Suffocating Silence Chapter-3 i went down in a hope..a hope of watching her smiling face and feel a bit less guilty!! i dont know why at a place i feel relaxed a bit to watch her in front of me but then at the same moment i feel as if her presence is suffocating me...its maybe that..my deeds are haunting me but then why for a second her smile make my every uneven heart beat normal mmm i guess this is what love is when the person in front of you can relax and comfort your heart but then why!! why this suffocation...
i saw her she was smiling and was feeding to riya i could not stop but smile to see how happy my daughter and wife are but then in a moment anika saw me.. i could see her shift uneasily in her seat with a bit discomfort on her face..was the same happening with her was she too feeling the same i was feeling was she feeling the same suffocation i was well i guess she was feeling much more suffocated because i know what is behind all these silences and she dont really know anything...anything which is true!!
however i went and slid in the seat next to riya..
goshhh i dont know how but my daughter is much more smarter than i think...her tactics are like...ummm sooo cute i should say..
she said me to serve for anika and anika to serve for me...
'ummm what would you like to have anika?' i asked her licking my lower lip in nervousness of speaking to her
she didnt answered and instead a picked up the bowl of white sauce pasta and served it in my plate and hers too...i was glad that she remember my taste and favourite dish!!
i smilled at my own silly thought and started eating when riya asked me to feed anika a spoon of pasta
i looked at anika who was looking at me from corner of her red eyes which clearly indicated that she was at an emotional verge of breaking down at any moment...i blinked my eyes once and then fed her with a spoon of pasta which she ate actually gulped without chewing properly... riya smiled and clapped in the way childish she was... then she asked anika to feed me but instead anika stood up at the same moment and said she was done
'par mumma aapne toh papa ko khilaya hi nahin!!'
' riya..mmm..pa.pa... khud kha sakte hai' she answered riya in the way as polite as she could be and i was just staring at her watching and observing her each and every facial expression i was lost in them somewhere very deep in just a try of getting to know what all she was thinking that time...
Anika's POV
'i know mumma... but plzzz and how can u say that ki aapne khana kha liya...see your plate is full and my lily mam says its bad to leave food'
my eyes went wide open with an instant after hearing that name...
i was not able to digest hearing that name.. what did she mean...was shivay still...still..still in contact of lily and my..my riya was even in contact of her...
'k..ka..kaun kehta hai?' i asked her and was sure that shivay clearly understood that why the hell i was asking riya such a question which really didn't mattered!!
'lily mam' riya replied
with an instant
'abbb...who is she...umm wo tu..tumhari..ko..koi...new..teacher hai?' shivay asked her with same intensity!!
i was ummm..should not say ...but a bit relaxed realising that he was similarly shocked and was in the same state of mind i was in right now...
'yaa papa wo hamare school mein ummm...5..no no...6...no no..7..yess full 7 days pehle aayi thi' riya replied pulling anika down to the chair
i sat down and started eating quietly without uttering any other word from my mouth i was lost in thinking and consoling myself to overcome from this lily thing i should know that this is a world and there can be many lily's in this world... not only the one who destroyed my love...while eating the food itself a drop of tear fell from eye down on my hand
shivay's POV
i saw that a drop fell from her eye..i was sad that our past was haunting our present to such an extent and we really can not clear out things right now...i was feeling guilty..very guilty...
'ohooo papa,mumma ne khana shuru kiya toh apna chod diya!! not fair' riya spoke it in her awww sooo cute voice
i couldn't resist but smilled on the way she spoke it!!
i really had tears in my eyes at that moment because of a continuous thought that i was affecting my daughter's life and wife's heart very badly..i don't really know why but anika too was having tears in her eyes right at that moment... we both looked at each other and those tears which weren't blinked down till the moment blinked down our eyes at the same moment
i was looking in her eyes and she was looking in mines.. just then i heard a deep sigh from riya
she stood up on her chair and with her soft hands wiped our tears
"mujhe nahin pata ki aap dono kyu cry babies ban gaye ho these days but i want to say something"
she went down and turned anika to her anika bent on her knees and made her level with riya..
riya held her hands and then pulled me with her one hand and made me sit down too..
she held my hands and placed them over anika's hands
"mumma before few days maine aapko sirf photos mein dekha tha mai aapke baare mein bas utna hi janti hoon jitna papa ne mujhe bataya hai but jo bhi ho all i know is that i cant see you both cry... mumma aapko pata hai papa aapse kitna pyaar karte hai... i guess aap nahin janti"
i saw a stiff expression of anika as she heard all this from riya as riya was only the one who would not speak lie
"sry..I know mujhe ye nahin bolna chahiye that but kya karu mai..I can't see my bade bade parents cry in front of me"
I could see anika trying her level best to avoid those tears which were right in her eyes just waiting her eye lids to shut down once..but not able to avoid for long those tears started flowing down her cheeks...watching her in that condition my eyes too fell once again even they were filled with tears...she was watching me and I was watching her...we were ummm..maybe just trying to feel what kind of pain the other was feeling just then I felt a tear drop on my hand did I...yes I really did forgot that at the moment someone else was present in the room too!!
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Edited by vidhu1 - 8 years ago
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