My dearest Navin,
First and foremost, my sincerest apologies for getting back to your stories so late. I've been caught up with sorting out a million and three things in my world and they have been keeping me from getting back to the Ishqbaaz world. And since I am a huge fan of your work, I didn't want to leave an absent minded half-assed comment and therefore I took my sweet time getting back to you.
But, finally, I'm here now so prepare yourself for a long, long, long, long, looonnnggg rant! Let's get on with it, shall we?
I'll start with your Pinky Singh Oberoi first. Well done, my friend! Do you have any idea what you did there? You took the current un-understandable butterfly that is Pinky Singh Oberoi from the show and turned her human. You gave her shades that are not light but so grey that they are borderline black but still understandable. You made her angry, sad, heartbroken, a little pathetic, a lot lost and selfish. But, *drum roll please* understandably so.
It's so hard to move away from broken dreams, isn't it? Especially a thirty-year dream. And isn't that exactly what this sad little woman is going through? For Tia wasn't just her sons baby mama, she was also a golden ticket for Pinky. And I believe the way she is feeling is exactly the way Charlie would feel if he was told at the gates of Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory that his golden ticket was a fluke. Bitter. And yes, that bitterness is not about to go away anytime soon.
But then, can we fault her for feeling this way? Not every person is introspective, after all, so can we really fault her for blaming the trees for the rain? We understand that she isn't right. We also know that she is most definitely wrong. But how do you be angry at someone who is so understandably wrong? One cannot be only angry or mad at someone when you finally begin to understand the cause of their selfishness.
And you, my friend, made me do just that. You made me feel both, sympathy for her as well as anger at her stubborn resilience to continue to see the trees for the woods. For habits of a lifetime die hard and we all need someone to blame for our follies. So why should Pinky be any different?
And now lets move the second gem. That one, I swear to you, left me speechless. Your Anika broke my heart and made me feel proud at the same time, exactly the way your Shivaay made me angry and sad.
Honestly though, at this point in time, I don't much care about Shivaay and I just want my girl back. I want my quietly proud, dignified, unapologetic little lioness back and I want her to snap out of this terrible lovesick haze she seems to be in.
Ultimately, Anika's conundrum is this: what does one do when the person you love is not good for you? Good at a progressive human level I mean. What do you do when the supposed love of your life is so twisted that he brings out in you all the terrible things that you never thought you were capable of? What do you do when love makes you lose sight of your own soul and personality? If you are an introspective human being, someone who is constantly striving everyday to become a better version of herself, then you simply pack your bags and walk out. Because you understand that holding on to yourself and not letting go of your dignity in the name of love is not selfishness. It's a basic human right and its yours for the taking. Love without honor, without respect, is it really worth it? Sure, it will kill you a little. It will hurt to step away from the one you love. But isn't dying once better than being massacred to death every single day for the rest of your life?
And for me, this is the only way this love story can be redeemed.
Because there is a difference in being loved for yourself and being loved for a loved one. And at this point in time, nobody - and I mean NOBODY - in that stupid Oberoi Mansion loves Anika for herself. Dadi, Prinku, Rudra, Om, Jhanvi and Shakti - they all care for her because of what she can do to and for Shivaay. They want her to stay not because they are good for her but because she is good for their beloved Billu. (And though I know this is never going to happen on the show, I wish Anika would take all these people by the collar and ask them these questions! Especially her beloved Dadi!)
As for Shivaay - that man wants to bake his cake, keep it and eat it too. What they have is not a relationship, its psychological abuse, really. And in a lot of cases, this Shivaay is worse than Tej for me! Anika was his obsession but now she is his obligation and that is ten times worse.
To hide from his true feelings, he will play the responsibility trump card and keep her tied to him but he will never ever give her the respect or the authority that her position deserves. He will be her husband but she will be forever be the charity-case wife he didn't deserve and not a day will go by when he doesn't remind her of that. For Shivaay, this is like the best of both worlds. He gets to keep the girl as well as stand by his NKK believes. But you see, its not just the girl he wants. He wants her undying love, her submission and attention. And he also wants her to be grateful for not being loved the way she deserves to be loved. And if Anika stays, he will never realize it either.
And yes, you made me feel all of that and I both love and hate you for it because now I won't be able to sleep from the pain of this. And so you only have yourself to blame for what I'm going to say right now. I'm going to break my own rules and make a request to a fellow writer - something that I never do because I believe in artistic freedom. But I can't help it and like I said you only have yourself to blame.
So here is my humble request: Please Make Anika Leave.
Make her pack her bags and walk out without a backward glance. Make her choose herself. Make her stand up for herself because its abundantly clear by now that nobody in that godforsaken house will ever do that for her.
My humble request to you, my friend, is to give me my Anika back because you are the only one who can for GK seems to be absolutely incapable of doing so.
Love,
A.C.
Edited by A.C. - 8 years ago
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