the past few days, has begun to feel the same pain as she does in his chest while she is miles apart. He clutches his heart and utters the first thing that comes to his mouth, not mind, and that is "Annika'. SSO is dying a slow death because Shivvay is being born.
Our boy is on the road to find love and all that comes with it. Lets wish him luck.
As for you Annika, the faster you realize that he has been left in manipulative and incapable hands the better. This is your husband and only you can be his 'other half'. This is a position that no one else can fill in a husbands life- not his mother, father, brothers or Dadi.
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